Saturday, November 24, 2007

Well..

.:Reowar:. Well...Not feeling so good lately. I was thinking earlier about "MS". Her name will remain with me. Anyways, she was a foreign exchange girl who came to our little school, and she was a junior, I a freshman. Anyhow we smiled and talked sometimes, anytime i looked at her, she gave me this smile that you could imagine an angel would have. Anyways, i would always get in her way in the halls and she would try to get me to move, poke me, tickle me, push me and laugh kiddingly. One day she sat in the hall alone, so i said "Hey...MS? You alright" She just said she got back from doing a whole big science thing, and I told her she must have done great. "Yeah...But..Right now, I'm homesick. And..when I leave, no one will remember me." I said "I will" "Yeah...For a little, then you'll forget about me." So i took her year book signing sheet and wrote "I promise, I will not forget you, if you will not forget me." And signed it. She smiled and said that was sweet, anyways i asked her out three days later by saying in her native language "I think that i love you" and she said "Do you even know what this means?!" I told her what it meant. She just said..."Look...I'm sorry but...I have a boyfriend back in " And...In my mind, All i thought was "I screwed up...Again." She never talked to me again. Well today i've been feeling bad, two girls i asked out, never said a word to me again. Will it happen with T? Or...Will she just say "Let's just stay friends, ok Matt?" or..."Yes" I dont know, but..Something in my gut tells me "Give it up, your no good for her. Let her find who she really wants to be with." So...I'm stuck. I dont know what to do. ~RW

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Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Note To T: Read With Caution

.:Reowar:. Decided i might wanna let you guys see what the note to T says. Front: Time To Collect What You Owe =P F:*My signature* To: T Inside: T, Hey, borrowing fee! Thought I might want to collect from you now. Ya know what? How about as a substitution for the fee, I could get to know you? That ok? Maybe you could stay after with your sister and talk and maybe you could stay and watch rehearsals. Hope you like the necklace; and uhm, sorry about the "almost vampire bite" thing. I just kinda noticed you were reading "Twilight" if I'm right? And it have a vampire in it. Another thing, I was wondering if ther ewas a drawing you liked, I could make a copy of it, and you could color it or something? That's what other people do with my drawings. And, you like to write poems right? If so, mind reading a few I wrote? Write me back, 'kay? *Signature* P.S. Yeah my signature has a pentacle in it. So what? Tell me what you guys think. ~RW

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How Many T's Does It Take To Spell "Love"?

.:Reowar:. Well your wrong. It takes one. And her name I'll keep with me and a select person. I let her borrow my necklace and got to talk to her a bit with my mp3 in our ears jamming out to Papercut by Linkin Park. Her sisters said "Oh yeah! H likes her, and it's soooo cute! I wonder if she would date him!!" I asked T, "Hey so what did you say to H?" T said "Well...I dont really like him like that so...And then his friends asked if they would go out with me! I'm not really the looks type, but if you love me or like me, just tell me." And i hugged her and she leaned on me and we laughed. Anyways, her belt has metal studs on it, just like mine, and i have a cross with the same studs on it and a gold chain and i put them together, i took it off and said "Hey T, look at this" She put it on and said "Oh it's so cool!" I said "You can borrow it if you want" She said "Oh my gosh! Thank you so much! I promise i wont lose it!" I smiled and hugged her. We got to talking and she apparently likes screamo. She wears all black and is pretty cute. I just hope she would like me if i like her back. We shall see. Tune in next time for "M Has A Crush" heh, kidding. ~RW

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Saturday, November 17, 2007

.:Reowar:. ~I can feel my heart exploding. ~It was long ago when it started eroding. ~The pain is not what I can't stand. ~It's the terrible feeling of Grim's hand. ~I don't know what made me like this. ~But I know you are the only person that I will miss. ~Shot in the heart by Cupid's arrow; or shot by a gun? ~I see my hand covered in blood; try to move my legs, but I can't run. ~Your voice doesn't reach me -- it sounds so far away... ~My body is limp; here is where I lay. ~My sight goes dim and my eyes turn white. ~I just wanted to appologize to you: I'm sorry for our fight. ~Your body now clings to mine. ~Now you can see me, see how I am. O, how sublime. ~I'm sorry, darling, for my actions; I'm so very sorry. ~Now no more lover; are you sorry about our spat? our quarry? ~The black-winged angel comes for me now. ~You hold my head up on your shoulder, and then my body takes it's final bow. ~End Second poem for Tasha, took me 5-10 minutes just like "Waiting." Hope you all like it. A little emo too... Please comment. ~RW

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.:Reowar:. ~How do you do it; that thing you do? ~Can you explain, because without you my wold is blue. ~Won't you show me your charm? ~Don't be afraid my dear, I won't be alarmed. ~Just open my eyes with your frozen hands so I can see. ~What's that, my dear? You won't comply with me? ~I'd love to open my eyes, but I'm afraid if I did I would only see black. ~I wish your warm breath, your soft touch, and rosey red lips would bring me back. ~I will wait under this heavy earth and wait for time's demise. ~But in the end, my dear, when you come see me, you'll be in for a surprise. ~No heaven awaits for me -- Nor a Hell. ~Only this tight wooden box I call, "my cell." ~I wait eternally for your love again and to hold you close, dear. ~I lay alone and cold forever without you, is my only fear. ~"Help me!" I cry and cry. ~But yet again -- no reply. ~Do you not miss you beloved; miss your one and true? ~For the day you leave me, my dear, for another is the one you'll rue. ~The sands of time slowly pass in the hourglass, grain by grain. ~Whilest you hold my tombstone, with your heart in pain. ~End I think it's a bit dark for me but I think it's well done. Tell me what you guys think. Wouldja? I'm going to give it to Tasha on Monday with a drawing, and by the way Tasha is like a year younger than me so no worries. Not a pedophile! <3 I just need to work on the drawing now and some more poetry. Think I have a knack for it? You tell me. Please critique! ~RW

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Friday, November 16, 2007

Bloody...Cough??
Well no time for the unneccisary post box. The thing right now is that I have been coughing up blood. I guess that means that I'm internally bleeding. Either my lungs, throat, or nose. I cant tell where but when I hack up junk, it's brown like dried blood, and red like fresh blood. I just checked with a relative and they said "Yeah that's blood alright." So I'm heading to the doctors..Wish me the best.
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Monday, November 12, 2007

Drama! Comes In All Shapes, Sizes, And People!

.:Reowar:. Alright I now know most everything! Apparently the girl i wrote a note to (Angel) that said to get Tesla off my chest because it's weird. Apparently someone got this weird thing from her saying she has a crush on me. x.x She's in the 6th grade too! Come on people! Anyways, found out Tesla does like me, bah. Petophilic? Piss off. They like me not the other way around. So now it's not just a Tesla problem, it's an Angel problem. (Weird saying that...) I think another girl likes me too...Ugh...Lady killer? Rehearsal hurt today. Sore throat and I had to speak loudly. I had to squat down to 3 feet tall for 2 hours to be my character, and jump and it didnt help my hips. I got hit in the head, foot stepped on, and punched in the gut. God help me. Anyways, I'm apparently being lied about. And if you are reading this Kira, get the words from the dog's mouth, don't believe a bitch ass cat. :3 Sorry for those of you who dont like to read cuss words. Thanks for reading, comment please. Sleep now...

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Sunday, November 11, 2007

?

.:Reowar:. Well turns out fate smiles upon me. She doesn't like me. And then fate slaps me in the face: she thinks i like her and there is a rumor going around in the elementary. Dubya tee eff? Oh well i can just explain if i can get the note i wrote her. It has a secret message on the side like Raito pulled on L with the suicide notes. It reads "First, sorry on this Tesla, it just wont work understand?" She probably wont find it unless i tell her. Her friend said she was asking her if she thought I might like her, she said "Hell no!" x3 And she said "No one would like you Tesla your just too ugly" I stood back in the arguement but I did think "That's kinda mean to say to your best friend." Well Ken and I watched Death Note 1-37 and he felt so bad when L died. x3 I hugged he and he patted my shoulder and said "This is the only time I'm letting you hug me!" I said "Well dont expect anymore!!" It was funny. Rehearsals tomorrow...And on Thursday's rehearsals, i kept getting sprayed by a squirt gun. And i mean a big one. It was supposed to be fun and if you laughed on stage you got squirted, or if you did some action wrong you got squirted. I got shot once, i laughed, got shot again, Ken took the gun, i turned my back to the audiance after the scene was over and was talking out of character and he got me and said "No backs to the audiance Matt!" I noogied him a bit and some girl who is really bad at reading took it and squirted me and the director got the gun back and got me and said "Dont be messing with the peanut gallery Matt and get off stage" So i threw my script because i was pissed because no one else got punishment but me and i threw my book and i yelled "This is BULLSHIT! I appologized on Friday to the director and asked what happened. I told him my granddad (The one i live with) may die from heart surgery that's coming up, and it's true..He may. Im just really stressed. If you read all this, thank you for you god-like paitiance, please comment. And i feel like im really getting sick...Throat's sore, I'm a nemic (I think i spelt it right) It means i have weak blood...And i need Iron pills and probably iron shots *Hugs knees* And I'm not lieing..It's all going spiraling down for me it seems.

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Wednesday, November 7, 2007

UPDATE: Say whu...?

.:Reowar:. Apparently...I think the girl does like me, and now i think i should give her a name because i talk about so many nameless girls. Her name is Tesla. Alright here's how it went down today. I got on the bus and Tesla and her friend were listening to "Soldier Boy" Or something and singing it, and she kept looking at me and i could see her out of the corner of my eye. She kept smiling, and i kept asking me what's wrong. I always told her nothing, because it was true. Anyways...She said "Hey Matt! Remember on friday when i was crying?" I told her i did. And someone asked "Why were you crying??" She said "That's only between me and Matt!!" I was like "Ehhh?" But then she said "Well it was between me and (The kid who told me that she liked me) and Matt!" So i guess she was crying because i found out? Or because I didnt say i liked her back? I dont know i need a bit of help here ladies. (Since only girls read this and comment on my stuff! And please comment or send your comment in a PM i need help here.) ~Psy (A new alias i thought i'd try because M wont let me borrow her's!)

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Friday, November 2, 2007

...?

.:Reowar:. A bit strange I'd say. So im going to update you all about the last two days. Thursday: It was a long day, and I had rehearsal for the play "Rome Is Where the Heart Is" for the first time. So long day, and i had an hour and thirty minutes to do something until time to do. So I get on the computer with my friends for a bit, then they decide "Let's head behind the levy like we always used to and explore for the hell of it, eh?" I decided sure. And we get out there, i cut my hand and it starts to bleed, we continue, i wade through water, figure out it's almost time for rehearsal, we run back, i wade through again with my pal Ken, Ty and Kelly already ran back while it was me and Ken trying to find our way through the brush, thorns and who the hell knows what. Anyways we finally get back. Rehearsal was about one minute after we got there. So, rehearsal goes, I have to get hit in the forehead several times, punched in the gut, pushed in the gut, hair pulled, ear pulled, hit in the butt with a frying pan, pushed down, kicked, stepped on, and crawl on the floor, flung down. That's just about all in one scene...Why did i have to get Lysimachus...? *Sigh* Came home and went to bed at 8..I was realy tired.. Friday: Today i had a project due and i had to make a box and i didnt have scissors to cut it out with so i had to TEAR it out and it came out very crappy so i will (maybe) hardly pass if at all. Then some girl says something about all her friends are going to be her friend at school, (Note: I dont even know the girl and she says this) Matt, you can be my uncle, Ken your my dad, and etc... So on the bus as I was on my way home, one of the 6th graders asked me something really personal: "When do you want to have your first kid?" I answered from 21-23. Well, she started to talk to me a bit, sentence at a time, then asked if i wanted to go out with her, she appologized and said "Im just kidding!" about two minutes later she told another kid i talk to on the bus something, and he said "Sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but will you be her boyfriend?" she immediately pulled up a "Shhh!" gesture in front of her face. Strange... Anyways, she started to cry because of problems at home, I talked to her for a while, and hugged her before she left. And i was just reminded, on Wednesday she started to say "Are you--Nevermind" then she asked about a couple minutes later "Do you have a girlfriend??" I responded no. I just think it's weird if a tenth grader and a sixth grader go out, do you guys??

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