myOtaku.com: red kie

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Birthday
• 1991-10-30
Gender
• Female
Location
• right behind you
Member Since
• 2007-02-02
Occupation
• being alive...or not
Real Name
• lucia

Personal

Achievements
• i beet santa at an armwreseling match and hes no puch over i mean he hase to ary tons of toys while breaking in to their homes imean thats not fat its musel
Anime Fan Since
• eversence i can remeber
Favorite Anime
• any anime that i like
Goals
• geting ppl to go to the netral side not good or evil ..we are the lasy ppl GO NUETRALS !!
Hobbies
• killing santa if your new to this isght i have a vendeta against him,join me!
Talents
• spining around in curcels oooooo drawing day dreaming wrighting

myOtaku.com: red kie

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

please read! alll! i need feed back and tell me if my post is cut off this is important to me !
i had the weardest dream last night it scared the living shiet out of me even thow it wasent scary it was just out of the blue weard!
i had a dream that i was the re-encarnation of mary! mary jesuse's mother! i rember it was some blind crased man that was straingly about my age 16-20 i guess]
blablering off about how e he doesent know y HE CHOSES to protect me and this and that i fergot the rest but i put two and two to gether!and i started crying and runing ! he was lieing he had to be then i tasted blood i wiped my tears and the tears were blood ..if you ever here3d of the storys of mary's statues bleeding tears?
to me to be mary would be horable fate
number one i would have to have a child i NEVER want to have children as bad as that might sound to you to me it makes me feel like you know exicstance is live grow up to machurity so you can have a child raise the child die and the sycle starts over againPS IM NOT TELLING ANY ONE TO GO OUT AND HAVE CHILDREN OR NOT THIS IS MY OWN APINOIN AND IM JUST TRYING TO LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW I FEEL [even if you try to brighten it up it still the darck reality of this world have children or all traces of you will vanish ]!ponce i have a child it makes me feel like my use in this world is over i pased on the geans and my fortune [wich i have non ] pluse i am not redy to sacrafice [i knwo that may sound greedy]
does making me go agains nature bad?
i want to think that i am more than just a woum !
and when ppl call me names like mom or tell me im pregnat i realy feel like killing them[cause they know i dont wana have children they think its just a phase i garentee they are wrong...
also reason number two all mary was able to do while they killed some one special to her was wach i know in my heart i would die if i ever wached some one be killed and do nothing i would die inside !i would kamakasi before anything like that happend!
reason number three it is said that the second coming of jesus would be the end to the world right?....i dont wana bring an end to excistance im one of the few wo would think eternal life would not be a curse!

ps sory for geting a religion subject on here T.T
weard dream i know.....
i know very long please dont kill me .....

changing topicks....[dont kill me this is not as important but hey its a part of my life and how im good at pointing out scum]
"i sould had lisened to you" and i "never thot it would hurt so much...." thease two frases keep repeating in my head i feel so gilty for my freind
her boy friend broke up with her this was her first love...it makes me feel gilty because i knew this was going to happen whell i dint know but i told her it would.... n0w i feel like i predestined her for falior...
but nother the less this is hardly my folt i just feel guilty because i hated her because she was with him and such but i stoped caring a long time ago [stoped hatting]about how she took my place at work...
i feel like kiking his ass...again....
lol again i opologise for the llong post!!!!
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