Tuesday, June 5, 2007

open mouth, insert 6 cookies
during this entire post, i will keep 6 cookies (big ones) in my mouth. that's my special talent.

hmm.....

tomorrow during school, we have to show 4th and 5th graders a powerpoint on internet safety. the last time we did that presentation, one of the speakers was high.

i'm having a party on june 8th, the day after i get out of hell....i mean, school. yay for parties.

OH SNAP!! i accidentally swallowed one cookie. but don't worry, i shoved another one in to replace it.

i feel like talking to someone. but none of m friends are on aim. grr..

mr. cookie got a new gf (he's a manwhore. i won't let him forget it) and i don't know her, so that weirds me out. but judging from her screen name and some stuff she wanted him to do, she's a regular whore.

QUESTIONS!!!!
1. do you love me? (this answer better be yes)
2. do you have a myspace?
3. do you love ice cream?
4. how many cookies can you fit it your mouth???
5. how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?
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Saturday, June 2, 2007

thanks so much...
i just want to thank you guys so much for helping though this rough patch. things are looking up. it's gotten to the point where i can think of other things but maggie. except....i was in a dance recital last night, and in the middle of my dance, i got teary-eyed because i suddenly thought about her. but i really really want to thank you for being so concerned. i still miss her though. her funeral is monday, and my mom asked me if i wanted to go, but i said no. that would be too hard.

but anyway...what's going on with you guys? i was kinda being a sympathy-whore on my last post, but i think i have a good reason.

i hope you guys are having an okay day...mine's been okay too. no maggie-related relapses (yet. it's only 3:05 though. monday's gonna be hell).

love,
amanda
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Thursday, May 31, 2007

maggie
i didn't sleep at all last night. i just stayed up and cryed. i'll explain. starting from the beginning:

about a month ago, at lexi's 16th birthday party, all we (lexi and i)did was play with her baby cousins, especially the 2 year old, maggie. (shit, i'm crying typing this too). yesterday, i was sitting in the car with my mom, and my mom's cellphone rings, and we find out:
maggie and this other little girl were being babysat, and they fell asleep, so the babysitter took a nap too. but the little girls woke up first and went outside to play (the ages are 2 and 18 months). and then they drown in the pond outside.

i'm sobbing right now.

i wasn't directly related to maggie, but i'm the kind of person who cries when they see old people alone in restraunts.
but the part that scares me is that i remember her. i remember all those little moments last month like they were yesterday. that scares the shit out of me. my mom offered to get me out of school today, but i didn't want to, because all i think about is that baby, and how her life was just cut short because her babysitter fell asleep.

next time my babysitting clients call me, i think i'm gonna refuse.

if anyone wants to PM me, i could use some empty chatter.
and i don't think i'm gonna be able to go to sites today. sorry.

i'm sorry. i'm sorry i posted this. and i'm sorry i can't go on longer, but the screen is getting really blurry.
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

hiya friends!!! i'm a bit hyperactive today!!! yay!!!!

what's the verdit on the new theme? i ♥ that song.

I ♥ YOU!!!!!


well....how was your day? mine was okay. we had an "awards ceremony" during the school day today (umm....2nd grade much YES). not much is happening. umm...yeah.

Today, Angel Asuka told me that something a friend of ours told everybody (i mean, she even posted it) never happened. a friend of Angel Asuka's (she's not my friend. no way) was sitting with this person the whole time. it never happened.

sorry for not being specific. this person may or may not be reading this.

i'm also sorry for making you read that, cause i'm sure you don't care.

¢¾ love love love lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove from amanda

Quote: you get a whole song for a quote today(i couldn't pick one line)!!!

LG Fuad....Motion City Soundtrack
Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm speaking figuratively, of course..
Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I have learned to love the lie.

I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense.. yeah
Let me in, let me in to the club, cuz I wanna belong,
And I need to get strong, and if memory serves,
I'm addicted to words and they're useless.

(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm riding hard on the last lines of every lie,
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to explode.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect, and I have learned to accept all my problems and short comings,
Cause I am so visceral, yet deeply inept.

I want to thank you for being a part of my forget-me-nots and marigolds..
And all the things that don't get old..
Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know.
It's the only way I have learned to express myself through other peoples' descriptions of life..
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless...

(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die.
For the last time with feeling
we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
That still shock and surprise.
I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being,
maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die.

Sister soldier
You¡¯ve been such a positive influence on my mental frame
If I could ever repay you,
I would, but I'm hard up for cash
And my memory lacks initiative.

God damn the liquor store's closed,
we were so close to scoring
it hurts, it destroys 'til it kills..
I am tired and hungry and totally useless.
(In this department)

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Friday, May 25, 2007

hats off and applause to rogues and revolution!!
yeah.

so, yesterday i went to pittsburgh with my 7th grade class. it was fugging FUN. we went to the science center and all that shit. i mostly hung out with concetta and this kid named girt (first name is tyler, but no one calls him that, even the teachers). i got stuck and was swinging from a bike 50 feet in the ear, and jake (kid in my class) came out of one attraction with blood running down his neck cause his ear popped (cetta and i lasted about 3 seconds in that one...lol).

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dammit i've been reading too many of aaya's posts, i'm developing keyboard tourets.

today was boring, except when you exclude the fact that angel asuka and i shared good gossip, mr. cookie is mad at me for no reason, and mr. edwards (my old teacher) is a beast at soccer.

¢¾ you all.

i think you should give me quotes. because i love you.
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Monday, May 21, 2007

I'm not dead, I just wish I was.
i totally made that up (not). lol.

okay, so i actually am not dead. i went to my grandma's all weekend to hang with my cousin lexi (¢¾ her). she has a myspace too, so we decided to be evil. here's the story:

there's this kid in my , jake. (who happens to not be a virgin, and we're in 7th grade. just thought i'd add that). but anyway, lexi added jake as myspace friend, and so now our plan is for her to flirt the hell out of him so that we can laugh about it via email. (and i will also hear about it at school).

okay, a bit mean, but whatever. i don't honestly care, cause jake freaks me out.

but yeah....
so bored. i have dance class in an hour. grr....who hates school? i hate school. mmhmm. you bet. tomorrw is tuesday, which means drama(as aaya has so kindly pointed out, i am kind of a drama nerd. so be it)

mmkay. i gotta go.

Quotes-
I can say what I want - I still got Nazi bullets in my ass
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Thursday, May 17, 2007

sorry it's been so long....i forgot my password until today
alright, so it's probably only been about 3 days since i last posted. but whatev.
how are your lives??? excellent, i hope.
tomorrow is my sister's prom night, which means i get to take pics of her!! yay!!! i want to be a photographer whe i get older, so i'm always looking for situations that need photographing.
this weekend, my cousin who i ¢¾ lexi is going to my grandma's (she lives in slippery rock, so i almost never get to see her *sob*) so i get to spend the WHOLE FREAKIN WEEKEND there. hoo-rah.

today, during a drama club rehearsal (yes, i am in the drama club. but only cause my friends are in it.) i had to sing my song for the play, Grease. There's a line in the song that says something about lingerie, and my friend cetta is always joking with that line, so i started laughing like mad when i had to sing it, and the director thought i was choking. awesome.

Quote-
Teacher: Noah, why did you pick this country to reseach?
Noah (kid in my class): Cause everyone else wanted it.
-conversation between teacher of mine and hilarious person

My Math Teacher: Tyler, you can't take a lady's purse! *teacher walks away*
Tyler: What about a man's purse?
Zach: If the man has a purse, sure!
-obvious

So pardon me while I burst into flames. I've had enough of the world and it's people's mindless games.
-Incubus

Cheese n Rice, sorry for such a long post!
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