Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Stuff
Mized emotions right now. My studies are split between good and bad. I have no money (like, seriously, I have $2 and change) and won't get paid for another three weeks probably. I finally got a job, good pay and nice people. I'm going to a concert on Friday.

Good things and bad things. All really my fault. I'm horrible with money. If I have, I spend it. I'm a spend thrift on most things, but when it comes to food and manga, I'm helpless.

With no good will power and stubbornness that shows up at the wrong times, I end up buying things I really shouldn't and forgetting to save. ...Well, not forget, it's just that I can't. I try, I really do, but then I see something, and just have to have it.

I've been skipping a lot of classes. This is how I failed my classes in my second semester and yet I can't seem to stop it. I was very proud of myself, though, I actually went to my morning classes today. On my own. This has to be a first. I really am trying.

I have this problem that I care, but I don't seem to have a drive or a will to actually /do/ something. I know that I am going to fail if I don't go to classes, and yet I just go back to sleep. I know I'm going to fail if I don't study, and yet I go on the computer. I've thought this before, but I really don't understand myself. Only a little studying is really required for me to understand, and yet I can't seem to bring myself to do it.

Enough dwelling on that, I suppose. I'm looking forward to the Coheed and Cambria concert this Friday. This'll be the first real concert I've ever attended. It should be fun. I'm happy because we're going to stop by mine and Erin's houses on the way there. I get to see Erin and my babies. ^^ Happy. I'm starting to feel a bit homesick, so this'll be good.
Comments (0)