Thursday, March 29, 2007

pretty in punk

mood: why it's almost like being in love listening to: my brother singing disney songs in a high pitched voice currently: wishing i didn't feel this way about him hi, Redmoonchick responds: playitbakinslomo: well crab soccer is where you have to play soccer but you have to walk like a crag while doing it and that means walking with your hands and not letting your butt touch the floor. xXurbrokendollXx: no danny isn't my brother, he's a very good friend of mine and nothing else! merrick-fma: i wish i could show off the comic but alas i have no scanner T-T lalagirl: yup the pics i put up yesterday were of pete wentz the bass player for fall out boy well as we all know april is coming up quickly and i'm in need of a new theme for my site. i have some ideas but i'm having a hard time deciding on one. so i decided that i'd ask you guys what you thought. should my new theme for april be: a.fruits basket b.panic! @ the disco c.naruto d.death note e.nana f. fall out boy ok so which one do you guys think i should go with? i want some opinons people! ^-^ school was pretty normal yet again, i mentioned yesterday that danny might not show up to school because he got his wisdom teeth pulled. well i was pleasantly surprised to find him there today. i was lessed pleased during second hour when danny was acting so strange! i blamed it on the pain medication he was given for his teeth but man was he being weird! he kept bugging me to tell him who i was talking about in my currently lines on my posts. *points to top of post* up there. well i told him it wasn't important and he was getting so upset. needless to say he was quite distracting! in my third hour were doing an easter fundraiser to raise money for the yearbook. it's going to be pretty cool. were doing a easter egg hunt and some other easter related activities. man yoga is kicking my butt lately! ugh my legs are killing me we did so much leg work yesterday. i hope all this yoga work is going to pay off eventually and that i'll lose some unwanted pounds. i've also been trying to organize all my friends so that we can hang out this weekend. it's been extreamly difficult, mostly because we can't really decide what to do. most of us want to go bowling but a few people *cough* danny *cough* don't want to bowl. so yeah but i'm still trying. there was a fight in the parking lot after school today and that fight involved me. ok so it was a fight between me and danny and it was a bit more agressive then are normal fights. and boy i can just hear all the things danny will say now as i type this. i kept slapping him in the head and knocking his glasses off and i kicked him in the knee, but he punched me in both arms so i was hurt too. there was even a bystander involved, my younger brother he decided to come up behind me and poke me in the shoulders real hard so without looking at him i swung backwards and smacked him in the jaw. man he was so mad and wanted to beat the hell out of me but we were at school and it was an accident! oh yeah during the fight danny was like "your going to talk about this on myotaku aren't you?" XD he knows me too well dammit! but yeah i am so what who cares? oh yeah danny also hurt my feelings because he called me a bitch and he meant it! ah i hate when my friends say mean things about me and then danny accused me of hurting his feelings. but yeah he did hurt my feelings because i'm a sensitive person and get hurt easy. but in the end danny is my friend and i know that he'd defend me if someone was messing with me so i love him for that. but only in a friend way people. oh while my brother and i were waiting to get picked up after school, these guys in a pick-up truck drove by and yelled at us "you guys are losers because you go to choice!" well choice is our high school and we are an alternative high school so yeah the normal high school kids hate us! but i don't care because i love my school and wouldn't want to go anywhere else. so it's thursday and it's the final chapter of my story "my friend rory" ah how long it's been. i know some people were upset i was ending it so early, but as they say all good things must come to a end. so this chapter is pretty short so i hope you all enjoy! *********************************************************************************** "my friend rory" chapter eleven: doesn't matter what time it is as long as i'm with you david and i have been going out ever since that day four years ago. we now live in chicago and are attending college there. the clearview high school where the shooting took place stayed closed until the next school year where it was re-opened and given a new name "the clearview students memorial highschool" they even included a wing and a library named after david and i. even though the school was re-opened i could never go inside and i still haven't even to this day,neither has david. i feel that the school should stay the way it was inside my memories from before the shooting, i can close my eyes and still see them. the students and rory perserved forever in my memory, if i were to go inside the new school where would those memories go? though alex and ellie both returned to the school and tell me that the window that rory fell from is now replaced by a stone wall. like i said before david and i are still together and we're even getting married in may. we're a pretty normal couple now doing normal couple things but that's not to say that the shooting didn't effect us in the long run. sometimes when were at home together watching a movie or TV show and someone is shot and killed, i'll get uncomfortable and david will change the channel, and sometimes late at night i'll dream of rory. that i can see him and speak to him but it's always the same he always kills himself in the end, no matter how hard i try to stop him i never can, and on those nights when i wake in the dark i just press myself closer to david and try to remember that it's all a dream. really i don't know what i'd do without him. speaking of david he's still the same and so am i, i guess. well i know i'm not that same seventeen year old but for the most part i am the same twenty one year old. sometimes i think of rory and wonder what kind of man he'd be now? i wonder if he'd be happy? or if he'd be getting married just like i was? but that's all just wishful thinking because rory will always be seventeen years old in this world and in my mind. rory's parents moved away from our neighborhood about a month after the funeral and i still get letters from them sometimes. i still talk to ellie and sometimes go to see her on the weekends, back to my old hometown where eveyone knows me and when i go back i'll drive by the old highschool but never look because i don't really want to see. instead i'll always drive to the old cementary to visit rory's grave and i stand there looking at the headstone and picture rory standing beside me and i'll tell him everything there is to tell, about my upcoming wedding and my school life, about how his family is doing and about how i still miss him after all this time. i also kept my promise to rory that i'd tell his story. a few days after the funeral i went on the network news and told everything i could about what had happened that day, i swear they must've played that footage nearly a hundered times all over america and just like rory wanted himself and our school became infamous. everyone knew what the clearview shooting was just like everyone knew who rory and myself were. i also wrote a book about what had happened i titled it "my friend rory" and it became pretty popular, i still get letters sometimes from people who congradulate my heroism, but sometimes i do get angry letters question why i still called a murder my friend just like alex had done four years ago. it happens a lot when david and i walk together. people will come up to me and ask "how can you call that monster your friend?" and i'll look at david smile and say "because he's not a monster he's just my friend rory" ******************************************************************* well love it? hate it? want me to stop writing? lol i hope you guys like it! ~redmoonchick~

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