Tuesday, May 27, 2008

stereo, stereo, tired bullshit dressed in gold

listening to: stereo-story of the year jenny went to a panic concert over the weekend and the lovely girl called me during their set so i pretty much heard most of it. folkin' around is the amazing, and it blew my mind to think i was hearing it as it happened. she also bought me a poster, i luv her to death. i think krissy's panic at the disco concert is today...i want to go to a panic concert too! i think i will after the honda civic tour is over. got all motivated and wrote some yesterday, something i actually needed to write as opposed to writing a million or so chapters into the future. our van broke down yesterday at my grandma's house...that sucks so bad...for real what else could possibly go wrong? why can't life just take like a month off and leave my family the hell alone. i can feel the pressure...and it's crushing me. speaking of pressure there's still all the school stuff i have to do. ugh so much and so little time! how is it that the last year goes by the quickest. i mean i recall last year dragging on forever. and i can't believe i am so close to being done with school but i kinda don't want it to end. i want to stay with my friends in childhood forever but that's horribly unrealistic, i'm three weeks away from being an adult, like having to go out and live and it's fucking terrifying. i'll miss my friends horribly. i mean of course i'll say i'll come back and see them but it won't be the same and the thought that i have to start all over again is scary too. i wish i could just freeze time for three weeks, that's all i would need. aaaaand the hardest part of leaving is saying goodbye. cassie (i'm thinking that was kinda depressing)

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Sunday, May 25, 2008

a day dream spills from my corked head

listening to: behind the sea-panic at the disco somehow i got sick in the span of two days. not fair life! not even a little bit. my throat hurts bad and the glands in my neck and the back of my head, my nose is running and i'm coughing too. how is it fair that jenny get to see panic and i'm all huddled up in my hoodie, a skirt, and my skeleanimals flip-flops. well i did call and talk to dearest jenny and she hurted her arm! i hope it feels better but it could work to her advantage tonight at the concert (sympathy hugs) just embrace it lol. i did talk her into calling me when and if panic plays the song folkin' around cause i love that song to pieces. i hope she gets to see/touch/hug/get autographed by ryan ross, she loves him so. same goes for krissy when she see's panic in like two days except for her it would be mr. brendon urie. and i like the jwalk. poor spencer isn't loved lol. anyhoo i am spending part of the summer with jenny in wisconsin so here is some of the things we're going to do: wisconsin list (not completed): .we're gonna run around cashton barefoot at night...even though i think there is a curfew. .so gonna milk a cow .also going to hug said cow and name it joe trohmoo. .jenny, krissy, and i are going to get t-shirts made that have the panic trinity on them. .we are going to wear said t-shirts while doing karoke. .going to summerfest if i make it in time that's all we came up with for now but trust me, we shall think of more. lol cassie

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Saturday, May 24, 2008

stand up child, i can't hold you forever

listening to: the pros and cons of breathing-fall out boy Cassie's Comment Corner: belinda: ha ha i know! andy so looks like an old timey villian. XD yeah, i knew he had a sister but i don't think i remembered her name till i read that. okay, so i stole that subject line from krissy and i probably quoted it wrong but i mean it just kinda stuck with me so i wanted to use it. i kinda think this guy named dan likes me. it's my friend dougs older brother and he's in my senior advisory. i dunno i never talked to him much, just a bit here and there but he's nice and he might have just been being nice but i feel like we accidently flirt a lot. today he made an concious effort to touch my back before he left. he also saw my fall out boy shirt and said it was "freaking awesome" he also called pete wentz petey and that made me giggle. our senior class is so stupid, we voted for a graduation song and the song freebird won...i don't hate the song but i mean it was my friend's graduation song two years ago. i really don't think people who aren't graduating should vote. i got my senior hoodie yesterday too! i love it so much! it's black with red inside the hoodie. on the front it had red and gray graphics that say "seniors 2008" and it's so soft and fits really well. i took a pic of me and taylor wearing them so if i get her to upload it, i'll show you guys. i got free pizza at school for lunch too. our science teacher decided to get pizza for all the seniors and barely anyone showed up so i had like four and a half pieces of pizza i was so full. we had a student council meeting where the council voted on a senior that should win a scholorship to be annouced at the graduation ceremony. it's down to taylor, brittany, and i. i don't know who will win, i know my brother voted for me but i dunno...guess i'll have to wait until the 10th to find out. after school i was surprised to see danielle had come up to see me. she cut her hair and had emo bangs, they looked really cute (and yeah i called them emo bangs) lol she showed me her yearbook (she had designed the cover) and she showed me her art portfolio. it was really great. she had drawn the lead singer of the band 'say anything' and it was good. i prodded her into drawing me a picture of brendon urie. i hope she does because she draws real people really well, shapes too. i hope she gets into the art school she wants to go to. i just realized it's been like forever since i've seen her too...since the concert i think. even more funny is i realized that both danielle and danny came to see me on days i was wearing my fall out boy shirt. odd, maybe it's lucky? it was really good to see her again though. i'm glad she and i can just slide back into the way we used to be but at the same time better because we're older. i need to hang with her more. i wonder if she'll read this post? lol xocassiexo

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Friday, May 23, 2008

i really wanna steal krissy's subject line but i am strong enough not to lol

listening to: nothing considering i forgot my mp3 player. good golly i'm updating from school, paticularly my english class where i am the only one here. granted it is 7:33 in the morning and school doesn't start till 7:52. had to do a ton of writing for my on-line english classes. i'm supposed to be writing a short story, do you know how tempted i am to just find something i've already written and slap that bitch on there? feeling like i'm doing good in school and i have just the slightest undertone of sadness but i think that's there because i know this all will end soon. oh snap, pete wentz wedding photo's y'all really got nothing else to say, i'm boring or have got a bad memory or both. but look at that wedding photo, look at andy's mustache. hilarious!

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Thursday, May 22, 2008

let's make it last forever

listening to:hallelujah-paramore Cassie's Comment Corner: belinda: oh yeah, i can waste epic amounts of time on youtube and photobucket. lol angel zakuro: well, i mean i read it while on the computer but i was falling really far behind on the stories i had been reading so i just decided to print them out so i could catch up. our senior class had to revote for a new graduation song because a lot of people didn't like imagine by john lennon, which was our original song. taylor and i wanted a moment like this by kelly clarkson and the boys kept voting for freebird. i don't want freebird though because it was my friends graduation song two years ago and i want one of my own. so taylor and i went around to people and asked them to vote for kelly clarkson, we even bribed people lol. my counsler and the principal called me into the office to talk about my credits and graduation. they set me up with more things to do and we added it all up, if i finish it all then i can graduate. i'm feeling much better now, i feel like i can do it. i can accomplish this but i need to work my ass off. on top of everything they want me to speak at graduation, so now i gotta worry about that. played floor hockey and i kept hurting this girl on accident but i don't feel too bad because that girl has been a bitch to me in the past. there was a whole lot of nonsense in our fifth hour, no one could concentrait and we kept messing with each other. i guess that's what happens when you put taylor, paul, destiny, and myself in a group. got mad during sixth hour and yelled at this annoying freshman who keeps trying to start shit. destiny almost got into it with him too and rachel and bobbi as well. my cat nana had babies yesterday. six but two of them died so she has four now. three striped and one all white baby....we can't keep any and really i wish we didn't have them... i need to call the jenneh

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Wednesday, May 21, 2008

let your words spread hope like fire

listening to: secret crowds-angels & airwaves Cassie's Comment Corner: krissy: *gasp* did you post more? i needs to go and check that out. belinda: oy, nice i got compared to teh wentz. i like it too. my favorite part is the teen scene king of the drop out variety. i wanna use that again... jenny: thank you for loving my busness. XD youtube has convinced me that brendon urie is totally gay (sorry krissy) and he's probably in love with ryan, which is sad to me because i really think ryan is straight, no matter how girly he looks. i forgot to say that monday at school i spent a good amount of time after school printing fanfiction....an ungodly amount of fanfiction...for real i bet like one hundred pages all together. also made the mistake of leaving pages of said fanfiction for my brother to find and come on, how was i supposed to know that he'd bother reading it? lol school was boring, i completed my one computer program but i have to start a whole new one. haven't been sleeping well lately, i'm too tired to stay awake when i get home from school and then i'm up till late in the night...it's a bad scheduel. kinda wanna get a t-shirt made that says 'cassie at the disco' jenny, krissy, and i should get those respectively saying our names at the disco and on the back it could say panic trinity. lol i have far too much thinking time on my hands. having just a slight panic attack about how soon graduation is...for the first time in my life i wish school would just last a few weeks longer! i need that time, i feel like i stil have so much to do, my portfolio, a whole ten units of world history on the computer, a twenty five slide powerpoint, my english final, i was supposed to write a speech for graduation....god can't i just freeze life for like two weeks and take a breath? i never knew being a senior was so hard.. i think i have a knack for figuring people out, really i do. i totally figured out sandra, she adds boys she thinks are cute on myspace and then tells them that she knows them or that they seem familar to her, she's lying of course because she tried to pull that shit with me about danny and i was like fuck you bitch! you don't know him, you've never met him so shove the fuck off. i felt listless yesterday but i wish doug had never showed me how to get on youtube at school..so distracting. lol i just need to have faith in myself. believe that i can do it, finish it all and graduate, my your ride driver said i should pray because god can do things i cannot...worth a shot right? cassie

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Tuesday, May 20, 2008

i wanna stay home at the end of the world

listening to: XO-fall out boy Cassie's Comments Corner: belinda: well that thing i wrote was on the post for friday the 16th near the end of the post if you're interesting in reading it. jenny: lol only you would leave me the same comment seven times ily. school was great, i can honestly say. i got to be the first student in the school to meet allison vandiepen, the author who was visiting. here's a picture of her: i didn't take this, it isn't even from our day, i just googled her. but i did get a photo but more on that later. allison talked to us about the back story of her books and her life and the school she teaches at. she's really nice and funny. not at all like i imagined, i assumed she'd be more serious but she's pretty relaxed. she took questions and i asked her about how to get into the authoring business. she also did autographs and my brother and i both got one. my math teacher embaressed me in my second hour by asking me something she knew i didn't know. fuck math, i hate it so much. went and listened to allison again third hour because my class went back down there. i heard the same speech but i didn't mind. allison asked me to think of some good questions for her so i was trying to do that mostly. later we were leaving to go out for lunch and we had rented this huge double decker bus called the magic bus. so naturally everyone wanted to sit on the top part and we all fit for the most part. lots of people stood and downstairs there was walkie talkie thing and this guy tyler and mark got on the talkie and they were being generally funny. the thing was that people outside the bus could hear what they were saying so we took to yelling at people in the streets, chaos insued. at the lunch allison sat at the same table with taylor, brittany and myself. she sat next to me though and we talked about my passion for writing and she gave me tips and things like that. she also told me that i'm her number one on myspace, mostly because she was coming to visit. lol but still i appreciate the gesture. the waitress at the resturant screwed up the drinks though so me and this boy david got each other's drinks so we switched and he didn't switch straws so it was kinda like..eww. ha ha back on the bus we were yelling at people from the windows and i guess when you see a lot of teens on a huge bright red bus with the horn blowing and a person on the walkie talkie, it's only natural to stare. everyone really liked the bus, it was a lot of fun. at one point there was a group singing of 'wake me up when september ends' and we drove by the normal high school and middle school and got to see our old principal and we flaunted our cool busness to the other kids. got back to school and taylor,brittany and i all took a picture with allison and then i took one on my own later. if i get those uploaded i'll show you guys. oh we also got mardigrau (not even close to being spelt right) beads. had a whole lot of fun and everyone else in the school was jealous! mwahahahahhaha. everyone should go out and buy or read the books: 'snitch' and 'street pharm' do it!

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Monday, May 19, 2008

wink, just don't put your teeth on me

listening to: she's a handsome woman-panic at the disco so i have a song on my site, that is if you guys can hear it. it's northern downpour by panic at the disco. one of my favorite songs on pretty.odd. so i hope you guys enjoy it. i called jenny yesterday. talked about pete wentz getting married BECAUSE HE DID SO ON SATURDAY. also talked about my fob concert and jenny's upcoming panic at the disco concert, and cuddle orgies with patrick and jon walker...don't even ask. man, i really hope i get to spend some of the summer with jenny, it'd be so fun! get to meet the author allison vandiepen tomorrow. pretty excited about that so i will probably have more to say tomorrow. oh BELINDA if you read this, i posted a little writing something i did a couple days ago and i thought you would like it so you might want to go back and check that out. still loving the band the cab. listen to them peeps, their song 'one of those nights.' is amazing, i already forced jenny to listen to it. well, i really got nothing else going on so i'll leave before i bore everyone to death.

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Sunday, May 18, 2008

whisper war

listening to: that 70's song-the cab okay people's so i found a bunch of cab songs and i fucking love the cab! they're awesome. listen to the song "one of those nights." it has both brendon urie and patrick stump on it, how much better could it be? thinking it was a semi productive day yesterday, i wrote a lot. cleaned up some, had fun. a good saturday. i've been watching a few anime shows lately. one of them is maburaho because i never finished that show and i want to bad. the other is magikano which is good too but the characters are kind of annoying. the last was red garden but that's my favorite one because it's really interesting. all reccomended shows. how innapropriet is it that they played the song 'lying is the most fun.' on nick, on that show dance on sunset. annnnnd panic was on that show. bad show, good musical guests. i've been in a weird mood for the last day and a half, not a bad mood just an odd one. i think i'm overstimulated. lol it's too cold in my house at night. cassie

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Saturday, May 17, 2008

all i ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you

listening to: camisado-panic at the disco i didn't go to school yesterday, i should have but i was so damn tired. i did pick up the latest issues of blender magazine and the issue of alternative press with cobra starship on the cover. but at least now i know that music journalism is really truly what i want to do with the rest of my life, honestly i wouldn't mind, i dream of writing for a music magazine, it's a goal of mine and i will work to make it a reality. so i hear that pete wentz is supposed to be getting married today. i don't know if it's true, it just feels too soon. i worry about that kid. is it weird that it really fucking bothers me that pete is on the show TMZ and oh my god they did not just call him fall out groom...dear god, we've lost pete. signal the woe and let's throw on some fall out boy. i wrote a standalone story that is really good in my own opinion but it's like way too long to post on here but i did send it to jenny and i need to remember to send it to krissy, since it relates to panic at the disco. a girl from my past that i do not like left me a comment on myspace and i'm like meh whatever, i'm over all the drama so i'll try to be nice to her as best i can but i am not making that strong of an effort. i called jenny and we talked for a little while but she had to go and do a choir concert which i would be so scared about if i were her. annnnd i really hope i get to spend part of the summer with her because really, that would be too fun. i said we'd get drunk and drive around cashton and pick up krissy and blast fall out boy and panic at the disco. lol how great would that be? oh, i'm thinking of getting my lip pierced. i dunno, i'm just tossing that idea around. if i do decide to do it, it won't be till after graduation. i don't know i'm pretty scared of needles but i think i could handle it if i just shut my eyes and waited for it to be over. i learned yesterday that in mexico emo kids are widely hated and often harassed and beaten in the streets and no one is doing anything to stop it, for real i mean they are hated and treated like second class citizens, it's sad really. i've been really tired lately, it seems that if i wake up in the morning i just can't fall back asleep.

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