Tuesday, December 11, 2007

i am a true to life ninja homie

yesterday at school was alright for a monday. we started watching the movie 'paycheck' with ben affleck in it. we're watching that in my third hour. but i don't really get why people care who i like musically? three or four times yesterday in a two hour period of time i was told that i was too obsessed with fall out boy. i mean really who cares if i like fall out boy? who cares if i want to look up info about them or listen to them? people shouldn't care. anyway i'm doing a cool product in my fifth hour. we are making these cars that we have to put eggs inside of and crash them into a wall. the goal is to protect the egg and not let it break. it sounds fun and i have a good idea for it. also we are making mobiles. otherwise know as those things that hang over babies cribs. i didn't know what i was going to make mine on but i guess at least two people assumed i was going to do a fall out boy one before i even decided what i wanted. but i am doing one cause i wanna hang it in my room. ha ha yesterday in fifth hour extreamly cute boy aka cody got stuck in his hoodie when he was trying to take it off. his shirt came with it and he was stuck so we couldn't see his face and his whole chest was revealed. not that i minded at all! XD also i am halfway sure that i am a semi good actress. i really don't like my fourth hour class (goverment) and i ecspecially don't like it when one of the girls i hate the most sits right next to me. so i devised a nearly ingenious plan. i faked an arguement with my brother (swearing, threating, all that good stuff) so the teach let me come up to the computer lab to do my work. ha ha my bro knew what i was dong though. also the website jamglue. i am so in love with it! XD ~red~

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Monday, December 10, 2007

i'm still frustrated from last night

listening to: last night-motion city soundtrack hey, i put up some fall out boy posters today in my room. around eight posters i think. it makes my room look way bigger and it makes me happier. but i guess that fall out boy always has that effect on me. they mean waaaay more to me then just a popular band. i know it sounds weird but it's the truth. i also decorated our christmas tree a bit. i put candy canes on it. that made me happier too. oh i forgot to mention that while i was at walmart the other day i was in the cd section. while i was there i was playing with that cd player thing they have in there. i kept scanning cd's and playing songs like fall out boy, boys like girls, panic!, and others. it was so loud and people were looking but i didn't care. anyhoo it's time for the newest chapter of murder and lyrics. it's almost done you know? previously: jake showed up at cassie's apartment and his line of conversation left her feeling strange. cassie asked jake to leave but he refused and pulled a gun on her. murder and lyrics chapter twenty six: the revelation that i wish i knew danielle arrived at jake's house just as the sun had finished setting and the sky was lost between a purple and blue color. the group of people that had been sitting on the stoop outside jake's building last time danielle had stopped by were gone and she felt relived. danielle left her car and went down the same chipped cement steps that led to jake's door. she could see already that the apartment was dark but danielle thought that maybe he was just sleeping. either way she grabbed her gun up out of the holster and knocked hard on the door. when no one anwsered after a minute she knocked again this time calling out jake's name. again no response. danielle thinking rashley raised her foot and kicked the door hard. it sprang open and danielle was thankful for the rusty hinges that held the door. "jake walker are you here?" danielle asked as she stepped into the apartment with her gun at the ready. "jake, it's detective danielle kerley. come on out i just want to talk for a minute." danielle said as she moved along the wall in the dark apartment her free hand running along the wall searching for the light switch. she found it and flipped it on and instantly that same dim light filled the apartment. danielle found no one in the living room or kitchen of the apartment and she crept over to the two closed doors in the apartment and opened the one that was directly across from the kitchen. finding that it was only the bathroom she turned away from it and instead went over to the left to the closed door that she assumed was jake's bedroom. she gripped her gun more tightly as she pushed the door open and turned on the light. her heart beat was still quick as she saw again that no one was in the room. danielle lowered her gun and decided to look around the room a bit just to see what she could find. the room was mostly empty with the large bed taking up the most space. a mirror was on the wall infront of the bed and to the right pressed against the wall was a medium sized long dresser. danielle walked along the dressed scanning the top for anything that could be evidence for what lexi had told her. she saw nothing too interesting nor anything she could use as evidence. suddenly a loud snapping noise was heard outside and danielle turned quickly knocking off a ruby red lamp that was sitting on the dresser. the lamp fell with a crash to the floor and danielle looked back at the dresser where the lamp had previously sat. it was there that she saw something sitting there. something black and shiny. danielle picked it up and exaimed it quickly realizing that it was a credit card. she ran her thumb along the name on the card "josiah hardwick." she read aloud. jake had josiah's credit card! the same credit card thay josiah said he didn't use...danielle wondered if maybe jake had taken the card or worse that jake and josiah were in on it together; either way that meant that one of them was involved in the murder of danny hicks. danielle pocketed the card and continued to look around the room for anything else that could incriminate jake. danielle had been a detective long enough to know that the signs were beginning to point to jake. it was like a puzzle and half the pieces were place but large white spots of missing knowledge still needed to be filled. she continued looking around but didn't find much else. knowing that jake wasn't in the house danielle walked back out to her car, her gun still in hand and radioed for a team to come and throughly search jake's house while danielle herself would continue her search for jake. danielle was surprised when about ten minutes later the investigation team arrived along with timothy; who was grinning as he exited the car and strode over to where danielle was alreadt standing. "what are you doing here?" danielle asked and timothy just kept smiling his wide grin. "i have a feeling that this case is nearing it's end and i want to be there when it does." he told her as he patted her on the shoulder. ******************************************************************* "ja-jake what are you doing?" cassie asked fear stricken as she stared at the gun that jake held firmly in his hand. jake was standing a good few feet away from her pointing the gun at her with a look on his face that she couldn't quite place. "i'm tying up the loose ends." he said as he took a small step forward and cassie took a large step back. she tried to keep calm despite the thundering beating of her heart. she tired not to look scared because she didn't want jake to know that she was more terrified then she had ever been. cassie tried to think of what she could do to get out of the bad and already worsening situation. she thought about her phone. her cell phone was dead and she cursed the fact that she was always too forgetfull to charge it, danny's cell phone was in her room on the bed and her home phone was also located in her bedroom, but it wasn't like she could easily go and get it. jake had her hostage in the living room, her bedroom was to the down the hall and to the right...she doubt she'd get far is she made a run for it. cassie figured that the best thing she could do for now was to keep jake talking. she didn't know what was going on in his mind but maybe she could talk him out of doing whatever he was thinking. "what do you mean loose ends?" she asked as her eyes flickered between jake's face and the gun. "i mean anyone that would go about making my life harder...more complicated." jake said as though he were complaining. cassie swallowed because honestly that didn't sound good and she didn't like the way jake was wearing a small grin. "jake, i don't know what's going on with you but please put the gun away....just put it away and we can talk about it...whatever you want." she told him as she stood defensless against him. jake made a scoffing noise and again took a step forward he wasn't close to her but she still felt a chill run down her spine. "talking...it never really works anyway. you can talk to someone till you're out of breath but they never really listen...even if they're your best friend...." jake trailed off and cassie's heart beat quick again. "is-is this about danny, jake? is it about his death?" she asked and jake looked away from her. "it's about everything...friendship and love and money and happiness it's about it all." he muttered out and cassie nodded even though she had no idea what he was talking about. "jake, can i ask you a question?" she asked him and he looked up at her obviously surprised at her question, before he gave a quick nod. cassie hesitated, she didn't know how to word her question and she didn't know how jake would respond once she asked it. "why are you pointing a gun at me?" she asked, because she didn't know. she barely knew jake let alone a reason for why he would pull a gun on her. jake's face fell into a deep frown. "i already told you! i'm tying up lose ends!" he snapped at her and she flinched because she wasn't stupid she knew that her being considered a 'loose end' wasn't a good thing. "i-i don't understand what you mean though...what are these loose ends?" she asked as she continued her plan to get jake talking because if jake was talking to her it meant he wasn't doing worse things. "you know i thought you were smart?" jake said to her but she ignored his comment because the last thing she needed to do was back talk the guy holding the gun. "you people, you're the loose ends! like josiah hardwick." jake said and she noticed how when he mentioned josiah his voice grew colder. " josiah was getting in the way so i had to make that call to the police and give them that tip that got him arrested." jake said and cassie gasped because jake was spilling his secrets to her and she had seen enough movies to know that when the secrets came out the person who heard them wasn't expected to live. "and lexi, that bimbo would've ruined everything...she would've slipped and said something on accident so i had to shoot her to keep her quiet." jake said and cassie noticed his voice growing colder and again he stepped towards her. cassie stepped back only to find that she had reached the wall of her apartment. "it was you jake? you shot lexi? but your arm! you were attacked!" she said as her eyes trailed jakes bandaged arm. jake chuckled a bit as he looked at his own arm. "i attacked myself...it hurt like a bitch but it had to be done." he told her as he turned to look back at her. "then there's you cassie, the most innocent of the others, the one who really had the least to do with making things complicated for me...except for when you told the police who i was...or when you identified me in the picture with lexi...or when you told them about the money deal with danny. you're quiet the snitch." jake whispered as he came to stand now before her and cassie could do nothing as she was already backed against the wall. by now cassie could barely think due to the sound of her heart beating in her ears. she couldn't believe that jake was doing this she couldn't believe that he had done half of the things he had claimed to have done. as cassie watched jake's face her eyes grew wide as her mind brought her a revealation. "it was you wasn't it?...." she began as she stared the man in the eye "you killed him....you killed danny didn't you!" she nearly yelled at him and she felt her body shake as the words left her mouth. jake was looking down at her, his face took on a blank almost surprised stare and she noticed the gun go lax in his hand. "see, i knew you were smart. he always told me you were." he told her and that was all the anwser she needed because she knew that he had done it. jake walker danny's best friend had killed him. cassie's body reacted faster to this news then her mind could and without missing a beat she made a leap for him she didn't really know what she was trying to do, grab the gun or just slug jake in the face. either way jake slung his arm out his face twisting into shock as he knocked away and she fell to the ground landing on the hardwood floor. by now cassie's mind had caught up with her body and she shook as she realized she had put herself in a very dangerous situation. jake now seemed to tower over her and he had lowered the gun now pointing it at her head. he himself was breathing quickly probably out of surprise that she had tried to attack him. cassie lowered her eyes to the floor because she felt the tears prick sharp at her eyes and tears fell onto the wooden floor. wheter she was crying out of anger at jake and her situation or sadness for danny, she didn't know. "yeah cassie, i killed danny but i wasn't the only one." she heard jake say. ************************************* why does jake have josiah's credit card? will jake really shoot cassie? and did he really kill danny? and if he did who helped him? find out next time! ~cassie~

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Sunday, December 9, 2007

did you read the news? i could disect you

listening to: misery business-paramore Redmoonchick Responds: knight edge: yeah, danny still shows up here once in awhile but i suppose it's like misty showing up in your posts right? shadowme: i've been trying to keep my chapters short as to not overwhelm the readers. sayanachan: yay! as long as krissy san likes sixteen i'll keep writing it! hi, ah i know i've been missing in action for the last few days but i've been kinda busy. so i didn't end up seeing danny on friday. really no one supported my decision to see him again. and no one else really cared if they saw him again so i felt pretty alone in my effort. but it wasn't just that. i mean the things he wanted to do we didn't really want to and it was just kinda complicated so i didn't see him again. i don't know if i will ever see him again in person. i mean i would like to see him again but people tell me that it's better that i didn't see him. on friday at school we had a birthday party for these twin boys that our senior class adopted their family. i had helped wrapped the presents for them and they came in during sixth hour and they were so adorable! they loved their presents and the whole class ate icecream cake and we sang happy birthday to them. i also did some christmas shopping over the weekend. we picked up the dvd 'superbad' (which is a hilarious movie btw) and a dvd player and i had to go all ninja to hide them from my bro and i wrapped them yesterday. i've been looking for a good digital camera for myself for christmas but i haven't found one in my price range yet. but hey all i have to do is wait a little while and i should be able to afford it. ah my headphones for my mp3 player broke today...i actually think my kitten patrick broke them. anyway i got some new headphones called gummiez and they are pink! and cute and sooooo much better then my old headphones. i mean before i could have my volume up to 32 and it wouldn't be too loud but now i can barely put it past 21 without it being too loud. oh and i got a christmas tree! it's not real and it's only four feet but i think it's adorable! i really like christmas time it makes me so happy and cheery! well i think that is all for now so i shall chat with you all later! ~red~

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Thursday, December 6, 2007

they let us play with markers but i kept trying to draw infinity

listening to: get busy living or get busy dying-fall out boy (old school) Redmoonchick Responds: LS: yeah, i think that guy actually wanted to have a kid though...i dunno teenagers are stupid. s angel: yes, my real friends i know wouldn't be all dramatized. ikyuu-nyuu-kon: i don't know if she will get an abortion. i don't think she will though. jd person: we actually have a pretty good group of kids on the student council megan: ah i know but since i'm a senior i was forced to take it! T-T shadowme: ewww armpit sore. XD thanks for the theme love. ah i love that song! but oddly enough i don't care for 'boys like girls' that much. fading.dreams: lol i think you'll do good on the test and i don't think you would be one to get caught up in drama at school. you're a good kid. lol never would i want to kill you jenny! hi, school was alright yesterday. we were supposed to have a student council meeting during my first hour but it ended up getting cancelled so we didn't have it. i found this awesome website called elfyourself.com and it gave me a whole hour of entertainment during second hour. i'll put the link up for the one i made tomorrow so you guys can watch it because oh emm gee it's so funny! we're watching the movie 'man of the year' in my fourth hour and i like it! it's a pretty good movie considering that it's a political comedy. more drama yesterday. during second hour this guy named rob was talking crap about this girl and i told her later so she got all pissed and had her cousin bitch the guy out. blah whatever too much drama and i really don't mean to gossip stuff just comes out cause i don't like pretending that someone isn't talking crap about someone else i know. there was drama during my first hour too. this guy came down and got his girlfriend out of our class and was yelling at her in the hall and the teacher got up to go out there and the guy was screaming and he kicked down this huge thing of boxes that was a project for the freshman class. -sigh- i'm gonna start taping what goes on at school and sell it as a reality show. oh that guy cody, i think he is back with his girlfriend but i'm not sure. i didn't want to press the issue with him. but geeze he is so funny and cute. eh my brother text messaged danny while we were on the way home and we asked about hanging out with him. he told us that he might be able to hang on friday but saturday he might be going somewhere. then he told us something surprising.....he's moving somewhere kinda far away. i was surprised and kind of sad. i mean once he moves then chances are good that our friendship is all but gone. -sigh- maybe i try too hard to keep old friendships alive? oh well i really want to hang out with him on friday. i hope it works out because really i'd like to see him just one more time. also my friend danielle moved in with her significant other and i'm glad that she did because i know she will be alot happier now...but all i'm worried about is someone being too controlling over her because i called her and told her to call me back and she never did which usually doesn't happen. so yeah i may be losing two friends in one week...awesome. i'm sure i'm being overdramatic but seesh i am depressed now. anyway time for the newest chapter of sixteen. it hasn't been up in like two weeks so i don't know who is actually reading it but i'm going to keep putting it up. sixteen: chapter fourteen: i'm not human (i promise) "lane, what-what are you doing to her?" one of the men ada didn't know asked. lane still breathing heavy looked at his friends then at her. "she-she's a vampire!" he breathed. "what? no she's not. we checked remember lane?" noah said as he stepped forward a bit. lane gave a hollow laugh. "she was wearing fake teeth, and she's strong, almost my equal." lane said as he watched his friends faces. "see she bit through straight to the bone." lane added as he showed them his finger which she did notice was bleeding profusely and she was able to see the pale white of the bone. the humans made disgusted noises and lane hid his finger once again wrapping it in the dark red scarf he was wearing. "well, why are you on top of her?" one of them a tall one with dark curly hair asked. "she got up, she was hungry, she was going to attack you." lane said as he stared down at ada. ada scoffed. "i wasn't going to attack them!" she argued as she attempted to push herself up. "so you admit that you're a vampire?" lane asked, as he pushed her back down, her back hitting the wooden floor. ada hesitated, she didn't know what she should or shouldn't say so she nodded. "yes, i am but so are you!" she sneered at him. "i may look like one but believe me i am not like you!" lane growled at her. "enough lane. get off of her." noah began. "but noah! i was saving you guys from her!" lane argued and stayed firmly on top of ada. "i wasn't going to attack anybody! i got up to get my jacket and you tackled me!" she argued. "your jacket? why would you want that?" he asked, ada grimced she didn't want to tell them about the serum, not yet, but she knew she had no other choice. "my serum is in it, and i need my serum." she told him. lane's eyes flashed at her but slowly she felt him shift and move off of her. ada sat up and lane stood moving over to the small door that ada had been heading to all along and pulled it open with his good hand. he pulled out ada's jacket and threw it to her. "prove it." lane said, ada scoffed once again but dug her hand into her pocket nonetheless and retrived one of the many vials that sat in her pockets. she held up the vial showing it to lane who grimaced and looked at the humans. "i was only trying to protect you." he told them and noah nodded. "we know lane, now come on and let bram have a look at your finger." noah said, lane nodded and gave a sort of glare to ada before he walked over and went into one of the rooms with a scraggly haired bearded man whose name was bram. after lane had gone the human with the curly hair looked at noah. "do you need me noah?" he asked as he leaned against the wall. noah shook his head. "no, james i'll be fine." noah told him, james nodded and headed back to what ada assumed was his bedroom. in the other room the one ada could see from the living room was bram and lane. this left ada and noah alone in the living room/kitchen. ada felt awkward she didn't know what to say to noah, she didn't know what kind of person he was and she didn't know how he felt about vampires. ada still sat dumbly on the floor the green vial held in her hand. she glanced at noah and saw him peer into the room where lane and bram were before he walked slowly over to her. ada listened to his footsteps but made no attempt at moving, she didn't want to scare anyone. noah stopped beside her and looked down at her. "are you alright?" he asked and she nodded, noah gave her a small smile as he offered his hand. she hesitated before accepting his hand and he helped pull her up. she noticed how much warmer noah's hand was compared to gray or caiden's hands. there was a silence between them and she felt like there was so much that needed to be said and talked about but she couldn't find the words to bring it up.ada didn't know where to start with noah, she wasn't used to talking with humans. it had been nearly a year since she did so. thankfully noah spoke first. "you...wanna take a seat?" he asked and she could feel the twinge of awkwardness in his voice. ada nodded dumbly and noah lead her into the kitchen.he took her over to the large black beat up counter that was covered in broken pieces of what looked like half made gadgets and tools. many seats were placed around the counter and noah pulled one out for ada before he took a seat at the counter as well. ada sat still holding the vial in her hand. despite noah being so warm towards here she just couldn't shake the feeling that she didn't belong here and in the very depths of her mind she could she caiden looking out the front door waiting for her to return. *************************** later sailors ~red~

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Wednesday, December 5, 2007

i called him on the phone and he touched himself

listening to: wow, i can get sexual too-say anything (great song) Redmoonchick Responds: LS: yeah, he has a fiance but they might not be together much longer. ha yeah this story has been going for awhile and it's almost done. angel zakuro: lol yeah the last thing i want to be is seizure inducing XD megan: no worries no more eye burning! XD yeah there's like three kids in my school who are engaged. shadowme: i like your character in the story. she's useful. XD ikyuu-nyuu-kon: ha ha i know i was kidding. i know you wouldn't call my stuff bad. lol all you have to do is add red plus green in the post box and it equals seizure inducing colors. XD hey peeps, today our school was taking the ASVAB test. which is a military test that's required to graduate. i took it last year but i didn't take it too seriously so they suggested that i take it again. the only drawback was that the test was three hours long...ugh was it boring! i think i did well on the test. the only sections i know i bombed was the math parts because i just can't get it if no one can explain it to me. -sigh- the scores won't be in for awhile but i'm confident that i did pretty good. well since i didn't post the other day i didn't get a chance to tell you guys about some drama that went down. i saw my friend kyle (who was sitting right next to me in second hour)i saw him start flirting with his PREGNANT GIRLFRIEND's best friend. so i knew they were having problems so i thought that they broke up. so during third hour i talked to the guy's girlfriend's other friend and she said they didn't break up. of course this was bad because it meant that she was going to tell the girlfriend what i saw and i so didn't want to end up in the middle of the drama. so i asked her not to tell her my name. yesterday i come to find out that the two of them are now broken up based on other things plus the thing i saw. so the girlfriend came to me at lunch and thanked me for telling about what i saw...geeze i just hope my name doesn't come up anymore. aaaaand during fifth hour extreamly cute boy (whose name is cody btw) told us that he broke it off with his fiance. i was really surprised because they've been together almost two years but he said that he just didn't trust her anymore. i felt really bad for him because you could tell he was visibly upset and it reminded me of when i'd be upset at a certain someone last year. oh and my yearbook class just might make me kill someone because things are just falling apart in that class. with stupid unmotivated people, bad software, and unloadable pictures....yeah someone just might get a pencil to the eye. (jk of course) well i have a student council meeting today so that should be fun. it's during first hour so i don't know how productive it will be but i'm hoping for the best. later peeps ~red~

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Monday, December 3, 2007

this is for real

listening to: thnks fr th mmrs-fall out boy Redmoonchick Responds: s angel: ah ha yes, pete is cuter then december. XD claes: ah i fear i get no snow day. jd person: well maybe if you visit my site enough you'll become a fan! XD but yeah fangirls tend to be entertaining. i know i am. XD sayanachan: holy crap! i didn't know our birthday's were so close either! ha ha i hate that it's like "okay this is your birthday and christmas present." and i'm like "you're cheap." XD megan: lol i thought of you the whole time i was putting up the new theme too. megan=girl L? XD angel zakuro: ah no way! you can't steal my L! hmmmm i'm not really rooting for anyone now. as long as bianca doesn't win. i kinda like chantal though too. lol there's just no way to put those two colors together without seizing someone out. hiya, so i made more changes to my theme again. i changed the background color on my post box because it was giving people seizures. XD so now it's black and green and it's not to christmasy but meh i like it. i changed my room around a bit today. my mom and i moved out the old matresses that she doesn't use anymore out of my room and we put one of them on my bed cause my mom doesn't like me using my old matress. me being a creature of habit though...i don't know if i like it but now that the matresses are gone i have lot's of space in my room now! *glee* oh i forgot to mention this before but the guy i used to talk about on here sometimes (the extreamly cute boy from my school) well he basically went m.i.a from school the day before thanksgiving break and he didn't show back up all the next week until friday. now his fiance lives in california so we all assumed that he went there and dropped out of school so when he came back we found out that he had been in a car accident on the bridge by our school! he said he slid on some ice and his truck hit another car and his airbag didn't go off so he hit his face and chest on the steering wheel and he bruised his lung and broke his nose. he showed me a pic of himself on his cell phone from when he got to the hospital and his face was all dark and bloodied up. i don't really think that image will leave me. but he's okay now so that's good. anyway i wanna keep this short because i have the next chapter of 'murder and lyrics' ready for you guys and i have to say we are getting really close to figuring out who the killer is! previously: danielle went to the hospital to see lexi. danielle questioned lexi about the attack and lexi claimed she couldn't remember anything. with some persuasion lexi suddenly remembered that jake had been the one to shoot her. josiah was let go due to the evidence from jenny and jake showed up at cassie's door. murder and lyrics: chapter twenty five: making small talk never seemed so hard jake entered cassie's apartment with her following after him shutting the heavy door behind them. jake walked into the medium sized living room standing as he rested his hands on one of the chairs in the room. cassie followed him into the room and he looked to her. the two of them stood in awkward silence until cassie cleared her throat. "you can have a seat jake." she told him as she motioned to the white couch that sat with it's back to the door. jake nodded and took a seat still silent. cassie moved over to the recliner that sat kiddie corner to the couch her eyes never leaving jake. he looked a little nervous or something like that cassie thought. she knew that he had just gotten out of the hospital and accounted his odd behavior to the fact that he had been attacked. "so what did you want to talk about?" cassie asked as she folded her hands in her lap. she wasn't sure how to handle jake; she hadn't dealt with him too much mostly she would just tell danny that he had showed up or they'd make small talk at best. it was in this moment that she realized that the two of them had never really had a real conversation. "well..." jaked began as he crossed his legs "i wanted to stop by and see how you were doing." he said and cassie nodded. she had already figured that the talk would turn to danny; after all jake had known him longer then she had. "i'm doing better all things considered. but uh how about you jake? how are you?" she asked and jake nodded. "same here i guess, i-i don't think it's hit me that he's gone yet you know?" jake asked and cassie nodded because she did know; she knew every time his cell phone rang, every time one of his songs played, every time she walked around her own apartment. there were traces of danny everywhere and she figured that all his close friends must feel that way. "what about your arm? how's that?" she asked as she continued to make conversation with jake. jake looked at his injured arm and gave a half shrug. "hurts like a bitch when i'm not all doped up on med's." he told her and he laughed not a real laugh but a forced laugh; one that cassie copied. "but-" jake went on. "i don't want to talk about me, i want to talk about you; about how you're doing...i know you and him were close." he said his voice dripped with sympathy. cassie nodded. "i mean it's been hard yeah, but it's like that for everyone." she told jake because really she didn't need him worrying all over her. "yeah, but i recall at the will reading that josiah said you were suicidal." jake said way too bluntly for cassie's liking. cassie shook her head instantly. "no, no jake despite what he thought i'm not suicidal." cassie ressured him as she now knew why he had been worried. jake made a face and cassie wondered if maybe he didn't believe her when she said she wasn't suicidal. "are you thirsty cassie? can i make you something to drink?" jake asked as he brushed his bangs out of his eyes and motioned to the small kitchen to the left of them. cassie raised her eyebrows. "um no jake, i'm good." she told him and his face fell a little. "well, do you mind if i get myself something?" he asked and she shook her head. "no, go ahead." she said and jake stood and entered the kitchen with cassie's eyes following him. she watched as he opened her fridge looking for something to drink. jake spoke to her while he was in the kitchen. "so josiah got arrested i hear?" jake half asked half stated and cassie nodded even though he couldn't see her. "yeah, i was with him when he was." she said even though she really didn't want to talk about josiah. "and lexi and i getting attacked...that was some crazy shit." jake said as he turned to face her and moved back into the living room with a cup in hand. again cassie nodded. "you don't remember who attacked you jake?" she asked and jake shook his head. "nah, it's all kinda fuzzy." he said as he took a sip of his cup and cassie noticed that he was now wearing gloves. jake noticed her looking at his hands and he laughed. "i wear them cause the glass is too cold." jake said as he set the cup on the side table that sat next to the couch. cassie nodded but her face showed traces of skeptism. "so back to lexi, i bet you're glad she got shot right?" jake asked and cassie's face fell into a look of shock. "what? of course not jake! why would you say that?" she asked shocked by his question. jake looked surprised that cassie was shocked. "you don't like lexi right? so wouldn't you be happy that she was hurt?" jake asked as if he were legitimitly confused about her anwser. "just because i don't like her doesn't mean i want her to be shot!" cassie said and her eyes held a deep concern that jake could easily see. she let out a sigh and jake remained silent. "look jake, i'm getting kinda tired so i think i'm gonna call it a night so i think you need to go." she said as she stood from the chair. jake grinned but he didn't move. "i don't really want to go but i'll respect your wishes and leave." jake said as he stood and patted her on the shoulder before he walked to the door. cassie still stood in the living room waiting for him to leave when he stopped his back still facing her. "you know cassie, i was kinda hoping that lexi died..." he said and cassie gasped a bit at what he had said. jaked then turned slowly to face cassie and it was then that she saw his somber face and the shine of the silver pistol in grasped firmly in his gloved hand. the pistol that was pointed squarely at her chest. "it would've saved me a lot of trouble." he finished. *************************************** why did jake come to cassie's apartment? why did he wish that lexi would've died? why did jake pull a gun on cassie and would he really hurt her? find out next time! ~red~

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Sunday, December 2, 2007

wait it's december?

listening to: this is for real-motion city soundtrack Redmoonchick Responds: LS: thanks! i'll definitly be sure to check that site out for more info! angel zakuro: ha ha yes, watch out pete! here comes me! lol aww i know i miss heather but i figured she wouldn't win. i think i'm going for selisha cause i don't know i like her i don't really like bianca or jenah. sayanachan: you didn't miss sixteen. it didn't get posted this week or last week so no worries! hey, well as we all know it's december which i guess i kinda forgot about cause when i saw the date today i was like "holy crap it's december!" XD along with december comes a new theme! it's death note christmas style! who would've guessed that something like that existed? i really like it and i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE the song on my site. ah only fall out boy could make a semi depressing christmas song! XD much thanks to jenny for putting the song on the site! well today my mom and i got in the christmas spirit and we did some decorating! we put lights inside the house and around the pole in our yard. we also put up a reindeer that lights up and some fake plastic candy canes. i don't know i think something about decorating puts me in a good mood. the news kept saying on friday that we would have a big storm all weekend so on saturday i was waiting for it to snow. and finally it did right before my mom and i were about to go to my grandma's house. it got really bad really fast but it was never really dangerous or anything. it's still snowing/sleeting right now so maybe if we're lucky we'll get a snow day. oh and december brings one more thing. my birthday! it's coming up on the 19th ah so close to christmas that i don't get a lot of presents. T-T oh well i made a list and it's pretty short. i asked for the rolling stone panic! at the disco poster, the cd 'fall out boy's evening out with your girlfriend', and the instrimental verison of the fall out boy songs cd. short right? i'll probably add something later. well that's all for now so see you all later! ~red~

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Friday, November 30, 2007

i'm the one who jaded you

listening to: crushcrushcrush-paramore (i LOVE this song) Redmoonchick Responds: jenny: nah i'm not sad you know if i was i would tell you! XD glad you liked my poems. alex: i'm sorry my poem reminds you of a situation you're in, but i'm glad you liked the poems. ikyuu-nyuu-kon: um wait....are you calling my poems bad? lol shadowme: i'm really glad you liked the poems. i like the fifth one too! ha ha i guess unrequited love is the kind i write the best. a13: i'm glad you like the poems! no i'm not sad so don't worry! LS: ah thanks! that would be amazing if i ever actually wrote a song. angel zakuro: lol i never thought about being a lyricist, ha ha i can be the next pete wentz! XD i know i was so sad that she went home but i knew she would when the go see's come up. i'm really glad you guys liked my poems but don't worry you guys i'm not sad and nothing is wrong with me. so now worries! XD ah yesterday i had a whole post written up with my story and everything but then my computer messed up and wouldn't open the documents so that's why i did the poem post. school yesterday was alright. i got a lot of compliments because i wore make up to school. usually i don't wear anything because i don't have the time but i did and i think i'll wear it everyday. hmmm i think our yearbook camera is breaking or something with our school's computers won't let us upload pictures and it's beyond frustrating! also the pictures we do upload won't go into catagories like they should. i really do like the book we're reading called twisted. it's really good so far. oh i was wondering if you guys knew a way for me to change the font on my site? i can't seem to figure it out and i was wondering if there was some special way to do it or something? hmmm i'm changing my theme soon so i hope you guys are excitied for it. well that's all i have for now so i'll chat with you guys later. ~red~

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Thursday, November 29, 2007

third hour

hey here's some poems for you guys to mull over: Don’t change now; don’t go back to the way things used to be You can’t re-walk a bridge after it’s burned Colliding images plague my mind Why is it that you are so determined to find that weak point in me? When all I wanted was to be everything you wanted me to be You know all the places to aim to take the greatest effect Please don’t make me want to regret the day I met you Love me but not enough Care about how I feel despite mass appeal Promise me we’ll see each other again Let’s pretend that we’re still best friends That nothing ever changed And we’re still leaning against that cold wall And talking to each other. We avoided the car crash But we couldn’t avoid the spontaneous combustion Lit with the spark from our meeting eyes Doomed from the moment we met Using lyrics we didn’t write to say the words that we can’t speak Relive the past and pray for our future Brushing hands a change of power Who really holds the cards? The two people we were are dead We’re brand new Because I’m definitely not me and you’re definitely not you Come on baby, shoot from the hip Come on darling, show me your wrists I want to see the faded scars that reside there And you can tell me how you once thought life was unfair Tell me your secrets and I’ll laugh them off And save them for later like money on a rainy day Sell me your soul at a price you can pay After all who needs a heart like yours anyway? Spent most of last night holding this phone Contemplating hearing the static crackle of your voice in my ears Sat in the dark with my hand to my heart And tried to hear it beating out your name Listening as it faded away Saw the glassy reflection of the stars in my eyes And the sorrowful hollow laugh we left behind Pressed my fingers to the cold glass but I can never see myself there Listened to the songs that matched the moonlight And I promised myself I wouldn’t think about you After tonight

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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

music is my boyfriend

listening to: high school days-say anything (i freaking love this song!) Redmoonchick Responds: megan: you are so very welcome! ha ha i give you the gift of gabe! XD kakashi s: sadly it's not snowing anymore but i wish it would again! shadowme: drama is always entertaining....unless it involves yourself. x rawr: ah i'm no good at speeches either....*dreads* ah thanks so much for reading it! *hugs* sayanachan: i have to give my speech tomorrow too! though i really don't wanna but that's lucky that you like speeches! oh dude for real i love the bracelet and my friends did too! hola amigos, my brother didn't go to school yesterday for the stupidest reason..his pants broke. his zipper to be more percise. so he didn't go and i did. we're getting ready to read a new book in our english 11 class, it's called 'twisted' it's by the same author as the book 'speak' and i know a few people really like that book so i'm looking forward to reading it but we're supposed to start it tomorrow but i can't because i have a student council meeting at the same time. we had to do this friggen lab in my phyics class where we had to do different activities to measure our time and distance and didn't want to do it because i had to hop down the hallway but at least only my friend megan was out there. i had to sell food from our school store at lunch yesterday with this guy named doug and it was kinda awkward because we're both stuck in the closet together (we sell stuff out of the closet) and i don't really know him too well but it was alright because he listens a lot and does whatever i say which is always a cool thing. previously i said i wanted to be the student council secretary but now i feel like i really don't wanna be. i dunno i just think it would be way too much work and i already have a ton of stuff on my plate so i don't think i want to do it anymore which is fine cause i know my friend taylor will do a good job. i thought i left my notebook that has a bunch of my poetry and personal things written down in it at school today and i freaked out because i definitly don't want anyone to see what i wrote so i was scared that someone found it and then would tease me about it so i asked my mom and she said that she saw the notebook on my bed and threw it over on her bed and it got covered with clothes. ah what i relife. i kinda feel like maybe i want to have some emo hair, maybe nothing is decided but i was looking at pics and the emo pics are totally cool so i wouldn't mind having hair like that. ha ha and i was looking at the boy emo pics and all the guys were so gorgeous and i clicked on one of the pics and then my friend timmmy walked by and he was like "hey it's danny!" and i was like "no, that's not danny." XD but yeah you guys know how every girl likes a different type of guy, like my friend sydney likes gangsta's and my friend taylor likes the bad boys so now i know what my type is and i like emo, goth, punk boys. gah they're so cute i can't help it. i'm bored so here's a little something...you should do it! XD be completely honest. What would you do if? 1. I was right next to you: 2. I kissed you: 3. I lived next door to you: 4. I started smoking: 5. I was hospitalized: 6. I was drunk: 7. I hugged u: 8. I asked you to leave: 9. I asked you out: What do you think about my? 10. Personality: 11. Eyes: 12. Hair: Would you? 14. Be my friend? 15. Keep a secret if i told you one? 16. Kiss me? 17. Reassure Me 18. Keep in touch? 19. Date me? 20. Hold me? Have you ever? 21. Lied to make me feel better? 22. Wanted to kiss me? 23. Wanted to bite me? 24. Kept something important from me? 25. Wanted to cuddle with me? More. 26. 27. Are we friends? 28. When and how did we meet? 29. Describe me in one word: 30. What was your first impression? 31. What reminds you of me? 32. If you could give me anything what would it be? 33. How well do you know me? 34. When's the last time you saw me? 35. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 36. Are you gonna post this so you can see what I say about you? ~red~

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