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Gender
• Female
Location
• Where ever I happen to choose at the time.
Member Since
• 2004-06-18
Occupation
• Writer
Real Name
• Night

Personal

Achievements
• Depends on what you'd call an acheivement....
Anime Fan Since
• A long time, hard to say from wence it all started...
Favorite Anime
• Most any and all anime.
Goals
• Another secret for me to know and you to not.
Hobbies
• To sing, write (be it poetry or my stories), involving myself in my art, and my music (be it writing my songs and putting them to music or playing any random thing and listening to my CDs), also my artistic works.
Talents
• Oh, it'd make it so much more interesting to speak to me in person about that.

myOtaku.com: Rayea Kagome chan

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Life's Sweet Sorrow and Endless Madness....
To be perfectly honest? I hate none of you... mostly you, Brosenka. A pain in my side you might have been, but yes. Your comment is correct. For all of you who did not see it, I'll post it here today.

"Everyone that reads this can hate me....but i believe you are getting what you deserve, you no longer have any of the humans or my own feelings. I could care less if you live in torment for the rest of your life for that is what you caused for the human. Live in dispair if thats what the greater ones decide for you. farewell for now and forever do not darken my halls henceforth."

You're right. I did bring this upon myself. I was not what my parents wanted of me, so it's only natural they shun what they hate. As for other things? Heh, life is too funny.... I apologize I have not been keeping up to date on MyO....

On weekends, I have no access to a computer, and I've not been to school in several days. I've been stuck with so many needles, my mother FINALLY taking me to a doctor, and no one knows what's wrong yet, if ever.... Hopefully, since they've taken blood samples, they canfinally figure this out. I will laugh myself into my grave if I have some terminal disease or something....

I do apologies for my morbid ways of thinking... I'm not well. A few of my friends have begun to close off from me, and I am wondering if it's because they see the darker side of me over what I've been showing or if they truly do not want to be near me anymore.... People close off far too often, and it's quite annoying at times....

Again, this is a morbid train of thought I was going on, so do not get angry or upset with things said.... It's truly how I felt at the point in time of writing this post. I am not saying this is how I am going to stay, but for now... I need a bit of venting.... I got rid of everything on my second computer (the one without internet and with all my stories). All my files are on backup disks at a safe house (the location of which, for safety reasons, will not be disclosed).
I do hope you all are going to be safe and well. I am tired, wishing to sleep and willing to finish a few things to get over some of this depression....

Avi'nala.
"Blessings to you who go from my heart."

~Night

PS- I'll PM my number to those who asked.

"Life's sweet sorrow and endless madness
Driving us to the brink of hellish torture
All of which we brought unto our own souls
Forever haunting us until the very demise
Aching wants and yearning needs of the heart and soul
Banished forever into hated mindless pains...."
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