Saturday, December 6, 2008

I Crack The Family Tree And Chopped Off All Of The Branches

listening to: risky business-the cab writing: slow motion icon of the day: Cassie's Comment Corner: roseeyes: that's awful, i certainly hope that your aunt is alright in the end. unfortunately she's hella bigger than me and a notorious fighter so, yeah, i'm just gonna ignore her. well, thank you very much for the compliment! *hugs* lavi: well, i am very sorry about your uncle and aunt. jenny: WHAT THE FUCK ARE THE CHANCES THAT CANCER WOULD COME ON AS I TYPE THIS? hey, i would never ask taylor to go down on me so...yeah. i think we took that picture when we were at dominoes not pizza hut. ha ha remember laura's hands got all red from that toy she got at the show? they might as well call that sandwhich a bolonge sandwhich. ha ha yeah, we're stupid sometimes. dude, no, i though mario was making fun of me or something. we were not drunk, i fell because i slipped on a rock. i was not staring at you, i was reading twilight. ha ha guilty pleasure kept getting in our heads because i was wearing that cobra shirt. that there be a mayday parade reference from jamie all over. brendon is a bad little murderer. dude, i was just telling my mom about the time you and your mom fought on the way to your aunt's. that dude was so hitting on us. lawl at the sandwhiches and your aunt getting so pissed. clay aiken scares me no matter what size he is. awww that last part made me sad, you is mah brendon urie. ily. I guess Jenny wins for like longest comment response ever. lawl. Jenny steals all my firsts. [guess that reference biatch] So, my uncles funeral is going to be on Wednesday, the visitation is on Tuesday. The crazy thing is that the funeral home is right across the street from my old school and the school my brother currently goes to. sad. My mom talked to my cousin [my uncles daughter] and they're going to play this song..I can't remember the name but I think it's called 'Brother Daniel' My brother's friend Ellie burned it on a cd for my mom which was nice of her and my mom cried while listening to it. Dad came over and was giving me what they call 'tough love' because he kept pestering me until I did what he wanted. [like the dishes] Lot's of parentheses this post. Talked to Jenny and took a nap. Mom steadily drank more and more and eventually got drunk and spilled a lot of family secrets on me. Some of them I already knew but some I didn't. I know every family has secrets but holy hell, these ones are insane. Like, they say that my mom had a twin sister who was taken away at birth, they say that a lot of my aunt's and uncles aren't really my grandpa's kids. Surprisingly that's on both sides of the family. Secrets are insane and maybe I'd rather not know at all. My birthday is in a couple weeks. Who wants to make me a card? Lawl. Sometimes I feel like I can relate to Ryan Ross and his family situation. xoxo Cassie

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Friday, December 5, 2008

As The Curtain Closes On Another Day

listening to: feel like rain-motion city soundtrack writing: slow motion icon of the day: obviously my otp Cassie's Comment Corner: krissy: yeah, i feel stupid for fearing that orientation. but i don't do too well when i'm out of my comfort zone. roseeyes: do not want to think of my uncles manhood. *horrfying shudder* thank you for thinking i am tough. *hugs* angel zakuro: i know, i'm like that with my stories for sure. if someones like constructive critisizes me i still like gah, i could've done better. well, if i don't take a saturday class than i guess i don't have to go..i dunno college confuses me. megan: aha megan your comment made me all warm and fuzzy. ily. So, just when I honestly didn't think things could become harder for my family...they did. I wake up to my brother in my room telling me that our uncle Danny died around five o'clock yesterday morning. Horribly sad for my mother. My brother and I weren't really close with him though. The last time I saw him was when I was like ten maybe...I dunno but it's still sad. He was only sixty-two. My aunt says that he had woken up at five in the morning to have some coffee and had went back to bed and died in his sleep. I don't know what happened to him yet. It is hard for my mom because that's her oldest brother and honestly...this is the first uncle or aunt I've had that's died since I became old enough to know what death was. Don't know about his funeral plans or anything yet but I think my grandma had bought him a plot in this graveyard where a lot of our family is burried. Besides that, we got a shut off for our electricity yesterday but I think we should be able to take care of that. And they cut off our cable off, which in comparison to everything else, isn't so bad but still, it's starting to feel like life is kicking us while we're down. My brother's award ceremony at school was yesterday too, along with parent teacher conferences. My brother did get a few awards, my favorite being 'rap master' and we ate some good food but what the fuck are the chances that I would see that same girl who I ran into the day before, the same girl who wanted to kick my ass over a guy I didn't even like. I swear to god I can't get away from her. Taylor was there though and since we were late I couldn't sit with her but somehow I ended up sitting kind of across from her and she kept making faces at me and heart signs all night. We talked and she said she'd kick this bitch who is talking shit about Danny and I, ass for me. I love that girl. She wants to go bowling for my birthday so I think I might just do that. Also saw Paul for the first time since he's cheated on Taylor and I was looking at him and he was like: Paul: why are you looking at me like that? Taylor: you know why she's looking at you like that. Me: *does shame sign* My brother sang a song with the student council and it was lol worthy. My friend Timmmy ran into me and we hugged a few hundred times. I swear to god everytime I saw him he was like "Hugs Cassie!" and even when he was leaving I patted him on the shoulder and he was like "Noooo one more hug!" I miss him. Got to see all my teachers and hear "We miss you Cassie!" Ha, I kinda wanna be in high school again. My favorite teacher who is like a second mom to me offered to give me $30 so I could register for classes at college but I declined. We did make plans to go out for dinner during winter break though. 'All again for you.' by We The Kings might as well be a chapter of my life story. xoxo Cassie

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Thursday, December 4, 2008

You Want A War? You Got A War But Who Are You Fighting For?

listening to: champange for my real friends and real pain for my sham friends-fall out boy writing: idk..maybe the crazy ryan story. icon of the day: I swear that will be my icon on christmas day Cassie's Comment Corner: jenny: you leave my patrick pussy alone! boo's generally tend to be bad honey bunny. like i said in the comment i left you, you must've called me when i was ordering the panic at the disco thing. somehow i knew you would laugh at that. roseeyes: you think i'm tough? ily. krissy: i did man up krissy! aww you got knocked down some stairs? megan: lawl, figures you would be the one person who would get kidnapped from arby's. i luffles you toooooo. emily: i am not old! even if i am twenty i don't look it, which will come in handy later. Uggghhh, I need to learn that if someone doesn't like something I write it doesn't make it bad. Leaaarrrnnnn it Cassie. So, yeah, the orientation. Sweet jesus I was so tired. I had only gotten like two and a half hours of sleep and my mom got no sleep cause she was next door with the neighbor who she's crushing on. Parking was excruciating and we had to park in the pay lot and we were late by ten minutes. At least there weren't a lot of people there, like 15-19 people at most. We had to wear nametag's and mom tells me that this guy was staring at me when I came in and kept staring until I sat down. He looked really familar...I felt like I've met him before. There was a goth kid in there and my mom was like; "Does he remind you of Danny?" and I'm like; "No, Danny was much prettier." Mostly orientation was hella borning and I was so tired. We watched this brief movie thing, talked a lot about classes and sememsters, things offered on campus, regular stuff you know? But the lady like to say the word 'Right' a lot. I mean A LOT. She was nice though. I found out the college has an anime club, maybe something to look into later. She used me in an example! Embarressing cause she's like; "Here's Beth and here's Cassie and let's say that Cassie picked a lot of classes, too many for her to handle so she dropped them and got W's on her transcrips and Beth didn't so, who would you want to talk to?" And this guy's like "I wanna talk to Beth." Blah, she kept referencing that too. We went walking around the building and we didn't go outside because it was too cold but I already know that I'm going to get so severly lost when I have classes to get to. -_- After that we went back inside and had to work a bit on the computer and do a scavenger hunt which was so insanely easy. I felt bad though because the older people didn't understand the computers. Anyhoo, then it was done and now i just gotta go back to register for my classes and after that actually attend class...which start's January 10th..on a Saturday. Epic suckage. Went to Gamestop and played the wii boxing in public. Lost. Went up to the school to pick up a copy of my transcripts and saw some of my least favorite people from last year. My uncle is a major asshole who is threathening to kick us out of our house and saying we have to be out my january 1st...if that happen's..I don't know what we'll do.... Aunt came over and she's going through a seperation and filing for bankrupcy. So, yeah. My mom is trying to get a job at goodwill though so maybe that will work. Guess I'll keep on praying... xoxo Cassie

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Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Yet There's Still This Appeal That We've Kept Through These Lies

listening to: headlines-we the kings writing: the bodyswap story [cause i don't feel like writing the whole name] icon of the day: ha ha combining one of my favorite things with one of jenny's. Cassie's Comment Corner: yoji: i think yoji is cool. ah, yes, that's almost as bad as having it on christmas. angel zakuro: just the little status thing where you can write what you're doing and i had a rather rude one on there before so i changed it to a not so rude one. megan: for real and then the goverment will come after you because you figured out their plan. i heart being vauge. jenny: mmkay, your confusing comments scare me. are you mad at me? emily: noooo, i'm cheating george bush out of his money since he's still the president. that Mayday Parade song reminds me of Jon Walker...don't ask me why. lawl. So, I went and ran errands with my mom yesterday. Mostly we just drove around to different stores. But we did go to Arby's to get my grandma some food and then this ambulance pulled up and I was in the car watching, freaked out because I didn't see anything. But I guess there was this guy who was collasped in the snow. I thought he was dead and I was no, because I don't want to see someone dead but he wasn't and they just picked him up and took him in the ambulance. Apparently he had been there for over an hour. We went to my grandma's but she and my mom are sort of fighting [in the looses use of the word] but my mom ended up getting mad and taking off without even saying goodbye. They kind of made up now I guess. And I went and got money put on my sorta credit card that I got a while back so I could order myself a fancy new birthday present. What did I get you ask? Well, I ordered the Panic At The Disco live cd/dvd deluxe version. It obviously has the dvd and cd and a fuckton of dvd extra's not to mention the deluxe edition comes with the wicked sweet book of polaroid pictures that was taken during their 2008 tour. I'm excited needless to say. It did cost fourty bucks but i said it could be a birthday/christmas present. Now I just need to push for the Folie A Duex CD. My dad called and told me that his girlfriend's aunt died on Thanksgiving. Which is sad because she was a nice lady. Right now I am worried for the majority of my friends. Today is my college orientation. I'm nervous but whatever I'll get through it. I'm not exactly nervous for the situation but for the other people that are going to be there. Whatever I'm a pussy. xoxo Cassie

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Tuesday, December 2, 2008

And He's Making You Scream With His Hands On Your Hips

listening to: you are the moon-the hush sound writing: crazy ryro story [i need to decide on a name for it] icon of the day: gsf yo! Cassie's Comment Corner: roseeyes: i've never read your work but i will take your word for it. tony: do you like yoji better than tony? Oh, i see your robot chicken reference there. good one. jenny: i know right? i was all like 'jenny doesn't love meh anymore!!!' *woe* oh come on! you don't think it would be hella fun? i used to love animal crossings when i had my gamecube. don't make me think that headfirst slide is about you and you know who. la la la that song actually reminds me of the apocalypse diaries. call me tuesday and eight my time okie dokie? If not just send me a message and tell meh. Ily Mayday Parade. Headache. I have a headache. I think it's because I forced myself to get up earlier than usual. Myspace is still being a bitch but at least I got to change my status and i totally talked myself out of putting something on there that I would've regretted. I did do my FAFSA yesterday. It's the federal student finace thing or something so I can get loan's and scholarships for college. I'm thinking I might be eligable for a lot of grant's because of how shitty my parent's did in school and of course my total lack of income. Cassie be cheating the goverment. Watch me get shot now. I'm kidding mr.president. Dude, I have like the best subject title ever. I might've used it before though... So...I'm getting this wicked sweet 'Panic At The Disco' thing for my birthday/christmas [stupid birthday being so close to christmas] feel me Krissy? This story puts me in a strange mind set. "No one will ever mark you besides me." xoxo Cassie

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Monday, December 1, 2008

Things Have Changed For Me And That's Okay

listening to: that green gentleman-panic at the disco writing: still editing the apocalypse diaries icon of the day: There love is liek woah. Cassie's Comment Corner: krissy: and i never said i didn't like being used. ha. wednesday would be the day of my orientation but as you told me on the phone 'Cassie you need to man up!', only not in so many word's. emily: blogspot is the site, blogger.com, it's basically a blog. no, myspace is not too good for me it's the fact that myspace leads me to having troubled thought's and i am avoiding that. jenny: sure, you're special...in the ryan ross eating paint chip's kind of way. ohhhhhh i should get a wii and we should get that wii speak thing and play animal crossing's. i wouldn't mind more pumpkin pie since timmy ate all the cakkkkke. it's a strange way of saying that i know i'm supposed to love you. megan: yew could never be lame bby. ha ha myotaku gsf ftw! So, I got to talk to dear Krissy today. Jenny and I had a threeway call. Sadly, all three of us quickly grew uber emo and bitter. lawl. I love us anyway. Now, I consider myself a good writer [not trying to sound cocky here] but I do. The only thing I seem to have a problem with is those effing apostrophes [and spelling that worrrd.] these things ' <--fucking hate those things. Apparently I have some spot in my brain that must not be able to register that all words that end with an S doesn't need an ' I had to do some major editing on stories because of that stupid little mark. But Jenny and Krissy should already know that because they read the stuff pre-editing and still love it. gracias ladies. Epic snowfall tonight. It's been snowing since eight in the morning on Sunday morning and it isn't going to stop until four on Monday night. It's really pretty and it kind of feel's like living inside a snowglobe. Catrick [my cat Patrick] was being an a-hole last night. And yes, animals can be a-hole's. OMFG The Rocket Summer is so damn cheery that it's almost annoying. Oh, do you guys' like the music on my site? If you stick around after the first song you get a new Fall Out Boy song. [not new to everyone] Trying to man up for Wednesday. xoxo Cassie

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Sunday, November 30, 2008

For Diamond's Do Appear To Be, Just Like Broken Glass To Me

listening to: Northern Downpour-panic at the disco writing: more like editing the apocalypse diaries Cassie's Comment Corner: Jenny: sometimes we do tend to get the shitty end of the stick. that is tragic. but i guess thing's could always be worse. yes, that is some serious bff dedication for you to be visting me all uber early. ily. miiiiiiigraaaiiiinnn's. Woah, it seem's Myotaku has died while I was gone. Maybe because it's the holiday season? Maybe because it's the weekend? It's sad, I hope it comes to life again soon. OMFG I am getting so sick of eating turkey left-over's...ughhhh... At least the computer seem's to be quick today. I might venture blogspot. No Myspace though..just, no. A true best friend forever is someone who will send you slash and also read it to you over the phone line. Jenny <3 Krissy also is <3 even though she doesn't comment me and just uses me for more apocalypse diaries. jk bby. Megan is <3 cause she makes me lawl. I'm scared for Wednesday. xoxo Cassie

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Saturday, November 29, 2008

This Is For Real, This Time I Mean It

listening to: hey britney-forever the sickest kid's writing: i think my crazy ryan ross story icon of the day: i effing love that boy. Cassie's Comment Corner: jenny: you were most certainly sweet-talked. JON IS WAAAAY MORE SEXY THAN WILLIAM. maybe it's just me being attracted to real boy's and not lady boy's. i do appreciate the slash sending. at this rate i sincerly doubt that blogger will work. emily: why don't you just add me on livejournal. it's; pinkichan. megan: jon's hips pwn everyone elses hips in the worrrrllllldddd. okie dokie, come sneak in mah bed when you wanna have the seckz but don't tell the jenny. for real, threeway call's are ftw. angel zakuro: ha, i know right? she like went bonker's but still i feel bad for the poor little thing. it's funny but at the same time the movie get's kind of sad. Bad news; he's back and I'm just that afraid that I won't be able to handle it. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't talk to him anymore...I promised but now it's hard. I can't though, I won't because he's not worth it, not worth the pain, not by a long shot. But that bitch need's to stay away from him. Anyhoo, talked to Jenny for a long while and she made me a cupcake and she claim's that she's going to freeze it for me until next summer. lawl. Hopefully we can have a threeway phone call with Megan or Krissy soon. I got my letter from the college I'm going to and it gave me my date for orientation. It's this Wednesday and it's three hour's long. God, it seem's anything I do there take's a long time. Basically we're going to be walking around the campus and I think I'm getting assigned a counsler. I need to do my finacial form's if this damn internet would cooperate with me. Should probably call Sydney and Taylor tomorrow. Oh, new music and hopefully by the time you read this, a new theme as well. Do tell me what you think. xoxo Cassie

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Friday, November 28, 2008

If I Was Queen Would You Become My King?

listening to: nightingale-saves the day writing: um...i dunno, perhaps slow motion after this. icon of the day: BEST ICON EVER! Cassie's Comment Corner: Jenny: no, no, i definitly missed slash more than you but not krissy. lawl i'm kidding bby, you know i went through desperate length's to talk to you. sadly still not slashed up, i'm afraid to get on livejournal because of the epic slowness that's sure to occure. it's only weird if you make it that way! oh ho i just referenced myself but no one else is gonna get it, not even yew. angel zakuro: i know! every time i watched antm i thought of you and i was so happy mckey won! though i was rooting for marjorie but oh well. tony: i know, i know, begger's can't be choosers and all that shizz. kissing would improve that sport...hell, it would improve any sport. megan: okay, but i get to be on top! belated birthday sex is the best kind of sex. krissy: i missed you tooooooooooo! i must confess that i already know some of what happened to you because of dearest jenny-bean. but still yeah, i smell a threeway call here somewhere. Gah, I'm rusty at posting now. I totally forgot that I usually put up an icon...oh, wait! I think I have one that I was gonna use... *searches documents* Ha ha, I knew I had one and it's a Jon one at that. Glee! So, yeah happy belated birthday to dearest Megan because I was not properly informed about her birthday. Did everyone have a good turkey day? Mine was fine, little average. It was just my mom, my brother, and I. But that's fine. I made everyone eat at the table and I had to say grace and we said what we were thankful for and all that nice stuff. Good lord I got so full! I was just muching on some leftover's and I barely ate any at all and I am full again. Stoopid turkey. I watched the movie 'Click' and holy shit, so sad. I was not prepaired for that kind of epic sadness and I cried like the girl that I am. My mom is making me watch a house marathon with her. I will not like house! Nooooo. Jenny and I apparently need to set up a calling schedule because we don't do well with random calling. lawl. Ugh, I need to change my theme. I'm skipping straight to a December theme but I am terrified to even try photobucket because my computer run's so slow now. Not to mention it freezes up at the drop of a hat. Myspace is being a huge bitch but that's alright because I don't want to see new picture's of him anyway, my status is kick ass though. In your face bitch! Wanna get on my blogger but I doubt that will work either....I should read Jenny's...I need to make a list of thing's to do on the net because I seem to lost track when I'm on here. Got Blender magazine and rocked out to the three fob pics inside of it. My second collage should be done in no time. Expect new music soon too [If I can sweet talk a certain Jenny] xoxo Cassie

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Thursday, November 27, 2008

the prodigal daughter return's

So, hey, I'm back. It's Cassie in case you've forgotten. I know, I know, I've been gone for an eternity and rest assured I've missed each and every one of you but rest your pretty little head's because as far as I am concerned I am back for good. Only thing is that it figure's that my return fall's on thanksgiving, the day that's likely for no one to show up. *shrug* who knows, maybe you all forgot about me anyway. Anyhoo, here is a list I've been keeping about the thing's that happened while I was away. things that have happened while i was gone: wicked awesome panic dreams, found one of my fall out boy socks, really, really got down to writing, found my graduation stuff, made jokes about it being warmer in the basement, missed jenny and krissy and of course you lovely people, really missed slash, ate lot's of ramen soup, real player classifies fall out boy as blues on certain songs, i'm hoping that someday panic releases a b-side cd thing like fall out boy did, dentist visit, in which i made my dentist cry i apparently have a huge thing for bass players every guy i like in a band is a bass player, my bedroom wall might as well be a freaking fueled by ramen shrine, i got's a green toothbrush yo, the warmer in the basement joke will never stop being funny, patrick might as well be a child with how closely i have to watch him, carved a fall out boy pumpkin found panic at the disco in the local paper, ultimate cage fighting might as well be soft core gay sex, i got minutes on my cell and managed to text krissy and jenny, 'i don't care' is my ringtone, my grandmother likes panic at the disco and fall out boy, jenny likes to sing christmas carols no matter what time of year it is, went to the library and checked out 'fight club' i want to read 'invisible monsters' though. maybe someone should get it for me for christmas. Found my cd collection and have been jamming out to my old cd's, sadly my Red Jumpsuit Apparatus cd doesn't work anymore cow birth's should not be shown on tv. my cat had four kitten's, i named one spencer something is wrong with my left ear, nothing too serious i think saw this guy who was giving free milk away halloween happened and i was a kickass patrick stump/bunny, microphone and fall out boy music included voting happened, i voted for obama president obama spencer kitten died heater broke heater fixed fights with the neighbor went to college to sign up, hit on the admissions guy, took a placement test and bombed the math, mom got her purse locked in the security room. dad fixed our van played mario party 7 while i was drunk with drunk people got molested by my friend greg saw half of the movie the happening, it deeply disturbed me the movie forgetting sarah marshall was good though saw the fight club movie but i liked the book better first snow of the year two possible job opportunities lost some weight excersising a lot more clorhine kill's my hair jacob black is hawt baby wentz was born bitches talking shit about me and danny at my old high school saw krissy's hottie patrick an eight grader has the hot's for me, he called me a model accepted at mott community college my five year myotaku anniversary passed by talk of oral sex turkey prepairing northern downpour video team jasper hale dial up cassie at the disco Only thing is that I have dial up now and it's mind numbing slow, 15 minutes to check my email? Pray for my sanity people. And enjoy your thanksgiving. xoxo Cassie

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