Friday, July 1, 2005

   Over and never to return
well i just got back from summer camp and it was soooooooooooo much fun! we went canoeing down rapids, rock climbing, repelling down cliffs, and white water rafting! i got banged up a little but it was worth it. some guy asked me out at camp like the second day and i have no idea why he would do that. i mean c'mon he doesnt even know me! but anyways i told him that i dont wanna go out with anyone right now (Lying) another thing that is really off topic is that i think that my obsession for Ransom is dead, i dont like him anymore. i guess one of my really good friends gave me the best advice ever, and i have to thank her so much for that. i asked her why he doesnt like me and that i like him so much and she said that its because hes knows me, he knows the me that i showed him and he know how i react to things and i guess in a way shes right, he does know me and he knew that things wouldnt work out even when i though it could. but its alright ive always liked two guys and couldnt ever decide which one would love me and never let me go but now i know who it is. the two guys where ransom and chance ive always wanted go out with chance but since he lives in a different city all my friends gave me advice not to like him or go out with him so i just fell back to ransom. Chance was always the one i really wanted but it makes me wonder... he wanted a kiss from me on his bday but he had a girlfriend. would he ever do that to me? try to cheat? would he even care? i told him no bc i had a boyfriend and he had a girlfriend. i just remeber every time we spent together and that he really seemed to care about me. he offered me his jacket when it was cold even though he had shorts on and i had a jacket and long pants. no one has ever done that for me before not even my old boyfriends and i told him no. I couldnt do it because he would be really cold if i took it! and probably get really sick too! and i know that would be fine with what i had, and i just couldnt do it. i coulnt let him be cold cause i care about him! i do. i wish i had kissed him i wish he knew how much i like him i wish he knew everything. we never needed words to talk. we sad next to eachother in silence bc just the thought of him sitting next to mean was enough to keep me going for a life time. its like we could talk without saying a word. i miss him. omg im talking waaaaaaaaaaaaaay to much right now and i bet that ya dont really want to read all this stuff so ill just stop lol ^_^ sry bout that
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