myOtaku.com: RitaKaiba26

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1990-06-02
Gender
• Female
Location
• Arkansas
Member Since
• 2004-02-27
Occupation
• Student at High School and Hostess
Real Name
• Rita Jaganshi

Personal

Achievements
• I married Hiei...XD And now I'm in high school, in band, and a squad leader. :]
Anime Fan Since
• Forever!
Favorite Anime
• Yu-Gi-Oh! and Yu-Yu Hakusho are my two main ones. :P
Goals
• To become a Web Art Director and get better at my instrument in band...as well as try to get more involved in here. <3
Hobbies
• Watch TV, play on the computer, play video games, ride cars and motorcycles, and drawing them too!!^_^ (I'm secretly trying to take over the world...but don't tell anyone! ^^)
Talents
• Um...I can play an instrument, and I'm fairly good at anything I try. :D I can also write well. ;P <3

myOtaku.com: RitaKaiba26

Saturday, July 31, 2004

Hey do good ppl! *waves*
Well, I am feeling much, much better after everything u guys did for me! And on wednesday, *points at last post* Is when I was really down about mostly everything right? So when I came back from eating with my mom and bro, I closed the door to my room and put my 'Linkin Park' CD in my little stereo thingy I have in my room. As I was listening to the songs, I realized that I could relate to the lyrics and decided to write them down in my notebook. I wrote down the lyrics to 4 songs in that CD, and I'll show you which one they are by posting the lyrics ^^' Hope u don't mind! And the lines that are all in capitals mean I felt very strongly about that or that's how I felt ok?! Welp, here we go!
Somewhere I belong-Linkin Park
When this began
I had nothing to say
AND I'D GET LOST IN THE NOTHINGNESS INSIDE OF ME
I WAS CONFUSED
And I let it all out to find/That I'm
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only thing I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
JUST STUCK/HOLLOW AND ALONE
AND THE FAULT IS MY OWN
AND THE FAULT IS MY OWN

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I WANT TO LET GO OF THE PAIN I'VE FELT SO LONG
[ERASE ALL THE PAIN 'TILL IT'S GONE]
IT'S GONE]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to soemthing real
I WANT TO FIND SOMETHING I'VE WANTED ALL ALONG
SOMEWHERE I BELONG

And i've got nothing to say
I can't believe I fell right down on my face
I WAS CONFUSED
Looking everywhere/Only to find that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
SO WHAT AM I
WHAT DO I HAVE BUT NEGATIVITY
CAUSE I CAN'T JUSTIFY THE
WAY EVERYONE IS LOOKING AT ME
NOTHING TO LOSE
NOTHING TO GAIN/HOLLOW AND ALONE
AND THE FAULT IS MY OWN
THE FAULT IS MY OWN

I WILL NEVER KNOW
MYSELF UNTIL I DO THIS ON MY OWN
AND I WILL NEVER FEEL
ANYTHING UNTIL MY WOUNDS ARE HEALED
I WILL NEVER BE
ANYTHING TILL I BREAK AWAY FROM ME
AND I WILL BREAK AWAY
I'LL FIND MYSELF TODAY

I WANT TO HEAL
I WANT TO FEEL LIKE I'M
SOMEWHERE I BELONG

Lying From You-Linkin Park
When I pretend
Eveything is what I want it to be
I LOOK EXACTLY LIKE YOU HAD ALWAYS WANTED TO SEE
WHEN I PRETEND
I CAN FORGET ABOUT THE CRIMINAL I AM
Stealing second after second just cause
I know I can/But
I CAN'T PRETEND THIS IS THE WAY
IT WILL STAY/I'M JUST
TRYING TO BEND THE TRUTH
I CAN'T PRETEND IM' WHO YOU WANT IT TO BE
SO I'M

LYING MY WAY FROM YOU

[NO/NO TURNING BACK NOW]
I WANNA BE PUSHED ASIDE
SO LET ME GO
[NO/NO TURNING BACK NOW]
LET ME TAKE BACK MY LIFE
I'D RATHER BE ALL ALONE
[NO TURNING BACK NOW]
ANYWHERE ON MY OWN
'CAUSE I CAN SEE
[NO/NO TURNING BACK NOW]
The very worst part of you
Is me

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk
Of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that
AND THIS AGAIN
SO I PRETENDED UP A PERSON WHO WAS FITTING IN
AND NOW YOU THINK THIS PERSON
REALLY IS ME AND I'M
[TRYING TO BEND THE TRUTH]
BUT THE MORE I PUSH
THE MORE I'M PULLING AWAY
'CAUSE I'M

lying my way from you

THIS ISN'T WHAT I WANTED TO BE
I NEVER THOUGHT THAT WHAT I SAID
WOULD HAVE YOU RUNNING FROM ME
LIKE THIS

The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me

Breaking The Habit-Linkin Park
Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
YOU ALL ASSUME
I'M SAFE HERE IN MY ROOM
[UNLESS I TRY TO START AGAIN]

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
CAUSE INSIDE I REALIZE
THAT I'M THE ONE CONFUSED

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I DON'T KNOW WHY I INSTIGATE
TO SAY WHAT I DON'T MEAN
I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT THIS WAY
I KNOW IT'S NOT ALRIGHT
SO I'M
BREAKING THE HABIT
TONIGHT

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I HURT MUCH MORE
THAN ANYTIME BEFORE
I had no options left again

I'll paint it on the walls
Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT THIS WAY
I'LL NEVER BE ALRIGHT
SO I'M
BREAKING THE HABIT
BREAKING THE HABIT
TONIGHT

Numb-Linkin Park
I'M TIRED OF BEING WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE
FEELING SO FAITHLESS
LOST UNDER THE SURFACE
I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE EXPECTING OF ME
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes

[Caught in the undertow/
Just caught in the undertow]
EVERY STEP THAT I TAKE IS
ANOTHER MISTAKE TO YOU

I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
ALL I WANT TO DO
IS BE MORE LIKE ME
AND BE LESS LIKE YOU

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afarid to lose control
'CAUSE EVERYTHING THAT YOU THOUGHT I WOULD BE
HAS FALLEN APART RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU

[Caught in the undertow/
Just caught in the undertow]
EVERY STEP THAT I TAKE IS
ANOTHER MISTAKE TO YOU
[Caught in the undertow/
Just caught in the undertow]
AND EVERY SECOND I WASTE
IS MORE THAN I CAN TAKE

BUT I KNOW
I MAY END UP FAILING TOO
BUT I KNOW
YOU WERE JUST LIKE ME
WITH SOMEONE DISAPPOINTED IN YOU

There we go! Those are the lyrics that I put down on my notebook when I was feeling down. Thanks for listening! ^_^
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