Friday, May 16, 2008

i am sorry my concious called in sick again

listening to: i slept with someone in fall out boy and all i got was this song written about me-fall out boy my mouth still hurts. my cheek is swollen from where the dentist gave me shots and my jaw is sore. eating is painful. the author of the books snitch and street pharm is going to be visiting our school on monday. i'm really excited. i'm going to see if i can get her autograph and maybe a picture with her or something like that. it's cool cause on her myspace she put that she was excited to visit our school and she left me a comment. it's been awhile since i've written anything much but here is a little something, consider it like a skill building writing thing so yeah enjoy? she always thought he was the kind of boy who had a sort of power over people. he had a natural charisma, he had the power to make people smile, laugh, cry, angry. all with a simple glance, word, or action. he would always be the popular type, whether he wanted it or not. she thinks that he likes it, all the attention, but at the same time she thinks he might be afraid, afraid that people only like him for what he is, what he's labeled. he's got a past that haunts him at every turn and a black book full of heart breaks. he evolves and shifts at every turn, every millisecond he is someone different and you gotta learn to roll with every side of him. at points he's so real it's almost heart breakingly beautiful and other's you can feel the fake radiating off of him. he hops beds to avoid being hurt, he strikes first for the same reason. at the time she never realized she had an open track to his mind, that she'd learn to break him down and see what was really going on inside. that didn't mean he couldn't still surprise her, he did frequently and she could handle it. he's lonely and paranoid at times, afraid that people are talking about him and he's used to it. his family ties are weak and he has no rules, a teen scene king of the drop out variety. she worries about him, always has and maybe always will. she wonders if he'll ever find something real and inside she hopes he does. *********** i'm trying to think of questions to ask musicians. anyone know a person in a band or musician that i can interview? ~cassie~

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Thursday, May 15, 2008

no one wants to be defeated

went to the dentist today. got a filling done but the doctor gave me like five shots to numb me in my mouth. it hurt bad, and he didn't really wait long enough for the numbing to take effect because i could feel it and it hurt bad. it didn't take too long though but afterwards my entire mouth on the left side was numb and half my tongue was too. went to mcdonalds and got to school at eleven (with my face still numb) we were supposed to do yoga but a bunch of people wanted to go for a walk so we did and my legs hurt now. watched some stuff about the philidelphia experiment conspiracy in my fifth hour and taylor fell asleep and wouldn't wake up. wrote a story for prom in sixth hour and argued with a stupid freshman who called me a nazi. yeah, real mature. sandra asked me if danny and his girlfriend broke up and i told her i didn't know but i don't think they did. why does she care anyway? ugh annoying. bobbi sayed with me after school and we listened to "see you again." by miley cyrus and she got up and started dancing and acting out the song. the girl is crazy. justin gave me a look at lunch time while i was waiting in the line. i don't know what it meant. worried about taylor, she's been having stomach pains and she's bleeding and she's pregnant. she told me today that she's scared she's having a miscarrage....god i hope not.

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

it's time for us to take a chance

listening to: london beckons songs-panic at the disco so yesterday was a considerably better day in the sense that everyone was in a better mood. taylor didn't come to advisory which forced me to work with someone i really don't like. i finished the book my teacher had me read for my first hour so now i have nothing to do. hmm i guess i could start on my final but i need taylor since she is my partner. i took taylor's phone during second hour and she pinched my boob. it hurt so bad, her boyfriend was laughing about it and she also kept touching my thighs and inside my legs to see if i was ticklish, she's an odd one that girl. lol we're watching the movie step up in my third hour and i swear to god half the girls in the class had a orgasm over the lead actor channing tatum in that movie. after fourth hour sandra came up to me and was all like "oh, i talked to danny on aim last night." i think she told me this on purpose in an attempt to make me jealous, it didn't work though because for real? like i've never fucking talked to him on there? at least i've talked to him in real life. so yeah sandra told me that she talked to danny about his girlfriend being her ex and crap like that so i told sandra that danny told me that he said he was gonna hit on her on purpose just to see what happened. she did not look pleased about that. oh well. tried to take control of my team during sixth hour but they were being brats, stupid freshmen. found an awesome mp3 player site so i got so wicked awesome cab songs and i love the band "the cab." their songs are amazing and crap, i do like ashlee simpsons new song 'little miss obsessive.' so i called danny on the phone when i got home. i just wanted to make sure that sandra wasn't lying. but it was a really good talk. it was like a mash up of past and present, mixing and colliding and forming. it felt kinda like how we used to talk, it was good. he pulled out his acoustic guitar and played some paramore for me, i am so jealous of his guitar skills. he was also playing world of warcraft and getting virtually yelled at. he made fun of my musical taste as always but i mean our taste's are almost the same, almost. i mean he does have 'lyrical lies.' as his ringback tone. his cell was being weird though, like screwing up so it hung up on me and i didn't bother calling back because i wanted to sleep and he didn't call back but i guess i'm used to that. quote: me: have you listened to the new panic cd yet? danny: their new stuff is shit. me: i like it danny: you would. ^ oh how i missed the banter. XD

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Tuesday, May 13, 2008

yeah, he's a looker but i really think it's guts that matter most

listening to: wings of a butterfly-H.I.M i cannot believe this happened. honestly, i cannot. so i arrive at school this morning and as soon as i'm out of the car what do i see? a very awake daniel hicks. that's right, it was danny and i saw him again after such a long time. it's almost been a year since i've seen him face to face. i was shocked, really i was. danny wasn't alone though, nope, he was with his girlfriend. i didn't talk to her, only once but she didn't really say anything. it was good to see him...it was almost like old times, almost felt like last year. it did feel different though, just a hint of awkwardness thrown in with some nostaligia. i feel like it went by too quickly. i really regret not having my camera, we could've taken a picture together and i could've drove sandra crazy with it the rest of the day. how crazy is it that i was just thinking how i couldn't remember his voice and then i hear it and it sounds so foreign. he looks good though, like i remember. his hair looks better in person. we hugged and he was warm, nice for my cold hands. he left to the gas station and bought my brother and i some pop. he came back but honestly i think i was too suprised by it all to really drink in the conversation we were having. we were talking about if dr. pepper was a person how it should run for president, how danny was drinking the night before, spent the night at his girlfriends house (she happens to go to the high school next to ours), and had yet to go to sleep. he didn't stay long, he didn't want to come inside, he said he couldn't handle the school anymore. he left and now i am a little sad. i miss him, being friends with him and close to him. it's like a dull ache in my chest. i just wanna be like we used to. part of me thinks he might read this, he always used to say after we got in a fight that i'd talk about it on the myo. he might check it, he might not. i'm good either way. besides that, everyone was in a funky mood today. i really realized that taylor and i were both in a really bad mood. we were mostly quiet which was unusual. sandra told me that danny's girlfriend, who i hear is named alix, is her ex-girlfriend. i dunno how true that is. i don't really care all that much but sandra also told me that i should warn danny because if he breaks up with alix she will surely try to fuck him over. i dunno about that either. we played with the autistic kids and taylor got made at paul because he referred to the kids as 'things' i played life with paul, brad, and ashley during second hour while taylor played with her new envy phone. we played crab soccer during fourth hour but it did not go over well at all. everyone was pissed it did not work. justin tried to sell me a mp4 touch screen player. i told him no and then he said he was gonna make his own yearbook with only his photo's in it. my brother attempted to steal this guys astro van after school, not really but it was funny and then the guys did a drive by throwing change at my brother.

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Monday, May 12, 2008

i burned every bridge i ever built when you were here

listening to: that's what you get-paramore did everyone have a good mother's day? my mom really didn't in my opinion. usually i make her something but i've just been so stressed that i bought her a nice card that she liked and promised i'd clean my room. then my grandma was bothering her with stupid things and she got in a fight with our gay neighbors over a lilac tree and who owns it. considering the fucking tree is right next to my room i'm saying it's mine. sometimes my computer hates livejournal and that's sad cause i really wanna read some fanfic. the other day we went to pick up my brother from his friend david's who happens to go to our school. they were up at the dairy queen where we had taylor's b-day thing at. i have two classes with him and it was kinda strange seeing him outside of school. we were talking about rappers and i said something and he was like "who would you know little miss fall out boy." he always brings up the fall out boy. lol went to my cousins and saw her pitbull puppies. they were so freaking cute. there was a white one that was fat and i was holding him and he was grunting and i wanna adopt him and name him gringo. (it means white person in spanish) mmkay i am hoping that i can spend part of the summer with jenny. it all depends on her grandma though, i wish i could've called her back! did you guys see that pm's are kinda back on the myo? xocassiexo

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Saturday, May 10, 2008

when you go, i will forget everything about you

listening to: grand theft autum-fall out boy is it just me or did this week drag on forever? our school has put restrictions on what we can have for breakfast now, because we're not allowed to give away our food and kids do so now we can only have two things to eat, so yeah, people aren't happy. two of our teachers didn't show for school today so we had a subsitute and the sub happened to be the assistant pricipal's son. i don't get how such an ass can have such a cool son. so taylor's birthday is sunday but since none of us will see her, her boyfriend paul came up with a plan a few weeks ago that yesterday our fourth hour class would walk down to the dairy queen by our school and he would meet us there with flowers for her and a cake and we could celebrate then. i'm so surprised that taylor never found out but there were a few near misses. this one girl didn't know it was a surprise and was trying to tell taylor that paul was waiting for her. it all turned out well though and taylor enjoyed it. we had a student council meeting but we didn't really decide much, just that we'd give away a scholorship to a senior who is graduating in student council. i really want it, so does taylor but her family is rich and she has a job. she really doesn't need it and i pointed that out to her, so i hope i get it. really, i have no idea how the voting would go. i was outside too much yesterday. my forehead is all sunburned. also jesse, justin's older brother got in a boxing match with a guy named jeff and lost, badly from what i hear but i didn't see so i can't really say. my brother spent the night with this guy who goes to our school named david. it's strange they're good friends, but i guess it's weird for me to picture my brother sleeping at david's house. hmm okay, taylor and i were like uber close to kissing today...not on purpose mind you. we were outside and i was leaning over the railing we have on this povilion and taylor was talking to me on the ground and she's like "lean down." so i did and our faces were too close and she made kissy faces at me. i swear someone is gonna think we're gay together. lol got bored while playing the sims so low and behold i made panic at the disco and fob sims. yup, i did, obviously i cannot be left to my own devices. ha ha my sim married jon though and for reals the jon sim looks just like him for real. hilarious, we have two children together but one is adopted. XD

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Friday, May 9, 2008

you look so innocent but the guilt in your voice gives you away

listening to: your love is a lie-simple plan i'm making really great progress with my senior stuff. i'm almost done with my portfolio and i'm practically flying through my extra assignments. again i had to sit next to sandra during third hour she just bugs me cause she talks when we're reading and doesn't do her work like ever. speaking of sandra she was getting made fun of in fourth hour. she couldn't hear of course and it happened to be taylor and rachel making fun of her but i stayed out of it. i had a lot of fun at lunch despite bobbi hitting me freakin hard in the arm because she has manly hands and freakish strength so it hurts. but also at lunch this girl named kati asked me if i liked sandra and i was like "if i tell you no are you gonna tell her?" and she said no so i said i didn't care for her and i guess someone wrote sandra a note saying something really mean and vulgar that i cannot repeat it here. we had a free day in fifth hour so i wrote an musical article about panic at the disco for my independent study and extreamly cute boy was wearing an all time low shirt and i said i liked the band and he's all like "i gotta go burn the shirt now." he is so stupid lol we recorded a bit of our news broadcast for sixth hour and i did not want this one guy to use my camera because we had problems in the past and but he used it anyway and sure enough he put his fingers in the shots because he is stupid. taylor and i went to the library together to see if they had a book we're reading in our third hour but they didn't have it. so taylor just hanged out with me after school and we made graduation annoucments and had general fun. oh and this guy who was talking shit about me, well taylor bitched him out yesterday morning. i heart her. hearing justin sing the song "bubbly" by cobie callie is pure awesomeness. saw panic on david letterman, jon walker looks awesome in a suit, brendon hit himself in the face with the mic. quote: we were watching the movie deja'vu: me: destiny, do you think that girl is hot? destiny: yeah, for a dead girl. ~cassie~

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Thursday, May 8, 2008

i'm the new cancer, i've never looked better and you can't stand it

listening to: there's a reason these tables are numbered honey, you just haven't thought of it yet-panic at the disco Cassie's Comment Corner: belinda: really, it is basically high school. oh well at least i made it a long time without really getting pulled down into it. krissy: i know i was like poor spencer but man do i love brendon on a bike. and all the jon walker goodness. angel zakuro: thanks! i do believe that you're the first person to mention my theme. well, no not really for the fact that jeremiah doesn't come around after school anymore because he doesn't have to so i don't see him and he said he'd come visit me but i don't think he will. oh well not a huge loss, i didn't like him that much anyway. man, panic used to rival fall out boy with the insane longness of their song titles. our senior class had a speaker from devry college come in and i assure you that it was the most fun college thing we had. the woman gave us all PDA's to use. we made our little avatar people, my english teacher fell in love with the pda so she said she's gonna buy one. lol i think i did good on my math test yesterday. woo-hoo. ugh, taylor wouldn't switch seats with me during third hour so i ended up sitting next to sandra and i wouldn't have minded as much if she were actually doing her work and not playing with flowers and talking. at one point she sprinkled flower petals on my paper and my friend rachel was like "what's cassie supposed to do with that?" taking agression out playing floor hockey=awesome pushing your english/gym teacher out of your way=more awesome. oh man there was a freaking bird trapped in my english teacher's room at lunch time and she wanted us to help her catch it. it was hard cause bobbi, brittany and i were all screaming when the bird flew by our heads and we didn't get the bird but it went in the vents! our teacher caught it later during sixth hour and let it go outside. my teacher got weirded out because i had went to lay on the pillows in sixth hour and taylor decided to come and lay next to me and our heads were pretty damn close and then bobbi laid down with us and it looked weird i guess but our teacher said we had to seperate. i've like become the head script writer for the broadcast our school is doing. constantly the three people i work with are asking me what to write and fixing stuff. i guess it was good practice for being a journalist. everyone is getting sick, i should just wear a mask to school. i cannot afford to be sick.

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Wednesday, May 7, 2008

being from michigan means never having to say

listening to: head for the hills-saves the day Cassie's Comment Corner: megan: yes, the new vid is totally peeing pants worthy. love the end where patrick is fighting the sumo wrestler. belinda: you could always just go to mtv.com to watch it. high school romances are a dangerous thing. everyone has an opinion or something to say. someone will always get hurt and someone will always be jealous and terriorial. and i believe that no matter how good of friends two girls are, they will fight when you add a guy to the mix. taylor wasn't in school today and considering we're always together, it wasn't too bad. her boyfriend paul did come though (which surprised me) so at least i had him to talk to during second hour. paul told me that jeremiah asked about me at prom over the weekend. i don't know why he would though, i already told him that i wasn't going. i also watched four people from my second hour attempt to play clue and it was entertaining. i confronted bobbi about the fact that jeremiah told me that bobbi told him that i said that i liked him. bobbi said she didn't do it and i want to believe her, she told me that all she said was that she asked him if he liked me and he said as a friend. so i'm thinking from there that he assumed i liked him. taylor came up to the school at lunch time with her daughter miley, who's first birthday was yesterday. miley is so friggen adorable. she's so little and chubby with huge cheeks and big blue eyes. we kept telling her happy birthday and she kept smiling and clapping. at one point i was holding her and oh crap is she a heavy little girl. she kept trying to give me cheeze-it's. bobbi hung out with me after school until my ride came and we sat like kids on the jungle gym and gossiped. i like bobbi cause she's only fourteen and for the most part still innocent and i can really see a lot of myself in her. doug, and cody, and justin hung out with us after school but they were more so torturing us. they unhooked the internet on my computer and stole bobbi's pen. stupid boys. justin is growing his hair out long and he looks cuter. doug was being really weird though. oh, i saw the new video for cobra starship's guilty pleasure video and it is pretty hilarious. patrick from fall out boy is in it. so you guys should check it out. check out the new panic at the disco video too because seriously mini panic and them on a boat is just too adorable to pass up. oh, i guess i settled things with sandra. i was being the bigger person and talked to her about it during breakfast. i dunno...i still don't really like her but i'm not going to go out of my way to be mean to her or to really talk to her, only when i have to.

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Monday, May 5, 2008

i can't believe the horror that i see is more then the poison inside me

listening to: faces-scary kids scaring kids yesterday was senior skip day. i skipped even though i probably shouldn't have. the song 'she had the world' by panic at the disco is really a double edged sword for me. i mean on the one hand i adore the tune of that song and some of the lyrics but on the other hand it just feels so much like someone was watching us and then just wrote it all done in song form, ah sometimes it just strikes me so deep. "i don't love you, i'm just passing the time." oh, all you little fueled by ramen fangirls and boys out there. yesteday on trl was the unoffical fueled by ramen day and they had so many of my favorite bands i nearly freaked out. they had panic, cobra, gym class heroes, the cab, the hush sound, tai, phantom planet. and they showed the that green gentleman video! i didn't get to see all of it but it had panic as kids and so cute! little ryan looked like real ryan. there was also a noodle eating contest. speaking of videos and i know this post is turning into all music but i saw the new fall out boy video for the cover of 'beat it' and it is hilarious! i love that video. everyone looks all crazy sleek and slight futuristic but with a dash of eighties nostalgia thrown in for good measure. and patrick's dancing! and joe with a half straightened joe-fro. i do believe i have the video at the quiz results portion of my post so check it out if it works. if anything it will make you giggle. i regret not taking a pic of jeremiah and myself when i had the chance. though he did say that he'd come back up to see me again but you never can tell with boys. he did want me to put this little thing on my myspace that said 'i love jeremiah' and i was like "isn't that a job for your girlfriend?" and then he wanted me to put a pic of him on my myspace from when he had emoish hair and say that he was my emo donald trump. damn him and his flirting with me while having a girlfriend. wanna know something sad? patrick kitty misses my kitten brendon. woe as him as he sleeps by my foot and in his little triangle house. my cat be emo. and now everytime i hear the song 'mad as rabbits' i will forever think of ryan ross's penis. thanks internet!

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