Thursday, November 10, 2005

   Breaking up =( =(
well Will broke up with me yesturday... he broke my heart. I was talking on the phone with one of my friends and he said that he had talked to Will earlier that day and he asked him if he was interested in someone else (because i wanted to know) and he said maybe and then he said that if I called him he probably wouldnt answer... then I asked my friend if he would ask him for me if its over ( because he wouldnt answer my calls >_<) and so my friend called him back and asked him and he said "I guess so" =( and then my friend called me back and told me... he is such a wimp!!!! and a dumbass!!!!! he couldnt even break up with me face to face!!! or by himself! he had to go and get someone else to tell me >_< GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! pisses me off!!!!! and he said he didnt want to hurt me but how does not calling me back or answering my calls not hurt me??!!!! He promised me he would never hurt me!! It hurt so bad... after I was done talking to my friend I went to my room and it hit me like 20 min after i talked to him that Will broke up with me... and then I cryed myself to sleep last night. I miss him so much. You know at first I was thinking of how we used to joke around and saying "oh if you hang up on me I'm goin to break up with you" and i would and then call him back and we would play around lol but one thing I know i wont miss from this relationship is the Yelling. he yelled at me alot and would argue with me all the time, like i could never talk to him without arguing. It really sucked =/ we went out for a little more than 2 months. I guess I always knew that he wasnt good for me... my parents and my brother and my friends would say that he treats me bad but I didnt want to believe them... but i know that deep down I knew it was true. I just wanted to show people and myself that I could go out with a guy longer than 2 months and have an actual relationship... like my brother has with his Gf, they've been dating for months. I dont know what Im going to do, I dont know how things are going to go and I dont know how long Its going to take me to get over this...
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Monday, November 7, 2005

   Is he happy that I'm sad?
God, I've been so depressed lately =/ Will did call me all weekend and I never got to see him either, he never tells me if he's goin to go out somewhere, and he said that he probably would be able to hang out on Sunday but he didnt even call me.... I called him like 43732043742472037 times and he was never there =/ I wonder if he even thinks about me when we're appart for so long... Is he happy that I'm sad? Does he even care? I have no idea because he never tells me if anything is wrong, dunno how long I can last, never being able to see him in all =/ I really have become so attached to him and in the begining it felt like I loved him but now I dont know. I'm so tired of worrying about him for once I would like him to worry about me... If I'm OK, if I'm alright, or if theres anything he can do to help... I dont know how I'm goin to get out of this mess, I keep trying and trying and trying but I dont think that he really loves me. I dont know whats goin to happen but I'll let yall know whenever it does.
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Friday, November 4, 2005

   Foot ball game!
hey everyone there's a foot ball game tonight!!!! Its so gonna ROCK!!! ^_^ I'm goin to meet up with some friends there and I'll let yall know how it went. Well I dont think that I will beable to see Will this weekend unfortunatly T_T *sigh* I'm still goin to call him though. well I got to go, so buh byes for now ^_^
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Monday, October 31, 2005

   Breaking up?
Yesturday was so depressing I was so confused. It all started after school when I called Will... I was talking to him and then he told me that AJ said he thinks we should break up because he thinks we dont look very happy together!!! ( which is not true) and what really worried me was that Will actually thought about it for a long time!!! I asked him if he was going to break up with me and he said " I dont know." at that point I started crying really bad and he apparently heard me on the phone and he kept telling me to cool down and stuff then he said that he wasnt going to break up with me and I was so relieved!!!! you have no idea how much that scared me =/ i was so upset... Will then got his homework done and came over to my house for a few hours. We went on a walk in the woods and stuff and we talked about what happend. AJ kept calling him and asked him if he took care of the "Hannah problem" yet and I almost started crying again even though Will already said that he wasnt going to break up with me. Will told me to look at him in the face and he told me that he swears he would never to anything like that to hurt me. I felt alot better after that and he said that he didnt care what AJ said. I dont know what I would do with out Will... I love him so much and I'm glad we didnt break up
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Saturday, October 29, 2005

   Awesome time VS conciquences
Well I went over to Will's the other day and I had soooooooo much fun!!!!! we had to watch his little brother and sister for a while but thats ok. well we were down in his basement listening to music and "stuff" at about 9:00 AM when my dad called!!!! he said that my mom has been knocking at the door and ringing the door bell for 10 minutes!!!! omg!!!! we ran upstairs and got to the door and my mom was sooooooooooo pissed at me!!!! she asked if Will's parents were there but they wernt and I'm not suppose to go over to a guys house Without there parents there. Soooooooooooo my mom started yelling at me in the car when we left and said that I'm never allowed to go over there again!!!!!!! I was like WHAT THE FUCK! I started to cry and Got really upset and so then my mom said that I'm such a DRAMA QUEEN and that really pissed me offff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD!!! I was soooo angry at her and I still am! she said that she was goin to call his parents and say HOW DARE YOU LEAVE HANNAH AND WILL ALONE!!!!! OMG you have no idea how much that would embarrass me!!! but its either that or I can never go over to his house again. I dont want to break up with Will and I'm not because I love him way too much to do that and I wont let anyone break us up either!! Will is suppose to come over today but I dunno if thats goin to happen because my mom is still really Pissed off, I hope he does though I love him so much T_T
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Thursday, October 27, 2005

   Last game of the season!
well everyone yesturday was our last game of field hockey for the season T_T so sad, and to make it worse it was like negative 32470324302 degrees XD lol it was soooooooooooooo cold! I was freezing my butt on in my skirt! haha. we ended up loosing the game, it was 3-0 * sobs uncontrolably* but hey atleast we did better than last time we played them, we lost 6-0 then, but that was the first game of the season lol so we improved a little bit atleast ^_^ the ride home was sooooooooooo much fun! lol we stopped at Wendies! the best fastfood place to go *_* and we saw like this REALLY hot guy there!!!!!!!!!!! omg he was so hot. lol some of my friends say bye to him when he left but I didnt because I know I already have a REALLY hot bf ^_^ lol speaking of Will one of my friends said that he was cheating on me and said that it was a while ago!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg you have no idea how freaked out I was!!!! well it turned out that she was just kidding!!!!!!!! omg I felt so stupid hahahahahaha I called Will on one of my friends cell phones but it wasnt for very long because he had to go cause he was at him grandmas. He did call me though when I got home and we talked for a while, he wants me to come over to his house for Halloween but I'm a bit reluctant to because he never comes over to my house :-/ I really wish he would I mean we dont even have to spend alot of time IN my house we can go for a walk or something I guess he's just being paranoid :P well I dont have much else to say right now so ta ta for now lol ^_^
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

   Sick T_T
god I was sick yesturday and I had to stay home from school T_T my stomach was so upset and now today I keep getting headaches! I hate it when cold weather makes you sick lol it really sucks. Will was busy all weekend so I didnt get to see him, and for anyone that doesnt know, he goes to a different school than me unfortunatly. I'm going to a Halloween movie night at on of my friends house's on saturday and we have to bring a really scarry movie and dress up and stuff. I cant wait!!!!! it goin to be so much fun!!!!!!!!! well I'll write laters ta ta for now!
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Friday, October 21, 2005

OOOOOOOOOOOH YEAH!!!! WOOT WOOT!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!! we won our field hockey game yesturday!!!!!!!!!!!! 4-0!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was like HOLY CRAP!!!!!!!!! LOL our vasity team won too but we won by one more point than they won ^____^ annnnnnnnd our vasity team is #1 in the state! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOT WOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!! on our way home we stopped by subway and got dinner and then talked for like 4327432740 hours on the way home XD Omg i was having such a hard time fighting the urge to call Will from one of my friends cell phones and i was like freaking out all over the place lol I didnt call him though because my friends didnt have alot of charge on their cells and I didnt want to use up their minutes anyways, but i did find out that he called me when I was at the game so Imma goin to call him today and see if he can hang out ^_^
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

   Wrong number! XD
hahhahahahhaha omg I felt so stupid today!!!!!! my field hockey practice ended earlier than usual so I when to the office to call my dad and get him to come pick me up, sooooooooo when I went to dial my home number I dialed Will's instead!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDD I hung up as soon as i relized that I was calling him instead!!!!!!!! lol it was so funny I felt so retarded.
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Tuesday, October 18, 2005

   Sooooooooooooooooooo Happy! ^_^
Omg! I'm in such a good mood today!!!!!!!!!! thinks between Will and I are getting ALOT better!!! he makes me so happy lol. No matter what I do I cant seem to stop thinking of him! hes always on my mind and it's getting so hard to pay attension in class becuase i keep day dreaming about him lol. I know this may sound a bit grade school but he makes me want to draw those little hearts all over my homework =P lol. I dunno what I would do without him, I love him so much! ^___^
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