Wednesday, April 5, 2006

if this is what you want then fire at will....MCR

hiya ppl sry for not posting again kinda be busy and couldnt post yesterday ^_^ but oh well i am today well how are yall i'm bored and hungry right now so ^_^ food here i come lol well anyway thats about it todays poem is something i wrote the other day its not a poem so just deal with it ^_^ well thats it ttyl Poem of the day I’m not human anymore, sure I look human but it’s just an empty shell. I’m a replica of my former self. This pain I’ve caused, this love I gave, this hate I’ve sown, and this peace I’ve sought. All of it has and will vanish in a blink of an eye. I struggle to with stand becoming what I fear. I’m slipping from reality; my humanity is stripped down to one tiny shred. You may think its god but you’re wrong, sure God is embedded in me but my last grip on reality and life is her! She stays the same. She throws love into me not stress, not hate, not pain!!! I’m glad for it. I love Brittany so much. Yet ever ounce of me has become hollow. My eyes stare coolly in front of me undoubtly showing nothing. This cannot be helped this struggle inside me this striping of everything dear to me. This live is dammed!!! There is no option left, nothing to turn to. I’m sorry to say but I’ve given up everything. I live for one thing and care for one thing. I strife for one thing, and fail at everything. I make no sense anymore but perhaps I never made any sense. If nothing changes after this then I’ve failed again. I’m shooting for the highest goal, but I fall miserable at the simplest thing. I reach for heaven and instead get pricked by thorns. I try to carry my pains and burdens while trying to carry the worlds. The pressure has its point but I must press on if not for me or God then for her. I must no I will carry on for the sake of her. No matter how hollow I become I will live until God tells me to die. I will not die by the hands that write this. I will live on for my love…. For Brittany. Qoute of the day "my god They have gone Plaid."....Barf "Space Balls". lol ^_^ i love that movie ttyl

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Monday, April 3, 2006

the weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of.....Panic! At the disco

OMG i hate them ahhh *points to title* oh well ^_^ how are you ppl today i got a headache today but besides that a good day hope everone has been having a good day sry if i dont get to ppls sites that much i'm kinda busy lately i will try to get to ppls sites more often but its just getting hard to right now so sry Poem of the day none song of the day RELIENT K LYRICS "Apathetic Way To Be" Yeah, I'm not angry And no, I'm not upset It's taken me awhile But this is what I've learned Emotional attachment is really not a threat When I'm simply not concerned The things that I take on I soon shrug off 'cause I know no one Will ever be content With the way things are Or with what they've got So I've given up and now I'm just indifferent You will laugh at me Like I'm not happy With anything, any time, anywhere And the half of me's all about apathy And the other half just doesn't care I must admit; All the words you spoke, I hated Cause I don't see just how I can be motivated Enough to break a sweat over a dying race It seems our fate is something we've already embraced Yeah, I'm not angry, And no, I'm not upset It's taken me awhile But this is what I've learned Emotional attachment is really not a threat When I'm simply not concerned You will laugh at me Like I'm not happy With anything, any time, anywhere And the half of me's all about apathy And the other half just doesn't care Yeah, bein' apathetic's a pathetic way to be (I don't care) What matters to you does not matter to me ('cause I don't care) So take a wild guess It's like I just couldn't care less If all the things you find impressive Just blew up and made those messes That you'll frantically repair Like it's a life or death affair And all the while you're unaware For this, you really shouldn't care But it's so hard to see the reality That the end will be the end of things And our hearts are all we get to bring So let's go ahead and make them worth something You will laugh at me Like I'm not happy With anything, any time, anywhere And the half of me's all about apathy And the other half just doesn't care You will laugh at me Like I'm not happy With anything, any time, anywhere And the half of me's all about apathy And the other half just doesn't care I'm well aware that everything Is a far cry from all right I'm well aware that all of us Can at times, be too uptight And possibly, the remedy Is a dose of apathy You point your finger at you I'll point mine right back at me Qoute of the day "all right i got the high score...HIGH SCORE HIGH SCORE.".....when you get a high score at something ^_^ lol

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Sunday, April 2, 2006

   freedom can be just another perspective away...Kutless

hiya ppl sry for not posting yesterday didnt get home till late and i couldnt get on long enough to post ^_^ oh well yesterday could have been alot better but it wasnt oh well today has been better ^_^ just waiting for meh gf to get on so ttyl poem of the day none song of the day Papa Roach Lyrics Take Me Lyrics Take me and let me in Don't break me and shut me out [Chorus:] So take me and let me in Don't break me and shut me out I lit my pain on fire And I watched it all burn down Now I'm dancing in the ashes And theres no one else around Cause I wanna be apart of something This is just a story of a broken soul [Hook:] As days go by, my heart grows cold I can't seem let this all pass me by [Chorus x2] I'm burning in the heavens And I'm drowning in the hell My souls in a coma And none of my friends can tell I'm reaching out of getting something This is just a story of a broken soul [Hook] [Chorus x2] Don't shut me out Does anyone around me feel the same Just put your fist up and vent your pain Does anyone around me feel the same Put your fist up and vent your pain Does anyone around me feel the same Put your fist up and vent your pain Does anyone around me feel the same Put your fist up and vent your pain [Hook] [Chorus x2] [Hook] Take Me Don't Break Me Qoute of the day "I think it might just be alright to leave what matters out of sight."....Relient K

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Friday, March 31, 2006

its like a bad movie shes looking through me.....Bowling For Soup

hiya ppl what up sry for not posting yesterday meh family wouldnt give me time on the comp but except for like 5 mins which isnt enough for me yeah it was fun at this japanese gardens we went to ^_^ the place was pretty but i just couldnt help but do something stupid while i was there like they had the see no evil monkeys and i sat beside them and did a think no evil gesture ^_^ then i was acting like i was in a old chinese acton movie wooooooo ^_^ so much fun yeah but that was it so ttyl Poem of the day none song of the day BOWLING FOR SOUP LYRICS "Girl All The Bad Guys Want" 8 o'clock, Monday night and I'm waitin' To finally talk to a girl a little cooler than me. Her name is Nona, she's a rocker with a nose ring, She wears a two way, but I'm not quite sure what that means. And when she walks, All the wind blows and the angels sing. She doesn't notice me! Cause she is watchin' wrestling Creamin' over tough guys Listenin' to rap metal Turntables in her eyes It's like a bad movie She is lookin' through me If you were me, then you'd be Screamin' "Someone shoot me!" As I fail miserably, Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want. She's the girl all the bad guys want! She likes the Godsmack and I like Agent Orange Her cd changer's full of singers that are mad at their dad She says she'd like to score some reefer and a forty She'll never know that I'm the best that she'll never have And when she walks, All the wind blows and the angels sing. She'll never notice me! Cause she is watchin' wrestling Creamin' over tough guys Listenin' to rap metal Turntables in her eyes She likes 'em with a mustache Racetrack season pass Drivin' in a Trans-Am Does a mullet make a man? It's like a bad movie She is lookin' through me If you were me, then you'd be Screamin' "Someone shoot me!" As I fail miserably, Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want. She's the girl all the bad guys want! She's the girl all the bad guys want! She's the girl all the bad guys want! There she goes again With fishnets on, and dreadlocks in her hair She broke my heart, I wanna be sedated All I wanted was to see her naked! Now I am watchin' wrestling Tryin' to be a tough guy Listenin' to rap metal Turntables in my eyes I can't grow a mustache And I ain't got no season pass All I got's a moped...moped....moped..... It's like a bad movie She is lookin' through me If you were me, then you'd be Screamin' "Someone shoot me!" As I fail miserably, Tryin' to get the girl all the bad guys want. She's the girl all the bad guys want! She's the girl all the bad guys want! She's the girl all the bad guys want! She's the girl all the bad guys want! (There she goes again) She's the girl all the bad guys want! She's the girl all the bad guys want! (There she goes again) She's the girl all the bad guys want! She's the girl all the bad guys want! Qoute of the day "Kill the reds Kill the reds KILL THE REDS!!!."....RVB

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

   my sin yelled curcifie louder than tha mob that day....The O.C Supertones

hiya ppl just to clear up any confusing from yesterdays title no i didnt almost get drunk and no i didnt almost make out with the homecoming queen that is a song by Bowling For Soup called Almost ^_^ now meh day was ok i laughed the most i have laughed ever at lunch today ^_^ not saying why lol woooooooo ^_^ well hope everones day was good ttyl Poem of the day none to lazy sry Song of the day Almost Bowling For Soup *a band from Texas woooooo* I almost got drunk at school at 14 Where I almost made out with the homecoming queen Who almost went on to be Mrs. Texas But lost to a slut with much bigger breastes I almost dropped out to move to L.A. Where I was almost famous for almost a day And I almost had you But I guess that doesn't cut it Almost loved you I almost wished you woulda loved me too I almost held up a grocery store Where I almost did 5 years and then 7 more Cuz I almost got popped for a fight with a thug Cuz he almost made off with a buncha the drugs That I almost got hooked on cuz you ran away And I wished I woulda had the nerve to ask you to stay And I almost had you But I guess that doesn't cut it Almost loved you And I didn't even know it You kept me guessin' And now I'm destined To spend my time missin' you I almost wished you woulda loved me too Here I go thinkin' about all the things I could have done I'm gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton I know we've had our problems. I can't remember one. I almost forgot to say something else And if I can't fit it in I'll keep it all to myself I almost wrote a song about you today But I tore it all up and then I threw it away And I almost had you But I guess that doesn't cut it Almost loved you And I didn't even know it You kept me guessin' And now I'm destined To spend my time missin' you I almost wished you woulda loved me too(4x) I almost wished you woulda loved me too Qoute of the day "I just wish you would get the fuck out of our hometown."...Bowling For Soup lol i love that song its so true i hate meh hometown lol ttyl

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Tuesday, March 28, 2006

   i almost got drunk at school ar 14 where i almost made out with the homecoming Queen...Bowling for soup

lol i love that song woooooooo ^_^ and thoughs guys are from Texas also so wooooooooo lol well anyway meh day was ok meh oil painting is comeing along well i dont think i've screwed it up that bad yet ^_^ wooooooooo yeah how is everones day today ^_^ i hope it was good well ttyl Poem of the day Thoughts of life, Filling our minds, Everthing for pain to strife, Makeing us blind, We Cover our eyes with a haze, of lies and false hopes, We need to get out of this daze, Just so we can cope, Live isnt fun, Its made this way, there is no reason for your gun, Throw it and your pride away. Song of the day RELIENT K LYRICS "My Girlfriend" Walk through the streets of PA and you may see her. Go up to her and say you're a believer. Disgusting trash on MTV it makes her smile. That guy from Satan's embassy put him on trial. Because... Marilyn Manson ate my girlfriend. Satan consumed her mind, and he may do it again. Marylin Manson ate my girlfriend. She once believed in the truth, now she belives in sin. She denies God when she has the chance to live for him. The thought of it makes me cringe. Her future looks dim. She'd rather gaze in Satan's eyes than on a steeple. I'm really starting to despise beautiful people. Qoute of the day "Yeah being apethetic is pathetic but i dont care."..or...me: whats your opinion on ignorance and apthety..meh dad: idk and i dont care...lol ^_^the first on was Relient K well ttyl

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Monday, March 27, 2006

   Shes been on my mind she's workin over time.....Hawk Nelson

Hiya ppl how are yall today i could be better got a headache that could kill i took advil so hopefully it should go away ^_^ yay for drugs that are helpfull woooooooooooo lol yeah bored school suxed i was bored and my headache didnt help at all -_- i was out of it in almost ever class after lunch so yeah ^_^ woooooooooooooo bored well anyway i'll try to get to ppls sites today but idk if i can well ttyl Poem of the day Sensation of the mind, Lingering inside of me, A feeling of a different kind, why wont it just let me be, I need to let it out, Its tearing me apart, But i must be stout, I must lock it away in the deepest part of my heart, Even if it kills me, I'll carry this sin, I'll carry on till i can see, until my time is at an end. Song of the day Relient K - Overthinking Lyrics i was thinking, overthinking cause theres just too many scenerios to analyze, look in my eyes cause you're my dream please come true. i was thinking, overthinking about exactly how i'm not exactly him i'll break my heart in two more times than you could ever do cause you're my dream please come true. cause i think way too much on a one track mind and you're so out of touch cause i'm so far behind i can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before and if theres one in this world, you let me know you're not that girl. i was sinking, lower sinking cause i lost the things i held on to they let me think a thought a thought a thought that i would know was not of seeing my dreams come true i was thinking, overthinking about how far i had let this go one more guy/girl cliche i know now you're just in the way of me and my dream come true. cause i think way too much on a one track mind and you're so out of touch cause i'm so far behind i'm trying to make sense out of all of this while you're fading scent just slips through my grip i can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before and if theres one in this world, you'll let me know you're not that girl. don't touch the positive with the negative end don't touch the positive with the negative end cause after all the sparks you're left alone in the dark cause after all the sparks you're left alone in the dark and while i'm able, i think i'll label experience with you as a mistake and while i'm at it, i'll say i've had it experience with you is a mistake cause i think way too much on a one track mind and you're so out of touch cause i'm so far behind i'm trying to make sense out of all of this while you're fading scent just slips through my grip i was thinking, over thinking cause theres just too many scenerios to think about to figure out if you're my dream please come true Qoute of the day "if joy really comes in the morning time i'll sit back and wait till the next sun rise."...P.O.D well ttyl

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Sunday, March 26, 2006

if our god is for us how can we fail....The OC Supertones

hiya ppl i went bowling with some youth from meh church it was fun ^_^ lol but yeah that is all i've done today and yesterday i didnt get to talk to meh gf except for like 5 mins adding all up it suxed so i feel bad not talking to her *sigh* oh well ^_^ i'm not getting off till she gets on T_T and no one can make me get of lol ^_^ yeah bored ttyl Poem of the day none idk why just dont feel like putting one right now Song of the day My Will DC Talk I’m setting the stage for the things I love And I’m now the man I once couldn’t be Nothing on earth could now ever move me I now have the will and the strength a man needs (chorus) It’s my will, and I’m not moving Cause if it’s your will, then nothing can shake me It’s my will, to bow and praise you I now have the will to praise my god Complexity haunts me for I am two men Entrenched in a battle that I’ll never win My discipline fails me, my knowledge it fools me But you are my shelter, all the strength that I need (repeat chorus) I’m learning to give up the rights to myself The bits and the pieces I’ve gathered as wealth Could never compare to the joy that you bring me The peace that you show me is the strength that I need (repeat chorus) (bridge) We’ve got to be children of peace Don’t you know we’ve got to be children of peace (repeat chorus & bridge simultaneously 3x) It’s your will, it’s your will [4x] (repeat chorus & bridge simultaneously) (repeat bridge) Qoute of the day "I may never be a millonare funny i dont think i care.".....FFH well ttyl

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Saturday, March 25, 2006

i sit around wasting time feel like the poster for a self help line.....Hawk Nelson

Hiya ppl i'm all alone today no one is home but me ^_^ so wooooooooooooo yeah thats about it ttyl Poem of the day *lazy* song of the day So great a salvation The O.C Supertones Woke up this morning And I just had to thank God for my life Just read through James' book Start to pray and ask God for a wife It's a time of devotion As I sit and speak to my God unseen Why should He listen? Well I love Him and He's in love with me Why me God? Why should You choose me? On your team God, can You use even me? I think a few years back On a road that headed to nowhere No that You found me I can see that You were always there So great a salvation But to You my Jesus what am I worth? It's quiet times like this I feel I get a glimpse of Heaven right here on earth Oh, hold me in your arms of love Sometimes I swear I feel your heartbeat I could never ever thank You enough But here's my life for whatever it's worth Qoute of the Day "you can support someone from a distant you dont have to be right beside them."....me to my mom this morning ^_^ lol ttyl

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Friday, March 24, 2006

one day i'm gonna grow up to be a water bed....Taco Bell hotsauce packet

LoL yeah so bored well today was ok nothing much didnt have lunch but got a coke so no headache woooooooo ^_^ yeah thats about it so ttyl Poem of the day *none to lazy* Song of the day *what its friday w/e song you want put here lol* Qoute of the day "lazyness rulz*....Mine

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