Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Layer 07 - Kanari Mondai Janai?

E-Eum hello... I must really truly be one of the worst members on this site, in terms of my update rate and I am really sorry._. I am feeling very tired and I have been lacking energy as of late. I feel extremely fatigued during the afternoon and I find it impossible to feel asleep at night until the small hours of the morning. =_= Sleep eludes me entirely. Nights with very little sleep or entire days with nothing but. I was hoping that my situation would improve over the summer…so that I would be able to function properly at school…but my condition has only grown worse…Eum I am sorry. ._.

That was not important.

>_>

*Ears redden*

I am struggling with fan fiction writing, I have started several but I find that I am never able to even complete a single chapter…I-I lose confidence and eventually I become preoccupied with minor grammar alterations and other corrections until I reach a point where neglect the story entirely. It upsets me I guess…I-I hate not being able to finish anything…I have had my fanfiction.net account up for months and I have failed to post a single story to date. E-Eum…if it is permitted I would like to ask for assistance in that regard…more specifically I would like to ask whether anyone would be interested in becoming my beta reader. /////// >_> I-I am somewhat embarrassed…I have seldom let others view my writing ._. Furthermore, it is only proper that I warn you of the mediocrity of my work in advance…

Eum…if you are interested…you could indicate that via PM or e-mail (which ever is most convenient) I g-guess. I would appreciate the aid whole-heartedly. ^__^:: I-I am not sure as to why I am feeling so uneasy. I apologize. I feel as though I am trembling *shivers*…I am not cold…snow is not due here for another nine to ten weeks (although I have seen it snow here at almost every month of the year O.o). I have not seen snow since last April =_=…I want to go skiing again ^__^ .

>_> I am of the assumption that bloging will always be strange for me…Everything that I have posted yields little in a way of comments (hence the huge gap in-between the April post and one of the more recent ones) and I have yet to reach the <> required to actually use this as a <>. >_< I understand that sites like this serve as more than one’s diary…b-but I am at a loss at what to do. *Nervous laughter* I c-could post art instead…but the disaster that is my deviantart account leads me to think otherwise…I am sorry…this is…confusing is all…


I apologize, I am writing this post with no structure or theme in mind…that is why it appears to be so disorganized and random…or otherwise chaotic. I am sorry I haven’t any idea what to write…this is wrong of me and I am sorry.

E-Eum


T-this post was stupid…sorry

I-I know that this is boring…eum…I…I am not quite sure as to what I should do with this. Does anyone have any suggestions? ...I should not be asking…I am sorry. Eum if there is anything anyone wishes to see in my next post or to please tell me…(you may address any question)

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A-Ano Ja ne…

-Ritsuka Aoyagi

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