Saturday, October 15, 2005

   Football game
hey everyone, there was a football game yesturday at my brothers school and it was his school vs the school Will goes to so Will and I went to go see it. It was soooooooooooooo much fun! we hung out the entire time there with some friends and sat around talkin. well right before Will and i were about to make out my friend said " hey! dont yall start makin out in public!" and Will was like all "damnit!" lol it was so funny well anyways i turned Will's face towards mine and started making out with him! XD hahhahhaha it was so funny cause Will said NO! not in public lol and he turned his head away haha. I had an awesome time! it was so much fun. Will's school won the game it was like 22 to 15 XD lol we sucked. well gots to goes!!! ^_^
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Sunday, October 9, 2005

   no where to run
Well not much is going on, and i dunno if thats a good thing or a bad thing, i guess its a little of both actually... the good part of it is that well nothing has made things worse for me and Will, and the bad part is that Will hasnt done anything at all, not even call me... hehe well i guess thats not saying too much because he never does call me anways haha. It hurts so bad though :-/ I dont even have anyone the run to anymore :-//// and the only one that can ever make me happy again is Will but doubt that, that will happen :P I guess I'm just goin to have to learn to dry my own tears

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Saturday, October 8, 2005

   Tearing me apart
I dont know what to do... Will was suppose to come over today and he even told me that he wasnt busy today, but its already 3:00 and he Isnt home! I called him like a million times and even his cell phone but no one answered, the strange thing is actually that after ther first time i called him on his cell it was on, but the second time i called it was off, so he must have known that i called. :( i have no idea what to do!!!!!!!!! I try so hard to make things work for us but i cant do it alone, and i feel like Will doesnt even try!!!!! He says he loves me but Love isnt just a word that you say because someone else tells you they love you, you have to mean it and he told me he loves me but i dont think he REALLY does :/ i love him so much that I'll put up with him not calling me just as long as i can talk to him. I wish he could just show me that he cared about me... We were suppose to spend time together today but he doesnt even bother to call me and say that hes busy :( I wish that he would just call me... I feel like I'm the only one really trying to make things work, and its probably true... but I wont break up with him because i want us to work and i love him so much even though its tearing me apart.
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Tuesday, October 4, 2005

   The one I love
Omg I love Will so freakin much! I cant ever stop thinking about him! when ever i think of him, it makes me want to draw those little hearts on my homework lol. I love him so much that when he doesnt call me it hurts me because i worry about him so much!!! Will I love you so much, you are my everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^ ^______________^
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Saturday, October 1, 2005

   Grounded >_<
Omg!!!!!!!!!!! i got grounded from the computer for a friggin week! Just because i failed a test! its so gay! >_< grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! im sry that i havent be able to update my sit more often so im tryin to make it up. well yesturday was school spirit day and our school is divided up into sections and im in the upper school which is like the high school and the middle school is well the middle school anyways the upper school is the gold team and the middle school is the blue team and every year we have a competion on who has the most spirit and cheers the most and crap and whoever does gets the spirit stick. the hallways were all decorated with streamers and posters and stuff, it was awesome!!! we all went down to the field and had a competion who could cheer the most and the upper school like started a huge mosh pit thing lol it was so much fun. people had there faces painted and had their hair died blue and gold and everything, the blue team won but it was still alot of fun :P today is the homecoming dance and i cant wait! its goin to be so much fun! Will and i are goin to go out to eat with some other friends and a country club, its suppose to be really fancey and crap but i dunno ive never been, but its goin to be fun either which way ^_^
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Thursday, September 22, 2005

   School spirit week!
hey everyone!!!!!!! well school spirit week is coming up and apparently everyone goes crazy at our school when its school spirit week, or so im told. we have locker competitions where we decorate our lockers and people judge em and lots of other stuff goin on too. But to tell you the truth i miss my friends that all went to the city school T_T
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

   Will
well today went pretty smooth i guess, i was so worried today cause Will hasnt called me for a few days, and i didnt know if he was tired of me or something. Well i called him and asked him why he hasnt called and it turns out that he really hurt his back at football =( i feel so bad now cause i was really angry at first and then i found out that he got hurt. i really hope he gets better i know it really sux to have your back hurt cause in field hockey you have to bend down alot ( im in field hockey if ya didnt know). I miss him so much, he goes to a different school so i dont get to see him except on the weekends =( well gots to goes
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Sunday, September 18, 2005

   Memories
Forgotten dreams
lost memories
things i miss the most
happiness beyond my reach
nothing left to bring me hope,

hidden from me as if it were a game
fantasies that never came true
i search for them in vain
hopeless what to do,

the memories made to make me happy
were nothing compared to those i lost to you
given to you for safe keeping
every last one true

taken from me when you left this world
never given back to remember
lost in a place that i cant reach
when you left me in the month December

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Friday, September 16, 2005

   my awesomely awesome dress!!!! ^-^
oh yeah! i so got my homecoming dress today!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yays! its so awesome i love it so much! i had to go out of town to get it cause our mall sux like really bad but it was worth it cause i think its really pretty. the picture of the dress above is what i got but the girl isnt me, she's just modeling it =P just incase the picture doesnt show, the dress is a black halter top, the botton is flary and it a little bit sparkley but not like OMEGA sparkley.
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Thursday, September 15, 2005

   unsuported :-/
well i had another game today and we had the same score as last time >_< but this time i sat on the bench for like the entire time and was only in the game for like less than 5 minutes cause i was the last one on the bench =( and what was worse was that when the game was over my dad didnt even say good job!!!!!!!!! he couldnt even say that =((((((( my mom and my brother and his gf left before they got to see me play so i felt really really unsupported *sigh* well I'll try my best to keep my head up ^_^ i guess u dont really get anywhere if u just complain about it so I'll try harder ^_^
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