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• Gothic. NOT Satanist. I just like to wear black, which is my faivorite colour. Thats it.
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• Johanna
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• ....When DBZ came up....?
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• Neon Genesis Evangelion, Naruto, Dragonball Z, Sailor Moon, Inuyasha, Ranma ½, Saiyuki, Gundam Wing, Vampire Princess Miyu, etc.
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• To have a life...
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• Anime, Drawing, writing, music, dreaming, making peoples mad...
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• Non.....
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Friday, April 8, 2005
Hello
..Why the FUCK am I depressed!?....
I have no reason to! I had a good day, I got two mangas more to my collection, Im eating chips and drinking Pepsi, Im correctly fine!!
No Im not. Im alone.
Why isnt there anyone to share this with me? I have seen that one goth boy stares at me, but its no usel He doesent care aboute me... He likes me because Im goth.
Why cant there be anyone I can bring light for when all other is gone? To make happy when hes sad? To hang with, someone who dont hate me? I used to with Christian, but hes dead....
You wanna know few things? SInce the day Christian died, he has been guarding me. I can even talk to him, Its almost like Angelica and Milessanne.... I still love him, he wants me to be happy and find someone but I cant! Every time I open my heart and want to let someone in they betray me! In way or other, and Im alone AGAIN! Why does it happen...? Not that I would like to have someone so searious yet, Im young and wild and free, but if it would last more than free days without being suddenly left alone, I would be happy. *sigh*
Hmm. Today one guy came talk to me when I was all alone waiting for a bus. But I couldnt care less. Only a month ago I would be jumping from happiness if he would talk to me, but now.... I hate that damn guy!! He told me Im a satanist, straight to my face!!! Fucking idiot!! If he could come to talk to me a month ago....
My best frien is doing greate with guys. Her crush is a goth too, as we both are. hes her classmate. When he found out whats her faivorite book, he started to read it. He defended her against few baka guys from her class. How sweet, why I am in the class of dorks? No waite.... Ville changed hes class from my best friends class.... So he must be different. Well its told he has a crush on me.... But I dont think its true. Well my insulting has been.... more less since he came to my class. Hmmmm.... I should start to talk to him. *grin*
Oh yeah, peoples, I have a guestion for you: When you were a kid, what were a thing you wanted to become or have in the future?
Mine is that I wanted marrie a black guy XDDDD I know its pretty weird!!! I mean, how many kid thinks things like that!? Besides when Im raised around racistic whites, Im one too, and for me its White, selfish shits. Just SHITS! Well I hate myself.- Maybe thats why I hate whites.... No waite, this is racism.... For whites! HAHAHAH!!! SUFFER WHITE PEOPLES!!! I dont mean it.... -_-;; Okay, lets put it right: Suffer white racistic peoples. THATS right. *nods*
Mwahaha, thinking abotue gone days make me happier. Days when I was five. Or ten. after that, everything sucked bad. Hmm. Not that, those days werent so good but better than these. Neh well. Its my life and its now or never (I am gonna live forever.... XDDD Remember the song? I dont)
Well first peoples: WHy cant I talk to mister cuties nro 1, 2 or 3!? AGH!!! It disturbs me so bad! But if they are white, racistic shits I dont even want to. Maybe I should just find that black guy so I would just get straight married and I wouldnt worrie.... -_-;;
I gotta go. Angelica wants to do something. I hope she takes care of the whole night that is left.... 8 hours.... hnh. See ya.
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