Friday, February 1, 2008

Family
I talked to the school's secretary today, she's always coming to One Act stuff with us helping and always hugging me and saying "Be good pumpkin!" or something, well I told her she was the closest thing to a mom I have. She said she felt honored but...I don't know.

I keep wanted to tell all the people at school that I'm wanting to move to a different school but...Something keeps holding me back everytime.

Sayura, M, and Cindy. Practically the only family I have and that's all the family I need. M as a bigger sister who watches out for me. Sayura as a little sister who tells me I'm the greatest, which she always contridicts with me, (I'm not the best.) and asks me for advice and help and I am always obliged to do so. And Cindy as a mother, always looking out close by me. I may not have much but they are the best people I have and I'm always indebted to them and grateful. There's Nika too. She always encourages me and backs me up on anything she can. (I think?)

I talked to a senior today as I was waiting out side a door to a classroom and she said "Hey Matt! What's up?" I told her I was waiting, now this girl is the silly ditzy friend who I went to One Act with last year and she said "Waiting on what? A hawt date? *Giggles* Just kidding." I told her she needed to grow up. She seemed offended so I just told her I was kidding and she laughed "Yeah alotta people tell me to grow up but I tell 'em "Hey! I'm 18! I got like 60 more years! Lemme be a kid now!" ya know?" It makes me think that my life is accelerating at an unbelievably fast rate...I told someone older than me to be mature. I suppose I am a bit. It's just like everything I needed to do in life is done, like there are no more roses to stop and smell before my life is over.

Two simple questions: What did I do to earn such great people to be close to me? And why do I feel like I'm old and everything has left me?
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