Tuesday, June 21, 2005

AH!!!! Children... are... attacking!!!! *runs to hide*
I just got put through the scare of my fucking life.... *sighs* A friend was joking around, but neway...

I had an awesome morning at work. Lol, what we get paid for on slow mornings after little kids go through.....GET THIS!

OK! SO! Rachel (Stepsister's best friend, kewl friend of mine)... awesomeness we had. ^^ I got paid to clean theaters and serve litterally near a hundred or over little brat kids.... then! Got paid to sit around on my ass, and I gave Rachel massages (she gets me too everytime we work together), we laughed and joked around, and had hillarious fun with taking out the busted speakers and we both rode the cart thing that we transported the speakers in, lol... She came into the building on the cart singing: "I Believe I Can Fly" and I ran the cart into everything... it's hard to steer sharp corners, lol.

Omg.... Joys of working in a theater during Kid's Shows at 10am:: near/over a hundred screaming brats from hell... AHHHH!!!! And we had to clean the theaters! Three theaters filled with them. The first one was litterally FILLED... and you've no idea the madness after they left.... Kids do NOT need popcorn and drinks and candy in a dark room with a lot more of them shoved close together! *sighs* It's horrible.....


*laughs* Neway, had a good day otherwise. I love kids... only when they are quiet, well behaved, playing when I'm in the mood to play back (normally am when I go to the park) and are sleeping. Otherwise.... they are annoying brats, lol. *shrugs* It's awesome though. Ttyl! Blessed be.

~Night~
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Monday, June 20, 2005

YAY! *sarcasm*
Well, I've done shit once again.... had plans to go out and have fun, but my stepsister stiffed me to hang out with another friend of hers and she didn't want to stay out late and see a movie... *sighs* and my other friend who swore we were doing something today just fucking canceled and asked about all the other days this week... I've gotta fucking work!

*sighs* Neway... yeah... been sick... got myself yelled at cause I was so tired from it... over slept by a 1/2 hour, then passed back out for another full hour cause I feel like shit..... *shrugs* My stepfather for ya.

My stepsister and I cooked dinner for him yesturday, it having been father's day and all.... still, ppl are ungrateful.... *shrugs* I don't care anymore.... I did something so stupid last night.... but no one shall ever know...

I try to make my life better, it gets worse, I say fuck it, and it gets better... HA! This is fucking great... neway... srry about the language and yeah. Blessed be.

~Night~
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Saturday, June 18, 2005

WELL.......!!!!!
.....I dunno. ^^ Lol, yeah.... NEWAY! ^^ Chris had a good day yesturday. ^^ I'm happy.

I hate work, lol. My feet are so freaking rough and sore on the bottom... my feet are becoming two large blisters and calouses. (screw ne typos, btw) I have no other solid black shoes but these boots/heels. God it hurt, lol. BUT! ^^ I'm happy, lol.

WELL! I hope you all are having a good day...

MY SISTER IS COMING BACK HOME! Lol, most of you know of the little, younger brat, Jenna. She's got a site on the MyO as well, and she's not posted in a good long while... WELL! That's because she's been gone to SC to visit our family back home. *smiles* I'm gonna be tackled first thing when she sees me, lol. NEWAY! She comes home today, and I gotta jet. (Been cleaning all morning and if I don't get done, my ass is in trouble, lol.)
Blessed be.

~Night~

PS- Chris got his gift today. It was a painting I'd done. It's of a forest setting in the background of a blue rose, and he got a card with it, lol. NEWAY! He acted like a little kid on Christmas who got what he wanted (in short... scared the hell outta me, lol) and yeah. ^^ Ja.
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Friday, June 17, 2005

YAY! PARTY! Lol...
*yells as loud as she can...*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS! ^^

Thought I should do that. ^^ YES! It is his brithday today! Go by his site and say HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ^^ His MyO sn is: lordsesshomaru

WELL! I'm acting happy cause I gotta go to work, but I am happy it's Chris' birthday and that he got my things... well... one of them at least. ^^ WELL! I dunno what to say.... *thinks* AH WELL! Enjoy this short post and to Chris:::

YOU BETTER ENJOY YOUR BIRTHDAY! ^^ Or I'll have to hurt the ppls who made it bad. ^_~

Blessed be, all.

~Night~
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Thursday, June 16, 2005

Well... things are kewlies. ^^
Well, things are better with what happened. And I am slowly getting better myself.

I did a sweet thing for my mom. A close friend has a b-day this Friday, Chris (aka: lordsesshomaru ) and we stopped by the card shop so I could get him a card to go along with his present. ^^ Not telling what it is cause he comes here daily. ^^ And so I picked out a card for my mom, and she talked about this Vera Bradley bag she'd wanted, but she couldn't get it. ^^ (keep in mind, this was the day we went to get my paycheck and cash it) SO! She walked around the store, and I went to get the bag and the cards, paid, and she'd been looking for me. We left, went to her office, and I asked one of her co-workers to help me distract her afterwhile. ^^
SO! I go, get the card and write this sweet note about how even though some days I seem to hate her, that no matter what, I'll love her always. And then I put it into the bag, asked the lady to help me, and she sent my mom walking around the entire clinic, lol. I sent it on her bag, then walked all the way around to the other side to watch.... it was sweet. She almost cried, but she loved it. ^^

Neway, I'm slowly getting better. ^^ Ttyl! Blessed be.

~Night~
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Numb.... but it's okay....
I've kinda shut down.... My mind is numb, but I have clear and perfect thought.... my memories are shut off once again, and my emotions are getting there.... I'm no longer emotionally here.... I might as well be dead if they counted a person as being alive by how much they feel emotionally. And physically? *smirks* Niffty self-defense system my body has.... It shuts itself down, in a sense.... Quite fun, actually... neway, I'm going numb so I don't hurt anymore... else risk being a lump of a pained and once-human body on my floor.

*shrugs* Neway... I'm still not happy, but I've not cried about it and I'm existing... I'm not living cause no one could live the way I am currently, numb and closed off.... ^^ but it's all right! I'm still here... Lol, bleh! neway, got Clair de Lune... and sometime this summer I plan to finish it, then I'll post it again in chapters/sections. (For those of you who remember it from WAY back when, when I was first on MyO, lol)

Neway, gotta run. Ttyl. Blessed be.

~Night~
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Monday, June 13, 2005

I feel alone today....
(Things that happened yesturday...)

My good friend of two years... one I adored and loved dearly... has gone away. He's saved my life, saved me from an abusive relationship before, and he's been with me through a lot of my hell. I loved him, he's been so close to me for so long... and now he's gone away, told me I'm better off without him and that he deserves to be alone....

It hurts... and I've been without my computer for a week thanks to an anger fit of my stepfather's.....
He got mad for one reason or another, my room was still trashed from when his mother left and then my friend (whom I've not seen in months, Makilania on MyO) spent the night the day the woman left, and I had to go to work the next morning. So! He was angry, said it's no excuse, took my computer out of my room.... yeah....

I got it back yesturday, but my internet was screwed over from him unplugging everything. So, he fixed it... and all this only because my mother called him on being a dumbass and asking him to fix it cause I came home that night from work, upset as hell and threw a fit and cleaned and everything else.

I had painted a picture for a certain person's b-day... and it's in 5 days... I took it to my neighbor's house to show her (sweetest old woman ever) and we went swimming (me, Kitty/Makilania) and it rained without us knowing... just sprinkling.. and it got the painting... so I've gotta work like a bitch in the next couple of days to get it to look right, lol.

*Sighs* SO! Other than that hellish mess, I'm fine. How r u all? Ttyl. Blessed be.

~Night~

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Monday, June 6, 2005

Long post... mostly rambling... but I'm a happy-hyper elf. ^^
Lol, my friends are all a trip. ^^ Thnx to the two of you who commented yesturday. Life's been... okay. Lol, had a bad storm yesturday, but I went to a Halo 2 party (yes, I am a gamer freak a bit... mostly since summer hit, lol) and I was shown how TRULY horrible I am... I haven't played anything game wise in almost over a year... I need practice, lol. But I did okay. ^^ I helped kill things, and I got hyper... I shoot better on games when I'm hyper, lol... I was mostly a distraction. ^^

I'm going to visit SC sometime SOON, I hope... I just have to work a few things out with family... and KAORU! Lol...
To Kaoru: I plan to visit before you leave! lol... so I hope... *looks worried*

WELL! I might also go to the beach on the 26-28th. It's a group thing with a couple of guys from work and a few of their friends. ^^ It'll be fun, I'm sure....

Other than being bright red and sore from swimming for 4 hours yesturday at my neighbors... and sun burn DOES hurt, lol... (ppl say it's not that bad, but my skin is VERY sensitive.. and it's all over my face! lol...ow...) I'm at my mother's work... talked to some of the ppl here... (she works at a weight-loss clinic... and it's not that bad...) We're working on my eating habits... not much junk food for me anymore, lol... but I'm okay with it so long asmy family stops BUYING SO MUCH of it and helps me out a little... ^^

WELL! Yeah, lol... hot chocolate from Starbucks was my breakfast... and I've been napping since I got here, lol... went to bed late, was woken up at 70:30... god that sucks, lol... well, not as bad as yesturday when I got to bed at 4am from working until 2am and then couldn't sleep... I think I got a total of an hour's sleep...then woke up at 7 to go to church (only thing that really sucks about family coming... really religious, not that I'm against it... but I'm not a morning person... mostly if I don't get enough rest. ^^)

Yeah... I'm gonna shut up now, lol.. I think I've rambled on enough. ^^ Later ppl! Blessed be.

~Night~
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Saturday, June 4, 2005

She has moved in and taken over... I hate family visits...
Not been here in a while.... My room has been taken over by my stepsister's grandmother.... She's here for my stepsister's graduation. The woman trashed my room and is using a lot of my things in my room and in my bathroom... I'm not fond of her. (I'm buying new things after she leaves... it pisses me off that she does it in the first place and that ppl LET her...) She's using my display shelf that has a lot of my dragon statues and such to hang her clothes.... if it falls and breaks, someone's head will roll.. a lot of those dragons were gifts, and I cannot get another of them.... She best watch how she treats my stuff.

Another thing, I do not understand why I spent a WEEK cleaning my room for this damned woman, only to have all my things thrown around my computer desk, her things now taking up all the space in my room, and her acting as if it was hers... I'm sorry, I wasn't fond of the woman coming in the first place, but I allowed her to use my room for the week, but I never agreed to her trashing it after she got here (throwing her things everywhere, MOVING my stuff to suit her best... (god I hate that most) and acting as if it's nothing wrong of her to do...)... and knowing my family, I'll have to fix everything back the way I had it and clean for yet another week....

*sighs* Otherwise, I'm out of school, working a lot, passed my exams (the 2 I had to take) with 90 on each, and life is... decent. I'm spending a lot of time with one of my friends from work (gets me out of the house a lot)... and nothing much else. I'm glad I'm out of the hosue a lot when they are around... I came home last night from work.... omfg... I walked into my room to grab a change of clothes... and I stood there in anger... I could not believe what the woman had done... but, I'm barrely around them, and I thank my friend and work for that. So... I just survive yet a little while more... and I'll be perfectly fine.

I hope you all are well. I'm not sick, was for a week, but I' a lot better. So... I'll ttyl. Blessed be.

~Night~
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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

   Bad me broke something, lol.. ^^
Lol, I hit an EXIT sign today with a tennis ball... and the front cover fell off. ^^ It was great, lol. Neway...

Other than the fact that I GET TO GO SWIMMING finally... ^^ not much is going on. My friends are taking me to go swimming after school then they're taking me home. ^^ It's gonna be great. I finally asked them if they were SURE they were taking me home today, yes... and... I told them I WANT TO GO SWIMMING! ^^ After 2 weeks, I finally get to. YAY! ^^ Well... not much else. Ttyl. Blessed be.

~Night~

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