Saturday, March 26, 2005

H-E-L-L-O
I hate my mom. First: She started to complain aboute my clothes. She said I have too low neckline. Fucking funny, if she saw my classmates she would get a heartattack. Bitch. Second: She said that Heavy Music is shit. I answered "Just like you". Then she said that everyone has their own taste. I said that she shouldnt say her thoughts against my face. Shes a bitch, fucking slut she doesent even care aboute the panic attack I had, like it never happened! Fucking shit I have to calm down before I really get that ulcer....
*breaths deep* Now.... mom's having this 'snowshoe contest'. My friend is gonna take part on it. HA HA HA greate. Those three guys are here again. The cutie didnt even say 'hi' to me. Even if I did first!! ;__; Whats wrong with me?! Im gonna be alone this whole fucking life! Like, every guy I meet, who I like or who likes me is 1.Complete idiot 2.Already taken or 3.Cheater. Just so greate. Guys who are from group number 2. Are too nice to leave their girlfriends. So I have to forget aboute them. Guys from group number 1. Are first nice but I have to found them idiots who act like they love me but arounda ll others their like they havent ever even met me. Guys from group number 3. Act like they do love me but they already have another, or then they flirst to every girl they meet and in the end they leave me because they have another. And I just realized I havent ever dumb a guy: They have done it first. You know, I really have lost my fate in this thing, How can I know when I meet a guy whos from group 4: Sweet but pretty normal guy. Hmm. Gess I just feel in love with wrong guys. I have done a bad mistake: I let one guy see me that lives inside (Now you just gotta gess who it is, thought Telk27 already knows) And I will never do the mistake again. It hurted to hear its over. Just over. Like we never had anything. Its just - AGH! Okay first, theres a question in the air: What kinda is this person inside me? I will reveal that shes angry, thought vulnerable and soft toward peoples I love. She wants freedom and she wants to be loved, but will never be able to do it, because she doesent trust anyone, because she have done the mistake once, and is doing it again.. But That girl is chained inside me, and I, girl who pretents to be happy and normal, will keep her inside. Thought her other hand tries to reach the freedom, and she wants to be revealed for one or two person. But she is unsure and doesent have enough will to grap the key and free herself. Now you know what kinda the girl inside me is, so dont even try to get her outta there. The key to her chains are lost and can only be reached by her. Thought she needs help and people she can trust. But the problem is she doesent trust. So its impossible to anyone to meet her. Sorry guys! Blaime the ones who have broke her trust so many times that she cant take it anymore.
There is two persons who know the girl whos inside me: My best friend Nadja, also known as Chorline, and my dear bigsister and the second bestfriend Ninnu, also known as Adylia. Now, if someone really wants her out: Try to be worth of my trust, because she isnt coming out. And you have to prepare to be my friend for years before you get inside me. Even if theres two persons really close.... Well. Im smart and I will not reveal the names. GAHAHA Isnt it annoying when someone tells you dont know them? I know it is.
Well now. I just saw a commercial where they said that calling in USA is now cheaper. *laughs* Now I just gotta wait to get my cellphone back (its lost -_-;; Again -_-;;;;) and I can call to my friend in American (Dont even ask, you dont know her) So. Gotta start searching. Hmmm Hmmm.... Maybe I should call on it? Its 69Eyes Devils on its tune so I cannot be without finding it.... Except if its closed.... -_-; Damn it. *sigh* Fucking phone dont you want to be found!? Okay I wont stress aboute thing like this.... *breathes deep* Okay my friend is gone now. Now I just have to look those drunken guys faces. Please dont start to flirt on me...
Hmm. This is a long post. -_-; Well I dont care you have to get used to it. Phew.... So.... I am going to draw few fanarts. I was thinking what would Naruto, Sasuke and Sakura look as goths....? Kakashi-Sensei would look so cool *grins* Mwahaha. Okay Im going. Im going to go to cheer for my friend. O_o Hope she wins. So. Try to stay alive peeps, because if you do then so do I. This stress is caused because my friends have bad troubles (My friends mom sucks and she has lost 20 pounds, my bigsister uses medicines, my bestfriends and my mom doesent like that we are friends, Heero was in car accident, my friend did a suicide etc.) So. Im going now.... Dont worrie be happy (Hey, Im trying to be optimistic, okay!?) So. See you later. Adios, Heippa, See ya, Saiyonara, and for last: Viva la difference!

Oh. The contest is already over.... Uh, the snowshoes broke...? Their like in 50 different parts! That happened with everyone who took apart in the contest! O_o This is crazy. She was leading you assholes! Who did this!! CONFESS!! *mutters* Hmph.... Just hmph. Just our luck. HMPH. Thats all you got out of me. Hpmh. Life is unfair. I mean, she was leading!! Oh well. Im going to cheer her up.

Uh shes stressing bad. Shes beating a pillow X_X Calm down.... Okay well now when Im calm shes mad. Damn. Just - damn. Okay well I really am going now. So. see you...







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