Tuesday, November 23, 2004

The Deal
I'm going to be in New York for a week, so ttyl when I get back... Ja.
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Sunday, November 21, 2004

Fun Fun, Joy Joy, and the Monkeys stole my clothes.....
No, monkeys didn't do that, it was randomness.... Been that way ALL day......Neway! *Sarcastic "AW!", then gets serious again*

Everyone tries to make me feel so much better.... why is that? *sigh* Well, I have to work yet again tonight... and I just got off work not even an hour ago, at 12:05am. *sigh* Currently 12:46am adn I don't want to go to sleep, but I'm dead tired.... I feel... unhappy, no... not the right word.... Um.... maybe...yes. I feel... empty inside, like... there's a part of me that's been gone for the longest time, and I just noticed it was gone. Like it's slowly making the rest of me cave in and die..... It hurts, and it's just... I feel so hollow, so alone inside and like... like my world is void of so many things. I never noticed before... maybe because I was so blind and never cared about myself? Not that I do much more now, but a little more... mostly since getting my job, trying to keep my grades to a high honor role in school, and because I have to fend for myself again here, not for everyone else.... Sucks, in a way. I'm always so used to having to be there for everyone else... and it's not working out... *sigh* Well, I'll be back again tomorrow, if I have the time of day to.... And still no story, sadly, I think it died. Meh, sucks for it, really does... it was one of my best works... Ja.

"Angels alone die of cold and hurt,
Angels above live forever in warmth,
I am an angel alone,
I am an angel destined to die shortly...."

PS-not gonna do anything stupid, such as kill myself, I TOLD YOU ALL! I swore it off, promised far too many, so I'm not gonna do it, k? Later...
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Saturday, November 20, 2004

Great joy joy... I hurt more and more of those I love...
Brosenka's not well... neither is J... is this what is caused by my association with them? It seems the more I love someone, the more I'm friends with them, or around them...the more I seem to be hurting them.... No one's life is going right since I've been brought into it.... Maybe.. I should disappear? It might make all the world a better place if I dropped off it's face.... *sigh* I'm so sorry if I've ever brought any pain, hell, choas, or even the slightest unwelcome feeling in your life... I seem to do that to all.... Ja...
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Thursday, November 18, 2004

Whatever....
My sister is fine, to all that care... I'm no longer myself, and I won't post for a couple of days, unless I choose to not wish to sleep. I just... no longer care. Ja...

"Darkness, Light, Hate, Love. Follish things of this foolish child!"
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Wednesday, November 17, 2004

The scare of my life...
*sigh* I got the biggest scare of my life last night... and I couldn't even do anything.... My little sister went to ride her skooter, right after my stepsiblings left for work and all.... I got online, started talking to J and my friend Matt (from here), and I suddenly hear my little sister (Jenna, 8 yrs old) screaming "Oh my god! Oh my god!" and then I hear her running to the front door, banging on it and screaming. I thought someone was after her, and I wish it had been.... I opened the front door, and it took everything I had not to scream. Jenna had her entire face, hair, hands, and clothes covered in blood. I freaked out right then... I rushed her to the bathroom, the floor and the sink and my hands eventually ending up covered in blood by the time I get her cleaned up well enough.... I was crying and trying to reach my mom... My stepdad was hunting(figures) and I left a message on my mom's cell... I went back to see how Jenna was, and she was still bleeding, trying to hold the towel I'd given her to her lips. I was still crying, trying to calm down for her. I took off her sweater (covered in blood) and tried to make her comfortable... It scared me so much... My mom had been pushing 90 on the Parkway, and it was a GREAT relief when she got home not even 5 minutes later.... *sigh* Well, yeah. That was the most of my day yesturday... that, being sick, and being bitched out this morning by my stepsister... meh. All that's wrong... dunno when I'll post again... I'm just keeping to myself mostly these days... Ja.

"And the world darkens to faded light, always ending with moonlight. Death before me lying at my feet, all these things I cannot beat...."
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Depressing Post, and A Sad Tale about Clair De Lune...
My disk is messed up, and there for, Clair De Lune is officially postponed and/or canceled indefinately.... I shall try to find better equipment and I'm trying to help around the house with getting things done so I can get my new room within the next week or two.... I am tired and sore and bruised (Although how is beyond me)... I was so out of it today that I was completely not myself... and my friend in 3rd period I might slap for a stupid comment... well, let's say the guy has a hella lot of pen marks-leading to open cuts and wounds-leading to blood- all over his right arm and left hand..... I dunno what's wrong.... I'm so tired, and I went to work, they didn't need me, but at least I have 2 hours clocked in for Monday.... I came dangeroursly close to falling asleep in class today (Algebra, last class) and I just... I dunno.... Itr's like I've lost all will to give a damn anymore. I'm so tired, and I'm hurting from a certain reason (Matt, and Brad know for sure, a few others might).... I dunno when I'll post again next... depends on when I feel like typing any goddamn thing..... Srry. Neway, last night I broke... mentally and emotionally and physically.... I suppose.... I finally had myself a good cry, and my eyes are still swollen..... greatest day, to the worse, today went the opposite, I suppose... but I'm still all.... Blah and Hellish in feeling. I'll ttyl... I think.... Not going away permanently, unless I die... but then, someone will probably tell everyone, maybe... ah well, who fucking cares? Not like one life is important around here... Ja....

PS- 100 gb signings... yay me... *weak smile and a little flag waves*
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Monday, November 15, 2004

Sorry, No Chapter 5...
Ok, here's the thing with chapter 5, it's all typed out and on my disk. What will the computer not do? It says the file is corupt, OR that there's a problem when reading the disk. SO! You MIGHT have it by the end of the day, mybe not, and I'll have to rewrite the whole fucking chapter from memory. Neway, have an absolutely WONDERFUL day. Ja.
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Sunday, November 14, 2004

Clair de Lune-- Chapter 5
When Joey awoke, he saw the most beautiful girl, in his eyes, lying right next to him. He gently brushed his hand against her face. Her skin was like porcelain, and her cheeks were framed by her dark lashes. She was leaning against him, her cheek against his shoulder. She looked so peaceful. Her hair was splayed about her shoulders and her cheeks. She was pale in her sleep, and Joey wondered if something were wrong. Her hair and lashes were so dark, and it added a deeper field of emotions to her face as she slept.
"She's like a dark beauty, no?" a voice from behind him said.
He turned to see who it was. It was a man, possibly a friend of Elise's and Maelie's. He didn’t appear human, so he went with his instincts. He nodded slowly, taking in the man’s features as he answered.
“Yes,” he spoke softly. “She is... very, actually.”
The man smiled, his dark features giving off an evil aura about him. He was dressed as the night, and his skin was fair, more so than any human’s. His eyes were of the deepest black, more so than Joey’s. His build spoke of power, and yet he didn’t seem to be a lot of muscle, given his skinny stature.
His voice was like the night too. “I see... Maelie told me of you two. Elise I just had to see for myself. Forgive me for not introducing myself earlier. My name is Drakor.”
"I'm Joey... Elise's husband. Pleasure to meet you Drakor."
He nodded. "Same, I'm sure..." His gaze drifted back to Elise’s figure. “She’s very lovely. Every word of it as Maelie described. You say... you are her husband?”
“Yes. I am, and I love her dearly, as she loves me.” Joey’s eyes held defiance. He didn’t like the way this Drakor looked at Elise with awe.
“I see... Maelie forgot to mention that. Ah well...” he shrugged, and looked back to Joey, his eyes showing a challenge. “I wish the both of you luck in your life. Who knows, you may need it, may not.... Farewell.”
Joey watched Drakor walk away, his moves graceful and everything seeming to shrink from him, until he vanished as Maelie had that night. Joey scowled. He didn’t like Drakor. He seemed to be plotting something, something he didn’t think to be good. He glanced back to Elise, her eyes wide open, as she began to sit up.
“Oh... what an awful dream....” she whispered, rubbing her eyes and stretching stiffly. “I dreamt I saw these evil black eyes... staring at me, and I heard voices. Two men.... One sounded very much like you, love.”
Joey smiled. “I’m sorry you had a bad dream, angel. Would you like for me to make it go away?”
“Yes...” she nodded. She smiled childishly as she mewed during her stretches. “I would, if you’d be able to.”
Joey smiled, leaning back over to kiss her. He took her hands in his, trailing his kisses along her neck. Elise smiled all the more, and moved her head to the side for him to reach it better. Joey grinned and kissed her cheek, pulling her into his lap.
“Better?”
“Much... Thank you....” she spoke gently. Elise wrapped her arms around Joey’s neck and leaned up to claim his lips with her own. “I love you.... You know it?”
“I do... and I’m glad.” Joey kissed her back. “Think we should get back home? So no one knows we were out all night?”
Elise nodded, and sighed, stretching a bit more, and thinking she was going to stand up on her own, but Joey instead picked her up. She wrapped her arms around his neck quickly, startled, as she let out a small yelp of surprise.
“Joey! Why do you not ever tell me before you do such?” she yelled slightly, her heart still racing and her eyes wide.
“I am sorry angel.... I won’t do it again before telling you.”
“Thank you... now... would you mind putting me down?”
“Sorry,” he grinned, his tone playful. “I can’t do that angel. It goes against who I am.”
She playfully hit his chest. “Oh! You liar! Put me down. You know how I hate to be picked up!”
Joey kissed her deeply, silencing any further protests, and she melted against him. “Again, I’m sorry, but I cannot, angel.”
“I hate you.... You are mean... You horrid jerk...” she sighed playfully, hugging him.
“Oh, but if you hated me, why love my kisses and hug me?” Joey winked, hugging her closer and leaning down to pick up the cloaks, her still in his grip.
“True... I suppose I don’t hate you then. You are sweet... irritating when you choose to be, but sweet....”
“I know, and you are perfect, Elise. I love you....” He kissed her, then walked until they were out of Rowan Oak.

Joey had finally let Elise down, and when they got back to their home, Elise immediately jumped to the bed and hugged the pillows. Joey followed curiously.
“Elise, is there something wrong?”
She grinned widely. “Nope! I’m just glad to be back in a warm place.... I love my home, but Rowan Oak is also my home.... the place in between is far too cold, and I always long for my warm bed once I get back...” She pushed her face further into the pillows.
“I see...” Joey looked at her curiously for a moment, then took in her childish state and laughed.
“Find something funny?” Elise was in his face when he opened his eyes. God, how the beauty could move.
“Not at all, love.... I was merely noting how cute you look, laying there.”
She huffed, then turned away, making him think she was made. Then, when he apologized, she turned back with another big grin, and hugged him. “I know! I love you...”
“And I you, my angel...” He kissed the top of her head, thoughts of Drakor still bothering him.
“Hon, what’s wrong?”
“Oh... nothing. I’m just thinking. As you know, memories tend to come up from time to time...”
“Shall we make those horrid things go away?” She winked, and he knew what was coming.
“Why not? I cannot change your mind, and nor would I wish to.” He grinned devilishly, and followed her to the other side of the room.

The couple had laughed and played, as newly married couples do, and then they were resting in each other’s arms in bed.
“Elise... how many of the faeries have you met?”
“Only the prince, and Maelie... why?”
“What’s the prince’s name?”
“Kindra. Why? IS something wrong?”
He shook his head at her worried glance. “No, nothing is wrong my love. Angel, you would tell me if Maelie or another of the faeries comes to you and asks you something you don’t like, correct?”
Elise shook her head. “I must stop you right there. I know you well enough by now to tell when something’s wrong. Out with it Joey. I want to help, I’m here for you. Please, tell me what’s been bothering you since we got back?”
He sighed, loving the way she looked beside him under the red sheets. Her pale shoulders shimmering like glitter, and her arms bare. Her hair spiraling down her back, her eyes shimmering. “Alright. I shall tell you what is wrong.”
He began to tell her of the encounter with Drakor, and Elise’s eyes widened as Joey described him.
“Elise, what is it angel?”
“He... he is the Dark Prince, of faeries. I’d no idea Maelie spoke with him... Heh, possibly to get on his better side.”
“The Dark Prince? Great...”
She stared at him for a moment, then sat up, pulling the covers with her. “What is it you’ve not yet told me Joey?”
“The way he looked at you... like he was fawning over your very presence, like you were a goddess to him, or something....” Joey lovingly looked down to her. “Not that you aren’t one...”
Elise giggled as Joey kissed her neck, then her shoulders, his hands trailing down her back in a loving manner. He gently pushed her back onto the bed once more, and kissed her. Once more, the couple enjoyed their week-long honeymoon. They laughed and played all day, and fell asleep as nightfall came.


~~~~FINALLY! ^_^ Sorry that took longer than I planned... I got the disk fixed, but then my little sister broke it again, so I had to fish around in the PC for the metal part, lol. GUNGRAVE! Srry! I gtg and watch this eps! ^_^ Have fun all, and I promise, NO MORE of the disk breaking, and just in case, there's a back up on my computer now, so! ^_^ Enjoy! ^_~ ~~~~
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Saturday, November 13, 2004

Ok, stupid disk and computer hate me... SO! Technical Problems...
*sigh* Sadly, my disk bent (the metal part on those gay 3 1/2A floppy's) and so, until I get it fixed, I'm so sorry... I cannot get the story typed.... I'l try to get it fixed later today and type the 5th chapter. I'm so sorry, again. I'm working on getting it fixed, I promise! BUt, I have no idea how long until I can get it to fix, or find a new one and start over from there. Srry.. So srry... Ja.
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Friday, November 12, 2004

Clair de Lune-- Chapter 4 (with a side note at the bottom)
The festival went on well into the afternoon, and even into the night. Elise and Joey had a most wonderful time, dancing among the faeries, drinking of the flowers' nectar, and playing their games. Elise had never seen Joey seem so relaxed as if he belonged there, except for when they were alone. Elise, herself, felt as if she belonged there, amid the parties and magic and laughter. It was why she came to Rowan Oak so often.
"Joey..." she gasped as they spun in a circle with Maelie and another faerie by the name of Dristan. “I wonder if we might be able to stop for a bit? Maelie? What do you say...?”
They were all out of breath, so the faeries stopped spinning the couple and Maelie took them off to the side.
“So! How are you two fairing around here? Fun, no?” She smiled, teeth white as the first of snowfall.
“Yes...” Joey panted. “It is... really quite a party. I never knew I could have such fun, except when I first met Elise,” he said, glancing to her. “And I truly felt alive.”
Elise smiled, her eyes shining with the nearness of tears of joy. “This has been such fun, Maelie, but... could we not go back in a while? I had hoped to spend some time with Joey in Rowan Oak, just the two of us?”
Maelie nodded, and bowed. “Of course, Princess!” She winked. “You shall be able to leave in half an hour?”
Elise nodded. “Oh, Maelie, you and your pet names! My sweet friend...”
Joey looked like he was going to laugh at the two. They both resembled children with their attitudes, kind natures, and voices, but their looks spoke of them as beautiful, strong women... exempting the fact that Maelie was a faerie.
“Alright then! Princess, Prince.” She nodded to both Joey and Elise. “You shall both go back and be normal in half an hour. No more, no less. Enjoy the time you have left, and if ever you are in need of a relief from the human life again, come back, and we shall play some more!” Although her voice was with energy, Maelie spoke softly, not wishing to let anyone hear that Elise and Joey were human.
“Thank you so much, Maelie! I am sure we shall have fun while we remain. Where shall we meet you, if we are to become separated?”
Maelie pointed to the edge of the brook. “There. If you cannot find me, meet me there when you feel light go through you. That is when the change shall start. I hope you do not wander off too far, if at all.”
Elise smiled as Maelie playfully rubbed against Joey. “Maelie! You and your playful ways... so like myself, if I had wings....” She laughed her sweet, musical laugh. “So, what shall we do next? Drink more nectar, dance more? Maybe even play among the flowers as the faerie children do?”
Joey looked down at Maelie, a bit nervous, then loosened up and smiled as she went to hug Elise. “Sure, why not? We are, after all, children ourselves here, no?”
Maelie nodded and smiled. “Indeed, you are. You are as old as many of our children. I believe I shall join you. Will we play hide and seek?”
Elise nodded frivolously, and clapped her hands once. “Oh! Yes, that was always a favorite of mine! Are you alright with that game, Joey?”
“Of course, angel. I would love to play that with you and Maelie.” He leaned down, gripping her chin and kissed her lightly.
Maelie laughed, dragging them from their moment over to the flowers and toadstools. “Come along you two, there’ll be plenty of time for that when you are back to your normal selves.”
Elise was caught off balance, almost falling off the petal they were currently standing on, and into the brook. Joey caught her and pulled her to him. He smoothed back the hair from her face and held her close as she steadied her racing heart. Maelie looked frightened.
“There there, Elise... I’ve got you.” Joey breathed into her ear, petting her hair gently as she leaned against his shoulder, trying to catch her breath.
“Princess! I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to catch you off guard! Are you alright?”
“Yes... thank you Joey.... And you for caring Maelie. It was... quite the adrenaline rush, I must say.”
Joey smiled. “You and your games, Elise.” He ruffled her hair, and she shot him a mean look. “Wow, I know not to do that again, don’t I?”
Elise grinned. “Yes, you do. Now, where were we about that game?”

The half hour passed quickly, and Elise and Joey felt light swim through them, almost like a sick, quivering feeling, but a warm one. Maelie was instantly by their side, leading them to the edge of the willow.
“Now, it is time to say goodbye. I hope you both shall come back once more and visit later on?”
“I intend to, Maelie, and maybe Joey will feel like joining me. I shall see you later then...” Elise hugged her friend, even kissed her cheek, and Maelie returned the favor.
“I shall be sure to come and join her when she does return, Maelie. I hope you fair
well.” He hugged the faerie and kissed her cheek, as Elise had done, Maelie again returning the favor.
“Well then.... As the night comes closer and the time draws near, I wish you both safety as you go away from here.... Return!”
Maelie lifted her arms, suddenly, to the sky, her gaze following as well. Elise and Joey were both back to their normal height, standing in the clearing. The sky was growing a beautiful rosy pink. Elise sighed, and leaned against Joey. His arms came around her instantly.
“You are tired, aren’t you?”
“A little, but I promised to spend the day with you, and now... you must decide what you want to do. We made an agreement.”
“Elise... you are too sweet. To be honest... I am a bit tired myself, mostly from all that dancing, aren’t you?” Joey leaned to kiss the hollow of Elise’s neck, and she smiled.
“Yes... but you must still decide what we do, alright?”
“Okay then. I have the perfect idea.”
Joey went to gather their cloaks, and laid his on the ground, pulling Elise to come and sit with him on the warm material. He laid hers over them both, and it was surprisingly big enough.
“We shall sleep here, in the warmth of this magical place, agreed?”
“Joey...” Elise reached up to touch his face. “You are too sweet, too romantic for your own good....”
“But, for some reason, Elise... You choose to love me anyway.” Joey kissed Elise, curling up beside her, and resting his head on his arm.
“Sweet dreams, my love...” Elise whispered, placing her arm around his waist and moving closer to him as well.
“Sweet dreams, my angel.” Joey kissed the top of her head, and they both fell asleep in the warmth of Rowan Oak. Maelie coming to place her own cloak around the two after they’d drifted off to sleep.
“Aw, poor mortals. You tired yourselves out in all the fun. Well, no matter. I shall make sure nothing happens to you, and that you both stay warm and comfortable in your dreams of one another.” Maelie smiled, casting her spells.
When she was finished, the faerie slipped away, back to her little post at the willow. She watched the sweet couple into the night, until the stars came out, and she, herself, disappeared out of sight.


~~~~I hope you all enjoy this chapter. I'm supposed to be asleep, and must go to school in a few hours. I'm sorry if I seem as though I'm not happy for a few days... and to be honest, I won't be. I hate this hellish twist life has brought upon me. I do hope you all are well. I shall speak more later. Enjoy, it took away some of my sleep time to get this chapter to you all. ^_^ Ja.~~~~
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