Monday, April 4, 2005

Better future.....
Good morning American! And Finland....

Being captured in my own body when Milessanne and Angelica were ruling, without my premission, I just realized what I want. I dont want to die, I want new beginning, new start so I wouldnt make those mistakes I have made again. Meaning, not to fell in love with all those guys who hurted me, and Im not meaning the one Im inlove with right now. I would like to stop Christians death, I would like to bring Markus and JP back.... And the friends I have losed. Steven, Yuki, Paula, Aino. Hmm. Gess Im dreaming for nothing. But I know few things I can do. Those few classmates I have hated, and still do, I could start a friendship with them. Like, giving a pencil if they need it, and things. Then I could stop fighting between me and Taija, and with Erika too. I could be nicer to Heidi and Minna, an I could talk to mister cutie. (a guy in our school. Damn tall, lightbrown, tall hair and eyeglasses. Dont DARE to say I have weird taste!!) Or then I could talk with mister cutie number 2 or 3. (2 is short, but a goth, 3 is the one who was in our restaurant) Oh yeah, or 4! (Another tall guy with eyeglasses) Njihihi. *grin* Whaaat girl can always dream!! Oh yeah, I could hit that one short guy in my class! He SO gets in my nerves.... I already hit him one time but I think he didnt learn, so this time, I will give him a black eye. *nod* Hmm. I should stop messing in Cookering. Well what can I do, my hands shake, I cant do anything aboute it!
And, starting this day, I am gonna so use Angelica and Milessanne. For start they could hunt JP in their hands so I could have little convertation with him.... That would be first step to make up all this shit they have caused. Im gonna put Cedric to watch them. The question is can I trust Cedric.... Hmm.
Well gess I should take better care of Milessanne and Angelica. Thought Milessanne seems to be depressed. Being captured in human body isnt so easy....
So, first step: I'll let Sanna watch my answers in English and Sweden classes. *nod* Then, I start to read on excams, so my grades go up. I'll start Taija with making those fights up, and I will borrow my penicls to Mia-Maria, Robert, Esa-Pekka and Sara. Yeah. Hmm, good start. But first, Im gonna go to call my bro. Lets just pray he answers me. *sigh* Yeah, and lets pray hes okay.... I havent heard from him in a long while... Well. Hes my bro. He can take care of myself.
Now, I will never let myself in sucha weak level as I was. Angelica is very good with dealing peoples when they are weak. I just gotta push everything bad from my mind and stop crying if I feel bad. Besides, even if I dont have friends at school or anything, I still have you guys here. *sigh* I just wish MyO was a real place. Well. Im going. I gotta won a drawing contest. I need money. When I have enough, these are places Im goin: Ohio (Im going to get that damn hug, Telk27!!), New Orleans, San Fransisco and Houston. Then I'll go to mexcico.

I just met a really cute 23 year old guy. Hes really nice, really. SO my type. Well. except hes few years too old but neh, what the heck. I have dated 27 year old guy and he didnt complain. Okay it wasnt searious but still....

Im going to go now. See you later guys. Have fun week.... And I'll say it again: I WILL make Milessanne and Angelica pay. *grunts* C'mon girls, let the hell begin.

Oh yeah: Its monday and Im not is school! Moms cellphone got messed up and sent message that Im not coming in school, so our taxi driver didnt pick me! YES!! The most hardest day goes there! *grin* Im SO lucky....








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