Friday, May 11, 2007

   Holy crap!
Today is the first day in over four months that my boyfriend and I have the same day off work.

So...naturally we're going to hang out :) Neither of us have money, but that's easily remedied. I have a "secret stash" of over five hundred dollars, so I will be able to go shopping today :)

I wish the nintendo Wii wasn't sold out everywhere...I'd buy one and he and I could play it ^_^

Anywho, just a quick update before I go, okay?

OH OH...I am so proud of myself ^_^ I have the most hours out of anyone at the restaurant I work at because the owner likes me XD The reason that's a good announcement is because...the owner never likes ANYONE lol.

Okay, I'll leave you all alone now ^_^ Have a good one, meinen freunden!
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Tuesday, May 8, 2007

   Alright...I'm curious
So...when you go to the doctor, aren't they supposed to answer any questions you have? I just wondered because I went to a new doctor today for the first time. He is an ENT, so he specializes in ear, nose, and throat problems. Well, I went to him with this problem I have with my ears. Yeah, he looked into my ears, then he used this thing that basically pressure washes your ears out and then told me my ears are fine.

He didn't look in them again to see if they were fine or not, and the funny thing is...MY EARS ARE STILL BOTHERING ME.

They are NOT fine.

I'm so angry with this doctor because he never answered any of my questions, and when I would ask my questions, he would almost give me a "I'm the doctor so I know what I'm doing" kind of attitude. I just wanted answers was all.

Yeah, yeah, I know, I know, I'm complaining again, right? I don't care. When it comes to my health, I want to be able to ask questions and understand what's going on. But no, he has to be arrogant about it -.-;
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Monday, May 7, 2007

   Huh...okay so...
Two of my friends are in this fight right now. The reason? They used to be "friends with benefits" while he was dating another girl. He broke it off when his girlfriend started getting suspicious and was asking my OTHER friend if she thought that he was cheating. Which he was -.-;

Well, now he wants nothing to do with her. He proved that one by getting mad at me when I called him on the night Steven came out to everyone. I got a hold of him simply because Steven said that he wanted him to know too. I didn't know they were fighting that bad.

He told me, "You want me to hang out with you knowing full well that she's there?"

So I got pissed off -.-; I said, "You need to bite your fucking lip and deal with it. One of your friends needs you tonight and you're going to be pissed off by the fact that he invited someone you don't like? He's actually hanging out with everyone for once and you're going to be an ass about it?"

He responded with, "It's his own fault that he hasn't been out with anyone."

You see, he still doesn't know that his friend is gay. And...he's going to be very angry when he finds out. He is tolerant to a certain extent. If he knows you're gay ahead of time, he is tolerant, but if he's always seen you as straight, and you spring it up on him that you're gay, he's DEFINITELY not tolerant at all.

Anywho, I called him a dick and hung up on him. He's probably mad at me now...but whatever. He'll get over it. He needs to hear the truth and he's being an ass about it -.-;
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Sunday, May 6, 2007

*yawn*
So I kept getting in trouble at work today because I'm supposed to be the hostess on Sundays and uh...yeah, I would seat someone and while I was walking back to seat someone else, they would seat themselves.

If someone seats themself it's supposedly "bad for business." So I got yelled at for a while about that, you know?

I am so happy because now that I don't have school anymore I have time to update! I'm glad ^_^

I am still a little in shock about my friend coming out of the closet simply because I've always thought of him as straight and it'll be really weird having to switch views, you know? I'm really proud of him for telling everyone though. Too bad he's hot -.-; Why are all the hot guys gay? LMAO!!!!!

Anywho, I told him he can be my shopping buddy now, but he told me he's not going to be one of the feminine gay guys ((which makes me sad because they are the coolest))

*yawn*

I'mma go take a shower and then come back on here and visit everyone who's updated, 'kay?

Have a good one, meinen freunden!!!
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Saturday, May 5, 2007

   That makes me a little sad.
So my ex boyfriend and I are still REALLY good friends.

He finally, just today, came out of the closet. He told me that he knew he was gay since he was in about fifth grade. It's kind of funny that I was used as a cover...

Anywho, I'm mostly offended that he couldn't tell me. I understand, though, that it must be really hard, but...it would have been nice to know, you know? Lol.

Oh well, I love him and he will forever and always be one of my best friends. Pobre Esteban...Lo ciento que no estaba allí para usted...
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Thursday, May 3, 2007

   Quick little update, ja? ((It's not really quick...this is kinda long but funny))
Okay, so I just thought I'd let everyone know I'm not dead. I'm quite alive as you can see :)

Anywho, has someone ever tried to make you feel really bad about yourself, but then messed something up and made you feel so much better than them?

That totally happened at work the other day.

Here's the story (asterisks represent my manager's name, okay?):

I am busy serving a nine-top table (nine people at the table). A woman on the other side of the restaurant waves me over, so I gave her the, "One minute, please," sign.

I finished what I was doing at the nine-top and went to her table. I guess she wanted to complain. She asked for a manager and I sent him over. She threatened to take her complaints to corporate because she had been sitting at her table for a very long time and no one came to take her order.

This is not true. She was asked if someone was taking care of her and she said yes.

So she asks for the manager's name and he says to her, "My name's *****."

So she asks, "What's your last name?"

And he responds with, "You don't need to know my last name. My name's ***** and that's all you need to know." She then said that she was taking it to corporate. So she finally got her order settled and her food was okay. She was checked on several times.

She complained about everything, and she started saying things and tearing me down. I was actually almost in tears by the time she was done with me.

She left, but before she walked out the door, she asked my name. I told her my name, and she nodded and walked out the door.

I went to bus the table, and in the middle of all the clutter, resting on top was their bill, and on the top was written, "Tip," with an arrow drawn pointing to the edge of the paper.

I flipped the paper over.

On the other side it said, "heres your tip ive been werking at Perkins for over ate years now and the sirvers there are much better then here my tip for you is to hire better sirvers. the sirvece here sucks this is all you get and im not giving you money"

*cough*

So...even though she kept complaining, and even though she tore me down, I got a laugh out of her pathetic "tip." I also tend to think that maybe, just maybe if she'd really worked as a "sirver" for "ate" years, she might actually know how busy Sunday mornings are, you know? Especially if she "werked" at Perkin's.

Oh well.

I freaking hate people.
But I can't get over the "tip" lmao
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

   Have you ever been so bored...
Have you ever been so bored that you spent a TON of money? I have.

Today was definitely a splurge day. I couldn't, for some reason, just window shop. Usually that's satisfying enough. But I was at the mall with two hundred dollars in my pocked and I was ready to spend spend SPEND!

The list of what I bought is quite short, but I don't care. I bought:

Shirt- $40
Four movies- $60
Shoes- $20
Make up- $10
Radar detector- $70

That radar detector was a necessity though. Shouldn't speed without one of those. That's why I got one :) I'm a horrible person lol

Anywho, I hope everyone is having a great day!
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

   Sorry, loves. This is a long one, but...it gives some insight.
I realize I haven't been on in a while, but here's a quick update.

I've been kinda miserable lately.

My home life is crap and you'd think that since I'm eighteen I would just move out, right? Too bad I don't have the money. Even if I did have the money I've no one to room with in the first place.

I'm going to give you all a little bit of my reasoning as to why my home life is bad. You don't have to read if you don't want to. I don't exactly expect you to. It'll give you a little bit of insight as to why I'm always so happy when something so small happens in my life. I'm going to tell it like you would a story, and...read at your own discretion I guess...Some of you may find it a little mature...

When I was younger, all my parents ever did was fight. When I was six, I had found out while eavesdropping on one of their many fights that my mom had been cheating on my dad with someone she'd met at college.

Not even a week after their divorce we had moved in with the new man. Brian.

When I was twelve, Brian came into my room one night. You see, he used to wake me up by stroking my hair and saying that it was time to wake up, so when he began doing this, I thought nothing of it and pretended to still be asleep. I grew afraid though, when he put my fingers to his lips and kissed them. I shot up in my bed finally when he put my fingers IN his mouth.

"What time is it?" I asked, pulling my hand away from him.

"It's late," he said.

"You're really making me uncomfortable."

"Okay." And with that he threw his hands up in defeat and walked out of my room. He closed the door behind him.

I should have locked it.

I laid in my bed after he left my room and wondered what had just happened. I knew I wouldn't be able to fall asleep again, so I just laid there, staring at my ceiling. I heard a familiar creaking which meant my bedroom door was being pushed open. I feigned sleep.

I rolled over onto my side and squeezed my eyes closed tight hoping that I was just hearing things...but my hair was being stroked. Soon he put my fingers in his mouth again, and I still pretended to sleep. When he grew tired of my fingers, he started rubbing my shoulders. Clumsily massaging them. Still I pretended to sleep. Finally, his hands went to more delicate places...and still yet, I pretended to sleep.

He grew bored of a sleeping, seemingly lifeless me and fell asleep sitting up on my floor with his head resting on my bed.

Once I heard that familiar snoring, I climbed out of bed making sure not to disturb him, and I went in my sisters room and made sure that she was still in one piece. I called my mom and cried to her. She came home from work immediately.

That happened when I was twelve. I still live with him.

He's always accidentally walking into my room when I'm changing or...accidentally coming into the bathroom when I'm taking a shower.

You see, now you who have read this know why I'm going to be kind of miserable. I will try to keep my posts as happy as I can, but if ever you hear of my stepdad, you'll know I'm upset.

To those who read this, thank you for listening to my story. To those who either didn't want to, or didn't care to read this, I thank you for visiting my site anyway.

I think I'm going to bed now...it's one in the morning, and I'm all cried out. I finally came out and told Corry what happened and...I cried when I told him this. And I'm crying now as I did then.

Good night all.
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Friday, March 30, 2007

   Whoa long time no post :)
So I guess in July I'm going with Corry's family to Ohio. We're going to Cedar Point. I've been there before, and I can't wait to go again :)

Man, I haven't posted in what...a week, now? School, work, and Corry take up all my time! But at least I'm updating now. I'd love to hear from everyone. How is everyone?
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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

   So I totally disappeared for like two days!
Yeah, sorry, didn't post. Not much to update, you know? Just...work takes up all my time. BUT it's okay. Work is helping me lose weight too ^_^ so that's a plus! Not like I need to lose weight, I'm just sayin'.

Anywho, not much to update on lol. Sorry this was a totally random post and VERY much nonsensical.

Er...you know...I'll just leave you all alone lol. Have a wonderful day ^_^
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