myOtaku.com: Ritsuka Aoyagi

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Vitals

Birthday
• 1992-02-24
Location
• if you ask ill tell you..
Member Since
• 2005-10-31
Occupation
• none...
Real Name
• Dahlia, like the flowerr^^

Personal

Achievements
• geez, i was very dpresiv bfore... huh? id like 2 win a drawin´contest^^
Anime Fan Since
• i was around 5,i guess
Favorite Anime
• loveless, ouran host club, scryed,FMA, REC...
Goals
• winnin´a DRAWIN contest!!!
Hobbies
• drawing and writing
Talents
• hey! ull see that by ur selfs!

myOtaku.com: Ritsuka Aoyagi

Friday, March 3, 2006

i cant go on...
somehow everytime i cut myself i feel like im useless...
how can i hurt my own hand?always when i have a knife on my hand i feel scared... and sometimes i even wish i could stab my heart for erasing myself from this cold world...
the other day i cut my finger on purpouse... yeah it might sound wird but i did... the pain was intense but at the same time it was smooth...
i dont have a real reason for why i did it... no one was at home so i thought:"why am i here?"
then without noticing it my fingers were full of blood, it was a deep wound so i runned upstairs and i tried to heal it... at the evening my mom asked me what happened on my hand(since that the wound was right at the center of my hand )i didnt what to lie but, i had to.
she belived me it was an accident and so she letted it go...
my hand is still in pain but i dont feel guilty about it...
i wont be drawing on a while... because i hurted my right hand...(how dumb of me, why wasnt the left? )oh well, after this post you might think i have a really psycological problem... so do i... just by saying that i feel useless it enough to think that way...

-ritsuka

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