Thursday, May 5, 2005

   Tenth Entry
Well here I am in computer class once again. I am making Kirsten listen to Last resort by Papa Roach, its awesome. It's day 2 of me and Rachaels bet and I really want to kiss her lol. I am doing these tableau things in word and I am did one on Soul Calibur 2 characters and now I am doing one on superheros. It's fun when I can do stuff on something that I like. Lunch is next and I get to spend it with Rachael YAY. This morning I went to Heathers and I made us pancakes and we talked and we are going to try and do something like that every week. This saturday is Wynonas birthday party and I am hoping Rachael can go, it should be fun. I put a new puzzle today and I made it a Teen Titans pic. Just so you guys didnt think I only like Soul Calibur lol. Anyway I am going to get back to work now. Oh and wow it's already my tenth entry lol.

Later
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Wednesday, May 4, 2005

   Ninth Entry
Well here I am in computer class updating my Otaku. I am so tired. This is my new layout for now and I am going to change my dp to another pic of Nightmare. Anyway I have a rugby game after school, I am looking to kick some ass. Me and Rachael have a bet going to see which one of us can hold out on kissing the other the longuest. Today is day one, I am going to win :P. Anyway class is almost over and I am going to go see Rachael before my next class, but I wont kiss her lol.

Later
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Tuesday, May 3, 2005

   Eighth Entry
God my mom can be so annoying, it seems she is always asking me to do something and she is always over reacting and gets angry for no reason, it pisses me off. Anyway I dont have coir for the next few days which is awesome but I am going to have to redo a test tomorow during my spare. Anyway I am bored now.

Later
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Sunday, May 1, 2005

   Seventh Entry
Well the weekend has been ok but I am glad it is over, I just want tomorow to come quick so that I can see Rachael. Tomorow is our 2 month anniversary and I cant wait to see her expression when she sees what I got for her. Anyway I wrote this poem today so please tell me what you think of it.

Type:Poem
Title: A lie over life?

Why does it seem,
Like no one stands up for me?
Why do I feel all alone,
Even in my own home?
Why is it so many people in this world,
Don’t stand up for what they know is right?
Why do we hide our true opinions from others?
Because we are cowards,
We do not wish to be outcasts,
We do not wish to be shunned by our peers,
We hide who we are because we are afraid,
We believe that the truth will imprison us,
In a life that we will not want to live with,
Instead of setting us free.
We prefer to keep our mouths shut,
And put on this act day by day,
It would seem that we are hopeless,
And forever will we be hopeless,
Until we stop taking the lie,
Over the life.
They may be only one letter in difference,
But they are worlds apart in meaning,
One is the easy way,
The cowards way,
The other is the hard way,
The only way to be true to oneself,
The only way,
To ultimately be free.
Which one will you choose,
The lie or the life?

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Thursday, April 28, 2005

   Sixth Entry
I have been feeling weird lately. I have had my ups and my downs. The other night I was just sitting here at the computer and it just kind of clicked in my head that I am the kid that my biological father gave up on. At first it made me feel really sad but then I wrote a lyrics about it and now I feel a lot better. I will post the lyrics on here at the end. I go to school even earlier then usual now just to spend time with Rachael, she means so much to me and she makes me so happy. Thats why I dont knnow why I suddenly feel so sad sometimes, it makes no sense to me. I mean sometimes I can be happy one second and the next I feel like tears might come to my eyes, that is if I cried like a normal person but I dont. Anyway, no worries, I will be fine, I always am. Here is the song lyrics that I wrote:

Type: Lyrics
Title: Without him I’ve had a better life

I just realized,
That I am the one,
That he gave up on,
I am the one,
That he brushed aside,
And now knowing this,
Brings me far from bliss,
And now that he’s trying,
To come back into my life,
Oh what will I do?

I’ll show him,
Who I have become,
I’ll show him,
The son that he has lost,
I will make him see,
That I am a better man than he,
I’ll make him realize,
That without him,
I’ve had a better life.

Oh now I know,
That he is all about show,
I wonder if he even knows,
What love is truly about,
And if he does,
The question becomes,
Has he ever,
Truly loved me at all,
Although in the end,
It doesn’t really matter.

I’ll show him,
Who I have become,
I’ll show him,
The son that he has lost,
I will make him see,
That I am a better man than he,
I’ll make him realize,
That without him,
I’ve had a better life.

I really should thank him,
He gave me two wonderful gifts,
One is the man I call my dad,
The other is my pain,
And the lesson that with it came,
Because my children,
Will never have to think,
Why did my Daddy leave me,
What did I do wrong.

I’ll show him,
Who I have become,
I’ll show him,
The son that he has lost,
I will make him see,
That I am a better man than he,
I’ll make him realize,
That without him,
I’ve had a better life.


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Monday, April 25, 2005

   Fifth Entry
Well today was amazing, I got to spend like 6 hours with rachael at her house and then I came home, ate, and went to Rugby. It was our first game, we lost but most of us played hard. Now I am at home and I am very cold. Well I g2g.

Later.
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Saturday, April 23, 2005

   Fourth Entry
Well I am just hanging out with one of my best buddies Mike. I am talking to Rachael on msn. I really miss her, I might try and go over to her house on monday when her family is gone. I am kinda tired but im also in a good mood cause me and Mike always talk about the stupidest things lol. Today was my last bowling until next season, it has been a fun year. My banquet is may 1st and I am hoping Rachael can come with me. But I got to go for now.

Later
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Thursday, April 21, 2005

   Third Entry
Today I saw once again how stupid and ignorant people in this world can be. They just really piss me off sometimes. I was ready to put a dent in a locker but in the end Rachael calmed me down. She always seems to be able to help calm me down. I miss her so much. Being with her today after school until her Rugby was awesome. Just holding her was great. Anyway I am tired and am going to go for today.

Later.
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

   Second entry
Well today we had an Improv tournament at our school and WE WON. GO US. Yuki and I waited for Rachael's bus and then we walked home. Yuki might come over and bring some anime videos tonight. Well I'm off.
Later
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

   First entry
Hey, well this is my first entry so I am not going to put to much into it. I'd would mainly like to say hi to my brother Yuki and moo omorfi anguelos Rachael. I am in computer class right now and have been changing my styles on my otaku, I think it is looking pretty good for my first time. I am just waiting for lunch time right now so I can see Rachael and Yuki and tell them I now have an Otaku like them. I hurt my wrist at Rugby Practice last night, it still hurts but I did take down some ppl so it was all good. I am looking forward to our first game which is probably next wednesday. Well I g2g and do some actual computer class work. Later
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