Sunday, December 16, 2007

A picture crampled

Many months have passed since I made my last post here. So, what's new to me. Many things happened in the choir for the passed years. I knew that someone special to me has his girlfriend. I suffered and cried alot of times and I came to a decision to be not active in the choir. But all turned out well. I have a tight bond to my family and a good relationship with my friends. ^-^ The finals of the 2nd trimester was finally come. Wish me luck guys.

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Monday, April 2, 2007

A prophecy

Yesterday, at the church, I though they will not come. waaah! I thought that I was late but when I arrived there, I've seen nothing. They arrived there exactly 5 pm.(whew!) Then we went at the house of kuya Chuck. Atlas! I've done a good thing- help ate Melai cook the food. ^-^ Then after we ate, kuya Chuck said something. Some kind of prophecy about the coming of the three anti-christ(whom will be the next popes). The time that they'll become popes, because of the some kind of chaos here, we will want to die. But he said also 1 thing, that we must forget who we are. Meaning, forget the things that only satisfies ourselves & share the God's words. "I think I can't do that right now coz I myself don't posess that strong faith that may able to encourage the other people to believe God." I said. "That's why I said awhile ago that the blind can't able to teach the other blinds like him." he replied. After couple of minutes, "You know what guys, honestly, I was so thankful that tholitz(Inu) joined me here coz before, I really didn't attend a mass. Even my parents didn't attend mass." Then they stories went on & on. I'm really thankful that I've met them. really I am. =) Then we went home. hehehe... I was happy that time because i was able to coverse with Inu. hehehe... Wla lang... ^-^ Sorry guys if ever I don't give any comment coz I don't ecounter any textboxt on the screen if ever i viewed the comments on your post. I'm really sorry. =(

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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

A smile & the date February 13

Yesterday afternoon, I visited my yahoo messegeger. Luckily I saw my brother online that time(he's in Bohol right now). I saidto him my plan to stop my studies. I was glad that eventhough I'm that I've done many mistakes, he still understands me. In fact he gave me an strategy how to approach my parents about saying that thing. =') I saw also my classmate (when I was highschool) online. He said that he saw our conversation(still on YM last year February 13)posted on myotaku blog. Waaah! I blushed that time. I was shy. Then I made an alibi. "I don't have any post there so I posted our conversation. ^-^" I said. "adik(addict)." he said. hehehe... Ooopz! I hope he will not read this post. *sigh* He also has his myotaku account. His username is "verb". hehehe... Visit it sometimes if you have time. =)

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Saturday, March 24, 2007

A great song

Waaah!!! Utada Hikaru's song entitled "First love" is awesome! I really love the song & its meaning. I will post the video together with the lyrics (Japanese & English version). First Love Japanese Version Saigo no kisu wa Tabako no flavor ga shita Nigakute setsunai kaori Ashita no imagoro ni wa Anata wa doko ni iru n' darou Dare wo omotte 'ru n' darou You are always gonna be my love Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo I'll remember to love You taught me how You are always gonna be the one Ima wa mada kanashii love song Atarashii uta utaeru made Tachidomaru jikan ga Ugoki-dasou to shite 'ru Wasuretaku nai koto bakari Ashita no imagoro ni wa Watashi wa kitto naite 'ru Anata wo omotte 'ru n' darou You will always be inside my heart Itsu mo anata dake no basho ga aru kara I hope that I have a place in your heart too Now and forever you are still the one Ima wa mada kanashii love song Atarashii uta utaeru made You are always gonna be my love Itsu ka dare ka to mata koi ni ochite mo I'll remember to love You taught me how You are always gonna be the one Ima wa mada kanashii love song Atarashii uta utaeru made First Love English Version Once in a while You are in my mind I think about the days that we had And i dream that these would all come back to me If only you knew every moment in time Nothing goes on in my heart Just like your memories How i want here to be with you Once more You will always gonna be the one And you should know How i wish i could have never let you go Come into my life again Oh, don't say no You will always gonna be the one in my life So true, i believe i can never find Somebody like you My first love Once in a while Your are in my dreams I can feel the warmth of your embrace And i pray that it will all come back to me If only you knew every moment in time Nothing goes on in my heart Just like your memories And how i want here to be with you Once more Yah yah yah You will always be inside my heart And you should know How i wish i could have never let you go Come into my life again Please don't say no Now and forever you are still the one In my heart So true, i believe i could never find Somebody like you My first love Oh oh You will always gonna be the one And you should know How i wish i could have never let you go Come into my life again Oh, don't say no You will always gonna be the one So true, i believe i could never find Now and forever

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A promise

Yesterday was fun because after many months, I finally met the other members of my clan- Sun cellular chapter(I really have a clan entitled as "death sycthe untitled") In that clan, Aza & me are the founders. We went at SM Manila & decided to go at the house of debonaire, one of the members & pioneers in DSU. hehehe... Aza said to me that Debonaire doesn't want to treat his guess whenever he have. In filipino term he is called as "kuripot". hehehe... But a miracle suddenly happened that time. He let us choose foods that we want to eat not once but twice. Waaaaaah!!! (In my mind: Waaaah! I thought he's kuripot like Aza mentioned earlier. Waaaah!) Then Blackship came & buy softdrinks for four of us. Then after half an hour, Coitus came & asked for food ( I texted him to join us because Debonaire buy some foods. But unfortunately, we ate those.) Hehehe... Alot of laughs were going on as they tell some stories about the clan. I was silent that time because I can't related Because I was gone for how many months. Then we bid goodbye. Debonaire texted me that he fullfilled his promise- a promise to treat me once we met. Waaah!!! I already forgot that. Hehehe... I said thank you afterwards. *smile*

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Thursday, March 22, 2007

Searching for my future

*sigh* This past few days, I'm thinking if I will stop studying this year. Only for this year coz I want to find myself. Ammm... What I'm trying to say is that. I want to return that urge to study again. Honestly, my path through my dreams became blur because of the people around me & my course as well. I can't write anymore because of my busy schedules in the school. Plus the fact that I can't have ideas because of too much thinking & stress in the school. My classmates don't appreciate my works coz they think that my story is long. (one of those was only one piece of bond paper. waaah!!!) I miss how my highschool classmates liked & critized my works. Even my classmates who were great in speaking English saw my works as great one. One of them rated my work(which I posted in www.stories.com) 4.5 out of 5. I remember one of my classmates wrote me a letter. It says there that she admires me as a writer. *sigh* But when I started studying in college, no one ever does. *sigh* I really don't want to be a physical therapist. I want to be a writer someday. But because of the behavior they manifested, I want to give up that dream. My second reason is I don't want to waste the money earned by my parents. I realized this semester that I've done too many bad things instead of studying. I'm really irresponsible person & that's what I want to change as I stop studying. I want to realized that I'm not a child anymore & I need to focus myself on studying. I want to realized how important education is. *sigh* I hope if I do, I will find my dreams again. Maybe if I find it again, that's the time that my eagerness to study will come back. & as that moment comes, I look forward for a "more responsible" Cea this time.

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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Little ajustments

hehehe... I've done some changes in styles of my post here. I hope you will love it as much as I do. hehehe... I've got alot of cute anime pics on yahoo last week & it took me half an hour to edit the table, div. hehehe... An amateur one right? hehehe... But still hope you like it. `~ r o w a n n e ~`

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Monday, March 19, 2007

Is it a product of my imagination or what?

"> hehehe... My decision to attend the service was right. I was surprised to see kuya Chuck at the church. *smile* together with Fritz. hehehe... I thought that day was worst one but not. I'm glad to see that Kuya Chuck already adjusted in the situation. hehehe... But he had another problem after that. His brother Cyrus kidnapped. His salary for that month got by the kidnappers. *seesh* & his problem was where will he borrow a money for his brother. *sigh* On the other hand, Fritz graduated last saturday. I was too happy for him. The only problem left was his board exam (in able to have a licensure of being a nurse). but I know he could do it. I got irritated when I see him & Mara had a great time talking with each other *jelouse* *sigh* =/ & saw him texting someone. *sigh* Why did I felt that kind of feeling? I must not coz he is only my friend & he is now taken. Ouch! It hurts! =( But I thought that he bid me goodbye twice. I heard "goodbye Cea" twice. Or maybe it was only a product of my imagination coz I was focussing myself that time in texting. Maybe he said "goodbye Mara! Goodbye Cea!" Waaah!!! I really don't know. *headache*

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Saturday, March 17, 2007

Daydreaming

hmmm... I'm noticing these past few days that my posts were too sad. For this time, I will make a romantic one.

My friend Lhen also known as "mojacko" got married. Waaah!!! We(me, cat & xy) were so glad that our sister have a great love story. Hmmm... How about cat & xy??? sis Cat has her boyfriend in Las Pinas. I'm doubting if the love of the guy is genuine coz cat & him only knew each other at text. Plus the fact that they have longdistance relationship & still not met each other until now. but I'm glad that she's now happy with her life. As of my best sis xyrish, she doesn't text me at all. maybe too busy in her studies. But as I look at her profile at friendster, her status there is "it's complicated". Meaning she's liking someone right now.

Hmmm... How about my own personal love life??? hmmm... Honestly speaking, it isn't good coz i haven't found the right one. hehehe... I'm not too aggressive this time to have one. I'm willing to wait until the time that he will come into my life. Maybe God has a reason why He doesn't let me know that guy right yet. Maybe, in my own understanding, I'm still irresponssible enough to handle that kind of relationship. Maybe it's the reason or maybe i already met him but I'm too blind to see that. hahaha... Is that it??? Maybe!!! Who knows. No one knows. hehehe...

Quite long huh??? Isn't it? *sigh* The bottomline is that I'm willing to wait for him no matter how long is it. I'm a human. What's wrong with dreaming??? hehehe...
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Thursday, March 15, 2007

Thinking & reminiscing =(

hehe... wah!!! I can't use my cellphone coz I can't charge it. & because of that. I had alot of reminisce & ideas yesterday night.

Yesterday, I remembered about the happy moments in the choir. The time when we were still complete, happy & had our dreams. *sigh* the time when kuya Chuck & kuya Paul sang together the song "fruitcake" by eraserheads, the time that kuya Paul said to ate Karen that he will not allow ate to drink hard drinks next time, the time when we sing together in every house, the time when we had our christmas party(although its not that enjoy like previous years-they said). *sigh* Who have thought that the group will have trials like we are experiencing right now? Kuya Paul & Ate Karen seperated, kuya Chuck & ate Myla broke up, Ate Karen & kuya Chuck leaved the choir.

Haaay... I am thinking if I will attend the service this coming Sunday. I feel that I don't want at this time coz until now, there's a little hatred in my heart which isn't right. I don't want to have this feeling. I want it to be clear out. *sigh* but that's not easy.

Then I was thinking yesterday why are the people today are too lazy of reading books. This is not right coz the knowledge & ideas that you can't get on the people around you can get in those things. *sigh* how will be a writer like me enjoys his or her work if the people around her don't want to read his or her work because of their damn laziness.*sigh* =(
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