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Thursday, September 1, 2005

Can we pretend to leave and then we'll met again when both our cars collide
God.... i hate this.... i feel soo frikken alone... yes sadly i wish i was in highschool.... my only friend i ever hung out with has moved away.... and now i sort of realize how things are.... i have friends.... but im never going to see them..... i hate this feeling... like my world is falling apart... i want to cry.... but i blink the tears away.... i'll save them for when their needed......

So yes crystal moved away... i never talk to heather... nor any of my other friends for that matter... my social life is non existant.... infact i find my self talking to my 3 cats and random people from the net more that i talk to anyone else.... sad.....

i hope i will get my liscense soon.... i hate feeling like this.... i just want to be able to get away and actually hang out with someone ....

grr.... my stomach hurts.... is this the feeling of loneliness? am i finally fessing up the these hurtful feeling inside of me? i cant keep them bottled up forever.. fuck...

so i guess i can change the subject ... i started college..... i really did not want to go... but atleast it gives me a chance to make some new friends.... althought i feel like i dont fit in... i put my best efffort into it.... sitting next to people... intstead of like in the back by myself... ... yah.... tomorrow will be the last day of my first whole week.... then the real work will come.... my mom.... ok.. everyone asks me how its going and how i *feel* about it.... really... i feel alone....im sick of putting on the happy face.... like yeah its grea... (((blah i dont want to go)))) its real hard being stuck to one person and saying ok your my friend.... and then not having that person around when your lost or dont know where to go.... i wish i had some cigarettes... atleast i could strike up a conversation while pissing off the non-smokers

well im going .... maybe someone i know will be able to find my xanga and tell me to cheer up or something... not likely....

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