Sunday, February 6, 2005

look at me LOOK AT ME! nowlet me go, i have more stuff to steal
Ooh, not mush to post about right now! soo i must post a long poem!

ENJOY

You Don't Know Me

You may breathe in the same air I do
However, in a sense you don't have a clue.

What do I think when your not around
The only thing you can heard is sound

My mind wonders what life is about.

Like if i were to die tomorrow, would you care?
If my life were to end, would it be fair?

To the people around me, they don't know
Their lives pass them by fairly slow

I'm just a happy teenager no care to you
today this world is black and blue

The world spins 'round another day
you'll be at my casket when you begin to pray

In agony they all will grieve
For this death was not foreseen.

And I will laugh at them for what they did,
In this world full of hurt and hatred

My little girl, My mom will say
and start to remember those lost days

Then think of the day she found me dead
Silently lying in a pool of blood beside my bed

But she does'nt know what happened does she?

She left for a party and i was alone
Nobody else just me at home

I started thinking of all the things wrong in my life
My mind satarted to wander thinking about the knife

The knife that my mom left out... was it for me
the dagger that would make me bleed

a heart full of hatred a mind full of guilt

where am i going? no where?

I lost my mind and couldnt think anymore
I grabbed the knife and ran to my door

Alone in my room I sit on my bed
A sudden rush of self loathing soared through my head

The cut, the wound, one slice plunging into my skin.
At that moment I let the knife win.

The torture, the disgust, as the torture started to set in so the the silent pleasure of pain
I wanted more now, I was hooked with nothing else to gain

I had no fear as my arm started to feel numb
The other arm slashed open, oh what fun
I started coming to my senses thinking what have I done

Sittin there lightheaded I started to cry
Someone please help me or im going to die!

The memories seemed to flash by at full speed
And the I realized life was'nt as bad as it seemed

I picked up the phone and started dialing 911
Now I'm scared to death and this is no pun

My heart is racing as blood drips to the floor
I hear my mother come through the front door.

She Forgot Something and had to turn back
If only she knew that her daughter's heart was turning black

I was trying to tell the lady on the phone that I didnt want to die
but the phone slips out of my hand and so did I

A pool of blood on my bedroom floor
I saw my mom come through my door

Unconsious, dead to the world I lie
My mother screams and starts to cry

A body cold frozen led six feet down
My spirit wonders what do you think of me now

What is this crying? I think, oh now you cry for me
Yet the sadness was so great I didnt want to see.

I've never seen my father cry, but there he was, my best friends too
Oh my god, what did I do?

I left this world thinking its alright everyone dies sometime
But I should of left what it was my time

Now the people will talk; you know how they are
The rumors they spread like wildfire
Oh she hated her life, and no one liked her anyways
I thought of these things till my dying days

Now do you see why I left
This cruelty still follows me even after death

Well listen up this is my life, and your going to hear it my way
And with my last words this is what i'd like to say

Life may suck sometimes,
Infact life's a bitch

But when you take your life and throw it down the drain
First think of everyone else and theire pain

Please lets not cause anymore strife
Cause six feet under is more boing than your life



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