Monday, February 12, 2007

Why do I even bother?

In a friggin slump, and I don't know if I can't get out of it. This artist's block has gone on for years, and I'm starting to lose hope in it stopping. Not being able to come up with ideas in my head has become very frustrating, and it's really making an impact on my confidence in drawing.

I'm losing my touch! Now I know there are billions of people that are better than me, but I always thought I was half-decent. But, in the past few years, my artwork began to dwindle in creativity, quality, and quantity. It's really hard for me to come up with poses, and actually producing artwork. My mental health councillor says that anxiety, and stress surpresses creativity, and things like that.

And, the only BIG thing that I can think of that is causing my anxiety is living on an island. =/ Yes, there's actually a lot of things about living here that really bother me, and cramps my personality. First off, I am not like the other kid here: I don't drink alcohol, do drugs, screw every person of the opposite sex that I see. I don't talk about other people negatively, and I have a habit of not speaking my mind/opinion.

Anyway, I don't think the above rant makes any sense, but I thought I would try expressing myself, in hoping that it will make me feel better.....

* Riizah

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