Tuesday, November 8, 2005

0025: I made an s/n just for flaming people! YAY!
Ok, so Doc was being really badly annoyed by one of his 'friends.' I just finished up my homeowrk, and I told Doc I'd flame the pipsqueak. So I made an s/n just for him and flamed the bitch. Here's our lovely conversation.





[00:34] timetodieasshat: GOD DAMN ASS-FUCKING STICK-FAG! I HATE MIDGETS! EVERYONE KNOWS THIS! i HATE THEM WITH THEIR LITTLE IDDY-BIDDY EYES AND THEIR STUBBY LITTLE FINGER THAT ALWAYS SEEM TO BE ASKING FOR PIE OR CHANGE!!!!!!!!1111111111111
[00:35] timetodieasshat: FUCK YOU YOU SHIT ASS STUBBY FUCK
[00:35] timetodieasshat: GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY GOD DAMN PERSONAL SPACE BEFORE I USE YOU TO CLEAN MY FUCKING CHIMMNEY YOU ASS FORK OR FUCK HAT!
[00:36] timetodieasshat: FUCKING LOSER
[00:36] timetodieasshat: GET AFUCKING LIFE
[00:37] timetodieasshat: NO ONE LISTENS TO YOUR LESBIAN BULL SHIT ANYWAYS
[00:37] WesTSydEBallA101: who is this
[00:38] WesTSydEBallA101: who is this
[00:38] WesTSydEBallA101: hello?
[00:39] timetodieasshat: STFU N00B, THIS IS JUST ANOTHER FACELESS COWARD ON THE INTERNET
[00:39] timetodieasshat: I COULD SAY THAT I WAS YOU MOTHER
[00:39] timetodieasshat: BUT THAT'D BE GROSS
[00:39] timetodieasshat: WHO'D WANT TO BE HER?
[00:40] timetodieasshat: AND FOR ALL YOU KNOW I COULDBE RIGHT
[00:40] timetodieasshat: SO FUCK YOU
[00:40] *** "WesTSydEBallA101" signed off at Thu Nov 10 00:40:56 2005.
[00:41] *** "WesTSydEBallA101" signed on at Thu Nov 10 00:41:52 2005.
[00:42] timetodieasshat: WELCOME THE FUCK BACK BUDDY
[00:42] timetodieasshat: I MISSED U
[00:43] *** "WesTSydEBallA101" signed off at Thu Nov 10 00:43:16 2005.
[00:43] *** "WesTSydEBallA101" signed on at Thu Nov 10 00:43:26 2005.
[00:43] timetodieasshat: HAHA YOU ARE TEH LAGGXORS
[00:46] timetodieasshat: :-/
[00:46] timetodieasshat: YOU'RE A QUIET GUY
[00:46] timetodieasshat: I LIKE FAGS LIKE YOU
[00:48] timetodieasshat: ARE YOU GOING TO SAY SOMETHING?
[00:48] WesTSydEBallA101: who r u
[00:49] timetodieasshat: I TOLD YOU MAN
[00:49] WesTSydEBallA101: who? u didnt tell me
[00:49] timetodieasshat: WHO CARES?
[00:49] WesTSydEBallA101: me
[00:50] timetodieasshat: WELL TOO BAD DUMBASS
[00:50] timetodieasshat: NOTHING SAYS PARTY LIKE YOUR HEAD ON A STICK
[00:51] timetodieasshat: FUCKING NAZI ASS BASTERD FAGGOT
[00:52] *** "WesTSydEBallA101" signed off at Thu Nov 10 00:52:04 2005.






(behind the scenes)






[00:35] DocsAIMname: You flammin'? He's oftly quite

[00:37] DocsAIMname: You got him stutterin'.. "[19:32] WesTSydEBallA101: okay?
[19:34] Doc: Still there?
[19:34] WesTSydEBallA101: yyes
[19:34] WesTSydEBallA101: aim being gay
[19:35] Doc: Bein' gay?
[19:35] Doc: I thought you used trillian..."
[00:37] DocsAIMname: xD

[19:35] WesTSydEBallA101: i am... just nevermind...
[19:35] Doc: O_o
[19:35] WesTSydEBallA101: its logging on and off. so ignore that on me.."

[00:45] DocsAIMname: [19:42] WesTSydEBallA101: DUDE
[19:42] WesTSydEBallA101: HELP
[19:43] WesTSydEBallA101: u there?
[19:43] WesTSydEBallA101: plz...
[19:43] Doc: Uh.. yeah?
[19:43] WesTSydEBallA101: theres this guy named (sn) timetodieasshat
[19:43] WesTSydEBallA101: and hes cussing me out and i think hes making me sign off and on...
[19:43] WesTSydEBallA101: i dont know him..
[19:43] Doc: ... O_O
[19:44] Doc: What'd you do?
[19:44] WesTSydEBallA101: huh, nuthing.
[19:44] WesTSydEBallA101: u know him?
[19:44] Doc: ...
[19:44] Doc: hell no.
[19:44] Doc: you had to do something
[19:44] WesTSydEBallA101: but i now hes not at my school... cuz everyone i know doesnt know the word lag.
[19:45] WesTSydEBallA101: they dont play cs.. and he said U R TEH LAGGXORZ
[19:45] WesTSydEBallA101: hes saying ur quiet... i like fags like you.
[19:45] Doc: .... O_O
[19:45] Doc: He wants you to talk I guess...
[19:45] WesTSydEBallA101: dude help :-(
[19:45] Doc: How?
[19:45] WesTSydEBallA101: i dont know...






The little fuck deserved it. Ask Doc about it. DocsAIMname.

Those of you who know me know that I never actually say these things, I did this only to piss the kid off.

What's really sad? The kid plays Counter-Strike and he didn't know how to respond to a flame.

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Saturday, November 5, 2005

0024: Trillian/AIM Problems
I am at wit's end with both of these programs. Trillian gives me this message every time I sign on:

[21:43] *** Creating connection "RiflesAtRecessNC"
[21:43] *** Error logging into AIM: You are attempting to sign on again too soon. Please wait ~15 minutes and try again! Do not login during this period or it will only extend itself.
[21:43] *** Reconnecting to AIM as "RiflesAtRecessNC".
[21:43] *** Will attempt 10 connections with 60 second intervals.

And it never signs me back on. Even when I restart my computer, I can't get on it.

So I installed AIM again and used it to talk to people last night. Today it's not letting me on at all. What a bitch.

If you really want to IM me, Email me, PM me, leave a comment, or something that tells me to add you to my AOL buddy list so you aren't blocked.

Saw II can wait for tomorrow. For now, it's back to my SCIII binge.
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0023: My awesome week.
I just had one of the most eventful weeks of my life. Since certain people read this, I'm keeping it private from some people. IM me if you want to know the specifics.

Tonight I watched Saw II with some friends. It was awesome, it put the first one's face in a death mask and hid the key behind its eyeball. I'm reviewing it tomorrow, as I don't have much time tonight.


This weekend is one of much rest. I'm basically just planning out my birthday party and getting the specifics nailed down.

Did I mention Circle Takes the Square is playing on my fucking birthday? Well, they are, and I'm very excited about it.

Last time I was on here, my rating was in the 4000's, now it's in the 5000's. Visit my site more, you losers. I hate all of you. :)
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Friday, October 28, 2005

0022: My shitty week.
(Today)
[22:03] RiflesAtRecessNC: sorry I wasn't on yesterday, studying for Chem midterm, which I failed today anyways
[22:03] tasogaresage: I'm sorry =/ (glomps)
[22:03] RiflesAtRecessNC: lol, I'm transferring out of the class Tuesday, so it doesn't matter
[22:04] RiflesAtRecessNC: Mrs. Bergman crossed the line a few days ago and it's finally getting resolved
[22:04] tasogaresage: oh? what happened?
[22:05] RiflesAtRecessNC: let me start by saying this, with the exception of three students, the entire class has D's and F's
[22:05] RiflesAtRecessNC: she called us "stupid" and "retarded"
[22:05] RiflesAtRecessNC: and asked us why we couldn't be like them
[22:06] tasogaresage: o_o
[22:06] tasogaresage: That's evil!
[22:06] RiflesAtRecessNC: yeah
[22:07] RiflesAtRecessNC: so me and some of my classmates are leaving

(Two Days Ago)
[00:55] Emiilemma: yeah its not.....i mean thats what ive heard too
[00:56] RiflesAtRecessNC: so how's school going for you? last I heard you were skipping school
[00:57] Emiilemma: haha
[00:57] Emiilemma: im home schooled now
[00:57] RiflesAtRecessNC: oh really?
[00:57] RiflesAtRecessNC: that's cool
[00:57] RiflesAtRecessNC: can't really skip then
[00:57] RiflesAtRecessNC: want to hear the rumor?
[00:57] RiflesAtRecessNC: I heard this today actually
[00:58] Emiilemma: sure
[00:58] RiflesAtRecessNC: I heard you dropped out. X'D
[00:58] Emiilemma: from who?
[00:59] RiflesAtRecessNC: Megan Kearns, who heard it from someone else and was concerned
[01:00] Emiilemma: thats gay
[01:00] Emiilemma: i cant drop out
[01:00] Emiilemma: im going into the marines
[01:00] Emiilemma: high rank
[01:00] RiflesAtRecessNC: oh, wow
[01:00] Emiilemma: : )
[01:00] Emiilemma: yeah so you can tell her to fuck the hell off
[01:00] Emiilemma: fuck high point
[01:00] Emiilemma: fuck all the rumors
[01:01] Emiilemma: people can just suck my dick
[01:01] RiflesAtRecessNC: she wasn't spreading the rumor, she asked me because she knew we were still friends
[01:01] RiflesAtRecessNC: nice last statement there
[01:03] RiflesAtRecessNC: hello?
[01:04] Emiilemma: yeah sorry
[01:04] Emiilemma: lol
[01:04] Emiilemma: i told her
[01:04] RiflesAtRecessNC: haha, damn
[01:05] RiflesAtRecessNC: I told her you were doing drugs last time I talked to you
[01:08] RiflesAtRecessNC: I'm heading to bed, later
[01:10] Emiilemma: thats fucked up
[01:10] *** Auto-response sent to Emiilemma: I am currently away from the computer.
[01:10] Emiilemma: good


(Today)
[22:08] RiflesAtRecessNC: care to know how the Emilie thing resolved? here's a hint, it didn't.
[22:08] tasogaresage: crap...how'd it go then?
[22:09] RiflesAtRecessNC: remember how I told her Megan told me, and then she paused for a while and came back and said she told her?
[22:09] RiflesAtRecessNC: well, she never called Megan, Im'd her, nothing
[22:09] RiflesAtRecessNC: She said that just to fucking hurt me
[22:10] RiflesAtRecessNC: I called her after I talked to Megan, and she said "sorry, I was tripping again"
[22:11] RiflesAtRecessNC: I told her down, saying that I never did anything that would call for such abuse from her, and I told her how she was never there for me, how evil she became after taking drugs, etc.
[22:11] RiflesAtRecessNC: and then she told me to go fuck myself and hung up
[22:11] RiflesAtRecessNC: I'm never talking to her again
[22:11] RiflesAtRecessNC: the end
[22:11] tasogaresage: wow...
[22:12] tasogaresage: that's...I'm so sorry...
[22:12] tasogaresage: I can't believe she did that
[22:12] RiflesAtRecessNC: yeah
[22:12] RiflesAtRecessNC: my friend Corey, who works at Harris Teeter, got her busted for drugs at work today, he said, so now she's jobless, all because of me ^_^
[22:12] RiflesAtRecessNC: that's my payback
[22:13] tasogaresage: ^^ Good!
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

0021: Andrew
One of my best friends, Andrew, couldn't get a ride home from school today. After waiting at the school for his father, he walked to my house, a fifteen minute drive. His dad chewed him out at my house, walking home just simply isn't an option.

So, that was an interesting moment in my day. Yay.
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0020: Dear Michaela Part II: The MMM Syndrome
"I love you so much."

words of loving and kindness mix and match to create the color red on your arm.
your wounds aren't all self-inflicted, but those heal the fastest.

'You will regret this.'

they can't find the proof.
cut yourself to make them care.

cut yourself and raise your hand on broken arms so the whole world can see your pain.

'You will regret this, I still feel Your cold hand on my face.'
it's a sharp pain, a sharp, loving lovetap made of love.
"I love you," She says as your body hits the floor.

your skin doesn't bruise anymore.
there is no proof.
cut yourself an outline where a bruise should be.

cut yourself messages in response to "I love you"'s recieved in rugburns.

I HATE YOU
| H^TE VUV
||-^|C V
V0U D0|\|T |0vC /\/\C
YOU NEVER LOVED ME!
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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

0019: OMG CTTS!
Circle Takes the Square is playing in my area on my fucking birthday! Holy shit! YAHOO!!!

Sorry.


Other than that, midterm are this week and report cards are next week, some classes I'm doing great in, and I'm absolutely dreading others. I'm pretty sure I'm doing good in everything but Chemistry. Fuck that class.

I have some poetry and stuff for you guys tomorrow. I haven't written anything in a while, and I just started back up into it again. I'm still finishing up "Dear Michaela, 2" which I'm very proud of so far.

For those of you that don't know, I have a site for my poetry at

http://kevinswritingportfolio.cjb.net/
(not updated regularly)
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Saturday, October 15, 2005

0018
Brad left for his girlfriend's house to finish off the week. I think it's funny that he thought of me first.

Yesterday was Homecoming, apparently, some people in other countries don't know what Homecoming is...? I had a few people ask me what it was. It's a n important high school football game. That's all I really know, I dislike football.

At the Homecoming, I participated in the Rock-a-thon, where all the clubs make rocking chairs and rock from the end of school until half-time. I did it for the Art Club, then just left, I didn't want to stay for the game.

Well, today is the Zillapalooza, a rock show hosted by Todd "Toddzilla" Eliis, who graduated last year. It features all of the bands of our school, which is really cool.

Before then, I have to finish a research paper on Lord Ernest Rutherford, who did shit with atoms. Help would be much-appreciated. ;)

---

James: Thanks, you are the man.
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Saturday, October 8, 2005

0017
Well, we got our interim reports two days ago and my grades were all better than I thought they were, by leaps and bounds.

Art III: A (apparently I had failing grades, and not failing the class, Mrs. Coggins should have clairified that)

H Chemistry: D
Geometry: A
H English: C (blame the summer reading tests)

So after I got those, I cheered up again really fast. I just need to pull up that Chemistry grade.


One of my best friends, Brad, is living with us for a week or so. He got a speeding ticket and his parents kicked him out. He has lousy parents, between my opinion and the stories he tells. I'm tutoring him in DDR, it's a funny sight.

Aside from that, nothing new. SomethingAwful.com has a new flash video that's just absurd, meaning you should watch it. It's called The Best of Weekend Web Volume One. It's based off of real forum posts that real people have made. Keep the volume down. :)

---

Thank you Retribution, you didn't come off as 'too anything,' except maybe too awesome/nice/cool. You really helped, even though I just now read it.
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Tuesday, October 4, 2005

0016: I give up.
I haven't been on here in over a week. I'm sorry. I've actually been online... but one hour at a time. I've been doing homework on top of homework on top of homework. I am able to type this simply because I give up.

I fucking give up.

I don't understand my chemistry. Mrs. Bergman isn't a teacher, she is a person who tells you one forgettable thing about an atom, then continues to order Chinese food for the teachers and talk about reality shows, dramas, prime times, and anything else you can think of that doesn't relate in any way to atoms or the periodic table of elements. We get reading, essays, and impossible amounts of work every night, based on a book that might as well be written in German and containing nothing that we talked about in class. Dr. House is not a chemist. Chinese isn't Chemistry either, unless you're not wearing your glasses right now, then you probably can't tell the difference. Mrs. Bergman rarely uses her glasses.

Geometry is easy. Cool teacher, stupid classmates, CP grading scale. I'm the textbook of the class and everyone copies the people that copy off of me. Too much homework.

English is a fun class. It's the last period of the day, so the reading, the essays, and the homework that I get out of that class gets spread throughout the day, and the next day, and sometimes in the five minutes before the bell rings. Sometimes it's just enough time to add the sentence that means the difference between a C and a B. I wish English ended the day, and that's it.

I haven't talked about first period yet. First period is Art. Art is a great class, we all know eachother, Mrs. Coggins is a second mom to us and all that fun stuff. Mrs. Coggins started assigning homework.

I'm fucking failing art now.

I can't find the time to create a fucking sculupture, let alone a simple drawing between two essays and 40-50 pages of reading.

Every fucking night.

I give up.

I'm sick of work, I'm sick of the nausea induced by a blank piece of notbook paper. I'm sick of teachers, sick of people in general.

I've lost interest in my friends as they have lost interest in me. I'm starting over, I want people to forget me so they can be able to remember me. This will be the third time I've reset my life.

This change was brought on by someone who was very close to me until this year. She started with cigs last year, I was disappointed with her, but it wasn't that bad. She moved on to alcohol and cocaine and acid. I don't know how to handle it. She has ignored me for half a year, so now it's my turn, I did my part. I told her no, over and over.

I learned what I listed above, cried for a bit. Woke up, school, homework, drama, nausea, pain, depression, telephone. I had to call her. I ended up leaving a message on her machine basically telling her to go fuck herself and that I don't ever want to hear from her again until she fucking fixes herself.

She called me back, telling me that she doesn't need me anymore. She did fix herself, she found something that made her happy.

Good for her.

I'm re-evaluating my friends, already I have changed. I see what it has done to one of my friends who is trying to fix herself and it's doing nothing but hurting her even more.

So I quit.

I fucking give up.

I don't know what I'm quitting from but I'll figure it out. Tonight, I'm not doing my homework and hoping to fail. I don't fucking care anymore.

I'm sorry for this. This isn't normally me, but I haven't felt like myself since school began. I'm sorry.
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