Thursday, July 1, 2004

*sigh* About to leave, but I'm doing well. ^_^
*sigh* Well, I just got done registering... and I'm about to head out. ^_^ I'm glad to all that are still going to stick with me through this, lol...and I will get to a computer whether I have to kill someone or not, I'm not gonna stay away from the only way I can talk to any of my friends. ^_^ Well, better go eat...long road ahead of me. ^_^ Ja matte ne! Love you all and I'll miss ya too! *hugs and Chocolate for all!* Lol, Bye! ^_~
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A new day!
*sigh* It's almost 1am...watching Anime Unleashed...and I'm trying not to think. Lol, I've thought about the Florida and miving thing, and I'm MUCH better. ^_^ Well, better go...Boogie Pop Phantom's on, and I wanna see this new episode. ^_^ Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful day! ^_^ And... so long as my wolves come with me and I don't miss the two Saturday's of Inuyasha and Wolf's Rain... I'm happy. Lol, hope everyone has a good day, and please, wish me luck, pray, whatever...lol. ^_^ Glad to know I have such AWESOME friends here. ^_^ You're all like family to me, cause my real one can go to hell cause they aren't the best..."loving" family, lol. Well, Ja matte ne! ^_~
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Wednesday, June 30, 2004

   I'm MUCH calmer...And thank you all for being here for me! ^_^
^_^ I am happy that all of you commented and wish me well. ^_^ *sigh* I currently live in South Carolina... but soon to be an hour or two away in Asheville. ^_^ I am going to go register in the morning at Renalds...then I get to spend 10 lovely hours with my little sister, and annoying mother. YAY! Lol...I'm being sarcastic... anyway! ^_^ I'm not feeling so bad...but now I'm worried about missing Wolf's Rain and Inuyasha...NO! lol...well, I'll find SOME way to record &/or watch it! I always do. ^_^ Well, I know my grandpa has a computer, and he's really sweet, so...I know I'll be able to get on...maybe not tomorrow...but the day after. ^_^ I hope to speak to everyone soon, and I hope everyone has a great day tomorrow! ^_^ Try to email me if ya want, k? Lol, Ja matte ne! ^_~ And everyone take care cause I am...lol. Later! ^_~
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   Sadness and frustration strike....
*sigh* Damn parents.... I found out..my adoptive dad and mother are blackmailing my to go to Florida for a week...thank GOD it's not two weeks like planned. I'm also moving to Asheville DURING those two weeks... SO! I get to be on the computer hardly any, I get to spend my time in Florida getting the HELL beaten out of my back by my younger brother and little step brothers from hell. I get to work when I come back...PLUS go to Asheville tonight and register for my new school. I like the place I grew up at...I don't want to leave... *sigh* I'm not getting to see any of my friends before I leave...and I'd only have less than a week to anyway. I've not gotten to talk to more than 2 of them since summer started... I hate riding 10 hours to see my adoptive father who isn't even MY father anyway... I hate my mother marrying this guy and moving to Asheville, and she didn't really want to! *sigh* BUT! I am getting online EVERY day I can, no one can tell me no. I'm the older child/grandchild (visiting my grandpa in Florida too) And they are spose to love me more! ^_~ Lol...well, I just had to complain... sorry about that...^_^ Lol, well...no, Tep... the Chocolate I'm giving away isn't the one you gave me! ^_^ I ate that already, lol. Well, 'll see you all later...and please, it'd make me feel better to hear from you all...so...email me or Comment often, please? I'm going insane and my friends are the only things to KEEP me sane...*deep breath*

Kiba and Tsume: CALM DOWN!

Me: I am...now anyway, lol. Well, Hugs, Candy, and Smiles for everyone! ^_~ ^_^ lol...my smiles...Lol, well, ttyl...I hope. ^_^ Ja matte ne ppl! ^_~

OH! And if anyone knows ppl who could be new friends of mine, PLEASE! I love getting new friends. ^_^ I'd really appreciate it! Ja ne! ^_~
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TIRED!!!! lol...*falls asleep, then is woken up AGAIN*
Grr...damn sister and phones...lol. J/k...ANYWAY! God...sleep no longer helps...lol. I'm still VERY tired...BUT! ^_^ Hyperness is kicking in, so I'm good for the day, lol. AND!!!....I don't know...lol. WELL! I wish EVERYONE a wonderful day, CHOCOLATE FOR ALL! and.... A smile for all and TAKE MY HYPERNESS! lol, j/k. Well, I hope you all have a wonderful day, and...*hears the screaming from her Dungeon* SHUT UP! *looks back to you all* heheh...^_^ Well! Gotta go... they want to be fed, lol. I'll talk to all of you later, hopefully. ^_^ And I'll put up a MUCH better post later on. ^_^ Ja matte ne! And I thank those that love me and comment and stuff, you all are great, and so are the rest of you, but I can't talk to you unless you comment or email me, lol. Ja ne! ^_~
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Tuesday, June 29, 2004

   Slow morning...off/bad day
*sigh* Thank you to all who commented yesturday... Welcome back Aura. ^_^ I hope everyone has a good day today... I'm not feeling that great (reasons I am NOT talking about) and I just woke up. ^_^ Burn all memories to hell! lol, I'm remembering something from LONG ago, and it's not happy. I don't know why...heh, at least it doesn't involve the ass that I'm mad at, lol. *hears the wolves growl (lol, they don't like him. ^_^)* Well, I'll go spend time with Tsume, Kiba, and the others to cheer me up...^_^

Kiba: Please feel better. I'll give you ice cream or something?

Me: No...no ice cream...my stomach can't take eating right now...*makes sick person moans*

Hige: NOT want to eat...wow... you are sick....or is it summer? Ah, it's both, lol.

Tsume: Shut up, she doesn't feel good, so leave her alone! Okay?

Me: Wow...*shocked look* I didn't know you cared Tsume....*smiles, then falls onto bed* I'm going back to sleep....

Kiba: Well, I guess we all better leave her alone...*all walk outside*

Me: Oh...lol, later ppl, and I'll try to have a pic or poem up later... Ja matte ne...*falls asleep*
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Monday, June 28, 2004

   Depression....what a wonderful thing...*yells at family* THANK YOU FOR YOUR WONDERFUL DISORDER THAT WAS PASSED DOWN TO ME!!!!! lol...*sigh*....
*sigh* My good mood's gone down... I keep thinking about "him" and how he's gonna hurt me in the end of it all... but I don't care. ^_^ I just need food *stomach backs me up with a loud growl* ^_^ and sleep, then I'll be fine. Lol...but I'm not tired...and I don't wanna eat...AH! the madness! lol...*sigh* Kiba! Tsume! Hige! Toboe! Can you guys help make me feel better? (btw: those are the guys from Wolf's Rain! ^_^)

Them: Yes...

Me: ^_^ Thank you! *they circle around me and tell me funny stories of Hige eating and all and I laugh while petting them* Yay...I'm a little better now...^_^ Hige's SUCH a pig! lol...speaking of which...I might wanna go eat...but I'm not hungry...

Hige: Not hungry?! Are you crazy! Your stomach's growling like a maniac!

Me: Yeah...I know, but that doesn't mean I have to feel hungry...it means my stomach says I need to be fed to live...^_^ I'm just not hungry or able to sleep well or wake up after I do sleep when I'm depressed...All well...^_^ I can get over it, right? Afterall...I need to...*tries to force self to feel better* Ow...I think I strained my one brain cell...lol. ^_^ Well...I'll talk to everyone later...And Kira(InuYashaiscool)
...^_^ let me know when you want Hiei back... Ja ne all...and I'll promise to try and cheer up...^_^ Later!

Wolf's Rain Group: Bye!


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   HYPERNESS!!!! LMAO! ROFL! OMG! When will the madness end?! Lol....*sigh*...I'm calm, I swear...^_^ NOT! lol...
YAY! THANK YOU InuYashaiscool!!! ^_~ I have my Hiei back now...along with my Inuyasha!!! ^_^

Hiei: Omg...how dare you! You evil wench! You betrayed me for her?!

Me: SHUT UP! *hits Hiei* Don't talk about my friend that way! ^_~

Inuyasha: Uh... can I get out of the Dungeon now?

Me: NO! *back to Hiei* YAY! I have you back now!! ^_^ They'll come to get you later, lol... BUT! I don't care! ^_^ *hugs Hiei*

Hiei: ACK! Get off! *tries to hit her and get her to let go*

Me:*throws Hiei away from me and falls to knees "crying" (^_~)* OW! That hurt Hiei!!! You are so mean!!! *still "crying"*

Hiei: *sigh* I'm sorry... I'll get you ice cream or something if you stop crying...*Inuyasha is yelling at Hiei(lol)*

Me: YAY! *hugs Hiei* You mean it?! *cuddles Hiei, then says Inuyasha can come out of the Dungeon*

Inuyasha: Thank the saints! I'm free!!!! *I tackle him, bringing Hiei with me*

Me:NEVER! MWAHAHAHAHA! uh....lol, ^_^ HI! Lol, sorry, I'm in a hyper mood today all. Lol, and InuYashaiscool gave me my Hiei back too! ^_^ *cuddles Hiei* YAY! ^_^ I'm not normally like this, but a couple of my friends put me in a good mood today! ^_^ Thanks MA JR 4 letting me know about that funny pic of urs and Tepocoora for the "script" thing. Lol, it was great! ^_^
AND InuYashaiscool for giving me back Hiei! Ad the rest of you for being my friends! ^_^

Inuyasha: You seem to be cuddling Hiei a lot...so... you like him...more than me?

Me: NO! ^_^ *tackles Inuyasha again* I like you both the same! ^_^ I'm just happy to have Hiei back so I can keep him in my Dungeon again! ^_^ *throws Hiei in a cage* HA! Lol, I'd love to see you escape that!

Hiei: FINE! I will!!! *tries to break free, but unable to for a barrior and electric bars, and the works for a Dungeon* DAMN YOU!

Me: Heheh....I told you! ^_~ SO! I should hope to have another poem up later...or....*thinks, then snaps* I got it! ^_^ I'll give you guys a link for my fanfiction, and put up one of my new ones...or put my story up on here finally, lol. *grins and laughs* SO! Inuyasha... do you like...my poems and stuff? *gives him a chibi look like a child*

Inuyasha: Yeah...I guess... but the one where you had Sesshomaru and Kagome...and then where he ki- *mouth covered by me* Uh...sorry, lol. Not spose to tell huh? ^_^

Me: NO! It's a surprise! And I'm not done with it! *hits Inuyasha and runs off to go hide in the black room filled with desks(^_~ Demetre remembers from IMs, lol)* NOT FAIR! You all hate me!!!

Hiei: YEAH I DO!!! Let me out!!!

Inuyasha: No I don't! come out of there!

Me: NO and NO! Leave me alone!!!

See? They do hate me... Hiei even said he did...*sigh* *sad look* Now I'm sad... Anyone know anything I could do to them to make them behave? ^_^ I'd be eternally greatful! ^_^ Ja ne all! OH! And I'll put my link for fanfics up and all, lol. Ja ne! ^_~
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Sunday, June 27, 2004

   BOO! Lol...um...what was I thinking? Lol!.....no...seriously...^_^
Lol, ok...apparently, no one looked at the poem, or no one liked it...eh! Lol, all well. ^_^ BOO! Lol, just to wake the rest of you ppl up! Lol, j/k... *sigh* I've not been able to stay awake today... ^_^ Long night of Anime, (Saturdays are awesome!) and then a long car ride home from Asheville. ^_^ I put on relaxing music and fell asleep, thinking of the Characters from Wolf's Rain...^_^ *looks in room, and whispers to self* Yep...still there...OH! ^_^ Lol, SO! tell me about how your days are? Lol, I'd love to hear about it! ^_^ Well, Gotta run! Lol, Ja ne all! ^_~
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Saturday, June 26, 2004

Deep Dispare (name of poem, lol)
Alone in such a cruel place,
Forever in distilled silence,
Taken from reality, the harshness too much,
Forever in the dead silence of a blackened heart.

Forever in dead cold darkness,
Alone in a world that shall lay in ruin,
All pass you by not noticing,
The black void of dispare engulfs you.

Do not feel alone and depressed,
I am in the same place,
Just a bit deeper in the cold darkness,
Reach just a little more to get there.

We can get through this together,
Travling deeper in despare,
Not alone but with to see it through,
Together in darkness, the deep light of hate.

OK! ^_^ I wrote that over a year ago, lol...and my 7 year old sister was going through them and I needed one to put on my site anyway... so...^_^ She told me to put this one up because she liked it best, lol. I think she's cute when she's listening to poetry and singing to Evanescence. ^_^ I hope you all enjoy. Lol, I'll put up my poetry, and "Mood of the day" posts until I can FINALLY get my story posted, lol...but I'm not at home so...lol, won't be until next week...hopefully. Lol, TTYL! Ja ne all! ^_~ OH! And my sister says hi in her "I'm lost in TV world" look, lol. She's so cute. ^_^ Later!
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