Well on Friday I graduate. Then its only a matter of time before I move out. I am terrified but this is what I have been waiting for, for a long time now.
I am glad that I was able to graduate even though I had to stop going to school. It has been really hard to be away from everybody because I have really missed a lot of things.
Like trips to Anime Tokyo's house, Dove moving into her new house, and just good old plain hanging out time.
And when people come over I seem to avoid them without even trying. Like when Dove and Tyr came to get me but I was out painting the deck. For WATEVER reason they couldn't find me even though I was just next door in the backyard. They found my brother but me..oh no..and of course my brother never told me that he saw Dove. >,<
Ah well I did accopmlish one thing my senior year and that was going to state with the swim team. Even though I was 7 months preg. and had gained about 40 pounds. I still made it.
It's pretty sad when you try that hard for your team and after they find out you were preg. They tell you to get off THEIR SCHOOL PROPERTY. Needless to say I was furious and hurt.
First off they were only jr's so if its anyone's school its mine cause i've been there longer. Second he has no idea about all the pain I've gone through. So I hope that he's proud to have made a teenage mother cry and add on to my pain.
Third I can't believe it was a guys from the swim team that had said that to me. I died for that team. I endangered not only myself but my baby that I was carrying for that team. Its really sad that even though I had gained 40 pounds that I was almost as fast as he was. >,< Maybe 3-4 seconds difference.
Needless to say I am no longer proud that I was apart of that team. I tried so hard for them and for my coach but none of it mattered they can't see it. All that hard work means nothing. all they care about is to make sure they tell me to get off their school property. If it had been anyone else I wouldn't have cared but when it was people from my team that I respected and trusted and worked so hard for, it really hurt.
I hope they are proud of themselves that they could single me out and umilate me even more.
I am nolonger proud that I was apart of the team but I will always be proud of the fact that I made it to state and that I was almost as fast as them so in other words they suck anyway if a pregnant woman could almost beat them. Jerks.
Anyways those people said that to me awhile ago. I just wanted to get it off my chest.
