Thursday, January 1, 2004

All you wanted was somebody who cares...
first post of the new year.

lets just leave it as my new years eve wasnt as fun as all my friends
it involved crying.. lonlieness..and well the usual ._.;

but this time i've never felt so alone before
like no one was there for me..
its like jumping off a building.. and nothing being there to support you or catch you when you reach the bottom

i am trying to change a lot
become less apathetic more nice and careing.. and trying to get along with people i've never gotten along with..

anyways
i'm bored so i decided to write an entry in here.. its amazing because i havent even written an entry in my lj yet ^^; less people read this than anything else ._.; so its easier to talk in here when in my lj all my irl friends read it and i feel like my feelings are open on ebay.

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so i am bored ..drinking my starbucks
i gave my brother money for a drink to buy me because i was freezing
i am weird like that irl..
get cold easy o___o; i once was in computer art and one of my hands was numb while the other one was fine..
i showed the teacher (my friend heaver and i are pretty tight with the teacher) and he was like "Wow.. o_o thats weird, indeed"
i derno..
*shakes head*

Anyhow i am keeping close tabs on my friend chris..
he's been hitting on my friends and includeing me and he has a girlfriend. so i told him he either stops right now or i'll go to his girlfriend personally and tell her, all the while i will never talk to him again.

I couldn't stand for it because he did it before and lied through his teeth to me.
he said it was a "joke" because he was bored but what tree is he smokeing? you don't do that... play with peoples emotions too
he said it was all a joke except for "me"
i was like "wtf. Whatever. don't even go there with me" --;;;

its surprising i am still friends with him after all the lieing he has done to me..
i guess i feel like i need to mold him into something..
keep him in line..
he reminds me of me when i was younger though
>___>
i know it might not be my duty to do any of that but hes one of my closet guy friends sort of treat him like a brother and i am concerned about him.

owell.
moveing onto subjects
i was takeing a quiz about which myotaku are you?
They used "Rei" XD i was like "DOOD! ITS ME!" XD
since my nickname which everyone calls me irl is Rei.
and it reminded me of me but I know it wasnt probably Rei from Evangelion ^^;..

anyways
i think thats enough for an entry
Later Days
- Moi
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