Tuesday, April 18, 2006

   She spoke......(Mood:Nervous)
Wow.... its simply amazing... after so long... the one who caused me so much grief, pain and suffering.... she Messaged me last night on yahoo... for the first time in 9 months! X.x;; wow.. time flies.. she was suprised to know that i was still alive (bitch ><;;) and secondly wanted to know how i was doin'. (Thats an obvious question) The scary part tho.. was when i was talking to her... i was frozen stiff... i mean, i used to love her more than the world, and she did leave me for a girl x.x;;; it was creepy, she was about to tell me what changes happened when all of a sudden my yahoo freaked out! it logged me off and i couldn't sign back on! X.X;;; but now that i think about it.. it was probably for the best... since maybe i shouldn't know what happened to her.. will it scar me more? will i ever get over suchc grieving for someone who stopped caring for me long ago....? when will my suffering end...?

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Sunday, April 16, 2006

   omg... (mood:humiliated/ashamed/sad/)
....it happened to me again... heh... i'm like destined for this to constantly happen to me... especially on easter...v.v;;; my close friend....turned lesbian... she met a girl a few years ago... and while we were like.. going out.. that same girl she met a few years ago came back today... to be with her... and they fell in love again... so..... she dumped me... to be with her.......................................... why does this happen to me? it happened once already... exact same scenario... two knives within my heart... it hurts way to much... why... why god...please... let it stop... please?...*cries*

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

   *tired, annoyed* (mood:Exhausted)
*sigh* okay, today was pretty much a good day for me... i gots to kick back, and just relax and take it easy... just i have so much on my mind... school, correspondence, and....*looks off into distance* a potential future.. with another. i want to be with this girl... but sadly she lives in kentucky... but to prove my love and since we've known each other for quite awhile now... i'm trying to earn 306 dollars within a couple weeks, hopefully in time to take her to prom down at her place... i want it to be a special occasion... and i hope that this will last between us... but my dreams are out of grasp until i can get 306 dollars.. thats just for a plane ticket x.x;; i need like an additional 100 for if we eat or somethin'.. *grumbles..* ><;; i'll be fine -.-;; just gotta keep my mind to what i enjoy doing... and get a job too x.x;; lol. Anyways i'm tired, so i'm gonna go and restghieargn.......................................................*flops onto keyboard and snores e.-;;;;*

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Monday, April 10, 2006

   Depressed today... (mood: depressed
*sigh* i'm such a whiner lol. today i was thinkin' about... well, my past girlfriends i've had... and i got to thinkin' to myself. "wow, i'm probably gonna stay this way for awhile." it was depressing lol, just one of my days i guess. Then while searching through the net and i came across my close friend's Gaia online journal. I feel so guilty that i don't type in a journal all that much x.x;; i really should get into the habit of makin' my sites better lol. but i was lookin' around on her site, and i came across a picture of her and her boyfriends alts holding each other, and the saying was, "all i need is a fire, warm cup of hot chocolate... and you." i was touched by this, but then i thought to myself, "if only i had someone who thought of me like that all the time." i was crushed that my previous relationships have hurt me so badly, and i'm trying to look for another... i may have found one, but i think she's starting to dislike me now... so i...yes, i know, i cried myself to sleep -.-;; it hurt so bad... i just couldn't hold back... but hey, maybe i was destined to live this way... i'm fine with that...

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

   >_>; i might change this background xD
well... i bet i can tell what your thinking x.x;; that my site kinda looks really... lol nvm xD; my favorite colors are Yellow, Purple, Green and black. all the typical colors of mardi gras, but funny thing is, i'm not even close to cajun and i hate mardi cras x.x; so i don't know how that works xD;;
i'll continue to post on my site for more updates and blah blah X3;

~Renomon~

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my first post! :3 hurrah! X3
Hey everyone! ^_^ its nice to be part of this site. my name is Reno and i have quite an interesting lifestyle.. i will be posting more about me and updates within my site :3 i hope i can keep this up to date.. wish me luck and see everyone around! ^.^;

Renomon~

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