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Thursday, April 7, 2005


A new territory for a tomboy - The land of
Lately I've been feeling a bit-I donno sad maybe? I can't really describe the feeling.... yah but anyway I'm in a cruddy mood....

The reason for this mood is because no one excepts me for who I am at my school. I mean it's not that I mind... I like being away from these chicks who put on 60 gallons of makeup on their face and then go around screaming words that are forbidden to leave my lips... *just think really dirty minded-you'll get what I'm saying* And plus guys really REALLY freak me out....

There was this one time that this guy was stalking me saying things like "Hey Suzanne that's not right!" And I go "What? What'd I do!?! *I got so confused* I didn't evan know the guy!" So then I thought "Whatever..." but then he starts comming closer and close to me!!! I start to slowly walk away at first but he continued to follow me saying things-that didn't make any scence!!! I got so scared... and began frantically running and finally lost him *The kid followed me all during lunch-and I only wanted to get my manga from my locker!* The trail I lead him was up 3 flights of stairs arround the hallways that are all connected in a circle- down 2 flights of stairs, up another, and then finally I lost him when I took a dive into a large crowd of pple. When I was sure the coast was clear I slowly walked to the hall where my locker was and sat down on the teacher's desk where the hall monitor sits... I was all paranoid and my heart was beating a mile a minuet.... That was the scariest day of my life...

But anyway getting off track a little... I've recently been thinking that if I changed my apperance pple would treat me differently....

But the downside to that is one side of me is saying, "What the haties do you need these people for!?! Your 100x Better than them!!!" Yet the other side is saying, "*sob sob* So utterly alone.... I want a friend...."

I never had grandparents and I've never had more than 3 friends at a time and they were never real close to me.... So you can kind of immagine how lonely I get...

Anyway I was talkin' to my mom last nigt and she said that maybe I should try being a bit more "feminin" like wear a little make up *HISSSSSSSSSSSSSSS IT BUUUUUUUUUUUUURNSSSSSSSS -makes a cross with fingers-* And I had told them that I wanted contacts... Now the reason for that is for my cosplay this year... THE GREAT NINJA YUFFIE!!!!! X3 and I already have a few of the major components for her outfit and I want to look as much like her as I can so that's where the contacts fit in... And then mom said that I was going to get my hair styled later this week but I DON'T want to straiten it *Everyone tells me to straiten it* but the problem with my hair is because it's SO curly and SO thick it's hard to keep it in a cirtain style without making it look like a bush on my head -_- Ya.... so I have no clue what I'm gonna do... Givin' the sercumstance.... I will most likely be forced to go "girly" WHY GOD? WHY DO YOU TORTURE ME SO!?!?!?!?!?!?! *hits head on desk-multiple times*

-3 hours later-

Ow.......... Well before i suffer from more memory/blood loss I just want to say that I have once again lost my talent to draw so you won't be seeing more fanart for a...... um................. oh while...! -_@

Ah, Wone last thing before my memory falis me again..... There is a talent show going on at my school and today I auditioned today with ChibiPocky *well acually she came just for support* anyway I have no idea how auditions went but I sung a song I have been learnig in my private voice lessos called "The Water is Wide" It's an old brittish song and it's very beautyful *especially when I sing it* But anyway I sung it and everyone was like "OMG HOW DO YOU HIT THOSE HIGH NOTES!?!?!?!?!" I was like "Oh those? I can go higher..." everyone was like OMG...O_o; lol I sung the ha-le-lu-ya song for x-maz in my choir so now I can handel any high note *I have no clue how to spell the song.... so sue me -_-* Well anyway CP is being forced to audition tomarrow because she has a great voice and evan though she can sing only x-mas songs THAT DOESN'T MATTER!!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!! Well anyway....... Ummmmmmm *memory loss catching up*........................

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