Wednesday, December 7, 2005

Content
Well, I think I'm content anyways..Maybe I'm happy...I dunno..!

Last night Squall-sama made me cry. But it wasn't the bad kind of crying! He didn't upset me, even though my heart hurt a lot. He said the most beautiful things to me..And I cried because of their beauty, because I couldn't be near him and touch him.

It sounds silly, I know, but it's true..

He is just like Cyrano De Bergerac to me, what with his eloquence of words! He should be the poet! Not I! For you see, I'm a writer outside of normal stuff. I'll post some of my poetry and maybe peices of my novels. I'll have to think about it.

And he's completely taken over me just like the Opera Ghost. Seduced me with his voice...He's my angel of music..The first two verses of THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA from the musical, i think kind of describes us...Kind of...

Then..then he goes and inspires me! He's my muse! My very own Dorian Grey. He's beautiful, intelligent..soft to the touch..I miss him...

But I know he is not any of those people. He is not Cyrano. He is not the Opera Ghost. He is not Dorian. He is Squall-sama.

"The words I speak come not from the bottom of a book, but from the bottom of my heart"

He said that. Or something similar to it. It's pretty...so delightfully pretty that I wish I could just reach out and touch them..At the same time, I couldn't believe how gloriously fake the words sounded. Not from his tone, just the words..

I love the words and him all the same.

Though today...we talked about how we would die...He said that he would want to die the way we were lying, because we were lying down together. We weren't do anything!! So don't get the wrong idea!! I said I would like to die with a kiss.

I told one of my friends, Will, and he said it was kind of morbid..yet romantic. Not his exact words, because I paraphrase.

"No artist is ever morbid. The artist can express everything."
~ Oscar Wilde

Wilde is one of my favourite playwrites. He may have been gay, but he sure knew how to weave a story together. He wrote THE PICTURE OF DORIAN GREY. I suggest you pick up a copy and read it. It's an absolutely fabulous story.

Anyways, I can't wonder if Will had a point. Was what we said horribly romantic, or romantically horrible?
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