Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Licence!

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! I got my learner's licence today!!!!! XD I can now drive with a licenced driver sitting next to me! YAY!!!!! I know, I know. I'm 20years old, so about time, right? Guess what? I don't care! Coz I got my licence! XD It was a written test. I got 100%!!!!! The first person I told (other than my mum, who was there with me) was my ex. (I'm such a loser) I sent him a text message at 3pm (which was as soon as I had my licence in my hand). It's 12:30am, and I still haven't heard from him. Thanks alot, I thought you were my friend! (I'm an even bigger loser than I first thought) My mum's reaction was: XD My dad's reaction was: So does that mean you passed the test? Me:... No dad, they only give licences to those that failed the test... -_-' On Jaguar's post today, she mentioned that she had a serious car accident. I'm really scared now. Not just becouse of Jaguar's accident, but other reasons too. (I'll write about some other time. It's too long, and I'm sleepy) I hope your leg recovers soon, Jaguar! On my last post, Luna was wearing my pyjamas. Dragon Rider22, it's not my time of the month. ^^' Although, it would make a lot of sense... Here's another pic of Luna. Q: Where do you think she is? Clue: She's not looking at the camera, coz she hates the flash. ^^' Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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Sunday, February 18, 2007

Sorry ^^'

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! Sorry that I haven't posted in like 5 days. ^^' (Holly crap! Has it been that long!?) Nothing to write about... Continuing from my last post, I've been an emotional yo-yo. One minute, I'm happy. The next minute, I'm completely depressed. And I have bursts of anger in between. (If you read my last post, you'll probably understand why.) Here's another pic of my cat, Luna. Q: What do you think she's wearing? ^.~ Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Valentines Day

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! I'm in a bit of a bad mood today. T.T Alone on Valentines Day, and I couldn't get the class time I wanted (I wanted Tuesday, but ended up getting Wednesday). For some reason, I'm posting the reasons my bf broke up with me. We were fine at X'mas, but then New Years came and he's like "I don't know if I love you anymore." Here are the reasons: 1. At the beginning of the relationship, I once doubted his reasons for being with me. This is coz he once said that he “realised” that he liked me on the drive home after he saw me on the 17th of September. This struck me as strange and confusing coz that was the day we started dating, and coz he also told me that he liked me from the very first time he saw me. (Later when I asked him about this, he said that he was “interested” in me the first time he saw me.) He’s saying that he’s still hurt by me questioning him. 2. The first time he said that he loves me, I couldn’t hear him properly, so I asked him to say whatever it was again. He’s saying that he’s still hurt by this. (“Scarred for life” are the words he used) What happened was, he was getting into his car and was about to leave. The car door was falling on us, and I was distracted by it. He whispered, so I couldn’t hear. I kind of had a vague idea to what he had said, but I wanted to make sure that I wasn’t imagining it or anything. I mean, how stupid would it have been, if I had said “I love you too” when he hadn’t said anything? 3. We live quite far from each other. About 45 minutes by drive. So we couldn’t spend time together as much as we’d liked. And coz I’m an only child, and this being my first relationship, my parents were always worried and protective. He said that he didn’t like this. He wanted to spend more quality time alone with me. But coz we couldn’t, he said that his love for me died out. And for no reason, here's pic of my cat, Luna, wearing a paper boat on her head: I'm a bit busy at the moment, so I'll come by and visit everyone's site later tonight. Sorry about that. ^^' EDIT: Sorry everyone. I'm on edge coz it's exactly 1 month since I got dumped. T.T And I wrote this on the 14th! Not the 13th! Why does it say 13!? AAAAAHHHHH!!!!! Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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Monday, February 12, 2007

Silence please! I'm sleeping!

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! I did get a good sleep last night. (it's 12:30am, but it still counts as "last night" right? ^^') But I did get a rude awakening. You see, my dad started attending college again, and he was up at around 7am. And he's running around the house getting ready. Putting the dishes away, really roughly that I wouldn't be surprised if he broke a plate or two, and it's not even his job to do that. We have a sunroom (which is pretty small) which my dad uses as his office. Unfortunately, you have to go through my room to get there, and all of his college stuff's in that room. So he's running in and out of my room getting ready. And there's a closet in my room with his books in it, wich also has plastic bags in it (he uses them to protect his canvases). It was raining today, so he's going through his plastic bags to find the right one, right next to my pillow! HE WAS SO LOUD! And he slammed the door shut as he left the house! I was so sleepy that I couldn't even get up to tell him off, so I just buried myself under my pillow. T.T I feel sorry for mum too, coz he was slamming the wardobe shut, which is in their room. If his mother was here (she comes sometimes and stays with us, when she comes from Japan), he would be as quiet as a mouse! Am I not allowed to get some proper sleep!? I honestly can't remember the last time I slept properly. T.T My aunt was feeling a bit under the weather, so mum and I went to see her. We first went to the doctor's to pick her up. And my ex's friend was there working! I didn't know that she worked there! I didn't say much to her, coz my mum and aunt were there, but I talked to her a bit when we were leaving and my mum and aunt went ahead of me to buy the medicine. She was nice to me, and obviously concerned coz I said that I wasn't doing that good. She said that my ex hurt his knee (he had told me that he had hurt it, but that it wasn't a big deal). But she said that it's pretty bad, so I'm really worried now. She asked if I had MSN, and she said that she'll get it off my ex when she talks to him. I told her that I'm not going to be on MSN, coz it hurt me everytime I go on. But now, I REALLY WANT TO GO ON! I want to know if he's ok. And, I REALLY MISS MSN!!!!! T.T Oh and I bet that my ex hasn't even noticed that I'm not on MSN. She said that she'll say hi to him for me. I think I'll go back on MSN in March, and see how it goes. PS. Fortuna Jewels, your PM Inbox's full. I couldn't send you a reply to your last PM. I'm sorry. T.T Maybe if I had sent it earlier... PS. I found out that my aunt's a nice person when she's not feeling well. ^^' PS. "Pan's Labyrinth" was nominated for some BAFTAs. I don't want to ruin it for anyone, so I'm not telling which ones, and if it won anything. ^^ And there was a thread on it over at OB, if anyone's interested. The movie was good, and if there's a sequel, I'll definately watch it. Has anyone else seen a good movie recently? Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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Sunday, February 11, 2007

Stitches and Crafts Show

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! Today, while I was asleep (12pm), my aunt called. It was about going to the Stitches and Crafts Show. As soon as my mum told me that, I got up and got ready to go in 20mins! (That's a new record for me. ^^) As the name suggests, it's a crafts' expo. (Lots and lots of old ladies with kids that didn't want to be there ^^') It was so much fun. I've been wanting to go to that show for a few years, but school homework and stuff always got in the way. T.T There were lots of stalls! Embroidery, sewing machines, applique, paper craft, tatting, knitting, beads, books on crafts, teady bears, dolls... All these craft stuff! XD I got this tatting stuff, and am now teaching myself how to do tatting. Tatting's making laces by making knots. It's harder than it looks. But it's fun! And it's a new hobby for me to keep my mind away from the negative thoughts. And there's this tatting club kind of thing that I can go to if I want. I'm not sure if I'll go though, since university's starting soon, and I'll be busy. T.T The ladies there were so nice, and I was looking forward to learning things from them... (How childish is my writing today!?) I was first thinking that it wasn't going to be a good day. My aunt's a total bitch to me and my mum. But she was good today. Happy. She ususally loves to find fault in me and my parents. But not today. I was actually surprised. We then went to watch a movie. We saw "Pan's Labyrinth". It was a good movie. Gruesome at times, but still, a good movie. And it had a really good ending. It would've been nice if it was a dub, and not a subtitle. It was in Spanish, and there's nothing wrong with that. It's just that I don't know Spanish, and during the gruesome parts, I had my eyes closed. And the characters keep talking, and I have no idea what they're saying. And when I had my eyes closed, I could hear more than I wanted to. For example, I was hearing the neelde pierce the skin (the guy was stitching his own wound. Kind of like poking a neelde into paper. Not quite a pop, but more like a pip. Writing out the bad things in my life's really helped. Just read this post! And the sentence "I had so much fun". I would've thought that saying something like that was impossible for me. I'm not going to write any bad stuff today. I don't want to ruin my good mood. I actually think that I'll get a good night's sleep. ^^ I just hope that I won't be hearing any pips in my dream. ^^' Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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Friday, February 9, 2007

Better already

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! As the title suggest, I'm feeling alot better today. ^^ I haven't been on MSN, which was a very hard thing to do yesterday. I've been on MSN for pretty much everyday for the past 6 months, so it's hard breaking that routine. I worte a bit of my problems down. And it's made me feel better. Not good, but better. Does anyone know what happened to one of my friend from here on myO? Her user name's Fortuna Jewels. Whenever I try to access her site, it says: "The user profile you were trying to access is currently turned off." And her name's not on my riends list anymore. T.T Does everyone know of what's happening with theO and AnimeFF? It's a huge shock that something like that would happen. Adam's written alot of stuff about it on theO, so if anyone doesn't know what I'm talking about, you go and have a look. It might be easier if I just wrote it now, but it would just be second-hand information, which would be biased (since I think that AnimeFF should get breast cancer and suffer). Really simply, AnimeFF had an anime convention, supposedly for breast cancer research, and stole alot of money. That's it from me today. I still haven't made up mind whether or not I should post the things I've written about my problems. I do apologise to everyone about how I've been depressed lately. I wish I could post more uplifting things. But I'm not in an emotional state to do so. I'm sorry. m(-_-)m Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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Wednesday, February 7, 2007

Goodbye to MSN for now

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! On my previous post, I said that I've been home alot. So, I haven't been using much energy. I've now become kind of an insomniac. I go to bed at 2am, for example, but I'm awake for over 1 hour. Just lying in bed, in the dark. The human mind is really scary in that kind of situation. I've been thinking alot, and the more I think, the less sleepy I get. Last night (this morning, or whatever it is) I went to bed at 1am, but I only fell asleep at about 4am. So what have I been thinking about? Well, lots of things. And last night (this morning) at 2:30am, I decided that I really need a break from everything. But mostly from MSN, coz that's where I talk to my ex (or wait 10~30 mins for a single line reply, but that's if I get a reply, which ever way you put it). Yes, unfortunately, it all comes back to him again. My mind says "get over him!" but my heart's another story. My heart's like Humpty Dumpty, all broken with no way to put it back together. A rebound relationship might work, but I think that it's really unfair for the rebound guy. So I lie in bed, thinking about how worthless I feel, and how I failed at making him happy, then I start to think about all the shitty moments in my life. Then I cry, fall asleep, have a nightmare and wake up at 9am. Then I think "fuck this" and go back to sleep. Then mum pulls me out of bed at 1am. There's just so much bottled up inside of me, that I want to sort out. I don't want those things inside of me anymore! I had enough! Problems with my parents. Problems with other family members. Personal problems. Health problems. Losing my bf. Feeling worthless. I want those things out of my head! And I think that the only way I'm going to do that is to write them all out properly. So do I need a break from the internet, so that I have more time to concentrate on myself? I honestly don't know. I know that I don't have any privacy in my own room, so I'll have to write things out on the computer, and make it so that only the person with a password (ie me) will be able to access it. But in order to do that, I have to pretend like I'm on the net(coz if I'm not on the net, my mum would be constantly asking about what I'm doing). Then I'll definately end up back here. So I guess I'll just stay away from MSN. And I probably won'y post for a while too (not that I posted everyday...). I should warn everyone that I'll be in a really dark mood for a while. I just don't want to pretend like I'm happy anymore. I have to pretend in real life, and I just want an escape from that. But I meant everything cheerful I said on comments. I just didn't have a smile on my face when I wrote them. I don't know if I'll post what I write down. I'll decide on that later. But if I don post it, it'll probably be extremely long. I've just been keeping things inside for so long. 20 long years (wait, when I was 1 year old??? anyway...) I'm also trying to decide whether or not I should let my friends on MSN know the reason I'll be leaving them for a while. nly 2 of them know the url for this blog. One's my ex, but he doesn't remember the url. I think he just doesn't care about me anymore, even though he says that he does. Anyway, I'm starting to cry now, so I'm going. It's also 1:30am, so I should go to bed... Oh and don't worry, I won't do anything stupid. I may be depressed, but I'm still sane (for the most part). Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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Saturday, February 3, 2007

At Home

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! I would like to be able to post more often. But honestly, my life's not that interesting. ^^' I mean, when was the last time I went out? By the way, I'm not counting going going out with mum, religion related stuff or work. Hm... I would have to say the 14th of January. That's the day my bou friend broke up with me at the park. Before that was X'mas day. I spent time with my family, then went to the park with my bf and his friends. Before that was dates with my bf... About once a week? When was the last time I met my friends? Um... I can't remember the exact date, but it was end of October or beginning of November. The day we had our final exam... So what am I doing with my time? Well, I wake up at 1pm, for one thing. Then spend my day watching TV, reading something or helping mum in the kitchen. Mum tries to come up with new things to do in the kitchen, so that I won't get bored. I also do some exercises. But I can't do much of those since I twisted my ankle (I can't remember when I did that). ^^' I go on the net after 11pm. That's coz my dad's always on the computer, so I only get a turn after he's finished. Then I go to bed at around 2~3am. So why don't I go to uni? That's coz I'm still on summer holidays. I've been on holidays since, well, my final exam when I saw my friends... Seriously! This holiday's way too long! I'm so bored, I need to go back to uni. And the new year starts on the 26th of this month. Still a long way to go... And I can feel my brain power decreasing... I should go and study tomorrow. My life is so empty. The only time I have fun is on the net or when I'm reading something... Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Choices & Sacrifices

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! Today (sorry, I mean last night, since it's 2am now ^^') was the Australian premier of Heroes and Prison Break-On The Run. XD BUT last night was also the day they show Medium's movie length episode! T.T On the same time! On different channles! ToT How could TV do that to me!? I've been so loyal! How can it betray me like this!? I decided to sacrifice Medium. T.T They show it on another channel on different times (but they only show all the episodes I saw last year, so none of the new ones). I'll just keep watching the re-runs, until they show the movie length one. Heroes was awesome!!!!! XD But TV betrayed me again! At the end of Heroes, it said: "If you have missed tonight's action of Heroes, you can see the encore presentation at 10:30pm, Tuesday night." ... WTF!? So I could've watched the beginning of Medium!? Prison Break was awesome too! XD (For some reason, "awesome" has become my word-of-the-day) They didn't say anything about an encore presentation, but I'm pretty sure that they will do it. Oh! And last night, I mean 2 nights ago ^^', I saw the new season on 24. But I'm not sure if I missed any of the episodes, coz once again, the TV didn't show any commercials about it. T.T I always miss some episodes on season return, coz they forget to do the commercials. T.T And next week, they're showing new episodes of House! Yay! It's starting from after House got shot. Australia's a bit behind than the US, so you guys have probably seen all the ones I've mentioned. T.T It's not fair! Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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Thursday, January 25, 2007

Samurai X

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Introduction Powered by eSnips.com Warning: The player starts with its maximum volume. So please be careful. Open Heart! Ok, um, I still don't know what unit to choose for my elective... But I'll try and deal with that... A few days ago, I realised that they're showing Samurai X on Australian TV... WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME!? Anyway, how crap's the dub!? The female voices are deeper than the male voices. And that horrible translation! Makers of the dub, what the hell were you thinking!? But still, it is one of my most favourite anime. So I'll (try to) endure... Maybe I'll push "MUTE" the next time I watch it... Was anyone actually able to watch the whole episode without covering their ears, just so that you won't hear the dub? Or is it just me, because I've seen/heard the original? I know that I shouldn't compare it to the original. So I do appologise for that. But either way, I think the dub could do alot better. Credits Shugo Chara! © Peach-Pit Site hosted by myotaku.com Layout edited by Master Hiko Layout's base by 311

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