Sunday, May 8, 2005

Ed! If you lose this I'll kick your ass!
This quote is from Winry's, the best mechanic in the world. xD

Hmm...I can't believe it's already Sunday! Somehow I'm getting really nervous about having to sit next to Evan again... >_<;;;

Umm...I don't really have much to say since there's no school today...so I'll give a little review on yesterday's FMA episode:

It was pretty funny I thought, but Paninya was a lot more spunkier/annoying in the manga (which is why I don't like her >_>). In the manga she actually did try to steal Ed's watch and sell it off to someone. XD

The arm wrestling match was hilarious, especially when the con man was like, "Hmm, no. I couldn't possibly ask a shrimp like that to compete."
Then Ed started spazzing out and Al had to hold him back so he wouldn't attack anyone. xD

I think this episode expressed a lot of emotion, especially on Winry's part; I felt sorry for her when she found out Ed was cheating with alchemy...but it's not like the opponent was fair either. :\

It really sucks that they're not gonna have anymore new episodes for two whole months. Now I'll have to wait forever for Izumi to beat the crap out of Ed and Al. T_T

Although Ed's reaction to seeing Sig appear was priceless. xD

Umm...I don't have anything else to talk about. Man...I guess I'll just have to work on the next chapter of Aikou no Tsubasa...

Okay then...well...later...
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Friday, May 6, 2005

Because the world is not perfect, that's what makes it so beautiful.
I had a great day today! ^_____^

I'm sorry for complaining so much yesterday, minna-san! I didn't think I'd have a good time sitting next to Evan but I was wrong! I felt a lot better than before, when I was feeling really nervous about having to sit next to him. It went...pretty well...even if he did just talk to me two times... ^^;

And I looked directly at his face...TWICE TODAY...uh...I don't feel so good anymore...

During PE, Michiyo was telling a story (while we were playing wall ball) and then I just realized someone was behind me, and when I turned around I looked directly at Evan. @_@;;;

I guess he could tell we were all confused about why he walked into our court, so he just said, "Because I want to play." His smile looked really goofy to me, cause I had never looked at him up close before. And he has braces. *sweat-drop*
Still, he's soooo totally kawaii!!! X3

Well, I found out Evan wasn't at this school last year...no wonder I never noticed him....

I'm in such a good mood! ^_____^

I didn't think History would go well at all, but in the end everything went way better than expected! I can't stop smiling. ^____^

Umm....what else? Oh yeah...I just realized the idiot at my school Rika is a complete poser. She says she's "evil" and that if I think I'm as evil as her, then I'm wrong. Yes, I know I'm not "evil" and from the way she acts I'm glad I'm not as "evil as her". :D

Jeez, I thought people who go around screaming, "I'M GOTHICLOLZ!!!111" were bad, but Rika is a walking example of a poser. >_>

I read a really good post today about stereotypes, so that's why I brought up the matter...plus I wanted something to talk about...I think I really am gothic after all. I just wanted to read that thread cause I was still a bit confused about being a punk and whatever, but...uh...heh... o_o;;

Evan is so cute when he smiles! Sorry, I just had to say that. xD

Okay, well...umm...the quote I used today was said by the Flame Alchemist, Roy Mustang! *clap* Um, yay. xD

Ack...I just remembered...Michiyo told me to ask Evan out...but I just can't do that! And now she's going to "hook Evan up with me", or at least she said something like that...man....I should have watched her more closely...when we were walking to 6th period...she said, "I'll wait for him outside the class."

SHE REALLY DID STOP IN FRONT OF THE DOOR.

I don't know if she got the chance to ask him or not, but I hope...I'm not sure, actually...one part of me is saying, "Thank you! Thank you!" while the other part is saying, "No!! Don't ask him!!! Please!!!!!"

I'm not really sure which side to go on. Well, I hope something works out...I'm just feeling really nervous... >_<;;

I don't know how Evan would take it...I don't want him to deal with anything too...uh...problematic...he should stay carefree and happy, cause that's when he's the cutest! xD

Oh man...I think I'm getting too optomistic again...I think it's okay now, though. As long as I can get better at expressing my emotions...then I'm fine with anything. ^_^

Dude, I could totally turn my life into a shoujo manga or something. xD

Later then~
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Thursday, May 5, 2005

There are always things like that. Things more important than yourself, than your dreams.
This is bad!!! This is really, really, really, really, REALLY BAD. I feel like I'm being stabbed 1000 times over and over again. >_____<

We had to switch seats in History today...I ended up at Evan's table...and it's not just that! I have to sit right next to the guy! Now it's over...my life is completely, utterly, hopelessly over! There's no way I'll survive without either humiliating myself or killing myself! I knew I'd end up sitting next to him...SOMEHOW I JUST HAD A FEELING. e_e

There's nothing I can do about it now...NOTHING!! IT'S TOTALLY HOPELESS!!! AND I'M STILL FREAKIN' NERVOUS AFTER HAVING TO SIT NEXT TO HIM FOR AN HOUR. >_>

Gaaahh....*screams in agony*

Part of me is saying, "It's hopeless! Hopeless! Just go lie down somewhere and die."

While the other part of me is saying, "This is it! Take this chance and make your move!"

WHAT SHOULD I DO!? *screams again*

*sigh* I really, really, REALLY didn't want to end up liking someone this year, but I just had to...last year I had to sit next to a kid I liked too. IT WAS NOT FUN OR EASY. -_-

I'm in total pain...TOTAL pain....I don't care if I'm making this too much of a big deal. I'll complain all I want. T_T

I don't think I'll survive tomorrow...I wish I was sick...GAAAHHH.....

EDIT: Oh yeah, the quote today is one of Ed's.
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Wednesday, May 4, 2005

There's no such thing as 'no such thing'!
That's a quote from Greed, who you guys will see some time soon in Fullmetal Alchemist (again). He's pretty cool. ^_~

Okay, I've been reduced back to quotes...FMA quotes that is! Since it goes with my current layout... :D

Alright then, putting that aside...I think I'm gonna start talking about Evan again. xD

He's just soooo awesome!!!! If we were a couple I'd give him hugs all the time!!!!!

Editor: *whacks Winry (me)*

Winry: Owww....

Okay, anyways...umm...I realized how tall Evan really is. He's like, one of the tallest kids in my PE class. Nyah... X3

Is it just me, or am I getting closer and closer to crashing into Evan?

First there was that time in PE when me and Evan were running and we almost crashed into each other, and there was also the time we played wall ball against each other, then the time when Evan was running back from the library, then we were almost back-to-back during another PE day, and then just yesterday or something, I almost crashed into Evan, and just today, since the schedule was all messed up, Evan thought he had to go to 3rd period and when he was running back towards 1st period he almost crashed into me. I'm afraid I'll really crash into him some day. Not in a good way either. @_@

Evan is also kind of lazy, now that I think about it. xD;;;

He goes on the computer and plays video games, and waits till the last minute to do all his homework...that's kind of like me. xD;;

And today, during break, I was with my friends Yumi and Rika, and while they were talking I kinda started staring off into space cause I noticed Evan somewhere, and then Rika was like, "Hello? Anybody in there?"

Then I snapped back into reality, and she was like, "You were like all spacing out and stuff...were you staring at Evan?!"

I just yelled at her. That was embarrassing...but yeah, I was... xD

Then during lunch I was trying to guess Tenshi's schedule, Yumi was like, "Who's schedule is that?"

Asuka: *coughEvancough*
Me: "I already know his schedule you idiot!"
Rika: "Come on, I think it's pretty obvious who it is."
Me: "No, it isn't. You don't know him and it's not who I like."
Asuka: "Well I think it's pretty obvious that you'd try figuring out Evan's schedule...oops."

THAT IDIOT ALMOST TOLD EVERYONE WHO I LIKED. If the cafeteria wasn't so loud I think everyone would be bugging me about it. -_-

Okay, I think I've said enough about Evan for one day...so I'll talk about him again some other day! xD

Later~
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Sunday, May 1, 2005

Come on, pierce through my chest made anxious by love...
Cleave apart the memories of those faraway days with your hands
End the breath of sadness
Come on, pierce through my chest made anxious by love

Looking at the sky in which the tomorrow will come, I don't know what to do with my heart that is only lost
Birds by my side flew away- I wonder if they found light somewhere

Come now, won't you let me ride on your back, too?
Then keep far away from the kindess that I deserted at the highest place...

Lyrics are from Melissa, the first opening to FMA...and I don't care if I already used it!

...

WHY'D THEY KILL HIM OFF?! HE WAS SO FREAKIN' POPULAR!!!! HE WAS...HE WAS.......dammit, he made me cry when he died. T_T

And...and....man, he left behind his family too....STUPID ENVY!!! STUPID CREATORS OF THE SERIES!

They just HAD to kill him off in the Anime and Manga version...

*kicks Envy and the creators of the series*

*goes to rant somewhere else*

Okay...now that I've calmed down...I can see that a lot of people were crying/were sad during last night's episode of FMA...Well who wouldn't be? They killed off a frickin' awesome character. -_-

I'm angry and sad at the same time. STILL AM.

And he was Roy's best friend...hey wait, does this count as ranting? Uh....*thinks of something else to talk about*

...I don't actually have anything else to talk about......oh yeah, I have to finish my reading log today...
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Saturday, April 30, 2005

Don't look back we've got to go now...
Dreaming of the stars on high
That speak to me in secret sighs
Drifting on a breeze
Only I can feel and hear

Could it be the sacred wind
That's pulling me to now begin
To walk into the dark
Carrying the light of tomorrow

Need to walk the wings of high
Beyond the earth, beyond the sky
C'mon don't hesitate
Don't look back we've got to go now...

I can't believe I almost forgot about Crystal Chronicle's opening theme song, "Sigh of the Wind"...but now I'm almost out again. -_-

Well, remember a few updates ago when I said you'd cry for the next FMA episode? I know a lot of you probably like this character...so I'm assuming you're all gonna cry when it comes on tonight. And just a heads up; after episode 26 they'll start showing reruns of FMA.

Um...I don't really have much to say right now...my throat kind of hurts....I think I'm getting myself sick from depression...kind of like how Tohru did when she had to take the make up test....

I'll update later, if anything happens.

Update: Yay! I read the 46th chapter of FMA! It was good; Scar still hasn't given up the chase of trying to kill the Fullmetal Alchemist! xD;;
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Friday, April 29, 2005

It's still eternally missing pieces and incomplete..
Far away, far away, our thoughts are ceaseless
If we can go back to those days
Of when we laughed innocently together...

It broke into pieces
It's like a work of glass
I'm gathering up pieces of my memory
You realize those important to you
After whenever you lose them

The world without you
Is just like a jigsaw puzzle
It's still eternally missing pieces and incomplete
Because it's impossible
For anyone to replace you...

I'm running out of song lyrics, can you tell? XP

I even had to go with UNDO cause I'm running out of lyrics and new ideas...well, this time the lyrics are from "UNDO", the 3rd opening to Fullmetal Alchemist... >_>

I think I've started a daily schedule without even realizing it:

Monday - Friday

6:45 - 6:50: I wake up and prepare for school
7:00 - 7:10: I eat a light breakfast (or just skip it) and go to school
7:30 - 2:10: I attend school for 7 hours or something, then go home
2:20 - 3:00: I eat lunch and get on the computer.
3:30 - 4:30: I check all the websites I visit daily.
4:30 - 5:30: I usually end up getting bored and just lay around or something. Unless I get a chance to listen to music.
5:30 - 6:00: For some strange reason I always end up getting sleepy, so I go up to my room, close the door, and take a nap. Yes, a NAP.
6:30: I work on homework, or unless I don't have any, I work on typing up my newest entry to my blog.
7:00: I study a while for the upcoming math tests...and have dinner.


Those are just the main points. But yeah, this is pretty much what I do every school day, now that I think about it...

And I'm a little happier than I was before yesterday, but looking at Evan greatly depresses me now. Somehow I doubt I'll ever get over him... >_>

Okay then...I guess that's all.

Later~
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Thursday, April 28, 2005

Smile only at me and touch me with those fingers..
I was so happy, you were laughing
With a smile that melts everything away

Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth,
Waiting for the time to sprout

For instance, even if today is painful
And yesterday's wounds remain
I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on

I cannot be reborn
But I can change as I go on, so
Let's stay together always...

Okay...I admit it...I'm running out of song lyrics...this time it's from Fruits Basket...it's called "For Fruits Basket"...

Yeah, I'm depressed.

Evan doesn't want a girlfriend...he doesn't want a boyfriend either, just to let you sick minded people know.

I swore I wouldn't get depressed. I said I wouldn't feel hurt even if he did say no. Even if he considered me nothing more than a person...but I ended up feeling more depressed than I thought I would...it's like...how Daisuke felt when Risa just called him a really good friend....

I don't want to be a burden on my friends and have them keep worrying over me...I don't like that either...but I can't help it.

All those times I believed he liked me...even if it was just a little...I was just dreaming something that could never happen...now what can I do about my story? It's the total opposite of what I've kept experiencing. I guess I'll just have to give up on it...but then another part of me says to keep trying, or just wait a little longer.

He's like a ripple in the water...you can get near it, but then it always pulls away...and it's impossible to catch.
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

And the bond between us will grow only deeper.
A fullmetal spirit, even though
our thoughts and feelings are all different
because these feelings are all in truth
We will always believe in each other.

A fullmetal spirit, even though
we have all lost so many things
because of that, we can all grow stronger
and the bond between us will grow only deeper...

This comes from one of my favorite songs..."Hagane no Kokoro", sung by Ed, Al, and Winry. You guys really should listen to it; it is AWESOME. X3

My whole week has been nuts; since we have testing this week and next week, the entire schedule's been messed up. I have lunch after FIRST PERIOD. -_-;;

And we gotta play softball this week for PE...AGAIN....something tells me the teachers are running out of ideas...

Then the stupid teacher in charge of watching us during testing locked us all out of the cafeteria (where we were testing).

I think Evan caught me looking at him...*sniff* Now that I think about it, we haven't talked to each other in a while. ; ;

Man, we have oral presentations coming up soon...I wish my English teacher would just die. I HATE oral presentations. Stupid English teacher... -_-

The school year's almost over...it'll be only 6 more weeks or something until summer vacation...

I'll just have to win him over somehow... e_e

I don't really know how I'm gonna do that...but I'll do it somehow...or not...

"If it's going to be that way, then I'll just make him mine tonight." - Kagura Sohma

Later~
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

Even though we were so close together, the twilight has a different color now.
We were so close together, but the twilight has a different color now.
The abundance of kindness only keeps a distance between us.
Our coldly ignored hearts are wandering in the midst.
If this awkwardness is what it's like to live,
we shall close our eyes under the cold sky.

Even though we were so close together,
We can't even get a word across between our increasing distances.
Even though we were so close together, the twilight has a different color now.
Please, give us a quiet sleep under the moon light, if it is the last thing possible.

This time the song lyrics are from "Anna ni issho datta no ni" or however you spell that...uh, the Gundam SEED ending. xD;;;

Okay, I am never looking at another Fruits Basket song again. THEIR LYRICS ARE SCARY. >_>

Since I just woke up a while ago, I don't really have much to share...oh yeah! Yesterday's FMA episode was good. Scar is so cool! ;_____;

I don't like Barry though; at least, not in the anime version. The manga version of him wasn't as...bad? Well, he didn't die in the manga version anyways...

Next week's episode of FMA WILL MAKE YOU CRY. I SWEAR IT WILL. Well, unless you don't like him...*trails off*

Just looking at a picture for next week's episode almost got me to tears. The manga version of it did make me cry though...uwaaahhhh..... ;_______;

Okay, I think I said too much. Well, anyways!

Some stupid idiot who I blocked on MSN tried creating a new account and wanted to add me to his list again. Well, luckily something gave him away so I just blocked him again... -_-

Okay, I guess that's all...hopefully...umm.....I'll update again if anything happens...

Later~

EDIT: Oh, and a heads up for all you FMA fans; after episode 26 of Fullmetal Alchemist, Adult Swim is gonna start airing reruns at 1:30 AM (pacific) until like, September or something. I think they're planning on adding new shows, so yeah...this is NOT something to blame on FUNimation. They've only dubbed 36 episodes so far, and if we watched all 36 it'd probably be even longer before we could watch the rest, so be thankful.
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