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myOtaku.com: Rayea Kagome chan
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Monday, October 18, 2004
A Broken Heart and Mind....
BrosenkaSSJ4 [4:37 PM]: but you still trust me with your heart...?
BrosenkaSSJ4 [4:37 PM]: why?
Drayea222 [4:38 PM]: I told you as I did to Michael.... I care deeply... as much as I did before about you both... it won't ever change..... it can't.... once engraved in my heart, forever engraved in my soul....
A bit of a convo I had with Brosenka..... I do mean it, forever engraved into my soul if only once engraved within my heart....Here's a few things I wish for some to know.... for one in particualr.... He knows who he is....
Drayea222 [4:53 PM]: I want them to eat MY soul.... let Michael rip my still-beating heart from my cold and hollow chest! let Heather and Brandon feast upon my blood, and may they all seek the comfort they need in the end.... I no longer know what to do.....no longer know what to say........what can I do when I'm so lost as this? so shattered and willing to throw myself at their mercy and tell them, BEG of them to kill me and hurt me until they see fit to stop?!
I am broken.... shattered.... I didn't write the email that pissed him off, nor would I have allowed it to be sent. I apologize from the depths, the darkest, blackest depths of my cold, shattered and broken heart, I am truly truly sorry Demetre.
Vil has officially fucked me over. And I no longer can supress my emotions... or anything. Vil has made it to where I can no longer be closed from anyone, and she has truly fucked over life with Demetre. I apologize SO greatly to you.... I no longer can be hurt... I am broken... I no longer know when I will update, nor do I know if it will be more than a few broken words or phrases.... I'm sorry I bring pain to the ones I care for the most... the ones I put my heart on the line to get back and stay as merely friends if they wish to be nothing more, or the ones I truly want to love once more like I did.
As said before... And Demetre, take this to heart.... Once engraved in my heart, always and forever engraved into my soul.
Ja.
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