Wednesday, January 5, 2005

   I almost got frostbite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hola!...I ALMOST GOT FREAKING FROSTBITE!!! on my legs...god was I stupid!walking home at like -32 but with the windsheld -43! I'm stupid! so very stupid! I aint never walking home again til its nice and I mean warm hot summer time nice!I'm stupid I'm so very stupid! dont you think I was very stupid and am stupid? Well anyways you guys didnt read the poem I put up before the really long ones so I'm going to up it up now...
-Love You No Matter What-

When ever I see you.You make my heart stop
You think that you are not loved by anyone.
But you dont know that I love you with
All my heart and more.and you cant stop
Me from loving you if you want to.

There were many times that
You haved loved someone but
They didnt love you back.
You have been hurt by that
Many times. However with
Me you dont have to worry
Because I will love you no matter
What. No matter what you have done
Or what you will do.

You will always be in my heart
Even if I am not with you.
But I will always hope that I
Am, but it is not up for me
To decided, it is up for you to.
You shall pick love or to be alone.
I hope that you pick love.

There were so many days that I
Know that you couldn't take it
Anymore. and there will always be
But I hope that you will be with me
When those days come and not alone
Or not here at all. You mean to much to me
I dont want to lose you even if we are not
Together, at least we can be friends.
Maybe some day lovers and you can
Finally whisper the words.

You can finally whisper the words
That I know that you wanted to say
For a long time but you didn't want
To get hurt.When you finally whisper
Those words I won't let go of you.
I love you to much to let go.
Like I know you love me


I hope you guys like it. This poem is for someone that means a lot to me. This poem has a real meaning to it, I mean there is a stroy behind it but I wont say it. Well have to go, Adios! Love yas all. Love you Raven(aint going to get used to that either.lol)Love you lots.
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Tuesday, January 4, 2005

   These are the Poem's that I did. Some are old some are new.
I thought that I would just put all my poems up..well most of them..some are to personally to put up. well here we go... the name of the poems are in the - things. I hope you guys like them.

-Hate?-
Why hate?
Hate is bad
You should LOVE
Besides of Hate
Never brake-up
With me because it
Will hurt is
Like hate is oppsite of
Love thats you
Should have hate is
Oppsite of
What you should have
You should have
LOVE.


-Love-
Love is forever
He should always
Love you always
Have fun with
Eachother
Be together when you
Can, Love is anything
Love is meaningful
Love is graceful
Love is happy
Love is sad
Love is mad
Love can be anything
you want it to be.
Love is forever.

-SAD?-
Why do I feel like he hates
me?What did I
do?What went wrong?Why do
I feel so.. ALONE.
for the first time in my
Life?Why? Why do I feel
sooo Alone? Does he hate me
and not love me anymore?
why?I feel like Crying
but I never cry..
ever..if he doesnt
love me anymore
then why should I start crying?
Why do I feel Alone?
Why should I feel sad?
I shall not be Sad!Its his fault
he doesnt love me.

-Darkness-
Darkness so dark dont know
What to do can't breath
Help me someone help Me please!
It's dark,I want to see
Again, Why won't you let
Me see? I dont like this
Kind of Darkness. I can't hear anything,

I can't see,I can't smell But I smell this bad smell
Darkness! So Dark! I want to see please!
Can't Breath, can't anything
Please help me! I need your help
Come please!The darkness!It's to drak
Darkness Please come help me!
So dark I dont know what
to do.I can't breath Help me please,Someone
Help me please!I want to See the world,I wanna see
You again..Please don't leave me here!

So dark,to much Darkness I can't breath, or smell
Or touch. All I feel is nothingness
Darkness It's scarying me!Please
Don't leave me here I dont want
To go away from You...I want to
See him!Please let me stay
With my friends..so dark.

I want to see. Can't breath,Please help me
Please someone help me! I smell something bad.
The Darkness is to close to me
Please help me... DARKNESS

-Death?/Why life?-
Whats the point of life? Why
Can't I just Die now
Right now? Would anyone
Care?why? why? Can't I just go
And kill Myself right now?
I could if I Wanted to...
I do..but would Anyone care that
I did that to Myself?
Whats the point Of living if you
Just die later? Why can't I just
Make it go Faster for me
And kill myself now?
Whats the point?...

-Shell-
You see me But you don't Really see me You just see
My corps... My shell,but You don't see How I feel
Or anything else I want you to
See me for Who I am, not For what my Corps or shell

Looks like... You only see My shell, corps..Not my feelings
Or anything Thats is important To me..Why Not?You just
Want to see My shell... You never want to Know how I feel
Why not?You don't Want to know the
Real me... You just want to Know my shell, my safety
Person.You never see me Never know how I Really feel,You
Always think I'm Happy or anything

Just not mad or sad You see me as you want
To see me.Not as I am. You only see my shell
My safety corps. You never see me as
I am..You only See my shell Not my real person Only my...
Shell.

-Sleep-
The Darkness I dont want
To wake up I want to stay
Here and sleep Forever!Please
Dont bug me Let me sleep

Let me Rest in peace The Darkness is
Finally my friend I want to stay here
Forever... No more happyness
No more sadness No more anything
I dont want To wake-up...

The Darkness... Please let me sleep
I must not go away The darkness
Is my friend Sleep is good
Let me sleep forever Please I dont want to
Wake-up..Let me sleep.. The darkness is my
Best friend I dont want to see
Anyone or hear anyone.. Let me sleep..
Forever... It is nice...
Sleep

-Voice-
Hear the voice's Of all the poeple
I cant...All I see Is the mouth of them
Moving but no sound Is coming out...
Have I gone deaf?...No Then why can't I hear
Them talk?...I hear everything
Else..Is what they saying bad? Why can't I hear them talk

I want to hear the voice's Of the other people again
Even if they are saying something
Bad...Please let me hear them talk
Please..I'll do anything To just hear something
Other then this Nothingness This is scary...Soft sound
Of everythingelse but The voice's...it's scary

Because I dont know what they
Are saying...All I see is the Mouths moving but no sound..
Please let me hear.. Have I gone deaf?
No I hear Everything else but the voice's
Of the people.. Please let me hear..
The voice's...Please I must hear something
Else but this sound of Softness...Please must hear
The voice..I can't hear... Anything but this
The Voice.

-Hear/Soft Music-
I hear music Soft music but it's
To far away, I can't hear all
Of it,It's a song I like,
I'm running to it,I can't see Anything.
Darkness.why?No I want to stay Here i want to listen to the soft
Music all the time Please dont take me away from him
And the soft music, Soft music.Darkness

I want to hear the music Please let me hear it.
I want to stay..Darkness The smell, the felling...
I want to smell flowers not this
I want to feel something...not this
Please let me stay here... I want to hear the soft music
Darkness, let me live... I dont want to go away.
Music so soft... So nice...I want to
Listen to it all the time... Please let me...don't want to
Leave him... Darkness...So dark
I want to see again I want to hear,I want to feel

Please let me stay here! Help me someone
Will you help me? No one would help me...
I'm to lost... I want the soft music
I want to hear I want to feel something
Other then this Darkness Please help me?!
I want to hear the Soft music...Darkness...
SOFT MUSIC.

-Tears/Falling-

Tears are falling all because of me
All cause I wannted to do something that
Everyone said was wrong to do...but
I just wanted to know what it was
Like. I'm sorry everyone
Sorry that I did what I did
I have to go now..I'm sorry
That I did what I did.
The ground is so close to me.
Its falling on me.

The Darkness that I was trying
To fight has finally beat me.
Good-bye eveyone..I'm
Sorry for what I did.
I'm sorry for what I did to you
For making you all sad....
There are to many tears falling
On my face, its cleaning my face of
All the stuff they had put on me.
Its making me feel more sadder

I cant say Godd-bye to anyone
That I love. All I can do is think it
I"m sorry to everyone. To my mom.
To my brothers, my best friends.
To my boyfriend.I'm sorry.
Tears are falling from my eyes.
I'm sorry but I have to go now.
To a better place maybe.

I'm sorry I've ever tried
That thing. The tears are falling
Its to much. The Darkness is coming
All around me. The ground is falling on
My face. Good-bye everyone
Tears will fall for a while...
Falling Tears.


-Would You Love Me For Who I Am?-

Would you love me for
Who I am? Would you ever
Try to change me? Or would
You just love me as I am?
Would you hate the way I look?
Or would you not care?Would
You try to change my style or
Anything?Or would you just let
Me have my own style or anything?
Would you love me for me?
Would you be happy with me?

Would you care if I act more like
A guy then a girl? Would you care
At all about me? Would you love me
For who I am not for what I am?
Would you love me for who I am?
Would you kiss me and not be scared?
Cause it is my first kiss? Would you
Love me for how I am? Or would you love
Me for how I act?Would you even care
About how I act around you or other people?
Would you care about how I am to other people?

Would you love me for who I am?
I hope that you do cause I have been waiting
A long time for you, Just so you can
Love me for who I am. But
Would you love me for who I am?

-Should Be?-

Why am I near the sidelines?
When everyone else is having
Fun? Why am I in the Dark?
And no one else is? Why am I
The only one not having fun?
Is it cause I dont want to?
Or is it cause this is where
I should be and not having
Fun?Where should I be?
Should I be having fun
Or staying in the dark?

I want to have fun but
I cant seem to get away
From the dark. Could you help
Me? I feel so alone...even
When I am not alone. Where
Should I be?Should it be on the
Sidelines or having fun?
Where should I be?

I dont know, I wanna have fun but
I cant seem to get away from the
Dark!Where should I be? With
Other people and be alone, or
Be by myself and be alone but at peace?
I dont know, Where should I be?
Should I be with someone that I love
Very much, but they dont, or be alone
And not care?Where should I be?

Why am I even here?Do you know?
Where should I be?Sidelines or fun?
What one?I dont know.All I know is that
The Dark is all around me and I dont like
It as much as I did before...should I be alone?
Where should I be? or what should I be?
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Monday, January 3, 2005

   just telling ya
Hola! ¿como estas? bien? well I'm just posting to say that I am going to post all of my poems that I did before and the ones that I just did in one looooooooong post..lol...well hope you like my poems if not oh well. adios! love yas all! love you to James.
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   I'll be posting more poems maybe.
like it says up there. I may post more poems even if they are shitty. but whatever. I didnt go to school today!..lol it was to cold! anyways..I hope you guys like the poem..if not oh well its up to you to like it or not. well Adios! love yas all. love you too James.
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   this is a very shitty poem(well I think it is)that I did.
-Love You No Matter What-

When ever I see you.You make my heart stop
You think that you are not loved by anyone.
But you dont know that I love you with
All my heart and more.and you cant stop
Me from loving you if you want to.

There were many times that
You haved loved someone but
They didnt love you back.
You have been hurt by that
Many times. However with
Me you dont have to worry
Because I will love you no matter
What. No matter what you have done
Or what you will do.

You will always be in my heart
Even if I am not with you.
But I will always hope that I
Am, but it is not up for me
To decided, it is up for you to.
You shall pick love or to be alone.
I hope that you pick love.

There were so many days that I
Know that you couldn't take it
Anymore. and there will always be
But I hope that you will be with me
When those days come and not alone
Or not here at all. You mean to much to me
I dont want to lose you even if we are not
Together, at least we can be friends.
Maybe some day lovers and you can
Finally whisper the words.

You can finally whisper the words
That I know that you wanted to say
For a long time but you didn't want
To get hurt.When you finally whisper
Those words I won't let go of you.
I love you to much to let go.
Like I know you love me
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Saturday, January 1, 2005

   Hola!
HOLA! ¿como estas? bien muy bien. How was your New years thing? I'm was meh...it was ok but anyways...I'm not going to write a lot cause I'm to tired to and I dont have anything to write about. Anyways...ummm..what to write about....umm...yes...I'm just going to go now cause I have nothing to right now..lol. byes! adios! love yas all!
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Friday, December 31, 2004

   HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! AND HOPE ITS A GOOD ONE TOO! I LOVE YAS ALL!have a good time!Adios!
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   think so? well I say hellz yes!
Take the quiz: "What is your inner Demon?"

Shadow of Hell
ever get the feeling you're being watched? the hairs prickling on the back of your neck? well this is the reason. the shadow of hell makes a person feel dire uncomfort, unseen and extremely sneaky. you need more friends if you got this result...
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Thursday, December 30, 2004

today
I dont know what to write cause I just woke up about an hour or so ago. and its like night time..but anyways..how are you guys?..did you guys like that poem?..well I better find something to do before I fall asleep cause I'm still tired. anyways..byes! adios! love yas all!
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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

A Thousand Days by me Rae-san
-A thousand Days-

I have waited a thousand days
Just for you. I couldn't take it
So many times, but I knew you
Were waiting for me out there,
So I decided to wait for you.

There was a thousand days
That I didn't know if you
Were really waiting for me.
A thousand days have I
Tired to take a knife but as
I got close, I thought of you.

Now a thousand days has passed
And you are finally done waiting
For me. You decided to finally to
Love me. You whisper the words that I
Have been waiting for so long. I whisper
Them back and I mean it with all my heart.
I whisper "I love you".
You whisper them back.
We finally kiss for the first time..
You make me feel so happy
and I am finally ready to
Live a life. This all for a thousand days
Waiting. I'm happy that I did.

tell me if ya like it or not. g2g byes adios! love yas all!..Really love the person that this is for. Love yas.
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