Wednesday, May 17, 2006

vet tech.?
Well I think I have Finally decided what I want to do for the rest of my life. I think I'm going to be a veterinary technician. Which is a veterinary assistant basically. I'm going to go to a different college though. So all you people who were going to go to Weber with me sorry I've got a change of plans now. The college I picked has just barely opened a new campus much closer than the other one. So today at 4 pm me and my mom are going to check it out and get a tour. I am excited. :)

I have always wanted to be a vet but because I had gotten bad grades that I wasn't smart enough. Thats why for a little while I wanted to be a teacher but I really love animals so this is it this is what I'm going for.

My sister and my brotherin law are moving out of state and they want to sell one of their cars. I'm hoping that I could buy it before they go. Then I would have a way to get to school and work. ^.^

and for my final words here's hoobastank with If i were you. it's really helped me to not feel down in dumps because their really are people who are far worse than me. So I'm going to thank the stars for all that I have. ^.^

You seem to find the dark when everything is bright
you look for all thats wrong instead of all thats right
does it feel good to you to rain on my parade
you never say a word unless its to complain
its driving me insane

if i were you
holding the world right in my hands
the first thing i'd do
is thank the stars for all that i have
if i were you

look what surrounds you now
more than you ever dreamed
have you forgotten just how hard it used to be
so whats it going to take
for you to realize
it all could go away in one blink of an eye
it happens all the time

if i were you
holding the world right in my hands
the first thing i'd do
is thank the stars above
tell the ones i love that i do
if i were you

so whats it going to take
for you to realize
it all could go away in one blink of an eye
it happens all the time

if i were you
holding the world right in my hands
the first thing i'd do
is thank the stars above
for the one's i love
take a breath and enjoy the view
live the life that i've wanted to
if i were you

Thank you stars and to all you guys.. I LOVE YOU ALL!! DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY. ^.^



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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

nothin
I don't have anything to post about today.. so ya.. Have an awesome day everybody. ^.^ Chow

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Monday, May 15, 2006

Senior Project.
Now that mothers day is over the rest of this month is going to be much smoother for me and my mom. This week we had two birthdays. My sisters and Grandmothers mothers day, and my other grandmother was sent to the hospital this week. Now that three of the four things are over. I can focus more on my senior project which is a 10 thousand page autobiogaphy about who else BUT ME!!:)

I'm almost done with it but I have lost the instuction paper. So I'm just gonna be doing it from memory till I can get another one. Well I better go work on it. It's due a week from tom. and I want to get it done by this Friday. So my posts are gonna be alot shorter this week starting tomorrow.
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Sunday, May 14, 2006

MOTHERS DAY
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ME!!! AND ALL THOSE OTHER MOMMYS OUT THERE!!!
My dad is so awesome he got me a flower to wear this mothers day. T.T

Today teh edo is going to come to church with me!!! I am excited. I know he will like it. ^.^ Anyways yesterday I was fairly busy. The adoptive couple made some really neat things for mothers day. They also gave me some coupons to baskin robins. :P YUMMY!! It was also my grandma's b-day yesterday and so we had a barb-b-que to celebrate then we went and visited my other grandma who is in the hospital. We took her, her flower and a happy mothers day balloon. So that was cool. She looks alot better than she did when she first got there. ^..^

Well that's really all I have to report for today. I almost have 100 visits. I'm at 92 I hope I'll 100 by the end of today.^.^ then I'll do another doodle in paint for you guys.^.^ heck ya
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Saturday, May 13, 2006

aslkfslkfkld..
I couldn't really think of a title soo.. thats what you get.. I don't really have much to say..I'm just thinkin about alot of things.

Like where to work.
Moving out
Friends
Church
Pizza.. .
what the eggs are going to hatch into
I really need to take a bath ...
NEW SUBJECT!!

I have been dying to go SWIMMING!! I was on the swim team for my high school all three years that I went.. Sadly I haven't been to the pool since January. >,< I feel like a fish out of water!! O.o Ahhh man that would be soo much fun. >.< I need a new swimsuit though the only ones I have are the team ones and those are so tight they dig into your skin. >.< but you gotta do what you gotta do to be a swim team champ!!!

Well thats all I can really think of for today so have an awesome saturday everyone!!!!

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Friday, May 12, 2006

Moving out.
This topic was inspired by me taking a trip to dove's site. Soo on with the inspiration.

The more I think about moving out the more well scared I kinda become.. . I know I will miss my family and I know that when I do move out I'll probably never see them again. I'll probably never be able to well go.. . home. I know I have said alot of bad things about my mother. So many things that I don't think I could ever undo the damage I have done.. . So I just want all of you to know that my mother has always been a good mother. I know I"ve said that she was mean and just being stupid when I didn't get my way but maybe if I had listened to her I wouldn't have had to lose so many things that were so important to me.

Today my whole family gathered in the living room my dad, my mom, my sisters their husband and boyfriend my brother, and my grandparents.

We all just sat around and told funny stories that we could remember then each couple told the stories of how they had met. We laughed, we brought up old wounds, we cried and apalogized for the pains we had caused.. . and as I sat there and watched the scene before me. I was filled with joy and sorrow.

Joy because I had been apart of it. That I had been apart of this family. And that all the times I messed up in my life they never left me out in the cold. Every time I needed anything they made sure I got it. Like today... I need to print my stuff out for school soon so my dad went and bought one this evening.T.T

I felt the sorrow because I'm not going to be apart of that anymore. When I move out even if they said that they wanted me to come back. I wouldn't because I wouldn't have the heart to look them in the face.After everything they've done for me I'm just going to up and leave without even saying goodbye. Thats a real thanx right there. .not..

Ahh well. ..I've made up my mind and there's no going back now.. So to everyone else who is so eager to leave. Just remember that your parents didn't have to raise you. They could have placed you in some one else's arms like I did but they didn't because they love you and wanted to take of you. They may seem mean but they just don't want you to get hurt even as unrealistic as that sounds they still want it and I know that because I want that. I want that for my little girl.

Now by no means I'm saying that I did not love my child.I had to put all my feelings aside. she deserved more than I could have provied for her at the time.So many things that I'm working hard to achieve for myself and my future family.. .

argh.. I hate when I get off subject. ..I guess I'm just trien to say that I'm really going to miss them. Thats all.

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

MAKE IT STOP!!
Omg!! my left arm the one I broke HURTS SOOO BAD RIGHT NOW..T.T make it stop!! I refuse to take a painkiller pill though. Unless it hurts enough to make me cry from sheer pain alone then i'll THINK about it. I don't believe in taking pills for everytime you have a pain or a minor discomfort. Ahhhh shiz this hurts..>< My sister Angie is sleeping over and I tripped over her stuff on the way to the comp. and landed on my hurt arm. >,< I'm so ditzy.

I'm so sick of getting hurt..
okay I'm done complaining..for now.
I need a hug. T.T ahh fudge.. my life is just plain crazy sauce. ..

To everyone out there. DO NOT BREAK YOUR LIMBS!! IT SUX SO BAD!! I pity the fool who trips on their shoe and brakes something. fudgey fudge fudge cakes!!!!ok i gotta go. I gotta quit complaining.
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

NewDesign
Well I've Changed my site.. again.. .Lol Teh Edo let me borrow Outlaw Star so I'm going to stay up all night and watch it. I'm proably going to keep my site like this for awhile but we'll see how I feel. I might change it to celebrate my eggs hatching. ..and if they don't hatch I'm having scrambled eggs!! It sucks to be a bird and have to sit on them all time.. .but you mammals wouldn't know that now would you?!! Well you guys can just go suck ...eggs? Wait...><
Well see ya I'm off to outer Space.
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Another Cool Video
I found another cool Video it was done to Oblivion by 30 seconds to mars. It is wicked cool and VERY well done to the music. So check it out.

I don't really have much to talk about today. Except I need to do my freaken School work. So I guess I better go. c-you guys later and I hope everyone has a good day today.
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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

School/work
I am really excite for school to be over. The sooner the better because then I can go out and get a freaken job.

I want to work somewhere close so I can ride a bike so I wont have to worry about a car payment so I can save more. I'm way excited to get out there. I'm thinking about working at Target or one of the stores over there. So it will be easy to get there.

Then another plus with graduating is that I can work full time. I'm going to probably work full time for a year. Then hopefully I will have decied what I want to do with my life.

I want to take up night shifts mostly so that I can hang out with you guys for a bit before I go to work so We shall see how this works out. First things first I need to focus on graduating so I'm gonna go do my research for my english project. C-ya tomorrow.

P.S. it was really awesome to see you yesterday.
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