Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Hel-lo.
Lol.

My week is ruined. I heard my cousin is going to come by at the weekend. Shit.... I hate him! And no, dont say I shouldnt, because he starts to fuck up with me even of the smallest things! and when mom is watching, hes like an angel, and that so pisses me off!! *breaths deep* Im going to calm down.....
Another thing: I heard that EVERYTHING that Juho thinks is Sex. WHY THE FUCK are guys like that!? I heard it from hes ex-girlfriend, who happens to be my VERY good friend. She warned me that I shouldnt give him everything that he asks for. I will not. I AM NOT YOUR DOLL.

*breaths* Dont panic..... DONT panic..... I do wanna die..... *sighs* There we go...........

One thing that can save my week: My second best friend, Juulia (only known her like half a year but shes totally cool) is going to come by at the weekend too. I dont have to be alone with Niko ^___^ Yay!

So..... I dont want to touch Juho EVER again.... thought my best friend told that he had been with my best friends older sisters friend guyfriend for a while and he wasnt like that..... But guys always play with me, I mean whats wrong with you, what have I done to you? Totally nothing. Thats just the way life goes, guys come, tell me they love me, but never mean it. Play with someone others heart and get the FUCK off!!

Thats all I want to say to you

Hope the person knows Im meaning him.

No.

Im not talking aboute Juho.


Dont play with my heart.



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Saturday, April 23, 2005

*yawn*
Hi everyone... Hows it going? Im getting better already..... I only have headache and I have a sore throat but other ways Im fine..... Except my dad keeps pissing me off.... I hate the asshole. Now hes watching me while Im writing this wich is very fucking annoying.... Fuck off, asslicker or I....

Headache makes me angry. So dont worrie Im fine. Except I miss Juho. He hasnt even text messaged me. Thought he said hes gon na leave me alone so I can rest. I dont wanna be left alone!!! I feel better when hes around, anyways...

Now: FIVE guys. Five guys have fell in love with me.... And thats no fun. I have only ONE in my mind (to tell you, its not Juho) and I really dunno what top do to the four others. I dont wanna break anyones heart..... But thats the only way to get rid of 'em, thought..... *sigh* DONT FELL IN LOVE WITH ME DAMMIT!!! Im not so cool as you think I am, and to quote few words from Telk27s poem: "Im not as trusting as you think I am, you think I still care but I dont give a damn, thats what I want to say to you but Im afraid of what you might do" and so. Aplodes to Telk, once again you expressed my feelings. *claps* Go Telk, go. Honestly, dude, you should join in DeviantArt. Its not only for artists you know. Theres all kinda art, poems too. you would become famous in DeviantArt, I sure you.

So. I gotta go now. Im tired and I want to get better so. I see you laters.... Have a nice day.

Oh yeah: I dont feel happy at all. Im here, alone, no one cares, Im not special.... C'mon peoples..... Why Im alone?! Yeah, theres five guys but the one I like best doesent seem to give me any attention..... *sigh* Its just me...





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Friday, April 22, 2005

Ciao...

Thursday 21.4:
I were sick.... I had an headache, my skin was burning, my whole body refused to move, I felt sick and I was sleepy and almost fainted. Still, I dragged myself into school. You know why? Because I wanted to see Juho. My friend Juulia helped me all day: opened the window and kept company with me when everyone else were eating at the lunch breake. We had fun. All 40 minutes we sitted on the rock as the sun burned our skin and wind blowed fresh.

Okay I almost throwed up in the first class. and the second. I felt sick all the time and it was like hell to be at school, but it was worth it. 5 hugs from him. *grin* Besides he was so cute before the last two hours. He came and hugged me tightly, then said me with soft voice "Try to hold on, its only few hours left" I just said "Yeah. Okay." Then I went to my class and he went to hes. we didnt see each other after school anymore, but he text messaged me and told me that I should stay home and get some rest. and he promised to give me big and tight hug when Im finally at school at monday. *sigh* I couldnt find any cuter guy from here. When I said that theres not any cool and nice white guy I was wrong. Hes something different from others. maybe its because we have both been bullied since we were 5....

Irs Friday now.....
Im at home and on the PC, with cup of coffee, reading One Piece. And eating chocolate ^^;; Eh.... Oh yeah. I have tried to find my Dragonlance books all fucking morning.... Till I realized that their at home. Yeah, I kinda have two homes. One is closer to my school where we live at the week (Well, actually I do, mom and dad are always at work. not that I mind ^^) but theres no comp so sometimes we come to sleep here, which is closer to moms works (we still have the damn restaurant) so.... Im on the restaurant right now. I dont wanna leave here. its cold outside. Okay its not but try to understand poor sick creature who misses her guy.

*yawns* I didnt sleep in whole damn night.... *sigh* I never can sleep while Im sick. Gess Im just gonna draw few drawings and call to Juho and Juulia and my best friend (when their schoolday is over ofcourse) and things...... So.....Gess thats all for today. I think Im going because I started to feel a little sick so see you guys.... Have a nice day.....

Question for everyone who knows me: Would ANYONE get worried if I just disappeared? Doesent feel like that.




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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Hellos and hugs ^^

^///^

He hugged me twice today!! AWWW!!! Besides, the first hug was right when my 'friend' saw it!! Not that, but shes beeing trying to somehow make him like her, so it was so damn fun to see her face when he hugged me!! MWAHAHA!!! Yeah I know its childish to be happy aboute few hugs but it was fun. Really. Besides hes so cute.... X___X Whats wrong with me!? ^///^ O my gawd hes just so cute....
Hmm.... I was gonna say something.... Oh yeah, well Happy Birthday to HeeroYuy77 who had birthday on 15.4.... This goth guy Juho has 28.4..... *grin* Wonder what Im gonna give him as a birthday present.... ^^;;; What!?
*sigh* Hey, girl can always dream, eh!? Besides its nice to have someone around here when everyone hates me. 'cept him.
These things I have heard from my classmates mouths very many times this week:
"Are you dating?"
"Do you know that Juho-guy?"
"Is he your boyfriend?"
"Are you happy togehter?" (Huh, that sounds like we're going to marry eachother or something!)
"You look like brother and sister!" (Shut up!! Even if we're goths doesent mean we are so alike!)
"Is Juho nice?"
I mean c'mon! It cant be so exciting hearing aboute us. besides, think aboute this: "Do you know Juho" Hey, I wouldnt be talking to him if I didnt! *sigh* Use your brains, peoples, thats why they are inside your heads ya know!
*yawn* Coffee! ^^;; Coffee aint good for teeth but its good for you. So. I have been drawing again. I am gonna scan few drawings of goth girls, and theres few pictures coming up for Telk27 again. Oh yeah, and if I do find it, a pic of Sakura and Naruto as goths ^^;; Inspiration.
Oh yeah: We had history excams today.... I havent read at all because I didnt know and I didnt know anything, except that Japan part that were in it..... WAAAAH IM SUCHA JERK!!! I need a wall, I wanna hit my head on it.... Im a jerk..... Just jerk....
But when I think of it, Im not. I was geanious when I started text messaging to Juho. If I didnt, I wouldnt ever find out aboute hes feelings for me. ^^ Yay. Im not hated. Good to know. Heh.
Oh well. I gotta go now, peoples. Now, have a nice day/week/what-so-ever.


Oh yeah, peoples....
Im not sure aboute leaving. Actually I think I wont, but I will not be on so much in MyO anymore. I have school and Juho and mom doesent like when I waste our money in the internet so.... But I WILL be on, tho not so much. No worries, eh? Life is funny *smirk*

Ciao!



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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Heeello
Why I miss my ex guyfriends or ex crushes even if their gone already and so is their feelings!?

I'd better not to tell that to Juho. Meaning the goth guy.

We spented 40 minutes only two of us today. We had lunch break and I didnt want to eat so I talked with him. It was fun, just two of us. Then before our classes I and Heidi went to talk to him. We talked till the class started so... We had fun. And I acted like I was drunk, I mean I laughed all the time. Yeah, when Im drunk I laugh and hard. You dont wanna see it, its dramatic. Really. I mean it!!

So.... *yawn* I have been thinking.... maybe I should stop using MyO. Not that, here is many peoples that mean alot to me, honestly even one I love (Now these very few pwoplws who PM to Ryoka-Chan forgets what she has been telling to you and listen to ME), but my worstest troubles are here too. Even if everything else was good I have been crying because I have been hurted in MyO. and thats not fun at all. Sorry to say this but heres not really much to hang around anymore. Hey, you can always e-mail me. Thats why they made mails. Well I'll be thinking aboute it.

Anyways I gotta go. Im going to text message him again. ^^;; Whaaat? Okay well have a nice week dears!

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Monday, April 18, 2005

Hug
IM SO STUPID!!

*Smacks herself* STUPID!! *smacks again* DUMMY!!!! *smacks again* ASSHOLE!!! *smacks herself again* I hugged him!! X___X Awww god it was sooo fun but then again He will never talk to me again! Okay he already did and he said it wasnt embarrasing but I know whats in hes mind!! And hes friends smirked at me.... Grrr.... ^^ Oh well anyways I dont get how it got to my mind to hug him ^^;; Well I missed him!!! The weekend was damn long without him!! You cant tell me it was wrong! X__X Dammit Im dum!!
OMG Im going to go to text message him. Its hes turn next time!! *nod* Now. I see you later, guys. Have a nice week.




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Sunday, April 17, 2005

Fucking Hello.....
*sigh*

Peoples, first, dont ask me aboute my damn friends. Tho if we have a past together or not, I dont wanna bother myself with others problems now when Im happier than ever. I always can put Cedric or someone to find out but I wouldnt really like to bother them. Really. Even if their captured in me, by times their only friends I have. Really.

Now. I have seen that making my friends pissed is fun. Hmm. Wonder why? Well part of me is a demon whos very angry but....

Now. Im very, VERY pissed. My half kidsister lives in our major city, Helsinki. Well. She doesent have any friends around there and everyone bullies her. She called me last night and asked what to do. All I could say was 'Beat the shit outta them, if it doesent work, do it again. It works' And I can say it really works, I have tried. Now the point is what the FUCK is wrong with peoples!? You can think that some things you say is only inicent teasing, but peoples can take it hard, like I do. And so does my kidsister. Hey, tease your friends, not the strangers. OKAY!? GOOD!

*breaths deep* I wont stress, I wont stress, I wont stress, I WONT stress.... Look I gotta go now. I have homeworks to do and my parents are fightin again so see you peoples.... Have a nice week and take care of you bros/sisters/friends and live in peace, dammit!



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Saturday, April 16, 2005

*yawn*
Well first, I start to feel like everyone but he hates me. C'mon, its not my fault everyone gets attached on me!!! You should be happy that SOMEONE wants to keep me alive for a while around here, huh!? Thats right. Duh.
Well he got jealous last night. again. some ex of mine came in and started to talk to me like 'well, how are you doing these days' and it pissed him off really bad. Good that he cooled down, really....
Well I took a quiz. Watch this:


Kakashi


Which Naruto character do you fight like?(pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

I fight like Kakashi then? Cool. Sensei is so cool ^^



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Friday, April 15, 2005

Hello
^^ Im happy. We talked today, again! He had drawn in hes hand a flaming heart and in the middle of it was my name ^///^ That so cute!!! ARGH!! Then one of my friends tried to Hit on him *GRRR* I got angry. well he told me that he doesent care aboute 'that blond shit' as he said... Phew. Well today one lesbian girl tried to hit on me, talking perves and things..... He got angry and said 'Fucking Hoker, get the fuck off from my girlfriend or I'll rape you, you blond shit!!' That girl almost started to cry and I was speechless.... X_X OMG that was so embarassing when he yelled it in front of all customers.... And besides: Hes 'girlfriend'?! No shit... Well. I gotta go now.... I got alot things to do. So see ya guys.... Have a nice weekend.
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Thursday, April 14, 2005

Fun at the city

Yay!

We were at the city together: Me, my bestfriend and him. We had SO much fun! Even my bestfriend liked him. We talked the whole time and went in few stores and things. It was so cool. And I got 4 mangas more: One Piece, Gundam Seed, xxxHolic and Tsubasa ^^ Yay. Oh yeah, at the school when he came talk to me it was so fun when my classmates were behind him and they looked at me like 'OMG you know him!?' MWAHAHAHAHAHAA!!!
Okay even if the day was greate, I dont think I fell for him as much as he does to me. I feel bad for it...... I mean hes cool but.... Well maybe when I get to know him better. Well its cool that some guy says Im cute and that some guy likes me. Its cool, I mean everyone hates me at our school. This is so cool....
Oh well anyways, the day was greate. We spent the last half an hour just two of us. My best friend had to leave and soon did I. Well. Im going, Im gonna text message him - again ^^;; So. See ya, peeps.




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