Tuesday, March 13, 2007

An internet friend =)

hehehe... I'm in the front of the computer (obviously!!!)

hahahaha... i can't believe that I can meet a friend in this blog. She's from Philippines like me. hehehe... She's lee radcliffe.

It began with a simple comment from her. I cannot believe that there is someone who wants to read my post. hehehe... Thanks for visiting here lee. ^-^
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Sunday, March 11, 2007

A secret revealed

hmmm... Yesterday night was too emotional moment for kuya Chuck. He brought out his sentiments- That his heart aches because of two very important person in his life(kuya Paul & Ate Myla).

Kuya Paul is his close friend & ate Myla is the one he loves. But kuya Paul & ate Myla have a relationship which is forbidden coz kuya Paul is already married & still not anulled.

Waaah!!! I couldn't believe that they can continue their relationship despite of those things. It really hurts. I couldn't believe that they don't care about the feelings of others. They only think of their happiness.

haaay... =(

Then after that kuya Chuck & kuya Alvin asked something- who is my crush? waaah!!! It took alot of time before they have the thing that they want. Of course, Fritz is still belongs to the choir. I'm afraid that he will know that thing & the closeness will break. I don't want that thing to happen. Kuya Alvin said that I'm not ready for a relationship coz I don't want to give my trust that easilly. hmmm... For me, the thing that he said that I'm not ready for a relationship is true but that's not the reason. I'm still irresponsible. I'm sure that I can't handle the relationship at this time. I want to put my focus to myself & only to myself. I want to fix everything about myself before going to a relationship. hehehe... Isn't it great?


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Friday, March 9, 2007

A normal problem of a lazy person like me... =(

Aheeem... waaaah!!!! This day should be great coz I will spend my time at the house but it wasn't coz my professor texted me awhile ago. she said that I must be at PGT108. waaaah!!! What a terrible shit!!! I texted her alot of times if she is in her faculty but she didn't reply anything. Then now she want to have my time for the completion of my inc. hahaha... oh well!!! The only problem left is Sir Paguirigan. I hope I will see him & I will have his time to sign my completion form. hehehe...


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Tuesday, March 6, 2007

Certificate of Marriage

This is to certify that
Kaoru Koganei
and
rowanne
were married on
March 06, 2007

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It hurts!!! =(

waaaah!!! we're finally dimissed & im in the com shop "again" to have a non-sense story to tell.

Last Sunday, I was surprise coz Fritz is there joining us to sing. Wooow!!! That day I was nervous coz I'm the only woman left to sing. huhuhu... I was nervous that my hand was on the shoulder of my other choir member.

Then kuya Chuck asked something.

"Do you want to know how to pray?" then I replied a smile.

"I'll teach you."

Then my mood suddenly changed. I want to cry that time but I can't. I couldn't coz I don't want others to see me like that.

The Inu told eveybody that he saw Fritz with 2 gurls beside him. The other gurl was holding his hand. I kept on pretending that I'm not affected. haaay... But I'm really hurt...

After that, we went home. I missed those times. Together with Fritz- telling alot of stories about habits & plans this summer vacation.

Then we bid goodbye.

"Ingat!" he said.

I didn't replied anything. Dont know why. Inu's words was still on my mind. huhuhu... It hurts!!! =(
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Unexpected phone call

Waaah!!! Monday was my best day ever. Want to know why? Coz the person I thought will never contact me until he return to the choir called me up. Waaaah!!! I couldn't believe that Fritz called me up. He asked me how's the choir doin' without him. it's really a great conversation that my dad couldn't stop me talking. harhar...

Not only that, he also sent me an email. He said that sorry for the responsibility he left with me. Haaaaay... March is fast approaching. he said that h's graduation will be on March 17, 2007. Meaning, that he will return this March in the choir. I really can't wait to see him again. I really miss him so much.



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Sunday, February 25, 2007

I really miss him alot =(

hmmm... monday again... I need to fix my INCs. I planned to fix 2 right now(nstp & english).

Anyways, last Sunday I was surprise coz Inu returned atlas. Hmmmm... He asked me "kaumsta ka na? (How's your life?)" & he still possess that concern- "perhaps". hehehe... He noticed my posture & say something about that.

"Wag kang uupo ng ganyan. Magkakaback pain ka."

Washuuu!!! Ayos un ha!!! & I notice that he looking at me. Hmmm... Why?

Then the mass was over. I heard my choirmates talking about Fritz.

"I think I saw Fritz." Alvin said.

"He always attend the mass during 4pm." someone said.

"then why don't he sing with us?" alvin asked.

(I'm silent that time. I don't know what to say. All I thought is he don't want to sing yet coz "maybe" his attention will be diverted to it which is not right for now coz he have to focus to his studies.)

Then when I arrived home, jeen called me up. I tell her what happen & I also tell her that I really miss fritz. in fact I dedicate the song Standing at the edge of the Earth to him.

Haaay.... Here's the lyrics of the song together with the video. I hope you like it.

Standing at the edge of the Earth

I knew that this moment would come in time
That I'd have to let go and watch you fly
I know you're coming back so why am I dying inside
Are you searching for words that you can't find
Trying to hide your emotions but eyes don't lie
Guess there's no easy way to say goodbye
So I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that someday you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping for someday
Don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say
I don't want to let you leave this way
I want you to know that I stand right by your side
And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
Waiting for someday Believing in someday
Praying for someday, I'll be....
Longing for someday Clinging to someday
Cherishing someday, I'll be....
Thinking of someday Dreaming of someday
Wishing for someday, I'll be....
Living for someday Counting on someday
Knowing that one day....
I will see you






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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

EMO gurl met a naughty guy... =)

It's nice to know that despite of the loneliness because of someone, my valentines is not that bad.

I've met someone on my clan. He's very naughty & jolly like me. His codename is "mr.lion26". We are the same because I have number on my codename also- arheah28. He is 26 years old, working as a call center agent & from quezon city (they also have house in novaliches). At first I was shock when I talked with him at the phone because his voice is like a girl(is my grammar correct?) I was really shocked coz I knew that he is a guy( maybe a lesbian. I don't know).

Haaay... It's nice to know that there's a person who could ride on with me. What if he & i collide? Maybe it would be the end of the world. Hahaha... Once again, nakakita na naman ako ng katapat ko. ^-^
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Sunday, February 4, 2007

I love you goodbye... =(

Yesterday was my worst day of this month. Bakit ngayon pa!!! haaay!!! kavalentines valetines!!! talo aq!!! amf!!!

Now I realize why did he sang my name the whole time loudly. I kept on ignoring him. My co-choir members put their eyes on me. I was shy that time but deep inside, I smiled. He repeatedly asked how's my day. haaay...

"Napabilis yung finals namin." Fritz said.

(silence... I know that there's a thing behind that. Telling me that this is the time to say goodbye.)

I sat beside him in the church. Never beeen thought that it might be the last time to be beside him.

"Pero pagnakaluwag-luwag ako babalik ako. Kailangan lang talagang magkapera. Magsisimba pa rin ako. Basta magsisimba pa rin ako." Fritz said.

(I smiled... I understand that he needs to do this for him to be excuse for a while on the responsibilities he needs to do whenever he is in the choir. I understand that he really need to put more priority on his studies this time.)


I kept on pretending that I'm insensitive on what's happening but the truth is the loneliness gently covers my mind. I can't cry but deep inside I felt my heart was bleeding.


I want to say I love him but I cannot do that anymore. Kahit siguro bumalik siya, hindi ko pa rin mgagawa. Sana nga lang tuparin niya ang mga binitiwan niyang salita sapagkat ako'y maghihintay para sa kanyang pagbabalik. =(
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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Pretending to be alright but I'm not

Hehehe.. still I’m not contented with the article I recently posted. Haaay…

Last Saturday was my worst day coz all the miserable things were happen that day… I thought all of those would disappear once I attended the practice of the choir but not. my misery became more worst than I thought when Fritz attended the practice and said to me something that was made me shock.

“Sa totoo lang Cea, balak ko na sana munang magpaalam s YMC.” Fritz said.

“Hah!!!” I was shock.

“kailangan kong ifocus sarili ko sa studies.” Fritz said.

(silence)

“Pero wag na lang muna. Siguro pag kailangan na kailangan ko na talagang magseryoso.” He thought of what happen when ate Melai cried.

“Pero malapit-lapit na din yun.” I said.

“Oo nga… Haaay… Gragraduate na naman ako. Pangalawa na ito.” Fritz said.

(I kept silent for a moment and pretending I’m not sad.)

“Yan na yung jeep! Bye bye…” I said.

“Bye bye… ingat!!!” He said while I was on the jeep.


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