Birthday • 1992-02-24 Location • if you ask ill tell you.. Member Since • 2005-10-31 Occupation • none... Real Name • Dahlia, like the flowerr^^
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Achievements • geez, i was very dpresiv bfore... huh? id like 2 win a drawin´contest^^ Anime Fan Since • i was around 5,i guess Favorite Anime • loveless, ouran host club, scryed,FMA, REC... Goals • winnin´a DRAWIN contest!!! Hobbies • drawing and writing Talents • hey! ull see that by ur selfs!
myOtaku.com: Ritsuka Aoyagi
Welcome to my site archives. 10 posts are listed per page.
praying for god......
right now 18:36pm my mom started to gough up blood and vomiting... my dad just came to the place we are at (my mom´s best friend´s house...) she will be taked to the hospital in 15 minutes more... i-im so useless what s-should i do? i have never sawn her like that... fainting... vomiting... im so sarious with this! ill not go to the hospital because my dad says he´ll go on "emergency" to the hospital...
i cant help her... i can just stare and try to hold my tears...
why? she was feeling okay at the morning... now shes screaming of the pain in her stomach and she cant even stand up or even stay on her feets.. im such an heartless... im not criying... or feeling sad at all... im worried thought... 18:44pm... my dad is trying to get her on shes feets but its useless... i can hear the ambulance comming, its outside the departament...oh dear lord, please help her...
*tears comming out the eyes*
i-i... i want to help but i cant! every second its more harder to take, more harder to write this...
why am i on the computer if my mother needs my help right now!?
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shes telling me not to come near her... why? do i make her feel worst? so im useless after all... my dad just started to yell at me for not calling him when it was just an headache... and now what am i gonna do? my lil sis and her friend wen to the neighbours house (the girl´s friends house )
and ill stay here all alone... 18:51pm... the ambulance cant come up because the elevator is being repaired and we´re on the 9th floor.. the phone is ringing... its the ambulance they say they´ll have to call an other ambulance that have the necesary stuff for this case... w-why is this happening?!
i cant take it anymore..... please y-you dont need to comment this post, im writing this like a um...ahhhh.... i dont know why im doing this! writing it just makes me feel like a useless puppet!i cant help her so i must be here for not disturbing...
"i pray for god to make sure she will be okay...please...."
time is about 18:57, and im still useless....
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time´s 19:42 pm my mom was taked to the hospital 10 minutes ago...
*prays to god*
i feel furious... not sad or worry... my hearts is beating like every normal day... im emotionless... why?
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20:24 pm my mom is okay the hospital called and they sayd she okay.... she will stay the night there... now 20:29 pm they called once again from the hospital... shell be alright... thats good to hear... i feel more calmed somehow....
an other day...
uuugh...
*put´s the hand on the head*
somehow my head is pain... i hate headaches... i feel like a cat being smashed by a car, im so tired that my eyes are getting closed second by second...
well... i guess that the only thing i can do is suffer in pain all alone... im alone in this dark lonely world...
not even sleeping makes me feel happy... i hate smiling too, this could sound very selfish and depresive but... thats just how i am... a human with no hapiness...
jokes make me feel angry and smiling too...
i dont think theres nothing that could make me smile...oh BTH i added a drawing of me... it took me an hour to make it.. it sucks...
ungrateful...
i made like an hour ago a site on MyO to my lil sis...
first she told me the bg was awful so i changed it to an other one (of tennis no ouji-sama)
after that she told me the avatar was awful... and then she came to my site and added some bad comments to my post...
i wont sign her gb unless she begs for it...
anyway ill add something shell really will die for...
hunterxhunter fanfic
day of summer at strawberry valley
-Its a pleasent day of summer,
the sun is softly shining with the breeze that carries a sweet scent of berries.
White and yellow butterflies
are flying over the rainbow colured flowers that are slowly cutted by the smooth hands of a boy...
"there! i think this will do it, im sure Mitou-san will like
this ones!" While the brown eyed boy lied on the grass a strong wind begun to blow so strongly that it carried the white silk along with the breeze.
"*blink* hey, aren´t those--?aaaaah! oh no!the flowers i collected!!" The brown eyed boy ran after the silk coloured flowers but couldn´t reach them.
Softly the breeze stoped to blow and from all those petals and fragances, a boy with silver hair appeared.
*whooooooooooooooosh*
"eh? who is he?" The naïve boy went closer to see who was that mysterious guy. "are these yours?" asked the silver haired boy, while he was holding the white flowers. "oh yes, thanks um... tell me, whats you´re name?" The boy was completly quiet until a voice from far away called the brown eyed boy´s name... "Gon, Goooooon! lunch is ready, come to eat!!" It was Mitou-san. "Im coming, just a minute!!"
When he turned, around the misterious boy was gone. It seemed that the flowers disappeared with the wind just like the quiet boy.
later...
*clack... slam* "oh Gon, what took you so long?" Asked Mitou-san, while she was cleaning the dishes. "i was searching for something, but i couldnt find it so... i´ll go later" The boy´s aunt was very worried for what he was going to do at that rate of the night but, she just begun to warm the for without asking. "okay, but come early to sleep, remember that tomorrow you´re going to help me with the shop" Gon just smiled and stood up from the chair "itadakimasu Mitou-san, ill come the sooners possible! i promise!!" Saying that the brown eyed boy left the plate with the others dirty dishes and went to search for the misterious boy.
*slam*
The time was around 00:37pm and there was no sight of the the boy with silver hair, "aaah... where could that guy be? Mitou-san told me not to come late... im so tired *yaaaaawn* i got... to...zzZZZ"
Without noticing it, the naïve boy fell asleep with the hope of finding thet misterious someone. What a beautiful night, is it? The crickets are singing with the sweet melody played by the wind. While the brown eyed boy was landing on his dreams, someone´s steps were going through the rainbow coloured flowers... It was the boy with silver hair.
*steps... steps... steps*
He looked at gon, who was sleeping amid the fragance of flowers. And gently kissed the tender boy´lips..
*chu*
The next day......
*chirp chirp*
"nnnh... huh? the sun is rising?... w-what?! oh no, i fell asleep! Mitou-san will kill--!!"
*crack*
The boy with brown eyes feeled somethingg under the hand... "eeh? these are.." Yes, the silk coloured flowers he cutted that day. But intead of white, they were brown and dead. There was an other difference too, a white ribbon tied around the flowers with a tiny card on it... "theres something writted here"
... YOU´RE WELCOME,
KILLUA
AT that moment, a sweet scent of violets and carnations begun to blow with the soft breeze of summer. It was really wonderful to see all those butterflies and mumble bees flying over the all coloured flowers but, what made that valley more special than the others was that scent...
that scent of berries dancing
with the musical notes of
windy days on summer.
*ohisashiburi
its been a long time...
well uh.. it seems that a lot of people has vissited- and signed my GB im very gratefull to everyone.. thank you....
so um...i´ve done some changes on my site like the BG and stuff.. i thought that it was to simple.. but... is it now to much? i really dont know what kind of pics to add... only loveless could be a bit boring so.. hmmm.. any suggest?
im out of ideas........
*siiiiights*
oh i changed the avatar too...
hmm... well right now i feel really terrible, i got a headache so...my head is pounding and i feel a bit dizzy.
my mom told me to take some medicine but i didnt do it...
(i hate ´em)i´ve been sleeping the whole day and im still tired, i dont remember when was the last time i had an headache...*ughhh*
i throwed up in the morning and after lunch to...but still, im not going to take any medicine!!i wont!!*ughhh*
this is one of the worst days in my life...
*drinks a bit of water*
about msn and me
well do you have a MSN? if you do feel free to ask me
on a chat...
ritsuka-sama@hotmail.com
im not good with talks
but i can learn to anyway...
hmm...i really cant talk
so well inglish after all its
not my home lenguage,
i speak spanish & finish but non of them
is really my lenguage
(i´ve born on norway)
so... im not full
european either south american...
umm... ive been searching and searching but i havent found any animated avatar of ritsuka...
if anyone knows where to find some avatars please PM me or send me an E-mail...
i sleept just for 2 hours
i couldnt sleep at all...
i went to sleep when clock was around 08:35AM, yaaaawn...
i was triying to
find a animated avatar of ritsuka.. but i
couldnt find anything...
so i started to watch
some AMV of loveless and naruto...they were
pretty good exept
for the song the
2nd AMV that i saw
of loveless, it was
such a boring song i nearly
fell assleep...
what was the song
again? "..sweet
dreams are made of
this..."it was something like that (i like techno music..)
hmmm we could say im
kinda happy though,
i got a lot of GB signings.
i like to add comments to other people´s posts and
GB´s, even if im not so good at writing long things
like poems or fanfics but i do like to read them heh...
i havent sleept at all i swear..
i cant belive it.. im not tired at all so for
killing some time i
memorised the ending
theme of the anime
"sukisyo" named
day dreaming
Daydreamin'
Sukisyo Ending Theme
kioku no kimi ga hohoemi kakeru tabi
shizumeta hazu no kagerou ga yurameku
ASUFARUTO tokasu tsumi
kono mune wo kogashiteku
kuchihateta mirai yori kimi ga hoshii
ai wa Daydreamin' hakanai kage
maboroshi to kieteiku mae ni te wo nobase
hikikae ni nanimo kamo ushinau toshitemo
dakishimetai mou ichido
rasen ga kimeta deai wa itsunomani
kurui hajimeta kurayami ni togireru
sabitsuita yume no naka
kimi dake wo sagashiteru
torawareta omoi dake toki wo koete
ima wa Daydreamin' hashiru kodou
tamashii ni hibiki au kiseki yobisamase
mitsumetara genjitsu ga kowareru toshitemo
tashikametai mou ichido
ai wa Daydreamin' hakanai kage
maboroshi to kieteiku mae ni te wo nobase
hikikae ni nanimo kamo ushinau toshitemo
dakishimetai mou ichido
uh.. changing the post...
well it was halloween so ill write what happened that day...
i could sleep at all for the party that our neighbours had, the whole thing finished at
05:00 AM so i was all the night at the comp´...
beside of that my lil sis earned a lot of candies and destroyed some doors too... anyway ill add so late halloween pics
English Translation
tsuki no KAASU tsumetai yume no naka de..... Moon's curse in this icy dream...
kotoba no nai sekai de bokura wa ai wo kataru itsuka kimi ni todoku made
kizu darake no kainade daki yoseta kuchibiru no
haritsumeta negai tokashitakute
nee aishiatta kako no utsukushisa sutesareba
ashita motto kirei na yaoru e yukeru kara In a world with no words, I profess my love Until it will reach you, someday
The intense wish that fell from those lips That I held close with wounded arms
I wanted to unravel it for you
Because if I throw away the beauty Of our love that existed in the past
I can go towards a more beautiful night tomorrow
tsuki no KAASU
tsumetai yume no naka kara kimi wo tooku tsuresaritakute
dokomade yukeru ai wo shinjite ii basho made Moon's curse
From this icy dream I wanted to take you far away
How far can I go Until I reach a place where I can believe in love
itami wo mada shiranai kodomo dake no yarikata de
kimi wa kimi wo tozashiteru
mimimoto de sasayaita hajimete no ai no kotoba massugu na hitomi madowasetai
nee kimi wo dakishimete atatamerareru naraba
donna batsu mo tsumi mo ima wa kowakunai By ways only a child who knows no pain can do
You close yourself off to the world
Your first words of love that you whispered at my ear eyes that hide nothing I want to deceive them
If I could hold you and know that I can keep you warm
I am not afraid of any punishment or sin
tsuki no KAASU
tsumetai yume kara samete kimi to tadayoi tsunagiatte
dokomade yukou ai no shijima wo te ni suru made Moon's curse
We awake from the icy dream And I float aimlessly, connected to you
How far shall we go Until we gain the silence of love
nee aishiatta kako no utsukushisa sutesareba
ashita motto kirei na yoru e yukeru kara Because If I throw away the beauty of our love that existed in the past
I can go towards a more beautiful night tomorrow
tsuki no KAASU
tsumetai yume no naka kara kimi wo tooku tsuresaritakute
dokomade yukeru ai wo shinjite ii basho made Moon's curse
From this icy dream I wanted to take you far away
How far can we go Until we reach a place where we can believe in love
dokomade yukeru ai wo shinjite ii basho made
yoru no mukou futari dake de How far can we go Until we reach a place where we can believe in love
Beyond the night, just the two of us
