Sunday, March 2, 2008

Finally
Finally I got my pictures:

I got two so... :3 Comment on both? And please tell me what you really think.

This is a crappy one xC
http://s214.photobucket.com/albums/cc138/Reowar/?action=view¤t=100_0305.jpg

I like this one :3
http://s214.photobucket.com/albums/cc138/Reowar/?action=view¤t=100_0304.jpg
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Bullshit
Okay..Today...I'm so very pissed because this right here is exactly the reason why I wanna move to a new school:

Well I was going to class and I bumped into a kid and we kinda pushed eachother out of the way, unviolently, and the teacher thought "FIGHT! I'm sending you two both to the office right now!" So...We get to the office and the principal said "Go to In School Suspension right now! (Jail in school)." Well I spend so long in there and he comes back after a forever and said "Well...Looks like some students (Who I knew he asked my "Friends" what happened) said that it was a fight, no punches but still a fight. So I'm not going to let this go unpunished. You both have ISS for a few days (Didn't specify)" Well...Here's the thing that really pissed me off...I do good in school and don't skip so I don't have to take Final Semester Exams...Well..If you get even one day ISS..Poof! All gone, no more exemption status. You have to take the goddamn tests no matter what.

There you have it. No one cares. Everyone is out to get me. Friends = Foes. Foes = Enemies. Teachers = Enemies and hypocrites as well as fravoritist bastards.

New school...Hurry to come get me.
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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Sorry
I'm sorry to vent this but...Personally I feel like shit. For one, I think about Tayvee sometimes and I get so pissed off I have to hit something..(me es angry guy)

I was pissed today because of a hypocritical teacher. Some girl goes to sit by her popular friend. I think "Oh cool I'll sit by Ken." I go over and sit, she looks at me and goes "Matt! Back to your seat!!" I said "What the crap? Lauren is out of her seat!" "Don't you dare start with me young man!" I lost the arguement because of a retreat... Then the same teacher gets me again a while back. I needed to do homework and so I go "Do you mind if I go to my locker to get my work?" "No! Siddown!" the same guy who the chick went to go sit by, my rival/enemy Chance goes "Yeah can I go get stuff from my locker?" "Sure you can Chance! Just take the pass!" I say "What the crap? Why can't I go?" "Frankly Matt...Because he's not you."

I'm just so pissed lately...

Some things have been confusing me beyond belief but...I'm trying to work as best as possible about them...For one a nineth-grader named Ashley...From what people say she has a thing for me. She's a cutie but...She's a little too.."high maintanence" for my taste...I may considder but I just don't know if it's true and I'm confused about everything...

I'm sorry but I needed to vent, thanks to those of you who read this and commented.
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Friday, February 22, 2008

Well...Tayvee's real mom and step-dad don't like me and they are about to file charges against me because she is too young to have a boyfriend. I got wrote up for hugging her in the hall, apparently a hug (even non-sexual between friends) is PDA (Public Display of Affection). It's bullshit..

Anyways I can no longer be around her and her mom has taken away her cell phone and I'm just going to tell her I'm not her boyfriend anymore because If I'm even near her BAM! Alternative school. So at the end of the year...I don't want to because I'll miss a couple people but then...I remember that they make cracks about me. Point is I'm moving to a new school. I just want to leave everything I held dear and drown it to create a new life and nurture and care for it.

God doesn't like me anymore TT-TT He gave me my New Years Resolutions only to say "PSYCHE! Oh my me...You almost fell for that one~! I can't believe you even thought I would do something like that! JEEZ!" Yeah that's my vision of God right there x.x

Indesicion is not my friend...But it's for my own damned good. So I'll leave this place to create a better place for me. I just have to wait 'til the end of the year. Then I'm high tailing it.

Questions:
1) Was that smart?
2) Should I feel bad that someone I've been telling I love them is leaving me/me leaving them? (Because I don't even feel bad.) If so why?
3) Should I move to a new school?

Call me a coward, call me a bastard, I don't care. I'm just Reostes Warwynd aka Matt. Learn the name, remember the name, forget the name. That's the routine.
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Sunday, February 17, 2008

Ok...I'm VERY pissed...There is a kid who kept saying when I wasn't with Tayvee "Good job Matt, keep it up, say mean shit to her." stuff like that, but I still liked her, well turns out he left a boque of roses and a note on her porch that said "I love you Tayvee" even though I was with her. That little...On Friday of last week (this was when I didn't know about it) He said something like "I can't believe you're going out with that whore." I grabbed him by the neck and slammed him into the wall. I almost punched him but...Something held me back. Goddammit. He's an 8th grader and I should have beat the shit outta him for even thinking about trying to get to Tayvee and then saying shit like that!

I talked to her for 2 hours and 6 minutes (apparently the longest I've ever talked to someone and the longest she's ever talked to a boy before.)

Hah, Tayvee blushes by just saying my name (So says her step-mom)x3 I told her she was my angel and that she has wings and a halo and she said she couldn't see them, so I talked to her step-mom and bit and she said "Yeah I see them too." She was fire-truck engine red from what they told me ^w^ She said "Ow! I just plopped on my bed" I said "Don't mess up your wings!" She said "Awww." Her step mom really likes me. :3

Her little sister who is like 5 took the phone and ran with it after talking to me for a bit and said "If you mawwy my sissy will you be my big bwudder?" It was so cute. That and before she got it taken away she goes "Bye I love you!" it was soooo cute..

Apparently from what SOMEONE says I have bad pickup lines. I beg to differ :3 Does this sound good "If I bit my lip, would you kiss it better?" x3 I told her that and she said "Yes!" Hehe.. So I didn't know it but I was her first kiss :3 Yay!

Come Monday I'm on my way to kicking some midget ass if need be.
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Friday, February 15, 2008

Cloud Nine
Ok I have got such a story to tell you guys...I'm still on cloud 9.

I got to give Tayvee the gifts and she liked them. she loves the dog. Anyways I held my arm around her, everyone saw me I was like "Big shit, I love her" I didn't say that but I portrayed it. I held her hand and sat leg touching hers. I walked with her holding her hand just after that and she went to get something and no one was around and I said, "Mind if I give you and actual goodbye kiss before you go? *Peck on lips*" Her cheeks were pink and I teased her and we hugged tightly and I kissed her cheek she said she had to go. I just called her and she said "I claim you! You've been tagged" in a message and I said "Oh so I'm yours? Oh, I'm not complaining. The kiss was nice. Your cheeks are still pink aren't they?" "Shut up Matt~! *teasingly*" "Oh com'n I think it's cute.." "I think you are" I said "I know you are." She giggled and I said "Well I never got to kiss an angel until today. You still think I have a sexy butt?" She laughed and said "Shut up! *teasingly*" "I'll take that as a yes!" Her mom asked how old I was, who I was, had to hear my voice. Her step-dad...is not too fond of me.. Her mother said "Is this Tayvee's boyfriend?" I said "Yes ma'am" "Ok thank you, I just needed to hear the sound of your voice." I was thinking 'Oh jeez...' I talked to Tayvee a bit more and said "I love you babe, bye."

Her real dad thought it was cute that I'm her boyfriend. Her mom doesn't mind me :3.
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008

The Epiphany
Yes, the epiphany, or in other words, realiazation of great truth.

This New Years I wanted one thing: for my resolutions to come true.

1st resolution: To find someone close to me (Tayvee)
2nd: Get closer and nicer to my best friends (I made up with Nika and we are now practically family, same with M and Sayura.)

Is it just me or...Is that a little weird that those both came true? To the guy with the worst luck, nonetheless!

I'm not complaining though. Apparently my Grandma just figured out that I have a 13 year old girlfriend. She actually didn't seem that mad! Not even upset! Whut duh frip?!

I got a note from Tayvee saying that her friend said I have quote unquote "A sexy butt" o,o. I just go "...Mmmmmkay?" like a whole wtf?! kinda look. I gave Tayvee a note that said, "Come on you admit, I have a sexy butt" on another note she said "Yes I admit, you do have a sexy butt! :P" x3 So cute..

She sent me a text last night that said "I love you so much! ha ha ha" Tomorrow I'm giving her a pink carnation because she adores pink, and I personally made her a card like she did for my birthday. :3 I think I know what she is making me, I saw her with a little wood cut out of 3 hearts all together and a bit of paint on it. ;3

I figure I'm going to get an actually kiss tomorrow, I pecked her cheek today when I said good bye. And I beg pardon for my mushy-ness! TT-TT I'm sorry!

I'm quitting baseball. I'd rather stick to something I know best and that I can do well in and get a scholarship in: Acting. That and my uncles both said "Yeah he needs to stick to something he could actually get a scholarship in, I mean...Baseball?! What was he thinking..?"
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Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Well, second practice today. I met Tayvee a little while before practice and I've really been missing her lately..So I told her I liked her and I asked her if she wanted to be with me again; she nodded yes and kissed my cheek and I kissed her head, forehead, neck, not all at once of course.

Well I had to hitch a ride to practice or I would have been murdered so thank God a teacher was leaving then.

Well practice was pretty...Shitty. (Pardon my French but it was worse than just the word "Bad" or "Sucky".) We did our first lap, easy stuff. Played catch (now this hurt me) a really good athlete threw the ball and it missed my glove and I idiotically had my hand near the glove..If you can't add up the rest...POW! Hand busted something I think; hurts to type and I actually have imprints on my hand where the ball's lacing was. It's between my index tendon and my thumb's tendon. It was blue and numb the first 10 minutes and I couldn't throw good.

Well I think I made a new friend. Name's Aaron. He's alright, but poor kid cried and he's a freshman. Coach said in hitting short if he hit it over this certain thing, ten push ups for punishment. Well he kept messing up but coach came to help him, he wasn't mad but still poor Aaron cried. I felt so bad while the other were laughing at him. I was next to pitch to him and I messed up a throw and it hit too high and he hit it over and I said "Coach, I'm sorry I'll take the push ups for that, it was completely my fault." Coach said it was OK. Aaron gets to the ground and does his push ups. I said "He said it was ok, and I would take them. It's my fault." He said "I need to start being a man, don't worry about it." I helped him and congratulated him all I could.

Well hitting..It was fun, I had a little trouble but decent. Now catching pop flies...Bleh...I miraculously caught like two and it save my butt because he said right before I caught it "If you catch this Matt, you can come back here and help me hit them." I caught it and phew, thank God.

I'm sore from something..And it wasn't yesterday's practice. Before the practice my ribs felt...bruised and in pain...I don't know why but after today's practice...it hurts to cough and sneeze especially...I hurt so bad it's hard to walk.

Well I didn't run my singles, doubles, or triples or homeruns. (It means I didn't run to first, then walked the rest, same with the other only homerun you have to run the whole way.) So I had to put up the HUGE HEAVY HULKING pitching machine and it was atleast 200 lbs. I had to get help and man...I'm going to be ridiculed to much...Coach said "Geez, Matt's going to sleep tonight" and I was bent over trying to get my breath because my throat was clinching together unable to get air. (That was while I tried running my 3rd single.) I feel so bad.

Overall...With Tayvee..I feel happy. We cuddled and hugged, tickled, nothing as intimant as a kiss on the lips yet...But..;3. We'll see.

(Thank you for reading this collect of thought of just one day. TTwTT *Hugs*)
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Sunday, February 3, 2008

"When I Was A Young Boy..."
Well watching The Matix makes you think, what if your mind is truely encased in some post-appocolyptic world where you can't escape. Only live, and die. Strange how the min-- Dah hell I'm not gunna bore you with my philosophical bullshit.

Well I decided not to go with the thick rimmed glasses. But I got some artsy-fartsy metal rimmed ones. They looks pretty good on me I guess. I like 'em and I'll post the picture when I get them in the mail. (Damn you mail...You win this round you postal bastards!!)

Kinda cool when you walk in a place in all black and see other emo kids in a group just like you walk next to you grin (and the girls give you the whole "checking you out smile with an open mouth" thing) and walk off double-taking you and nodding. And for one...those girls where hawt..

Well I wondered about talking a walk just for the hell of it now. Just think of all what happened. What there is to happen. Why did it happen? Could it be changed? Did someone make a set course of my life unchangable by any ephemeral mortal beings bound to this unholy world created for us that we circle and continue to "fix".

If you follow another human, does that make them the leader? You the follower? Or does that make you depend on them and afraid of making your own path in life? What would you choose..? And why would you choose this?

In the great solemn words of Melfina: "Who am I? Who made me? And what did they make me for...?" I'll find the reasons and answers to the unquestioned and unquestionable as well as the unanswered and the unanswerable. Who is with me? Answer the questions if you want to tell me.

(By the by, thank you for actually reading all this if you did! :3 *Hugs und keesses to ze cheeks!* x3)
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Friday, February 1, 2008

Family
I talked to the school's secretary today, she's always coming to One Act stuff with us helping and always hugging me and saying "Be good pumpkin!" or something, well I told her she was the closest thing to a mom I have. She said she felt honored but...I don't know.

I keep wanted to tell all the people at school that I'm wanting to move to a different school but...Something keeps holding me back everytime.

Sayura, M, and Cindy. Practically the only family I have and that's all the family I need. M as a bigger sister who watches out for me. Sayura as a little sister who tells me I'm the greatest, which she always contridicts with me, (I'm not the best.) and asks me for advice and help and I am always obliged to do so. And Cindy as a mother, always looking out close by me. I may not have much but they are the best people I have and I'm always indebted to them and grateful. There's Nika too. She always encourages me and backs me up on anything she can. (I think?)

I talked to a senior today as I was waiting out side a door to a classroom and she said "Hey Matt! What's up?" I told her I was waiting, now this girl is the silly ditzy friend who I went to One Act with last year and she said "Waiting on what? A hawt date? *Giggles* Just kidding." I told her she needed to grow up. She seemed offended so I just told her I was kidding and she laughed "Yeah alotta people tell me to grow up but I tell 'em "Hey! I'm 18! I got like 60 more years! Lemme be a kid now!" ya know?" It makes me think that my life is accelerating at an unbelievably fast rate...I told someone older than me to be mature. I suppose I am a bit. It's just like everything I needed to do in life is done, like there are no more roses to stop and smell before my life is over.

Two simple questions: What did I do to earn such great people to be close to me? And why do I feel like I'm old and everything has left me?
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