Tuesday, January 17, 2006

   Grrah.

Some kid saw me doodling today in math started saying how much he hated anime. That's fine, every one has their own opinion. I wouldn't have minded if he didn't go on and say that it doesn't take skill to draw anime and that anyone can do it. T_T; That made be feel bad. Yup. u_u I'm not a very confident person as it is, so to hear that isn't good. ::shakes head:: And this kid used to be a pretty cool guy. ::sigh:: I'm not looking for attention or anything. I just though you guys should know... know... i dunno what. XD Just know. ^^; OMG the High School Guidance Consular came in today. ;o; Lots of "If you don't choose your future path now you'll DIE and amount to NOTHING!" I know they're just exaggerating, but it still not fun to sit through. T_T; Lots of stress. x( Lucky for me, my mom is a Guidance consular. ^^x She'll help me out. Yah. But i've been thinking lately... I really want to do something involving art in my future. I can't imagine doing anything different; i'd probably be miserable if i did. ^_^; But still... every time i think of this, i tell my self everything i achieve is not enough to attain that future. So i always compare myself to other people and look for ways to put my own work down... i'm literally my own biggest critic. T_T; ::sigh:: When i get down i eat. I've now eaten enough cookies to feed 10 people. ;o; YARGH. Hey, on another note, i was listenting to the Disturbed song "Deify" (did you know that "deify" means idolize and "defy" means dissobay? I didn't know they were different words. XD I'm soooo observant...) And it totally reminds me of Kratos and Yggdrasill. w00. I'll post the song lyrics since i cant find a video or anything. :) All my devotion's betrayed I am no longer afraid I was too blinded to see How much you've stolen from me You wanna why I feel so horrified I let my innocence die You wanna why I can't be pacified You make me bury something I wont be sleeping tonight I only wanted them blessing me Now I've been labeled a renegade It seems so clear now what I must do You're no immortal, I wont let them Deify you They view you as the new messiah Deify you Renew belief in some dement in me You wanna know why It seems the passion's died We've all been living this lie You wanna know why My will's been fortified You make me hunger again Good luck sleeping tonight I only wanted them blessing me Now I've been labeled a renegade It seems so clear now what I must do You're no immortal, I wont let them Deify you They view you as the new messiah Deify you Renew belief in some dement in me All my devotion's betrayed I am no longer afraid I was too blinded to see How much you've stolen from me Deify you They view you as the new messiah Deify you Renew belief in some dement in me Deify you They view you as the new messiah Deify you Renew belief in some dement in me I now go to drow my bad mood with some DDR. :D ~RK

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