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Birthday
• 1988-12-19
Gender
• Female
Location
• anywhere i lay my head which is in michigan
Member Since
• 2004-11-22
Occupation
• future college student
Real Name
• cassandra or cassie, or red, or pete, or fob whore, hey you over there. it all works.

Personal

Achievements
• graduated from high school, met andy hurley from fall out boy and got his autograph!, worked for the mayor, successfully lead a protest at my school, was in the newspaper for said protest
Anime Fan Since
• since i was like eight
Favorite Anime
• full metal alchemist, bleach, naruto, maburaho, kyo kara myoh, death note, black cat and so much more
Goals
• to get the other three members of fall out boy's autographs
Hobbies
• drawing, collecting manga, writting, watching anime
Talents
• drawing, writting, balancing things on my head

myOtaku.com: redmoonchick

Thursday, July 19, 2007

when did your heart go missing?

mood: angsty

listening to: london beckons songs- panic at the disco (i know that's not the whole title but i didn't feel like typing it all)

currently: need some goth pockets for all my angst.

pimpage: detectivedanielle (is it still her that makes you sweat?), shallow heart (she gets teen hearts beating faster), deadxonxarrival (in case she lost her train of thought where was it that she last left off?), shadowme (harlequin girl), knight edge (he's got more wit a better kiss then any boy you ever met), tohmalover14 (she dances to this beat and holds a lover close), destinyssweetman (he's sitting and sweating to a dance song on the clubs P.A)
*note all pimpage is chosen randomly from the panic songs "lying is the most fun" & "but it's better if you do"

avatar of the day:

Redmoonchick Responds:

edge: don't call me odd! i really wanted that pic to show you guys. and i found it because i am awesome like that.

jenny: ha usually i don't go to sleep till around 11. ha i'm a vampire with my emo curtains. i give you my sickness! *licks letter* ha ha and when patrick is dressed as a steak he can be called steakrick XD

sayanachan: i think all the fueled by ramen boys are plushies lovers. XD it's their fetish.

hi guys,

my bestfriend is over. say hi sydney.

sydney: -waves-

well sadly i didn't get around to writing this weeks chapter of wentz and wonderland because i've been feeling creativly drained for some reason. i seems like i can't get the words out. maybe i'm just not feeling motivated. either way i think i might put wentz in wonderland up tomorrow, if not then next week.

my cat is sick or hurt or something. mr. hughes (my cat) came in from outside and his legs were swelled up real bad and he was limping. i think maybe he got in a fight or he scratched himself or something but i hope he gets better cause it makes me sad to see him limp around the house in pain.

oh i saw pete wentz on mtv cribs today. it was funny. he was eating cupcakes and playing with hemmy his dog. and the other members of fob were there and patrick wouldn't look at the camera. ha funny. other pete wentz news, there are rumors flying everywhere that pete proposed to ashlee simpson. excuse me while i hurl. i swear i heard that story on three different shows on three different channels. it's not true though. while i really don't like pete and ashlee as a couple all i can hope for is that the next album the songs are not about her because then...it would just ruin it for me.

oh i heard that someone on the internet was showing pages of the new harry potter book and spoiling it. i didn't check because i don't want to be spoiled. just thought i might give you guys a heads up.

i know i might not seem like i'm in a good mood it's because really i am not. i am very angsty today for a very common reason. it's danny...and before i start yes, i know i talk about him a lot but really seriously i don't care because it's my sight and i can talk about anything i want.

anyway i messaged him today and asked him if he ever misses me, he said yeah, then i said something back and as usual no reply. that's where it hurts. he doesn't talk to me like he talks to other girls. and i don't know why. it kinda drives me crazy because i just want to talk to him. i miss him like crazy bad. all i really want is to be important to him because seriously i care about him so damn much, he doesn't even know. even when i'm mad at him i still care about him a lot. i want to know that he's happy and how he is doing and i want to hear him laugh and know that he's ok. man this is sounding stalkerish, you guys all probably think i am crazy or something.

i just miss the way we were. i don't know i had so much fun when i was with him and he made me happy and it was all fun...and i miss that. i feel now that he doesn't need me anymore, that he doesn't care about me the way i do about him. it's all frustrating. and i tried i fucking tried so hard to ignore it and go on and i fucking can't because i just want to exist to him and have him remember me and just know that he cares about me because being forgotten about it hurts...really badly. maybe he didn't care all along? maybe i really didn't mean anything. just someone he used to know and hung out with at school.

i don't know maybe if i was skinnier or scene or something then he'd pay attention to me. it all ends with me feeling like a desperate loser and a stalker. i don't know i just care about him and want to be around him. i feel like maybe he's different. i don't feel like he's the same person anymore. i'm more scared of him which is pyscho because it's just danny why should i be afraid? i want to tell him and i try to talk to him about it on myspace but he never replies. i can't talk to him on aim. i'm too afraid to call him anymore. i don't know if i'd tell him anyways. i thought he knew that i would fucking do anything for that kid but i guess he doesn't, but i would. he doesn't know that the only reason i went to school every day was because i wanted to see him and spend time with him. same for everytime i skipped my second hour and when i'd visit him before fourth hour. -sigh- i don't know i guess all i really want is for things to go back to the way they were. it was good then.

sorry for the longness.

~cassie~

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