Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Lyrics

"Goodbye To You"

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

[Chorus]

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

[Chorus x2]

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star


Goodbye to you - Michelle Branch


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Monday, July 11, 2005

The stars
I wish I was just like Ayanami

Without any kinda feelings. All my friends have betrayed me. It feels like it would be better if I gave up....
But I cant.... I gess I still have something to stand up for. I dont know what it is..... I wish someone could tell me....
Am I standing here for nothing? Just for nothing? Without anykinda meaning?
I feel like I am. Every each night I just stare at the stars, remembering the gone, good moments with my friends. Amerill, Heero, Darsha.... And now its all gone. All memories, everything that I thought would happen has just vanished from my dreams. The dreams have been replaced with nightmares. And once again, Im alone.
Now theres no stars showing me the way.
There were no us, no feelings, no true wishes. Im destined to walk threw this life alone, as I see....

Maybe I should trust more the great sister moon..... If she would just show up out here at summers.

Maybe I am more like Ayanami that I thought.....

Take care.



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Friday, July 1, 2005

*yawn*
Dont got much time now either.

Well, just to let you know: I broke up with Juho. Finally Im free from that gay asshole and I can move to someone else. *laughs manically* FREEDOM!! *Faints* Uhhhh should get some sleep too -_-;
Okay so I have been working all days and I got free time only by night so I gotta do everything fun at nights and Im so damn tired. I have slept like 20 hours this week. And Im TIRED!

Uh.... I wanna get outta here. I decided three places I wanna go: Mobile, Houston, Fresno. Three places. Nothing more. Tho I could visit Ohio too since Ender lives there...

Oh well. All for today. Sorry everyone I will visit your sites Im just more on with xSakurax.... It would be easier to add you friends for that charater too....
Cloud, dont get hurted of what goldwolf said. Shes havin hard time. Yeah I heard what happened. Shes my friend too.

Well take care.

Oh yeah, No, I dont post pics every week. I just.... Just.... like posing ^^; And some friends of mine are always whining that they havent seen my pic so.....




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Thursday, June 30, 2005

Hello
Im so damn tired. *yawn* Been workingall day long again. I got really nothing to say but visit xSakurax, I have three pictures up of myself. once again. I love posin. *Laughs*
Well. Im tired and Im goin to sleep and I will post more when I got more time. See you soon all! *waves* Oh yeah and sorry I havent visited you. I dont got much time. I will when I do have. B'bye!



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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

*smack*
*hits her head wtih her hand* Just an headache.
So. Theres 3 pics of me up in xSakurax again. Theres the one you have seen before too, plus two others. That charater is mine now so Im more on with it.
Oh yeah, if you havent checked my newest fanart from xSakurax, check it. I am really proud of that pieces colours *nod*
Well - I got nothing more to say. Happy time peoples. Take care.



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Friday, June 17, 2005

*sigh*
Well....

I submitted one fanart on xSakurax. I wont be on in the weekend 'cause my boyfriend is here for three days. My mom was sweet, at ONCE: She made us sleep in different rooms. This means he wont try to get a piece of me. Which is good for me.
Now, theres also a new pic in my site, of me. But so you wont get traumas, I'll say dont check it. Thats how I look inthe morning X_X My friend took it once inthe morning..... *curses "damn asshole"*
So well. Thats all for today. *yawn* Gotta go to sleep..... I have slept like 5 hours last 3 nights..... Uhhh..... x.x

Take care, peoples



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Monday, June 13, 2005

Why

I want someone to cry with.....

Yeah. Im crying. In this moment. My eyes are bloodred and I hardly can see..... Im so disappointed.... No-one cares, No-one truly wants me, No-one..... I just want to die..... The easiest way to get away from this..... I cant hold on anymore..... Not alone...... I need someone by my side..... Gess Im gonna live, suffer and die alone....

.....Just..... I wish there could be someone.....



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End

It is the end of all hope.
To lose the child, the faith.
To end all the innocence.
To be someone like me.

This is the birth of all hope.
To have what I once had.
This life unforgiven, It will end with birth.

No will to wake for this morn.
To see another black rose born.
Deathbed is slowly covered with snow.

Angels, they fell first, but I'm still here
Alone as they are drawing near.
In heaven my masterpiece will finally be sung.

It is the end of all hope.
To lose the child, the faith.
To end all the innocence.
To be someone like me.

Wounded is the deer that leaps highest, and my wound it cuts so
deep.
Turn off the light and let me pull the plug.

It is the end of all hope.
To lose the child, the faith.
To end all the innocence.
To be someone like me.

This is the birth of all hope.
To have what I once had.
This life unforgiven, It will end with a birth.

Mandylion without a face, Deathwish without a prayer.
End of hope, end of love, end of time The rest is silence.

It is the end of all hope.
To lose the child, the faith.
To end all the innocence.
To be someone like me.

This is the birth of all hope.
To have what I once had.

It is the end of all hope.
To lose the child, the faith.
To end all the innocence.
To be someone like me.

It is the end of all hope.
To lose the child, the faith.
End of all hope.


I feel so betrayed.... Alone....
Tell me one good reason to live? I dont want to live. I wont. I hate all this shit. Its gettin' worster day by day....

Im too tired for this...




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Saturday, June 11, 2005

*sigh*
*hits her head slowely in the wall*
Im..... SO..... Frigging..... Tired. And that bitchy cow is still complaining.
I havent done anything but work at this week! And does she even thank me? NO! *sigh* I want to get hell outta here. If that bitch would just pay me the 1000 euros she owes me, I would easily get the hell awya form here. But nooooo Shes a bitch. Humph.....
I really got nothing to say, cept happy birthday to Amerill. Your cool, I'll draw something for you! Thanks for being a friend ^^ *gives a kiss on hes cheek* Its a birthday kiss. Tho who cares if it is or not, huh?
Now, I gotta go. Its frigging hot out here..... May be because of my black clothes, or 'cause this summer is hotter than it ever has been..... Well cant say Im freezing tho.....
Well. Have a nice day peoples.

Oh, and yeah, that was my pic. I took ove rmy firends charater, she seemed to cause too much harm. *grin* So now I got two charaters. How fun is that?






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Friday, June 10, 2005

SO sick of this
So. Everything that my boyfriend thinks IS sex and friends. Im gonna leave him if he doesent change it. Im not just a toy. Im gonna see him after two weeks, and when I do, Im gonna slap him HARD. Humph.
Well it seems only ones who keep visiting are Afro Jones and Evagirl. Thank you for that. At least SOMEONE still has guts to check out my site *looks around and mutters* Losers....
So. I just got my picture up at xSakurax so anyone who cares to see my face, check it. WARNING Im not pretty and hot girlie. Im far away from that, duh.
Well. Im gonna go now, so you guys have fun. Adios.



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