Friday, March 18, 2005

WHY THE HECK!?!


Weekend...

*phew* its weekend.
So. Nice friday. First: two hours of P.E. Then: our principal called me in hes office. in the hall, I saw one of my classes horriblest idiots, guy called Ekku. (yeah, weirdo name) I knocked the principals door, and he opened it and said that I should waite on the hall. I sat on the sofa, and we were quiet a while, then Ekku asked (this is cute) "Have I done something to you? Have you talked something aboute me?" And I were honest and said "No, I havent said anything bad aboute you, and thats why Im confused of what the hell are YOU doing here" (I really said that) And he were quiet.
Well it went on and those other bakas (Mia-Maria and Robert) Apologized me. Well, then were me and Ekku. The principal said to him, that I havent said a word of him, and that hes name has came up other way (Its true. He has been an idiot but thats it) And then, Ekku just asked me "Hey, have I done something to you? Have I hurted you?" (It was SO CUTE!!! >_<;;;) And the principle got mad like "Dont ask anything from her" And like that.
The best part: He apologized me, and the words were correctly like this: "Im sorry that I have hurted you"
AWWW!!!! How can some guy act like that!?! I have always hated him but now I think hes cute. Well it can be that hes Villes best friend and Ville has a crush on me so.... But it was still cute.
Now: I started to cry on there, so when everyone else were gone, the principle said: "Go to the toilet to wash your face and then return to the class. See you and have a good day" Okay: I went to the toilet, but I sat there the whole damn classhour. I stared at the mirror like 'Why the hell this happens' and looked to my eyes - they were changin colour, they didnt know if theyre happy, angry, sad or depressed. I just stared to the mirror and listened my CD-player. When the classes finally ended, I leaved and go to find my best friend. And I was SO angry.
The funniest thing is: I havent said a word of them. One teacher once heard that Mia-Maria called me Satanist, but that was the only time she really hurted me. Huh. I had to go threw this only cause of that teacher and my mom. I took the last two hours free and ran away, to home. my parents were still working so they didnt knew. I dunno how I can show my face EVER again to that class. Im not gonna go there.

*sigh* So sucking day. Why this things happen to me!? ARGH!!! I hate the school my friends my family my LIFE! I cant show my face there ever again.... And I wont.... *grr* Alcohol.... .... A knife... . .... Somethinggg..... ...... *Breathes deep* Need to calm down.... just calm down...... Okay, lets put off that knife.... There, and the alcohol too.... Good.... *breathes again* But Ekku was still cute.... ARGH! *Hits head on the wall* Why - me - why - me!?! Owch. That hurts, dont try at home.
So..... Im goin. Dont worrie. B bye....

Oh yeah: Now I know where the name 'choker comes'. Chokers really choke. I am wearing one.
One lyric for you, BTW. Okay Im depressed, a 'friend' didnt tell me of hes depress and that pisses me off. Why peoples so dear to me act like this...?

Nightwish - Dead To The World Lyrics

All the same take me away, we're dead to the world.

The child gave thought to the poet's words, gave comfort to the
fallen.
(Heartfelt, lovelorn)
Remaining, yet still uninvited.
Those words scented my soul.
(lonely soul, Ocean soul)

It's not the monsters under your bed, it is the Man next door.
That makes you fear, makes you cry, makes you cry for the child.

All the wars are fought among those lonely men.
Unarmed, unscarred.

I don't want to die a scarless man.
A lonely soul (tell me now what to do).
I studied silence to learn the music.
I joined the sinful to regain innocence.

Heaven queen, cover me. In all that blue.
Little boy such precious joy, is dead to the world
Heaven queen, carry me. Away from all pain.
All the same take me away. We're dead to the world

Deep, silent and constant, yet always changing
-my favorite view of this world.
As he died, he will return to die in me again.
Weaving the cloth, giving birth to Century child
Who gave his life not for the world but for me.
Innocence reborn once more.

Heaven queen, carry me. Away from all pain.
All the same take me away. We're dead to the world
Heaven queen, cover me. In all that blue.
Little boy such precious joy, is dead to the world.

There you go. Nightwish so rules....
*murmurs* Drugs.... I NEED drugs.... Alcohol.... Al - co - hol.... *hits her head on the wall* I cant take this!!
Someone please kill me!!




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