Saturday, November 24, 2007

Well..

.:Reowar:. Well...Not feeling so good lately. I was thinking earlier about "MS". Her name will remain with me. Anyways, she was a foreign exchange girl who came to our little school, and she was a junior, I a freshman. Anyhow we smiled and talked sometimes, anytime i looked at her, she gave me this smile that you could imagine an angel would have. Anyways, i would always get in her way in the halls and she would try to get me to move, poke me, tickle me, push me and laugh kiddingly. One day she sat in the hall alone, so i said "Hey...MS? You alright" She just said she got back from doing a whole big science thing, and I told her she must have done great. "Yeah...But..Right now, I'm homesick. And..when I leave, no one will remember me." I said "I will" "Yeah...For a little, then you'll forget about me." So i took her year book signing sheet and wrote "I promise, I will not forget you, if you will not forget me." And signed it. She smiled and said that was sweet, anyways i asked her out three days later by saying in her native language "I think that i love you" and she said "Do you even know what this means?!" I told her what it meant. She just said..."Look...I'm sorry but...I have a boyfriend back in " And...In my mind, All i thought was "I screwed up...Again." She never talked to me again. Well today i've been feeling bad, two girls i asked out, never said a word to me again. Will it happen with T? Or...Will she just say "Let's just stay friends, ok Matt?" or..."Yes" I dont know, but..Something in my gut tells me "Give it up, your no good for her. Let her find who she really wants to be with." So...I'm stuck. I dont know what to do. ~RW

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